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4 hours ago, Togg said:It's when the ungodly anxiety hits that makes me want death. I don't say that lightly. And it is not really anxiety, or atleast very different from any anxiety I have ever felt. The best way I can describe this symptom, is a burning pain all through your blood. Like your bloods on fire. It's worst in your head, comes with debilitating derealization, makes you understand what insanity is. Always happens for a few days when I 'crash'. When I do sleep, I have nightmares of this one.
Vascular homeostasis. Someone on here not to long ago was diagnosed with vasculitis and collapse of the sinus structure. This is probably where the ear fullness might originate from. The Eustachian tube becomes collapsed enough to start to affect perceived hearing and cause inflammation, mucus buildup. I think this could literally be caused by a bone/ muscle weakness. The resting muscle strength becomes weak. Smooth muscle lines all the blood vessels. This is where vascular issues might originate. Its muscular. The muscles push blood flow. Vascular issues could start in childhood and become progressive or worsened through diet or medication. Artery stiffening, thickening, or inflammation could be a early sign.
Togg, there is something about your post that resignates deeply with me, you really seem to be able to grasp the essense of the living hell that we are going through and are able to put it into words in a way that depicts the the pain and suffering that we are going through. It is as if we have had being human stripped from our souls. However this is going to be my one attempt to inspire what is left of you to be at peace.
Give up on your instinctive and intuitive desire to be happy in life. I have battled with the same symptoms other than anxiety that you have experienced and I truly feel that I have come to an understanding of how to come with them the most effectively.
I hope that you do not commit suicide butfollow my advice or gain this understanding through another source, I am not religious but I have been forced to become extraordinarily spiritual in nature. Here is the essence of what I know to be true in the vehicle of black letters printed on an online forum.
You are right, living is not worth while in the state that you are currently in, so I encourage that you let part of who you are die as you are reading this post. There is no way to heal for now so you will just have to accept that it is likely going to be years until some sort of cure comes about, if it is even possible. But I feel that I can heal you in another way.
Become the observing presence below the level of the mind. Let everything you know in life go and welcome the transcendental presence of the all knowing being take over. Accept that you are not by choice, in a state of systemic trauma and that you have the power to let go of this trauma which lives inside of you like a parasite. Realize that the past and future weigh on your mind heavily and accept that the present moment is all that really exists. Let a wave of nothingness wash over you and sweep away everything and anything, like an empty vortex of clarity beyond thought. Allow your mind to become so calm that it is as still as a glass lake. Realize that the world has betrayed you in not allowing the message of self empowerment come to you earlier than it has. Become so conscious of your anxiety that it evaporates in the light of you true knowing of life. Become so out of control that you know nothing but suddenly understand everything in a way that you never have before. Surrender so deeply that you lose site of your will to live and allow your death wish to become part of who you are until it evaporates into nothing. Lose yourself so deeply that you cease to exist. Become so occupied by nothing that you finally see everything. Let go your preconceived beliefs in life and accept that you know nothing. Identify yourself as emptiness that lies inside of your body. Accept that death is a part of life and that part of your true self was actually killed by this drug and that you will never be the same. Embrace that the shadow of who you are is drawn towards killing your physical body and that it is not truly you that is making the choice to desire death. See clearly the near absolute insanity that the world has become and make the choice to remove yourself from the situation by choice immediately.
This is what i feel is the all powerful force that lives inside us all expressing itself in the language that we knew upon our birth in the world and soon forgot. Cross now to other shore and become who you really are.
I think considering suicide as an option before you have exhausted all other options is really dumb nonsense. It's similar to taking Accutane, before you have tried any other form of treatment.
Has anyone with depression tried Psilocybin mushrooms? If you really want to kickstart your brain, crank the car engine, attempt to start the car again, take an eighth of shrooms, and write down your experiences afterwards.
Watch this video. PTSD soldiers, Accutane victims, CTE football/rugby/boxerathletes, there is always hope. We're learning about the brain more and more each day.
3 hours ago, Taneraped said:However this is going to be my one attempt to inspire what is left of you to be at peace.
Poetic piece. Please dont ever post anything like this again. Im not sure if your post should even be allowed to stay up. Maybe you should consider deleting it. This is the type of post that could shut down this whole forum.
1 hour ago, guitarman01 said:Poetic piece. Please dont ever post anything like this again. Im not sure if your post should even be allowed to stay up. Maybe you should consider deleting it. This is the type of post that could shut down this whole forum.
I don't believe taneraped is telling me to be at peace in that sense. Not that final rest kind of sense. He wants quite the opposite. Or is it the ambiguity that is the problem?
Also, thanks taneraped
I will look at SXR and get back to you.
13 hours ago, Togg said:Or is it the ambiguity that is the problem?
Also, thanks taneraped
Hey Togg, in case you don't fully understand what taneraped is talking about I suggest that you try meditation. What taneraped describes I have experienced thanks to meditation and it was a very healing experience. Meditation healed my daily nausea. What taneraped describes has to be experienced by the body. the best way is meditation. If you have no experience with meditation I can recommend John Kabat Zinn. He is very practical and not esoterical at all. He teaches meditation at the MIT hospital to people who have uncurable conditions.
1 hour ago, draci said:Hey Togg, in case you don't fully understand what taneraped is talking about
im reading between the lines and I think that post is going in the wrong direction. Especially with what Togg has brought up recently. I dont see a positive message in that post. Its very dark. Id want my money back for that kind of meditation. If you can put a positive spin on that and it helps you then Id say ok and lets move on.
@mariovitali
I'm sure you've seen this by now but i'll highlight some points here.
The steroid and xenobiotic receptor (SXR), beyond xenobiotic metabolism
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2646121/?report=classic
research has revealed new and mostly unsuspected roles for SXR in modulating inflammation, bone homeostasis, vitamin D metabolism, lipid homeostasis, energy homeostasis and cancer.
The identification of SXR as a xenobiotic sensor has provided an important tool for studying new mechanisms through which diet, chemical exposure, and environment ultimately impact health and disease.
4 hours ago, guitarman01 said:5 hours ago, draci said:Hey Togg, in case you don't fully understand what taneraped is talking about
im reading between the lines and I think that post is going in the wrong direction. Especially with what Togg has brought up recently. I dont see a positive message in that post. Its very dark. Id want my money back for that kind of meditation. If you can put a positive spin on that and it helps you then Id say ok and lets move on.
I should have added that John Kabat Zinn claims that the meditation actually helps some people with chronic pain and chronic headaches to relieve the pain, get rid of it completely or at least live better with it. And it certainly helps with depression and other mental problems.
29 minutes ago, TrueJustice said:Anyone regardless of which problem you are working on gettheir oil back with regard to skin??
I'm on track, it's now only20 years, what's that 20 X 365 = 7,300 days
Any day now, any day........
Some! I mean no where near the amount when I had really bad acne. It also feels different.. like more sticky versus greasy. My guess is estrogen. Cause I get little pimples now.. like girl period pimples. Especially on my forehead.
If you have a problem with my post its likely that you are in resistence and are not at peace. I have never tried my hand at preventing some one from committing suicide. Being at peace involves stilling your mind and doing this requires hearing a language of spiritual truth that cuts to the core. Meditation is something that can be done to bring about this stillness but it is not necessary. Only accepting the spiritual truth behind the words is necessary for personal awakening. Also being at peace will almost certainly prevent some one from commuting suicide. Idk it seems like common sense, if you are experiencing great pain and suffering you are much more likely to commit suicide than than if you are not experiencing pain and suffering. It is not by choice that people have decided to criticize my advice but instead it is through unconscious identification with fear of the unknown because surrendering to the truth involves dealing with your own fear so I am not offended by your critisim. Togg, you are definitely welcome, your honesty is refreshing. If you dont think that this has a place on this forum, I would say that finding a way to cope with the adversity of accutane is part of the greater struggle to repair the damage done from accutane. Awakening is almost a necessity when you have been stripped of your pride, functional testicles, mental clarity, and happiness in life. That is why I have decided to introduce a spiritual component to this forum, and I will only do so sparingly, it is what I feel like I have to offer to people that are starving of happiness, a way of coping beyond repairing the body and mind. Guitarman, I can tell that you are very intelligent but I am afraid that it may be inteligence in the service of madness. When yourmind is not highly active in the way that I think your mind may be, you interfere with your own better judgment, deep down you know what is right and wrong and this is evident in urgent situations. I will not take down my post because it is my stand against some one taking his own life. If you wonder where I get this from, I have been practicing the art of presence for 12 years and have rarely shared it with any one. I will not let critism deter me from expressing my own personal truth. Draci, it is not possible to understand it with your mind but only possible to understand it with the consciousness that you possess that is detached from your thoughts. Btw I was blasting gamma radiation waves in my room to manage the creativity that I had in my last post, so it probably wont happen again.
On 11/15/2017 at 1:21 PM, macleod said:I think considering suicide as an option before you have exhausted all other options is really dumb nonsense. It's similar to taking Accutane, before you have tried any other form of treatment.
Has anyone with depression tried Psilocybin mushrooms? If you really want to kickstart your brain, crank the car engine, attempt to start the car again, take an eighth of shrooms, and write down your experiences afterwards.
Watch this video. PTSD soldiers, Accutane victims, CTE football/rugby/boxerathletes, there is always hope. We're learning about the brain more and more each day.
Thanks for posting this. I sat down today and got through the whole thing. Its incredibly insightful in regards to the full spectrum of healing properties mushrooms possess. I hope the power of mushrooms becomes a movement the world over.
In regards to psilocybin, I have taken a very low dose, 1g. I basically alleviated my depression years prior thanks to a committed relationship but I do agree that an experience like this does have the power to pull one out of the grip of depression or at least present one with the awareness on making the necessary steps. In regards to my trip, it grounded me deeper with the awareness of what goes into my body and how to boost my vitality in that way, so yes, overall it was beneficial, even at a small dose.
I have become very 'fogged' over the last few days and can only put it down to diet. I can feel pressure behind my 'left' eye. If I shut my eyes and squeeze them my left eye will water up and the right remains dry, its so bizarre.
Im going to try a proper bile dump, using allochol. Hopefully this flushes my liver and helps in some way.
41 minutes ago, Taneraped said:If you have a problem with my post its likely that you are in resistence and are not at peace. I have never tried my hand at preventing some one from committing suicide. Being at peace involves stilling your mind and doing this requires hearing a language of spiritual truth that cuts to the core. Meditation is something that can be done to bring about this stillness but it is not necessary. Only accepting the spiritual truth behind the words is necessary for personal awakening. Also being at peace will almost certainly prevent some one from commuting suicide. Idk it seems like common sense, if you are experiencing great pain and suffering you are much more likely to commit suicide than than if you are not experiencing pain and suffering. It is not by choice that people have decided to criticize my advice but instead it is through unconscious identification with fear of the unknown because surrendering to the truth involves dealing with your own fear so I am or offended by your critisim. Togg, you are definitely welcome, your honesty is refreshing. Finally if you dont think that this has a place on this forum, I would say that finding a way to cope with the adversity of accutane is part of the greater struggle to repair the damage done from accutane. Awakening is almost a necessity when you have been stripped of your pride, functional testicles, mental clarity, and happiness in life. That is why I have decided to introduce a spiritual component to this forum, and I will only do so sparingly, it is what I feel like I have to offer to people that are starving of happiness, a way of coping beyond repairing the body and mind. Guitarman, I can tell that you are very intelligent but I am afraid that it may be inteligence in the service of madness. When yourmind is not highly active in the way that I think your mind may be, you interfere with your own better judgment, deep down you know what is right and wrong and this is evident in urgent situations. I will not take down my post because it is my stand against some one taking his own life. If you wonder where I get this from, I have been practicing the art of presence for 12 years and have rarely shared it with any one. I will not let critism deter me from expressing my own personal truth. Draci, it is not possible to understand it with your mind but only possible to understand it with the consciousness that is that you possess that is detached from your thoughts. Btw I was blasting gamma radiation waves in my room to manage the creativity that I had in my last post, so it probably wont happen again.
Share some book titles and meditation practices etc that you'd recommend
hopefully nothing new age, I like the ancient systems over any new age crap - happy to hear your thoughts on that.
Apologies in advance to anyone who doesn't have any interest with this stuff but if I'm being truthful, to me some of the spiritual work is inevitable, eventually regardless of tane the body will break down, not a bad idea to do some spiritual work along the way. Don't mean to stay on this subject for long as it probably belongs in another area of forum but let's dable a little bit huh?
7 hours ago, TrueJustice said:Anyone regardless of which problem you are working on gettheir oil back with regard to skin??
I'm on track, it's now only20 years, what's that 20 X 365 = 7,300 days
Any day now, any day........
no - the opposite. I think it is getting worse every year.
11 hours ago, TrueJustice said:Anyone regardless of which problem you are working on gettheir oil back with regard to skin??
I'm on track, it's now only20 years, what's that 20 X 365 = 7,300 days
Any day now, any day........
No, and my lips have become worse actually. They peel everyday. Generally all mucous membranes are dried out.
13 hours ago, exitrade said:Hi Guys, please be patient, maybe i will have really promising good news, actually a solution...
For now, just believe and you are will be alive and depression will bee on your back not inside of you.
Well we need some good news!
This guy is fully recovered - took 3 years
2 hours ago, hatetane said:Well we need some good news!
This guy is fully recovered - took 3 years
What???
This has already been put up within last few pages, what else do we know about his protocol?
Im stoked hes recovered but its all vague, what did he take, what did he avoid, how long and what dose etc etc????
In regards to my last post concerning the brain fog, as of today it has totally abated. I woke up to the manger of a large firm calling me in regards to an interview I had a few days previous and was able to immediately articulate myself with my natural 'flow' so to speak.
Ive made an effort to take a few brief moments of every day to meditate and focus my energy on 'pushing down' the brain fog from where it was felt. Perhaps that helped? - not sure.
Ive also taken ox bile 500mg with every meal, sometimes two and have drank plenty of water. Ive also taken x2 allochol tablets () and x3 sleeping tablets over 3 days, 2 and 1 (Doxylamine Succinate).
On a side note I am taking Doctors Best Bacopa 320mg (55% Bacosides).
Perhaps this would have passed naturally, I will never know, but it has been the single most vivid event of having brain fog start and then diminish in the span of about 5 days.
I should also note that I believe it came on as a reaction to something in my diet. Although Its hard to say what. All I can think of is a spaghetti bolognese I ate, home cooked, tomato paste, vegetables, mince etc.
34 minutes ago, TrueJustice said:What???This has already been put up within last few pages, what else do we know about his protocol?
Im stoked hes recovered but its all vague, what did he take, what did he avoid, how long and what dose etc etc????
He is a nutritional balancing agent and as of this video a dedicated promoter.
This is basically a program that can span from 1 year to several years. It begins with a hair mineral analysis and works to balance out the bodies natural minerals and dump the bodies accumulated heavy and toxic minerals through the course of taking a tailored program of their own manufactured supplements, often with the addition of a few store bought supplements. The program also involves other practises such as coffee enemas and near infrared sauna protocols in order to continually assist the body to flush out 'toxins'. In our case accutane, although it is never really addressed as such, it often gets labelled as copper toxicity.
You will most likely find yourself spending around $500 every 3 or so months and an additional amount on additional hair mineral analysis to monitor progress. Again, as it is promoted as a 'holistic', all round approach they recommend staying on the program for minimum of a year and often 2 to 5 years.
I stayed on the program for around 10 months and have recorded in my journal fluctuating bouts in energy and vitality. Today I feel well and suffer a few side effects still, mainly memory, occasional brain fog, eye floaters and light sensitivity - nothing incredibly drastic, although still bothersome. The NB program didn't do too well to alleviate these symptoms though I suppose, and will be the automatic rebuttal from the NB perspective, I may have not stayed on the program long enough.
Much of what he said can be found on drlwilson.com
His video seems like a plug more than anything, although Im sure he did manage to cure himself. Take it with a pinch of salt. If time isnt an issue, nor money then by all means try NB. Sometimes its just good to be onboard with something
I do like these things being suggested and have dabbled in a few of them over the years but perhaps not consistently enough.
I dont believe hair mineral analysis is quackery, when I had my hair analysed 8 years ago it did show nothing other than high copper, the prob doing it back then was that it was a big process, hair had to sent to US or something and took ages to get results, the best thing to do would be continual testing whilst taking supplements and doing detoxes etc to see improvements.
Ill look into seeing if 8 years on we can test ok in Aus and get results back quicker etc.
Has Anyone has experience with infra red sauna specifically? Do you feel detoxed etc??