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Not exactly happy.....um, there is this tiny red bump between my eyeborws which makes me mad, but its pretty small and unoticeable...I jsut hope it goes away by Monday. The area on my chee kwhich just cleared got a smallish, but good sized zit. NOt a hard papule, it has a tiny head. I feel a little frustrated. All in all, I pretty much have 3 zits right now (all smal land not very notiecable) LEts hoep they go away or atleast dont get worse.
Really really low, sadly I don't even know why. The entire last week went pretty decently, but I woke up this morning and just felt... so sick and sad and tired of living my life this way. I miss feeling confident. I want to be able to go back to flaunting pretty clothes and flirting with cute boys and stuffing myself at nice restaurants and attending parties where I can do shots and snuggle up with my friends afterwards. I mean, that was basically MOST OF MY LIFE BEFORE and I really, really miss it now. I hate that Accutane is splitting my lips from side to side and yellowing my teeth; it just makes me feel even grosser and like I need to get bleaching trays stat except I still have at least two months left on this medication. I hate that I feel so worthless and unattractive and contemptible, like anybody who looks at me should either feel disgusted by or sorry for me - and if they don't, well, that just means they're not looking at me correctly. I hate that I get headaches now from forehead acne and basically feel depressed and cranky all the time despite the antidepressants. I'm trying my best to be positive but you can only look at a situation from one angle for so long before you're forced to acknowledge the other more pressing and more "realistic" ones. I want not to be so self-absorbed and selfish but at the end of the day you can also only distract yourself from other people's/the world's issues for so long before you're forced to come face to face (both literally and metaphorically) with yourself as well.
...sighs. Sorry for tl;dr Debbie Downer-ing this thread, I just really needed to type that up somewhere.
hotburrito - Maybe people would feel sorry for the situation you're in, but that's all. Give yourself a break. You're taking steps to beat your acne and, even if Accutane is a tough journey, it will all be worth it in the end. The fact that you're taking these steps is a positive thing. Keep going and try and be strong. You can do it. 
hotburrito - Maybe people would feel sorry for the situation you're in, but that's all. Give yourself a break. You're taking steps to beat your acne and, even if Accutane is a tough journey, it will all be worth it in the end. The fact that you're taking these steps is a positive thing. Keep going and try and be strong. You can do it.
Thanks. I was just having a really low day yesterday and needed to unload that *somewhere* - I'm feeling much better this afternoon, luckily
I am always anxious when I wake up each morning, because I dont know how my acne is going to look when I get up and look in the mirror, is it going to be better. Is it going to be worse....
Acne sucks, no matter how many zits you may or may not have....it affects people in all kinds of ways, mostly negative...
Thank God we have this site to share our stories with other people who 'understand'!!
Ehhhh....well the cheek that acted up foriciously AGAIN, is going down slowly but surely.....god, thats so annoying. And some whiteheads on my nose which you cannot even see at all. But the thing between ym eyebrows......well its flat now and the ZITS are gone. But now its red and dry and flaky and loooks NAHSTIE with makeup. ITs not THAT bad,acutally but ehhhhh. Its lal getting better than it was this weekend. The zits are going away...but myskins not in mint condition. But put osme of my medi lotion on it and it wall be gone by Friday at the latest. I dont care much, i look fine. Ill jsut keep my bangs ovr the left side of my face today. I cut my hiar when my zits on my forehead act up ....it grows back in like 2 days, beucse I already have very slight side bangs (and dont say it arritates it, becuase in my case it doesnt at all)
Think again, I have 3 good sized zits, and like three tiny unnoticeable ones. Well, I did put lotion on my dry patch, but apperently, tere was still that one zit hidnig under it, so now I have that.....lovely. Than I have the one on the side of my nose from the cheek break out......HOORAY! And than, THAN I woke up with a red bastard in the crease of my smile line. And I have a hleaing one uinder my eye too. Do I look like bleh crap? Yes, yes, I do. Ugh. I hope this shit IS gone by atleast Saturday than. Becuase Saturday morning and beyond, I have SO much things I gotta go do...and i really want to look nice for my showcase and my birthday. 
Well, all in all...its been worst...im still effing pissed.
i just woke up with 2 new zits today. it seems like iam always waking up with new ones. on the plus side, one went away and one seems to be going away. but still, your left with a dark mark, which makes it look like acne. depressed and i have to study for a test, which i dont even want to....
i understand you hotburrito. i miss wearing nice clothes and looking good!! i was all excited about med school when it started this august, i was like yeah, got new clothes, new look, iam gonna look so hot. but then september came and bam!! ruined my life...
They (the constellation) are healing! But I actually feel good because my Mary Kay foundation covered everything with no concealer!! 
Forehead, nose chin and the right side of my face are clear. Got a small pimple just below my left eye which I'm leaving alone and I think it's drying out by itself. For a pimple just to the left of my nose which I popped a few days ago but that's almost gone. That's it really, almost nothing at all. Into my third week of being almost clear and I like it. Also like how I can attribute it directly to a few changes I made, the supplements I'm now taking and of course Doxycycline doing its thing. Fingers crossed it's not just a phase...
So today was good. When I got makeup on my skin looks great, unless im in harsh lighting like (natural, flourescent ei) And you can see the bumps. Most my zits are going down. Well, except for the one between my eyebrows, and the one on my cheek. There like pmiple or small papules, I dont really know. The ones on my nose dont seem bad anymore, really smallish now. The one on my cheek is the largest. Its huge...well for me....I highyl doubt its a cyst, its ont collapsed or anything or...like bad. Just a fat ass zit. Ugh.
Not entirely happy but it's progressing. No horrific nodule clusters like before,yay! Do however have a couple of little whiteheads and some dry patches along my jawline. It's coming along I think the rooibos tea is really helping my skin! =D
I feel terrible. Recently I've undergone a severe outbreak, it's still at its prime today. I've always been considered to have light/moderate acne. Now it's more like moderate/heavy. I know I shouldn't complain because there are worse than me out there. I always try to tell myself that. But because I was so accustomed to a certain lifestyle (i.e. wearing no make-up, no worries about acne, etc.) it's pretty hard for me to accept the way I am now. I've pretty much alienated myself and my confidence is drained. I've tried almost everything. I went on birth control for quite some time and my face cleared up, but on the downside, I gained weight. So I pretty much sacrificed one thing for another. After I stopped birth control my face became worse than before I took it. I owe my mom sooooo much for putting up with me. She's the one standing by me trying to get me at my happy state. She always convinces me that if I am truly happy on the inside then it'll show on the outside. Moms' and their theories. It isn't a bad theory though. Sometimes I get in that happy mood, but then an interruption happens where I'll look into a mirror and see the disaster on my face. Yeah, it sucks. I've always been about the way I look. I'm a perfectionist when it comes to myself. Although I know no one is perfect, I push that logic aside when I feel determined to perfect a feature or etc. Once I find something to perfect, it'll be my mission of the year. I know I'm saying something off topic, but I'm saying this because my dad always tells me I'm exaggerating things. He told me when a person looks at himself/herself they often pinpoint flaws and magnify it, but when others look at them they see a collective image-meaning they look at you as a whole. Which is true. When girls ask me "does this show a lot?" about an insignificant pimple, which I don't notice until they say so, I think of me in their position. If I didn't notice her blemish, then she probably doesn't notice mine. These facts help me get through my emotional phase of dealing with acne. Maybe it'll help you too. The way you think about this issue will be the ultimate factor of how you overcome it. I've always fallen victim to it. Locking myself at home doesn't make it better. In fact all it does is make my mood worse. Maybe I'm not ready to go out and dress up, but I can still manage to go to my close friend's houses (friends that don't judge through appearance.) and get in a good laugh. I come home feeling like a different person; in a good way though. I'm 20 years old and like every 20 yr old, I'd like to go out, have a blast, and not worry about the acne on my face. WELL I told you my life story pretty much lol. I vented on here and maybe someone could relate.
My chin's a mess but it's my own fault. Picked at it, made everything worse. Kind of had a go at my nose and the right side of my face as well so none of it is looking especially great. Suddenly feeling really depressed again these last couple of days and my approach to my skin is a direct result of that.
I'm really starting to think that it's more than just a dislike of my skin and more than just picking and popping pimples. It all feels way more intense than that and I'm beginning to think it's more like self-loathing and a form of self-harm.
I'm feeling pretty crummy about my own face, but in response to Paul, I understand how you're feeling. I sometimes feel like I use my skin or weight as an excuse for feeling unhappy. At the end of my freshman year of college, I felt confused about what to study, I had truly severe acne for the first time ever, and had gained ten pounds. I piled on the self-loathing, and would think, "if my skin would just clear up, if I just lost this weight, I wouldn't feel this way. I would be so grateful. I would be happy."
Yet, six months later, when I had lost the tens pounds and then some, and my skin was pretty much under control, I still didn't like myself! Maybe it was partly seasonal effective disorder from the winter, but I was miserable! I hated myself! My skin had cleared, but I was still fat, or my nose was too big, ect. I was still unhappy.
I think that developing real self-confidence and learning to appreciate the strong, healthy body that I have will yield happiness, not clear skin. The problem is figuring out how to do that! It's easy to make grand statements, but very hard to do, especially when your face is a minefield as mine currently is!
I will try harder to like myself, and I hope you will too, Paul!
I'm feeling pretty crummy about my own face, but in response to Paul, I understand how you're feeling. I sometimes feel like I use my skin or weight as an excuse for feeling unhappy. At the end of my freshman year of college, I felt confused about what to study, I had truly severe acne for the first time ever, and had gained ten pounds. I piled on the self-loathing, and would think, "if my skin would just clear up, if I just lost this weight, I wouldn't feel this way. I would be so grateful. I would be happy."
Yet, six months later, when I had lost the tens pounds and then some, and my skin was pretty much under control, I still didn't like myself! Maybe it was partly seasonal effective disorder from the winter, but I was miserable! I hated myself! My skin had cleared, but I was still fat, or my nose was too big, ect. I was still unhappy.
I think that developing real self-confidence and learning to appreciate the strong, healthy body that I have will yield happiness, not clear skin. The problem is figuring out how to do that! It's easy to make grand statements, but very hard to do, especially when your face is a minefield as mine currently is!
I will try harder to like myself, and I hope you will too, Paul!
I always thought my acne was the reason I felt the way I did, and that clearing my skin would be the answer. I pretty much did that but it turned out that it wasn't the answer. I've certainly been so much harder on myself and my skin since that realisation about six or seven months ago. There's an anger there and it's like I'm taking it out on my face and punishing myself. I've no idea why. Not one single area of my life is as I'd like it to be and I'm depressed all the time. It's particularly bad today, I haven't this low in a long time, I just feel like crying and I've no idea why. I am seeking professional help and I am trying but these things take time and it feels like a losing battle because I'm always feeling down and incredibly lonely and I don't know how to shake it. I know for sure that it's not directly about my skin anymore but I just can't work out why I do what I do. I think if my skin's bad or I actively seek to make it worse, I can at least then go some way towards justifying where I'm at in life and how I feel about myself. Take away that justification and there's, well, nothing. No idea how I could have ended up justifying my existence with the one thing I want to be rid of, but I think that's what I've done.
Whatever your fix for all this turns out to be, I hope you find your answer, too.