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Day 95 - omg what a terrible weekend!
So I went away on a snowmobiling trip and got about 5 min down a trail before two of our three machines broke down.... seriously! So we decided to just hang out at the house and everyone drank... yay for me! I had a glass of wine that kind of sucked so I gave up on it....BUT I ended up awake at 5:30 am with what I thought was food poisoning...
Wrong! It was the stomach flu and it doesn't seem to want to pass... ugh. To make matters worse I can't really take time off of work so I'm drugged to high heavens and trying to get some shit done at the office without falling asleep on my desk 
how fun for me!
Good news is I have the attention span of a toddler so this provides a nice little break from my mind numbingly dull work
So update: Skin - same, one big stupid iceberg pussy active on my forehead and another threatening to come up. I stuck a little tea tree oil on both spots this morning to try to get them to dry out faster... I hope that wasn't too stupid of me but they're BIG! and I really don't want to pick so that was my alternative... anyone try tea tree oil on the tane???
The rest of my skin is surprisingly good considering I didn't moisturize enough this weekend. But I think my face is forgiving the transgression due to my disgusting sickness.
Lips - so didn't like the bitter cold, or my constant chewing... I really have to find a way not to chew my lips! It's such a hard habbit for me to break bc I don't even realize I'm doing it mos of the time!
Rest of me - too drugged to know what's going on
Julius Jones - Thank you so much! it's weird but I really have a hard time taking compliments ... I guess after years of looking and feeling crappy I usually don't believe it when ppl say it. But I'm finally starting to feel it slowly so thank you really for your message!
inuk - hey! thx I figured I would be one of the ppl on accutane that took to the bitter end to clear up so I'm not very surprised by my progress. Thanks for following up with me!
headtrip_honey - I guess for a lot of ppl tane is a last resort and once you get that big push like an engagement or graduation or prom etc. it finally makes up your mind for you. I know that if I hadn't gotten engaged I probably would have sucked up another 6 months to a year of bullshit treatments that didn't work. But having that extra (and might I add very girly) motivation really pushes you to commit to a solution that you know will work! hope you had a good weekend! I'll catch up on your log soon too
Melisy03 - hey! It was no problem really. I've felt pretty close to hitting bottom a few times in my last couple months. I always felt better when I could bitch here and other ppl gave me so much support I almost felt like an idiot for doubting myself to begin with! It's funny how reassuring and supportive even a stranger can me and how reassuring it can make you feel! So I want to make sure to do the same! I'm so glad your clear! and my fingers are crossed that you'll stay that way too! I know I have a long journey with tane still and I'll need to be patient. BUT hopefully it won't be too long before I can say I'm clear too! thx for your msg I look forward to following your log too!
Day 97
Finally feeling better YAY and a girl at my gym told me I looked thinner than last week lol I guess thats what two days of not being eat anything but crackers will do to you
So skin update: I do have one new active. It's kind of really teany and one of the gross pussy ones and I'm hoping it decides to clear itself up tonight-ish
The iceberg on my forehead finally peeled off yesterday when I got out of the shower. It was weird the insides had actually solidified and just came right off with the dry skin on the top.... omg that has to be the weirdest and grosses sentence in all of the accutane logs lol
Anywho it then proceeded to bleed uncontrollably for the next hour. But it seems to have calmed down now. and hopefully will just stay a big red spot for a couple weeks then magically disappear!
Otherwise the eczema is hanging out... not being too crazy but it also refuses to go away... what ws funny was this weekend while snowmobiling it was gone! You would think the dry cold would make it worse... but no it was all better! Hopefully florida this weekend will make my hands all nice and not rashy again 
Take care everyone!
Day 98 - Week 14 .... 3,220 mg in! YAY I'm almost half way!
skin update: not too shabby. The active on my cheek I accidently scratched of yesterday so it's a red mark. And the iceberg on my forehead gave birth to a second one just before entering into heal mode itself. So my forehead looks like crap but the rest of my face is smooth - ish
I'm finding that I can feel little patchs on my face with little bumps like clogged bores. So I'm half expecting my good week(s) to end soon and have to deal with yet another bullshit outbreak. I swear acne should be likened to the ebola virus! Stupid breakouts 
But so far so good and I'm knocking on wood! My red spots or scars seem to be almost dispersing rather than disappearing. I found that althoguh my scars looked better this morning my skin tone was looking a little red and blotchy. So I feel like the blood from the scars is spreading and going away that way....? meh?
Any ideas on how to make the scars go away faster??? I've tried olive oil and it worked the first time. then I read that Vitamine C is the key but I tried that last nigth with no help. And even vitamine E only seems to work when I'm using it on a scabby healing active.
Other side effects: eczema (of course). My face has been pretty itchy over the last couple of days. It's probably bc I'm thinking about it too much but it's managable. Me nose bleeds seem to have gotten a teany bit worse too but it's also pretty dry in my apartment so it could be that.
Life wise... work sucks! I got into a major fight with my boss yesterday... my boss is actaully my dad so when we fight it's usually a pretty good show So now I'm counting down the days to Florida so I can get the hell away from work for a whole three days My fiance has been in Florida since Monday and it sounds stupid and cheesy but I cant' sleep in my bed when it's empty now! I'm broken and can't get a good nights sleep without him there ... so it's a damn good thing we're getting married lol otherwise I'd probably be at risk for insomnia
Wedding wise - my bridesmaids are starting to plan my bridal shower and it's awesome! I think I'm liking that better than the wedding right now bc I dont' have to do anything except tell them what I would like It's going to be a High-tea cocktail brunch extremely girly kind of party and I'm going to love it! now I just need to find something to wear...
Fun story I actually sell wedding gowns! So I'm currently trying to decide if wearing a short plain-ish wedding gown to my shower would be weird ... pobably But I honestly want to wear a short dress to the wedding at some point and I can't make it work! So maybe I can get it to fit into the shower lol we'll see how daring I feel closer too!
Well that's all I can yap about for now.... give me a few hours and I may become more interesting lol
Pics (I look all greasy bc I put moisturizer on before the pics) :
take care everyone!
Yay profile pic!
Well, I for one think that your skin texture looks amazing. You're going to look fantastic on your wedding day.
Dress shopping...oh man. My wedding isn't for at least a year and a half, but already I have tons of dresses bookmarked in my internet browser. The actual shopping will be hell. I hate being the center of attention, and that's pretty much what that is.
I think a short bridal dress would be adorable for the shower!
Day 99
(I'm celebrating tomorrow Day 100 with a Margarita on the beach in Florida ...seems fitting)
I woke up this morning and looked in the mirror and I swear I almost freaked... my face was WHITE! it's funny in retrospect but holly crap I don't know what the hell happened to me but I was WHITE WHITE WHITE! and I'm not usually very white! I took my shower and washed my face and I was my normal pink when I got out of the shower. And within 15 min I was back to not looking like a ghost. But still soooo weird! Anyone ever experience something like this???
I did use vitamine E oil on my face last night with Aquaphor overtop when I went to bed but I've done that before and it never changed my color in the past .... meh I'm back to my pseudo-tan, half-italian pinkish self
I finally think I kicked the flu bug 100% and what do I get to deal with now... cramps mother nature is really not very nice especially since she'll wait to surprise me with my period when I'm on my flight to florida tomorrow morning it's bad enough that I haven't seen my fiance in two weeks and I'm "out of commision" right when we get to see each othe again ... urg
at least my skin is holding up (fingers crossed) The active on my forehead exploded yesterday and it's starting to heal up nicely so as far as I acn tell there aren't any new actives popping up...yet
headtrip_honey - thanks so much! I don't trust makeup to make me look awesome so I'm trusting that the tane will get me there! I can sympathize with the wedding gown shopping. I didn't realize it but I feel the same way about being the center of attention. I came out in my first dress and saw ppl's faces and just wanted to walk right out of the room. I mean I had to have a talk with my mom about crying just to make sure she didn't blubber her way through every single dress lol...she listened so far but when my dress is ready I have a feeling she'll loose it I was honestly really afraid that bc I work with wedding gowns everyday and thought I was broken and unable to feel like a "bride" and know that "it was the one" .... I guess I was a little right. Still didn't get the feeling but I know I'll look hot and that's good enough for me
If your looking for good gowns check out ...
www.privatelabelbyg.com
It's kind of awesome let me know what you think! They have a great facebook site too and make sure you join www.theknot.com it has sooo many resources and tips that I've found helpfull so far!
Goodluck and takecare
michellemac: I hoped u enjoyed your day (with your magarita of course!) at florida beach!!
Gosh...i wished i can just drop everything and head for a break at a soft sandy beach!! I've been avoiding the sun since 5 yrs ago.... i was using topical acne cream then and it made me incredible sensitive to sunlight.. i would turn tomato red within 10 mins out in the sun!! Tane is not doing me any good in this aspect as well....
ah back to topic.. i think your skin is doing so well! headtrip_honey is right! U would look fantastic on your wedding day!
So, more internet dress shopping.
I found one I absolutely adore.
What do you think?
http://sophiatolli.com/dresses/?collection...%20Bridal#Y1926
I'm a sucker for satin and embroidery and lace, and this has all three. I love the lace cap sleeves, mainly because I've never felt comfortable in sleeveless - I don't have the bust to pull it off!
Hi,
My name is Tess, just saw your log and started to read through it! Congrats on the engagement (although it was a while back now, but still exciting). I will be starting a log on here... today is day 1 for my Accutane journey (I got engaged on Christmas day and actually decided to go on Accutane for my wedding as well). So excited for you and I will continue to check on your progress!!!
Take care!
Tess
Day 104 - YAY!.... lol I guess
omg flights at make you get up at 4 am twice in one week... not cool. I think my brain is functioning on coffee and bagel goodnes alone right now But I'm home!
Florida was fun but sooo short! I'm glad my next vacation will be my honeymoon and it will be a whole 16 days no worries about 4 am trips to the airport there!
So lets see what I have to update:
Skin - same, I got a new active two days ago and it's slowly growing and growing ... I'm hoping it decides to stop soon. I was clear until this Monday and then I noticed a patch of clogged pores on my chin just to the side of my mouth. They were the kind of clogged pores deep under the skin that you can't do any extractions for. You just have to accept the inevitable and breakout. Which I did. The other spots don't seem to be popping up yet and the rest of my face is doing alright. My scarring is just hanging out and my skin texture feels like it sucks but I don't really know what to do about that...
My eczema persisted all through my florida vaca but for some reason cleared up completetly this morning on my plane ride home. It was so bad on my flight there that my fiance even noticed and thought I was in some kind of extreme pain bc it looked so bad. hopefully it stays away.
I of course got my period Saturday morning while on my way to the airport. I swear I was sick with really bad cramps for four days straight! It must be bc I started a new pill for the time being and my body is getting use to it or something but man I was so not a happy camper !
Otherwise all is well.
fel_han - thanks so much for your message. I actually spent all four days under a giant hat with giant sun glasses covered in spf 50 so I completely understand the lack of sun. I've been avoiding the sun for a long time too bc of acne treatements and it will be really great when I get get a good tan again!
headtrip_honey - wedding gowns are so much fun! I love that dress! we have very similar taste actually in wedding gown style. My dress is silk satin, ball gown style, with embroidery, beading and a lace finish along the bottom and on the train I'm contemplating adding a nice butterfly strap to that too but that can be done to pretty much any strapless dress after you choose one so I'll probably decide the day of if I want to stick them on. Have you gone to look at any dresses yet or are you just internet shopping? Let me know if you like anything from the site I posted! Hope everything is going great for you I'll catch up on your log in just a bit
crazynshort - Thanks so much for posting and for the congrats! and Congratulations to you as well! I hope your wedding plans are going great and I hope your accutane journey is too! I'll have to catch up on you log and see how everything is going! Thanks again for following
Take care everyone!
I did go to the website you posted, and love this gown:
http://www.privatelabelbyg.com/#/main/coll...telabelbyg/1391
It's probably too $$$ for my budget, though. Heh. The one I posted previously should be affordable!
I haven't gone looking at any yet, though my mom wants to on Good Friday. We'll see!
hey!
actually I know both collections very well and the two dresses are about the same in price... depending on the store and how much they want to over charge that is :)But at most your looking at about $100 difference. If you need any help finding good retailers Private Label by G on facebook is actually a great source. They'll tell you who the best store is in your area and if they have the specific dresses your looking for!
Also check out the knot if you haven't already! It's pretty much organizing my life as I know it right now
But if you have any questiosn let me know! Bridal is what I do and you would be surprised how confusing it can get from a consumers perspective and a lot of retailers will take advantage of that unfortunately So just let me know
Happy St. Patties! Have some good ol' green beer tonight
Day 105 - 15 Weeks or as I like to call it HALF WAY !!! 😀
So I'm officially half way through my course I don't know if I should be happy or nervous about that ... but I'll go with happy for now.
Skin - the big active on my chin has decided to set up shot permanently I think It's not really getting bigger or smaller or doing anything but being big and annoying. It's really difficult for me not to pick that sucker right off my face. I mean it's the worst when you have an active thats a big ol' pile of puss and there's nothing you can do about it bc your being "good" about picking ... which I am.... go me grr it better go away by this weekend or I swear I'm linching it!
unfortunately I think my clear streak is over. I had one more new active pop up this morning. It's on my jaw bone back near my ear and it's relatively small and not bothering me... yet. I mean it's existence in general is bothersome but I can overlook that for the time being.
Rest of my skin is doing pretty good. My scars are reducing SLOWLY. I'm trying out this new scar therapy treatment by Kinerase and it's suppos to work well if you're diligent and use it twice a day whcih I've done so far .... so we'll see how that goes.
Eczema.... still gone.... KNOCKING ON WOOD !!! I think the feel of my hands "scab free" is so foreign to me at this point that I barely recognize them! But I'm getting use to it and I love it!
Life wise - my fiance and I may have found a house! it's been really really hard but I think we found something we both love and we're going to go see it for a second time tonight so wish me luck! My fingers are crossed that it will work out
Take care everyone
Pics:
Day 106
Skin - same... two active just chilling although the top of the one on my chin peeled off this mornign and now it's a red bump with nothing inside....weird
I'm off to see my new gynecologist today... I'll see if they have any suggestions for my messed up hormones but I hightly doubt it
Life wise...
I bought a house yesterday! So exciting and terrifying at the same time .... guess my fiance has to marry me now lol
I also booked my photoshoot for my engagement pics for June 18 so I HAVE TO BE CLEAR for then! I mean photoshoot is great but I don't want my poor photographer to spend a thousand hours at a computer screen fixing my ugly ass skin
Hope everyone has a good weekend!
Congrats on the house! You and me have a lot in common. My fianc©e and I have been living in our first home 5 months today. Yesterday was my one month mark for accutane and my engagement pics are booked for June as well so I'm hoping my face will be in better shape by then! Good luck with everything!
Day 109
So stressed out right now! And I'm really trying not to stress bc when I stress I break out and then I just end up stressing more!
I need to stage my apartment and have it listed in two days..... AHHH! Plus I have my godsons first birthday AND I have to go get a mortgage from the bank... and I'm suppose to go to a Carrie Underwood concert! ... that part should be fun but well it's not seeming too fun right now it's just seeming like it's taking up valuable prep time!
Whooosa! Must be calm Skin wise - things are still good no new actives since the little gem that popped up last thursday. And that guy along with the huge one on my chin seem like their healing. The one on my chin never burst or anything though soI feel like it's dormant but not gone for good!
Otherwise smooth and scarred but the scars are doing slightly better too. I wish I could get a tan! I won't even consider it but it would be nice! That's how I usually deal with my scaring... it's stupid bc it probably makes them last longer but it also hides most of them too in my golden prettiness lol. Now I'm just white and red pock a dotted
Other side effects... I don't know if this is related in anyway but I was EXHAUSTED this weekend I mean outright can't stop sleeping exhausted... but now I feel better so it was kind of weird.
FMF - Thanks for your msg! It does sound like we have a lot in common! I'm sure you'll look beautiful for your engagement pics and your wedding! When's your big day? Do you have a log your keeping?
I hope everyone had a good weekend!
take care!
How the hell did you get a derm to give you accutane. You looked beautiful prior to treatment. Still its your body: your face and if you wanted to risk potential side effects with severe chemotherapy its your decision
Thanks for the compliment. Now if you dont' mind stay the hell off my log. It may be a surprise for you to here but I'm really not interested in your uneducated and uninformed opinion of my life decisions.
headtrip_honey - Thanks 🙂 I hate ppl like that guy... wonder if he knows that Macbeth was an idiot too....I mean why would you even visit an accutane log just to spew such negativity. I hope your doing well! I'll check up on your log soon 🙂
FMF - Thanks for your msg! It does sound like we have a lot in common! I'm sure you'll look beautiful for your engagement pics and your wedding! When's your big day? Do you have a log your keeping?
Hey! We really wanted 10/10/10, but we can't get married on a Sunday so we picked October 9. I'm excited, its creeping up on me fast, still a million things to do! I am keeping a blog. I'm like 80 days behind you though, but I enjoy reading about your progress.
P.S. Screw that Macbeth loser!
P.P.S. Where are you going on your honeymoon?!
FMF - Thanks for your msg! It does sound like we have a lot in common! I'm sure you'll look beautiful for your engagement pics and your wedding! When's your big day? Do you have a log your keeping?Hey! We really wanted 10/10/10, but we can't get married on a Sunday so we picked October 9. I'm excited, its creeping up on me fast, still a million things to do! I am keeping a blog. I'm like 80 days behind you though, but I enjoy reading about your progress.
P.S. Screw that Macbeth loser!
P.P.S. Where are you going on your honeymoon?!
Hey!
Your getting married two weeks before me! 🙂 My fingers are crossed that this October will be nice like last October! Just a little warm not not grey and gross like we get here until .... April apparently lol 😛 ugh where has the sun gone! I miss it 😛
I'm glad you like my log I'm trying to be as accurate as possible bc that's really all I want to read when I read other ppl's logs! The more info the better!
Honeymoon 🙂
we just booked it and it's FANTASTIC 🙂 I'm sooo excited. So it goes like this... We go to Italy for four days first and visit Sorrento, Capri, Pompeii, Amalfi, and Positano. Then day four we fly to Switzerland and get on a River boat cruise ...
it sounds hoaky by checkout the website... www.uniworld.com They do all these amazing tours through th interior rivers of Europe! So we're doing a Castle cruise along the Rhine River between France and Germany. It starts in Basel Switzerland and ends in Amesterdam and we get to stop in a new city either in Germany or France every day for 7 days 🙂 Then we're spending an extra day in Amsterdam before coming home 😀
.... see, awesome 🙂 I have to give my fiance credit he planned the whole thing!
Did you have anywhere chosen yet?? OOHHHH and did you get your dress yet 🙂
Day 111
Skin - I have a new spot coming out on my cheek bone but it's weird. It's not really a pimple... it's a teany bump that feels like it may just flake off instead of sticking arround.... oh if only they could all be like that lol
Otherwise the spot on my chin is still hanging out and not going away grrr! I "accidently" ... ok not really accidently but I picked the flaky skin off the top of it yesterday and it bled like I had a bullet wound to the face! Stupid Stupid Stupid! Now it's hanging out as a big ol' scab on my chin. It doesn't feel like it's done though. I can feel the bump go deeper into the skin so I think it may dig in and come right out all over again until it's empty The spot on the other side by my jaw line is healing very nicely though
Eczema is back on the underside of my forearms. I think it may be bc of all th typing I'v been doing for work.... or it's for purely torturous reasons I'm goign to try to moisturize extra and get it to go away
I'm meeting with my realestate rep this morning and hopefully I'll be able to get my apartment listed and sold ASAP so I can start saving money for our new kick ass house Fingers crossed !
ttfn!
Castle Cruise!
My parents did that, and it's amazing. Seeing all the crazy castles in Bavaria...Neuschwanstein, and the like.
::sigh::
Fiance and I are thinking about England/Scotland/Ireland for our honeymoon, but we'll see. It might be too cold/rainy during October. (Crazy, all these October weddings...I'm just a year behind y'all)
I feel you on the eczema. Miss a few days of moisturizing, and BAM. Explosion. I scratched the hell out of myself last night so the back of my right hand is all raw and red.
And I've had a few of those mystery bumps you mentioned. Just teeny little dark pink bumps that don't come to a head. If you leave them alone they just go away.
