First post here.

I spend a few days reading some of the post of this forum, and is quite sad and, in the other hand, a relief thinq to do. I dont have anyone i wish to talk about this matters, because i dont want them to react differently or overprotective. I always tried to pretend as if nothing bothers me at all. Thats the lonely way i decide to go, as i supposse many in here did too.

First of, its true people reacts to our scars. I do react to others too, in any way. The point here is that we are not objective and tend to misunderstand others reactions, using them as a measuring point of our self-image projected to others. We feel more or less good looking in the way we read into others reactions. This has more to do with our mood at the current moment. "That girl turn his head away because of my ugly face", in oposite of "that girl turn his head away becouse she has somethinq else in her mind". I cant tell which of them was the real case, so is pointless to go hard on me every time this happends, as i would them stay at home and could not go out (dont ever do this). Accept the reality, some are going to see your scars ugly, while some are not going even think about it.

Im living a normal life (work, friends, family). I get used to it, i learn to manage it in many ways. But is not a great life to live. I was very handsome before 16, great student as well. But all of this change because of my obsesion with this. I left college in order to work to pay my treatments, which none of them worked. I isolated myself and stop doing normal thinqs, using films or games to distract from my thoughts. Now i have problems even with conversations, because of the lack of experiences that it is assumed in someone of my age( im 30 now). Was it worth it? sure not. Do i regret of my decisions, not either. I can only live a full life if i can overcome this "illness" and i pretend to do what i think i should do for this to happend. Is this going to make me happy? Time will say.

Sorry for my english (not my first language, some google translator to help, obiously) and for going to my personal history. I hope the op finds this reflexion of some help. Ill keep reading the forum.

Cheers.

I hope everyone here with scarring can try subcision + suction at least once in their life time. It has changed my life completely.

 

OT: I was on a similar boat OP. But it's possible to over come with the right treatments.

so you have had good luck with subcision?

what hap to that poor kid in the 2nd pic and god bless him

On 9/19/2015 at 11:32 PM, FaultlessFire said:

Ah, sorry. I wasn't talking about you specifically when I said that. It's just the feeling I get from a lot of people on this forum.

That said, the smiling thing doesn't make any sense to me. Sure it's not just confirmation bias? You're looking for that reaction and they're probably smiling because of something else. It has nothing to do with scarring, it wouldn't make sense for anyone to do that in any situation unless you got some funny tattoo on your face or something. I don't know what to say really, it's just such an oddly specific reaction and it doesn't sound normal. Your scarring isn't even bad, honestly. After those fillers you had it's barely noticeable. That's why I think this is more of a psychological issue.

I have a friend with full blown cystic acne (way more noticable than any scarring) and when I'm around him no one acts awkward around him or looks away or anything. I've not noticed any weird looks or anything either with my scarring which I have on my cheeks, temples and forehead.

It's all good.

See, my scarring wasn't actually that bad for the first couple of years, it was mostly mild-moderate and no one at all noticed it, and it didn't really bother me a great deal.....It was following laser treatment on the NHS where it started to look A LOT worse due to the amount of fat I lost in each temple.

It's been over the last 3 or 4 years where I've really noticed the reactions from people, like I said, at night, if I'm out, when the scarring is at its worst.

I found this photo below that was taken before I had the filler and booster to give a better indication of the severity.

Anyway, hey ho, life must go on.