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Just woke up this morning, and eh...yeah. The only new thing is this tiny little wee pink dot on the side of my nose. Its not even a bump, just tiny tiny tiny pink dot. So I'm not fretting, just dab some Tea Tree Oil and it will begone. Its like on those one day things. I had another one day thing by mym outh that I discovered 7th period. It wasnt bad, jsut a slgiht bump to my touch. I woke up and it was gone completely. Although I think I mustve scratched accdientally becuase now theres this faint pink line ( dont care much) And my cheek. All the old ones faded except for one, the one that started it all. It came to a head this morning, so I popped it (carefully) and let it be. It looks the same, but without puss. There is one that is forming above (new one) thats been there for 3 days (dont mind anything new in that area, becuase its been there forever and every body is used to it lol) but that ones doing fine. My forehead is looking fabulous. So pretty much....no really new pimples and things are getting better. I jsut hope that tiny red dot...erm, stays a tiny red dot...I think it will though:
I feel like I'm alive, but not really "Living"?, it's as if my soul is hovering above my body, a ghost wandering about aimlessly...... floating on a sea of guilt and shame... helpless and hopeless........
...listening to Coldplay's "Fix You"..................
.........hoping someone, something will Fix ME!!!!
My skins nice dandy and the same as last post. So good.
I feel sad looking throguh all these other sufferers. you guys, okay, I know how it feels to get broken out and how damn frusterating it is. But you guys, dont let it al lhold you back. Ok, some days you wont look your best and somedays youll feel like shit. But okay, I dont tihnk acne really dteracts for anyones lok,s okay you got some zitties.....everoyne does...I promise. Even so, if you look like crap, worrying bout it aint wont make it better, so go enjoy life......doesnt make a difference, i mean whether you go have fun or sit alnoe sulking, aint gonna change whats on yoru face, might as well make the best of it. Have good days:)
Only 2 pimples on my face right now, but I still feel shitty. 1 pimple developed in the most worst spot possible. Its right on the tip of my cheek bone, and since I've lost weight my cheek bones are very defined and the pimple just makes it look like I have a deformity. My scar on my right side of my face looks more deep because the pimple is raised right beside it. Ugh, oh well. Still happy that I am pretty much clear.
happy CRAPPY DAY
skipped work today, crying this morning.
I'm feeling really self-conscious today, just getting sick of that impatient feeling where you try a new treatment (esp. an expensive one) and are really exited about it and then... nothing, or worse. This community really helps though, it's great to see a range of beautiful (internally and externally) people who are dealing with this daily and it's pretty inspiring. It really is frustrating though, especially as I've always taken such good care of my skin, and someone the other day said to me: "why don't you do
something about it?" as if I'm not even trying. THAT got me down. ugh.
thanks for listening.
ok, like 2 mins after my last post:
I just went down to the store from some comfort food, and saw a woman I knew who had curled her hair and cut it shoulder length. I told her it looked great (it did) and she (who used to have long straight hair) said that she had done it cause she loved the way mine looked so much. Completely changed my day and cheered me up, proof that acne really isnt the end of the world, lots of people have it and while i know first-hand how crappy it can be, there are worse things that could happen.
I feel pretty bad - I was supposed to get a pot and some soil for my aloe vera (poor thing has been living in water only for quite a while) but the rough patches on the damn clustered spots + my dry skin made me stay at home + I missed a debate I really wanted to participate in.
Acne sux.
The only thing that prevents me into bursting into tears is the fact that even more acne may follow : D
Today I noticed that I waste so much time on the computer, looking fr remedies and creams...Its unbelievable /=
A week or two ago, I had my skin totally self destruct. I was waiting for one cyst to heal. When it was almost there, another one popped out. Then another one. Then another one.
Last weekend, I was like fuck it. It doesn't matter. I dropped my diet and my no drinking regimen, and lived it up.
Monday it was pretty bad. I got back on the diet, got some new herbal supplements, and iced the shit out of my face.
Today it's better. I hate to admit that my emotional state is dependent upon the way my skin looks, but I do feel better.
I'm thinking that only true self acceptance will allow my emotional state be completely independent from what my skin looks like, or from what other people think, or from things that happen.
happy CRAPPY DAY
skipped work today, crying this morning.
I'm feeling really self-conscious today, just getting sick of that impatient feeling where you try a new treatment (esp. an expensive one) and are really exited about it and then... nothing, or worse. This community really helps though, it's great to see a range of beautiful (internally and externally) people who are dealing with this daily and it's pretty inspiring. It really is frustrating though, especially as I've always taken such good care of my skin, and someone the other day said to me: "why don't you do
something about it?" as if I'm not even trying. THAT got me down. ugh.
thanks for listening.
ok, like 2 mins after my last post:
I just went down to the store from some comfort food, and saw a woman I knew who had curled her hair and cut it shoulder length. I told her it looked great (it did) and she (who used to have long straight hair) said that she had done it cause she loved the way mine looked so much. Completely changed my day and cheered me up, proof that acne really isnt the end of the world, lots of people have it and while i know first-hand how crappy it can be, there are worse things that could happen.
^that is a nice story about the hair 
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I feel fine regaring my skin, but with me the problem is deeper...m skin is pretty clear has been for a few months but I always find other stuff to focus on like how I hate my hair, how Im getting older, or feeling sad for no reason, I can define.
I guess Im just addicted to making myself feel like crap. Bad habit lol.
Good. Just got back from a trip in Mexico, and at first the humid weather reaked havoc with a white head war. But than, that cluster on ym cheek, thats been there since SPETEMBER 1st, is pretty mcuh gone, just some pigmentation, which i dont give a crap about:)
Only active pimple is one at my hiarline (its actually under my hair, so you cant see it....at all, even if i pull my hairback its up back there) OTherwise, helaing skin. And no its not perfect..whatevs. Last night and all today I went without concealer, i had red marks, but i wanted to reward my skin and let it breath, and let me tell you it look so great now. Its onwhere near perfect, Im just happy. And even when it was bad at first on this vaca i didnt let it bother me, I had a great time. Goes to show, sometimes if oyu just og have fu and let it be, it will be gone on its own. I just hope my skin stays this nice for school next week.....and this weekend. My tea tree oil was in a glass container and broke during the airplane ride so I am without spot treatment till I get to the health food store manana, whichi hope i can ASAP (just in case my skin decides to turn on me) Otherwise, all good. Im glad ot be home and im tired:)
Hey everyone!
I know most of you are frustrated today because of the acne you have...
Reality sucks - I know. However, like any normal human phase, acne is just a PHASE in life.
It may by the only thing as of the moment that makes your world turn..(Believe me, by the time you reach 40, acne will be the least of your concerns)
You may think that it's good for nothing - maybe, maybe not.
Look at it from different angles... not just on a physical note - spiritual, emotional - everything. And see what you come up.
I wish you all happiness in life... Good luck everyone!
God bless.
Today, although my cheeks have cleared (praise God!) and my forehead looks magnificent (cept for thistubburn papule on my hiarline, but when my hair is down and normal you cant see it) I am a wee frustrated with this zit on the side of my nostril, its a red one, but its not huge, just irritated. So that pissed me off a bit. One zit that will be gone in two days, so calm myself. The papule that you cant see still makes me mad, but you cant see it unless i pull all my hiar back far and lean into your face. Lol.
Today I feel a little bit sad. My face was 100% clear and my marks were fading, I started finally wearing just powder makeup on my face, so super excited. Then I woke up this morning and I have a fairly large pimple on my right cheek. 
boooo. Luckily it popped this morning, and will probably be gone tomorrow, but still makes me sad lol. Other then that I feel pretty good about my acne today since there is only 1 spot!
Well, the thing on my hiarline is going away. My scars are fading, but that one red irritated whitehead on the side of my nose is pissing ME OFFF. And I saw a reddish pigmentation on my cheek, and in the sun theres not a bump though. So I get those osmetimes, not relaly zits, you cant see them, specially with makeup, so Im just putting osme Tea Tree Oil on it so it wont turn into anything. Aside from that nostril zit IM pretty much clear. 