I've been having acne for 3 years now. At first they were just pus filled pimples, and i would get at least 3, or 4. But i started picking and popping them, which made things worse. I started getting tons of them, and my cheeks got so red i couldn't face people properly, i didn't want to leave my house. The main problem is in my forehead next nose cheeks(if u know where im talking about, not cheeks cheeks, but more of the inside cheeks) and temples. About an year ago my pimples changed, i started getting like hard puss things, it is really weird and i searched online but no one else seems to have them. They are like tiny yeallowish rocks, and when i rub my fingers through my cheeks i feel them, and with my nail i can easily take it off. Sometimes it leaves a mini hole, it seems to be like an open pore where the thing was. Anyway, this hole goes away with time so no worries. My pores in my next to nose zones are so big! When i look my reflection in my phone when im outside, its just awful and so ugly, just so ugh. Its much more embarassing cause my friends have all clear skin, and they will never know how it feels like. They can't understand why im always at home, saying im weird and boring. They will never know.

Why do i have to spend my teenage years like this? Its so unfair! I want to hang out with my friends, go to parties, socialize, make tons of friends, get drunk, idk, normal stuff? But i can't. Im stuck at home. My family is always like why don't u go out and make friends, but they don't know either. Im the only one suffering from this. But its not like im not thankful to my parents, they did the best they could, taking me to the derm, buying everything i insisted them would work, spending lots of money in stuff that wouldn't work, again and again.

Im going through every day thinking that it will get better, i mean what else can i do. I think im going insane, and i became such a social retard. Acne seems so unharmful, but it affects you so deeply in your mind, and sometimes i spend my whole day thinking about it, imagining my life without it, but crying every time i look in the mirror.

My question was, does anyone have the same hard puss like things like me? I can't be the only one. I still get whiteheads and blackheads though, plus this dried puss things. Im currently doing the oil cleansing method, but its not that good. Im sure there are lots of people here with worse acne than mine, and sorry if u think im making a big deal out of nothing, but i had to vent somewhere. I'll leave a pic of my forehead pimples, please tell me what you think.