Ok so yesterday I noticed very slight tint of pinkish blood, almost nothing....I'm like "Oh no, I hope I don't get my period again". Well last night it was a little more and this morining it's like a brown discharge...I guess it's spotting again. I'm a little tired of getting my period so often. I'm feeling a little bit overwhelmed and I don't know why. Oh and yesterday I got a slight pain in my right side....it wasn't painful, but annoying. I wonder if it it has to do with my ovaries or something...gosh I hope not. I don't even want to think about my face today. I'm just so tired of this whole thing....about worrying whether or not I'm going to break out, and if I do how long it's gonna heal, the scarring..... Maybe one of these days I can go a day without looking at the mirror....or become to occupied to even have time to do so. I have something to do this weekend, but I'm contemplating if I should go or not....I'm just not in the mood.
New week! I'm actually really sleepy. I'm almost falling asleep. I went to my TBC class today. It was ok. I did a lot of running and jump roping. So at least I'm getting back on track. I didn't have too much trouble getting up at 5a.m. My body, especially legs are realy sore. My face: Well I only have one small pimple near my temple (under my hair line). Jeez if I close my eyes, I will sleep!!! My ok, with my face. I say ok, because I still have to deal with the red scars. Plus, on one of my cheek ...there is a red mark.!!!!!!! I just hope it doesn't scar. I NEVER touched it, nor popped it. I'm still taking my med and using retin a daily...I kinda at time take a break from it on weekends. I have a pimple under the skin on my chin......but it seemed to go down since yesterday.....which I'm happy about. The one on the corner of my is gone down too. I think I might have applied the ret gel too close to my mouth... I have a red corner. I just wish I didn't have any scars.
Just like I said before....this acne is never ending. Although it's not severe, I'm disappointed that I still get acne. Again today I got another small pimple on the bottome of my chin. It has a small whitehead. The other ones I had earlier this week are starting to go down...so I'm happy about that. So why am I still breaking out!!!!! Today I went back to my Total Body Cardivascular workout. I think I was absent for about 3 months. It's good to get back to excercising. My confidence level always seems to go up for some reason. I actually don't want to loose anymore weight...I just want to have good muscle tone. Maybe I can go toe the summer bootcamp that the trainer was talking about. It starts next saturday. I might as well go to catch up on all the days I missed. I hope my acne improves now that I'm back to working out. As of today, I have absolutely no period....yesterday I swear I saw a small tint of pinkish blood. I'm just glad I didn't have to deal witht he whole period thing today as I was working out. Overall my mood is very good....staying positive. My mom prays for me daily so my face clears up.....I think I should do that more often tooooooo.!!!!!!
I think my period is gone. Yesterday I got a sudden setback. I actually thought I was getting it again because of the color. Yesterday I mentioned I had two zits, well today I have developed 3 more. Two unde my chin. One under my eye.....how weird is that. It's small, but I have never ever gotton one there. I'm so messed up. Overally I guess I feel ok about my face. I was so happy these past few days without any breakouts whatsoeve. I though I was in the healing mode. Hopfully these zits heal fast. I haven't been eating dairy so I don't know the reason of the small breakout. I really don't want to cut out anything more from my diet. As it is I'm loosing too much weight. Maybe the breakout was due to me ending my period...hormonal change AGAIN. Im too lazy to keep a food log....I'm not good at remembering things, and life is buzy...so I'm putting that idea to the side for now. I'm having a good day.
Today is Mothers Day in Mexico. I'm having a good morning. I have 2 zits. One on the left hand corner of mouth....its small, but still noticeable. The other also on the left side of cheek. It's hasn't come to head....I'm suspecting it won't and it will just fade away. I fell my pimples heal a lot faster than before. Anyways, I still have my period....very slight spotting...so light that I was intimiate with my hubby last night. I'm happy and I love him. Its seems were always so busy to be toghether, sometimes we forget to appreciate each other. O I forgot to mention, that he took my truck today to get it fixed. Plus he took my key to my locker at work, so I won't be able to take my vitamin, fish oil and colon cleanse today!!!!!!!!! uhhhhh. We'll see what happens. 4:00p.m.Okay so I went to Black Wolf Run for lunch....had a $16 plate...tilapia. It was so deleicious all the different flavors. It also had nut squash and hash potatoes cut into squares. My goodness it's the best dish I've ever eaten in terms of the diffent flavors. I savored every bit. Anyways, I got back and used the bathroom...all morining I was clear.....but this afternoon I was spotting again!!!!!!....browinish light red.....uuhhhhuuhhhhhh. !!! Plus the zit on the corner of my mouth has come to head. I have to think what I'm eating to cause this small breakout.!!!! I might even stop eating white rice....OMG but it's one of my favorite things. By the way, I took a shower this morining....and my face has been oily all day. I put the atralin gel this morining. Jsut as long as I'm out of the sun I think I'll be ok. I work all day inside anyway.
Well had a great weekend...Mothers DAy!...didn't have to worry about my face. I got one little zit, but it's gone. I got a dozen roses and a balloon. I told my husband not to stress over buying me a gift, it would jus tbe easier for us to go together and for me to pick something out. I was happy, he was happy and our son was happy. It was a great day. Changing subjects, my face is doing really good, the red marks seem to be fading. I don't want to get my hopes up too high, cause things could change. But my face has been doing really good this past week. I only have one concern in regards to my period. As of yesterday, I still had it. Thats nine days!!! This morinng I still had a little bit, but as of 3:00 it stopped. I don't know if I"m imaginin this, but my breast seem a bit fuller. At least they are not sore anymore. Like I said, I take a break from my vitamin/fish oil/colon health supplements on the weekends.
Good morning to me!! Well last night I washed my face, dried it with tissue paper and also let it air dry. I didn't apply the Cerave lotion. After 30 minutes I applied the Atralin gel....that's it. I usually put Cerave before the atralin. I wanted to see how my skin reacted. I woke up and my face was fine. I took a shower this morning. Everytime I take a shower, my skin produces more oil. Although I put the tret. gel last night, I also put it on this morning. This time I did use the Cerave lotion before the gel. Of course I will try to avoid the sun. I slowly going to try using the Cerave lotion w/ sunblock. I used it one this weekend, but my face looks so oily....but a least I didn't break out. Anyways, right now my face looks actually really good. I have no active pimples. I seems my red spots under my jawline are fading. I don't want to get my hopes up too high, since it might just be be imagininng things. How know, tomorrow I'll look in the mirror and my skin texture will look different. Ok so yesterday I used two pads. Today, I still had my period. I've noticed that it is has a much thinner consistency, not so think. It is still light comparted to my "normal" period. During the 2nd/3rd day, my period was heavy, I could feel it come down everytime I stood up. Note: yesterday I felt two pimples coming out, but miracuosly, they seem to dying out this morning. Overall, I think my skin looks really great right now. I hope this continues.
Wow,....I think I'm getting my normal period back. I actually used a pad, which used up completely. I was kinda getting used to the light periods. LOL. Anyways, I think this is an actual period and not just spotting. My skin is still oily. I still apply the tret. gel at night and I'm faithfully taking 150mg of spiro. I find it odd, but I guess time will tell. If not then I guess I'm gonna have to up my dose to 200mgs. My breast are now a little tender ,not so much as last week or yesteray even.
Okay so I went to lunch. All they serve is basically pizza. But I was good, since I'm staying away from dairy. So anways I ate some Rice and chicken soup. After eating I wondering if the soup had any cream or milk??? I hope not. But I hope I don't get any zits from eating it. If I do, then I know I can't eat that anymore. jeeeez, I wish I had time to make my own healthy meals. If I did have time, I wouln't know wear to start! LOL I'm trying though
Okay I got a whitehead on my neck this weekend which is now healing. Also another small whitehead on right jawline, also healing. I've noticed that my zits are healing a lot faster. I took a break from the Atralin gel for 1 day. My skin today is reall really good. Just a mini whitehead on the right jawline...no big deal. So today my skin is excellent in my opinion....just have to wait for my redmarks and scars to heal. I'm taking fish oil and a multivitamin every week day. I leave my supplements at work...tha'ts the only way I can remember to take them LOL. So on weekends I take a break from my regimen. On April 23rd my breast were really tender, it lasted all week. On Satruday, April 30th I got my period. Very very light though, breasts still tender. I was also intimiate with my husband. I'm not using BC so I'm always worried about getting pregnant. But anyways, Sunday it was rather light as well. Today, OMG it think my period is getting back to how I knew it to be. There water in the toilet was actually light red. So I'm not just spotting, it's actually a period. Oddly, my breasts are still tender today. I'll see how the day goes. According to my calendar, I noticed extremely light period on april 3 and had it until approx. apri 17.--only used a pantiliner on those days. So I'm still not on a regular cycle because I got it again on April 30. So I'm gonna keep track of it each day. I've been reading up on Zinc, L-Ly, and Cod liver fish oil. I'm not sure if I should take them or not. Maybe I'll hold off until I research them a little more.
Good morning to ME!! Well that zit on my chin came to a head and is now gone down. There is now a red mark, not too bad though. I just noticed 2 tiny zits along my jawline. I took a shower yesterday morning and my skin was oily all day. I was my face last night, applied the atralin and let it dry. I later put baby poweder on. This for me helps absorb the oil. So far my skin is not breaking out with the baby powder. Another things is that my breasts have be very sore (nipples) all week, including today. This is the first time in 3 months that my breast are sore. I hope it's a sign that my cycle on its way to being somewhat regular. I'm still curious as to why my skin is still oily. I really don't want to up my spiro dose to 200mgs. I also thought the spiro is suppose to reduce hair growth - which I haven't noticed either on legs or arms.
Ok remember yesterday, I ate some cheese, well today i have zit on my chin, right dab in the center. I've been reading about holistic cures. I'm think this will be my definate route. I really don't want to be on the spiro long term. So, I have to research what other foods to avoid besides dairy. I've been looking at gluten, but I honestly don't know what that is, just that I should avoid breads. Overall my underchin acne is getting better. But I still have red marks. I'm also kind of curious on tumeric. O I almost forgot, Friday, Sat, Sunday---I forgot to take my probiotic colon health supplement. I think I used the bathroom once, but I cant honestly remember since I have been so busy. But anywasy this morning I used the bathroom and felt constipated. I had a bowl movment and saw blood. It was from the hemroid. I'm thinking I need to take somthing or eat prunes to help me out a bit when going to the bathroom.
Okay I've been under a bit of stress lately, but I did expect it. Between the months of Jan-April, it know my life gets a little hectic. But I think I managed pretty well. So my face is doing good. I'm still avoiding SODA and DAIRY. About 2 days ago my husband bought some tortas, but unfortuanly they had sourcream. I was so so so hungry, plus it was so late and I didn't have anything in the kitchen - only snacks. Anyways, it went ahead and ate it. I'm just glad wasn't a lot. I told my hubby "watch I bet tomorrow I will get zits."......well I woke up and tada...I had two tiny zits on my cheek. I'm slowly but surely figuring out what foods I can and cannot eat. Today for luch I accidently had a little bit of shredded cheese, so lets see what happens.
yesterday I saw the derm. He said my face looked better. We are going to stay on 150mgs and keep using the atralin gel. I have another appotment next month. I still am using the baby powder. I am going to use it as spot treatment or every ohter day on my jawline. The powder dried out my neck a bit, but nothing major. That's why I'm not going to use it everynight. I'm ok with my face. I'm got two tiny zits, but that's it. I hope the atralin fades away the scars
Okay, yesterday I had two tiny pimples, and today they are almost entirely gone. My face looks pretty good, absolutely NO ACTIVES. i jsut have the red pigmentation, but that hopefully will fade with time. The baby powder is working. It has not caused be to break out. I'm going to cointue using it every night. During the day I only apply a thin layer, so it's not noticable. I'm even tempted to but a lot, but I sure will get funny faces walking around looking like a ghost. O by the way, I'm doing pretty good on the no dairy diet. I've discovered cococnut milk, and it's pretty good. Great altrenative to mik.
As of yesterday I still had by period. This morning, I didn't notice anything. Well see throughout the day. This spiro really is affecting my cycle. Hopefully it will go back to a somewhat regular cycle. Just want to note that since I've been on this medication, I have not had tender breasts - no pain whatsoever. So I have no clue when my period is coming. Okay as a wrote before, I'm avoiding all dairy products since last Friday. Stupid me.....yesterday I was savoring a mexican jello dessert and was almost done with it, when I stopped and thought, Oh shoot I hope this isn't made from milk!!!! I quickly looked at the label and YEP for sure it had MILK as an ingrediant. I was a disappointed that I had not read the label. I was so consumed with just eating the deliciuos darn jello. Well there goes another thing I enjoy eating. My skin has been doing great these past two days. I've been applying constarch every night, and a little during the day. Anyways, I thought I bet I'm going to get a zit tomorrow now that I suspect that dairy products break me out. I woke up this morning and saw 2 pimples!!!!!!!! I knew it!!! I had a suspicion. I'm just glad they aren't big at all. I might be closer to my cure......I'm just not 100% sure. But from yesterday's experience it looks like dairy products are absolutely a trigger.
Ok so this weekend I stopped all dairy products. Gosh I'm really gonna miss cheese!! And my milk and ceral at night. Oh well, I guess if I want clear skin I have to do this. Besides I have stopped drinking soda. I was a really Coke/Cherry Coke/....OMG Dr. Pepper!!!! drinker. But I have not had a drop for about 3 months now. I only drink water, sometimes juice, or when I'm really craving soda. I have a lemonade diluted with water. Okay so since las week I've stopped eating dairly. I decided to buy coconut milk. It's okay, taste is good, but it is expensive. I also went shopping for make up. I can't believe I spend so much on 3 things. Anyways I bought the maybaline compressed powder, 24 hour stay liquid foundation, and mineral powder....all from maybaline. I only spot treat. I don't like make up, but since my breakout was causing me stress, it was a must this weekend. I also just started experiementing with baby powder with cornstarch for my acne I have applied it at night and honestly my skin is looking a lot better. Today my face is "CALM". And my zits are dry. Thank god. The atralin gel i don't think is working, it causing my face to produce more oil. I'm still going to use it, but I'm going to add the baby powder each night. or use it when I need it. I just hope it doesn't cause any more acne. Crossing my fingers and praying to God.
Ok earlier this week I took a photo and posted on a thread here. At that time I thought my skin was getting better. I didn't have any active pimples. TODAY i got 3 zits under my chin. Plus I feel like more will come out by tomorrow. Why do I have this set back. I don't want to do it, but I have to start cutting back on the things I eat and do an elimination diet. I will start by cutting out cheese. At least I can prove to my dad that soda doesn't cause acne. I havne' had a single drop for 3 months....so why am I breaking out. He always said to me don't drink coke, you're gonna get espinillas (pimples)!!!!!! WRONG! I'm just upset that I have not improved. I honestly can say I've only had one "clear day" (no actives) this week. Apart from pimples I have to now deal with the red marks that do't want to go away. I am still using the atralin gel every night. I don't know what else to do. I'm getting desperate that the spiro is not working as I had hoped. This is just so time consuming. I fear one day I'm just gonnas say the heck with it and just not do anything.
Ok, so my underchin outbreak is going down. But the redmarks are still there. I have one white pimple right on top of a red mark. I also have two two tiny tiny white pimples. I have not popped a zit in 2 months. So thats a good thing. Okay so yesterday I I went out and bought Phillips Colon Health wich contains fiber and probiotics. I feel my acne is internal, something is going on and I dont' know. I just know that I do have constipation and trouble with bowel movements. Plus I have hemrroids, so this could be a sign that I just wasn't paying any attention to. I guess my diet pretty much sucks because I eat out a lot. I DO EAT HEATHLY THOUGH. Since I'm on a diet, I stay away from fattening foods..anything that is fried or greasy. I don't each MCdonalds, or Burgerking, or Wendys. I mainly eat a buffets. So I get a change to pick and choose. I also stay away from sweets most of the time. And I'm staying away from soda. Anyways I took the Colon Health thingy last night, this moriing my stomach was making funny noises. I felt I had heartburn. At around 11a.m. I went #2. It smelled and looked a bit different. I just hope at least something is happening to better my digestive track or clean my colon. I again took some at lunch. I see what happens.
I had such a terrible weekend. I'm starting to think that besides maybe having hormonal acne, I have stress acne. I just had a terrible outbreak under my chin again. I just cant explain why why why... I'm so down and feel so OLD and tired. This spiro is not working as fast as I want it to. Nobody seems to care or see my acne. It's just me - because I'm the only one that cares.
I'm so ticked off at my face. I'm breaking out again!!!!!!!!!!! under my chin!!!! It's terrible. I'ts just so exhausting having to worry about my face day after day. I mean I'm so sick of water. To be honest. I wasn't much of a water drinker and my face was ok. I just hate the fact that I'm putting so much effort and my body doesn't want to work with me. I would assume that at the end my period I'm have less acne, put's it's the opposite. I woke up today suprise there they were!!! What the heck!!! I'm so bumbed out!! I saw the derm yesterday. Nothing new, kept me at same dosage, same regimen. He did say that my diet had nothing to do with acne. That there was no correlation, no evidence. The only concrete evidence was dairy. But I haven't been eating that. I guess I now have to watch what I eat. It's like being on a diet, which I hate. I can't lose weight, I'll look anorexic. Im at 120 and 5'3. When I was at 115, people thought I was sick or something. I guess I'll start writing a journal to see what aggrivates my face. I just don't understand, I haven't change my eating habits anyway. Gosh I'm so lazy, I honestly don't look foward to it.
I'm' trying to post everday. I want to see if there is a pattern of how my face changes. Ok so yesterday and today, I would classify my face as being extremely oily. I mean extreme shine. I have 3-5 tiny white zits on my face. They are tiny. I would normally pop these, but after seeing the results of scarring, I have stopped completely. I can't beleive I use to do this - I caused more damagae. I consider myself as having slight scarring, I still don't like it!!! Anyways, my emotional state is good. I'm feeling optimistic. OMG!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, I just got back from the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and noticed something near my ear. I thought the zit I had there was going down-dying out. I just touched it and it feels like a medium sized lump!!! I'm so fed up with this crap. The scarring, the red pigmintation, all this is just crap!!!!! God please give me strenght to bear through this stage of my life. What do you want me to learn from all this!!?????? Please make them go away. I am doing what I can to get rid of this, but only you can give me this mircle that I need.
Ok the big red bump on my chin is going down, its healing. I was so templted to pop that thing, but didn't. My skin is kinda clear. I have on pimple on the side of my temple. Yesterday I washed my face, and it started to bleed. Shoot, I was hoping not to break the skin. I hope it doesn't cause a scar. I have 4 small ones on the other side temple (close to my hairline), which thank God are hidden under my hair. The right side under my chin. I have been developing another red bump. So I'm kinda ok with what I got. because they are not per say "active" like white heads, which look just terrible. Anyways I feel a lot better about my face. I hope in time the red marks fade away.
Man, don't know if there is antying related to what I'm experience right know with either the spiro or atralin (put close to eye), i doubt it though. Anyways I'm having blurry vision in my right eye. I wear glasses and this morning, the focus is slightly off. Eithe rthat or I need new glasses, but is from yesterday to today, can it happen like that?? I don't want to see the eye doctor, maybe I'll wait.
Oh guess what I got my period on March 4th. That's a 22 day cycle. Yikes!!!! My cycles are 35-40 days. New side effect. Pluse I diddn't even get a warning. My most common symptom before my period are tender breasts. But nothing. I wonder how long it will last. By the way, the cotton mouth feeling is gone. I dont think it was the spiro. I think it was the atralin gel which I probably appliced too close to my lips. Patienece, patience patience. I gotta work on that. It's been 2 weeks since they uped my dose to 150mg.