Acne.org Products
I've been dealing with acne for 2 entire years now, and I know that for some of you it is not that long time, but for me it was and it is still my worst 2 years. It's currently 2am here, and I'm writing this because I can't sleep... again. This has been like this for the last couple of weeks. I'm literally terrified of going to sleep because I know that I'll be alone with my thoughts. I had acne all over my face... chins, forehead, cheeks, even on my eyebrows. During this period of time I lost a lot of people I considered as my friends. I noticed people are ashamed of being around me in public places, they couldn't even look at my face without making faces and without making me ashamed of myself and how I looked. So I just stopped going out, there were times when I was hiding in my room for days, and it became my 'daily routine'. I started to lie to the very few people in my life why I couldn't go out with them anymore, just because at that point I was so embarrassed of how I looked. I even covered every single mirror in my house so that I won't have to see myself. I went from dermatologist to dermatologist, but nothing worked and finally in February I was prescribed Accutane or Roaccutane as it's called here in Europe. I read everything about it that I could find on the internet, watched tons of Youtube videos, and for the first time I was really excited to start a new treatment. For some reason, the doctors here are more cautious with the dosage. I started with 10mg, then 20mg for the second month, and my face was getting better and better. I started to feel better about myself. Then came month 3... my derm upped my dosage to 60mg, and the results of the previous 2 months just vanished, like that. I was breaking out for 2!!! months (April and May). Since then I only had 1 whitehead, but the acne left red marks on my entire face, I look like a dalmatian and not a nice one. It's been 2 months now (June and July), and I know that those red marks are not gonna disappear in 1 sec, 1 day, or 2 weeks, but they don't even seem to fade and I'm just so tired of waiting and waiting for a miracle, for my misery to end and just go back to be a normal 23-year-old girl who can look in a freaking mirror without turning her head away. I'm tired to be the poor girl with acne. So, please someone just tell me that everything is going to be okay and that I'm not the only one going through this, because it is so hard to hang in here. Thank you for reading.
Hey fruzsi - u have come to the right place. There were times I was reading ur post I thought I was reading about my own experience. So many ppl have gone through exactly or similar situations as u described including myself. Things do get better as you start to learn more about your body and acne and how to control it. You be happy to know that those red marks WILL fade away. what you may not be happy about is it could take anywhere between a month to even a year.
There are ways of speeding it up but u're going to have to do ur own research. Plenty of information in the scarring forums from apple cider vinegar to AHA topical.
20 to 60mg seems like a drastic jump. did u switch brands or stayed with the same one? I would ask to go back on the 20mg and just hang in there!
Thank you for your answer 
.
I did stick with the same brand, my derm said since my blood results were fine and I didn't really experience any side effects (only dry lips and dry ears) we could try and lift the dose. I don't mind it, because at least I feel like it was THE purge of the purges, What made me sad was its timing. My face was doing fine, no visible pimples, just under my skin, the little bumpy things. And it felt like it wouldn't stop, every single day I would wake up with not only one, but at least 3 or 4 new pimples (mostly whiteheads). And they left these huge red marks... 
I just hate how I feel when I wash my face in the morning and I look in the mirror. I don't even recognize myself, and I'm so worried that even if I finish the treatment with a glowing skin, no acne, no red marks... etc. , I wouldn't be the same person I was 2 years ago. And I know, of course I have changed, I learnt a lot in a hard way. I just.... honestly, my biggest fear leately is that in 2 years I learnt to hate myself and my face, and I fear that it won't change later on and that I won't be able to love myself again. And nobody understands in my family what I'm going through inside.
Anyway, I'm going to try to spray colloidal silver on my face 4 times a day, I hope it'll help.
Have you been on Accutane too?