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when the hassle of it all just wears you down. The regimes, the hope, the let downs of another med that didn't work, the promise of one that might, the trips were you could not be yourself, spending time with family/friends avoided year after year, parties, opportunities, fun times missed, time wasted, thoughts wasted, money wasted, tears wasted, bad moods, lies. Having someone inside just bursting to get out and be joyful, but feels inhibited by this monster situation. Wouldn't it be great to stop all the regimes/meds etc and just say....SCREW IT....
You know its bad when theirs a blackout in your house and your family is panicking because theirs no light...except you
When every night at 11:11, you wish for clear skin.
When it's summer and your inside almost everyday.
When you cancel almost all plans because of acne
When you cry at least once a week
When you cant eat your favorite foods because they make you breakout.
When you want to attempt suicide because of acne...
:/
when you just wanna sleep all day and stop talking to your friends... and everytime your best friend asks you do go do something... even just to come over, you find a way to get out of it.
When you've been searching for a cure for over 5 years.
When you glance at your reflection throughout the day, hoping it looks better than it did last time.
When you buy pretty dresses because you like them but can never bring yourself to wear them, or ever dress up.
When your hair is always tied up until you know you're going to be seen, or go out.
When you're paranoid about everything you eat, and hardly allow yourself to eat anything. (I'm down to meat, veggies, and nuts).
When you always have to refuse taking pictures with your best friend, and seeing them be disappointed about it.
When you won't spend any of your money because you're saving every dollar for laser treatment.
When you're at school and use your sleeve to wipe the oily sheen off your face. Only to break out from it. You just can't win.
When you're never happy, no matter how nice life might be because you have acne.
When you ask your mom for a shrink.
When you want to run away, so you never have to be looked at again, and feeling that'd be bliss.
When you come home and hug your cat and cry from the relief of having a friend that won't notice or judge your skin.
When you wish you were never born. Or born under a different family with different genes.
When you fantisize about all the people on acne.org living in one place together, in their own private communtity where we all feel comfortable and understand each other and never have to deal with the naturally clear again. And wanting that so bad. (I want to go to an acne.org-people high school Dx)
When you have acne. Sigh...
When you mute the TV every time a Proactiv commercial comes on.
You don't let your parents hug you because you don't want to get too close.
You wear your hair in your face, look down, and away from the board so that people don't notice.
That even though your clearing up amazingly, your face is so full of scars nobody but you notices the difference.
That even though your clearing up, acne and scars in all, you look in the mirror...
and still see ugly.
You don't leave your house until it's dark outside.
You pretend to be out of town when friends you haven't seen for months message you to hang out.
And to add my own personal one that I doubt many people have done:
You are so embarrassed by your skin that you decide to leave the country you have lived your entire life in and move to a city 5,000 miles away, purely in order to avoid being social with the friends you've had your whole life. Yep, I did that one. Talk about acne controlling your life.
You order pizza instead of going to the shop.
Don't dare to go to the barber because of bad lightning.
Come late for school because of the mirror
Take valium to calm you down.
When you are crying on the phone.
When you can't recognise yourself anymore.
When you can't be who you want to be.
When you start to envy the people dying
When you try to handle it psychologicaly only to further complicate the maze.
When you slip back into the same carousel of thoughts again
When months turn into years and years into a decade
When you get this autistic empty stare
When stress is the basic emotion.
When black is the color and none is the number. (bob dylan)
When winter becomes more pleasant then summer.
When you are feeling you are going insane and then realize you are already there 
When you'r walking on the street trying to not be there.
When life was already difficult and acne scars just finished the job
When your soulmate walks past you because a relationship is impossible
When you can't tell friends what you have because it is embarassing.
When you start to hate god.
When scars are on your face and body
You go to Italy and see your the only one with scars.
When you are the freak again with the life that has gone bad.
When a cure for scars is your only hope
When sport and music is the only thing keeping you alive.
You order pizza instead of going to the shop.
Don't dare to go to the barber because of bad lightning.
Come late for school because of the mirror
Take valium to calm you down.
When you are crying on the phone.
When you can't recognise yourself anymore.
When you can't be who you want to be.
When you start to envy the people dying
When you try to handle it psychologicaly only to further complicate the maze.
When you slip back into the same carousel of thoughts again
When months turn into years and years into a decade
When you get this autistic empty stare
When stress is the basic emotion.
When black is the color and none is the number. (bob dylan)
When winter becomes more pleasant then summer.
When you are feeling you are going insane and then realize you are already there
When you'r walking on the street trying to not be there.
When life was already difficult and acne scars just finished the job
When your soulmate walks past you because a relationship is impossible
When you can't tell friends what you have because it is embarassing.
When you start to hate god.
When scars are on your face and body
You go to Italy and see your the only one with scars.
When you are the freak again with the life that has gone bad.
When a cure for scars is your only hope
When sport and music is the only thing keeping you alive.
When you see the look of dissapointment in your family's eyes
When people in the street stare at you and sometimes double-takes
When you just want to LEAVE, go somewhere on the other side of the universe
When you have fallen in love but sadly.......
When you lose the love of your life even though she wants to try and get back and you can't because you're embarrassed, sad, and think you're not good enough for her. And even when she has a new boyfriend she still wants to make it work after two years and you can't help but feel like a selfish asshole
but good to know I'm not alone..
You know its bad when your seriously considering the military and one of the reasons are to get away from your hometown
when you won't have sex with your boyfriend because of emberassing body acne.
when you never go swimming because it would be weird to wear a big tshirt instead of a bikini, even though you have the perfect body.
when you just don't give a fuck anymore. about anything/one.
damn, i can relate to a lot of these posts
also some good ones:
when your friends is saying "dude, have you been punched in the face?" because a breakout on the cheek
when your young nieces is asking if you're having chickenpox
when you are more open and friendly to people with acne because you don't think they are judging you
when you cancel your best friend's birthday party because of your acne
when you can't go to the beach with your friends because of your bacne and prefer to be home and watch tv
Your knockles bleed from punching the wall
When just about every 11:11 for next month to be better.
when you go to the dermatologist and try multiple antibiotics and creams, and for a moment you think maybe my skin is finally clearing up, no, just kidding more zits keep coming
when you feel like giving up
when you feel like you've done something wrong so god is punishing you or something with all these zits
when you can hear your relatives and parents talking about how bad your skin is
when you avoid looking at yourself in any mirror without makeup on because you know you'll just start crying if you do
when you've never had a boyfriend at 18 just because of how much you hate yourself and the way you look
when you feel like no one will ever understand what you're going through
when you have siblings who've only had one zit at the most and all you think about is what did i do to deserve this shitty skin
when you wish you could just burn your skin off and start over
when you would do absolutely anything for clear skin
when you try not to think about how much you hate yourself because you know it will make yourself more and more depressed
when you pretend you're okay around other people but at night think about how much acne has ruined your life
when you love photoshoping pictures of yourself because you can actually make your skin look good for once and wish you could do the same thing in real life
when you've spent $100s on makeup just so you feel like you can go out in public
when you feel like you'll never have any self-confidence because of your skin
when you can think of a million things to write for this topic
you're the only one happy on cloudy days
you're the only one hoping to NOT receive an invitation to the party
when you either do your shopping, run your errands either really early in the morning or late at night right before store closes to see less people
when you're the only one sad when summer comes depressed to see the winter come to an end
when you absolutely love time change, getting darker out earlier
when no matter what you order even if it normally doesnt contain cheese, could be a brownie or cookie, you ask anyway, is there cheese in this? cause of your dairy free diet and paranoia o.c.d
