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WOOOOOOW Sydboi.
First, breathe. It can help. I swear haha.
Secondly, you are not a monster, or a psycho, or a crazy. You just have acne.
Have you changed something in your skin care, the last weeks? What made you cysts go away the last time they appeared?
Thanks for your kind words Mandarine. I'm not sure what has caused it. My cysts went away after doing some Photodynamic Therapy.
Regardless, I'm really at an all time low. The second time in my life that I started seeing someone (only been a few weeks anyway) and I have to stop seeing them. There has been a few mentions of skin. They talked about a friend eating so much chocolate and yet being so lucky to have clear skin.
Tonight, they spoke about not wanting to eat too much chocolate themselves,because it would ruin their complexion. Btw, their complexion is of course perfect.
I'm here, swollen with cysts, Hyperpigmentation, and pockmarks. I can't be with someone who actually thinks so much about complexion and skin,without always feeling crap beside them.
I hate life. I hate it. I hate it so much. I hate what acne does to our faces. I hate the stigma around it. I hate how it is always a weakness.
I'm sorry for my post guys. I'll stop posting depressing stuff.
Don't be sorry about that, man, seriously, we're all felt depressed at a moment, keep cool.
By the way, how do you feel today?
Personnally, my skin, right now, does not like Epiduo. At all.
It's like a sunburnt on my face. I had to go to the pub with a friend, tonight, but my skin was burning hell, so my friend comes to my red and dry face, here, at home. I asked her if it did not disturb her. She understood.
I prepared her psychologically to see that, she'll have to be brave haha
I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
I know the feeling! What works for me when nothing seems to be going right is to still get up and go. You'll begin to see that life still goes on Inspite of our skin condition
I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
Chin, mouth and left side of my face has become a landmine. I'm thinking of bringing back my no mirror rule. It's like a perpetual cycle. I break out, I feel depressed, I then eat crap, I break out more and the cycle starts again. This week has been especially trying too. I hate how I am breaking out in the exact same spots so that leaves room for those areas to have purple marks. Almost 3 months on my regimen and no consistent improvement to report. I haven't even had any good skin days in a while.
Nothing to do but keep on keeping on I suppose.
To all my fellow acne orgers, stay strong, stay focused, live your life and know that we are ALL apart of this struggle.
I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
I know the feeling! What works for me when nothing seems to be going right is to still get up and go. You'll begin to see that life still goes on Inspite of our skin condition
>I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
Chin, mouth and left side of my face has become a landmine. I'm thinking of bringing back my no mirror rule. It's like a perpetual cycle. I break out, I feel depressed, I then eat crap, I break out more and the cycle starts again. This week has been especially trying too. I hate how I am breaking out in the exact same spots so that leaves room for those areas to have purple marks. Almost 3 months on my regimen and no consistent improvement to report. I haven't even had any good skin days in a while.
Nothing to do but keep on keeping on I suppose.
To all my fellow acne orgers, stay strong, stay focused, live your life and know that we are ALL apart of this struggle.
Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it. I find it so hard to keep on going when my face is a mess. I had 3 weeks when my face was OK and I managed to do sooo much. I was able to go out, enjoy myself and sort out 2 job interviews which I need to attend tomorrow and on Thursday. My mood changes and depends on the state of my skin. I think I'm going crazy and need to seek some professional help as I really don't know how to cope emotionally.
I also know what you mean by a perpetual cycle. I'm the same. I don't know how to start a no mirror rule as I put lots of make up before I leave the house and go to work. Not a good day today! I just hope that I don't mess up the interview tomorrow because of the state of my face.
I feel terrible. I skipped college today, AGAIN. i already skipped 2 weeks and it's just the beggining of the semester. Really think i'm gonna fail. One of the worst things about acne is that it's so unpredictable. One day you're feeling ok and the next day seems like you can't even function. WTF?! So pissed right now. I mean, Does any scientist worry about acne? I mean, we have achieved so much but we can't find a cure for this crap???? Cant believe that
My skin HATES me! I pray every night for this nightmare to end. I just want to be able to live my life.
Hi Jasminevt,
I know how you feel. I sometimes skip work as I just can't show my face to anyone. It's horrible. I also don't understand why there's nothing out there that could cure acne. I mean there's accutane which I think I'll decide to take. I just can't imagine my face getting even more horrible for 6 months. How am I supposed to cope with that, I can't even cope with the state of my skin now.
The worst thing is that I don't want to look back at my life when I'm older and think that acne held me back which is happening now. I'm frustrated, angry and sick and tired of thinking about acne all the time. I also want this nightmare to end!!!!! Now!!!!!
I feel awful. I have this horrible idea that I can't leave my house because I feel like my face offends and disgusts people. So me being in public is rude. It's literally offensive for me to present my disfigured face in public in my mind.
I would never think that of someone else, but I've sadly given up on myself. I'm sick of waking up to spend an hour trying to fix my face with make up to look human, just to look like a monster. And I'm expected to still hold my head high? I've lost all my strength. I've barely left my house since December and I'm feeling really hopeless. My acne has subsided but the SCARS are destroying me. I've been treating my scars aggressively but I can't do anymore treatments for 12 weeks, I need to let my face rest and heal. I'm just tired, really. Tired and lonely and wishing I could find the courage to get back to living life. I just want to feel human again. To interact socially, to be able to even step up to a store clerk without wanting to crawl in a hole and die.
I was seeing a therapist for body dysmorphic disorder (the physical flaw doesn't have to be imagined, it can be real like my scars) but she just resigned...I really needed her. I have no one again.
Today I have a massive cyst sticking out on the side of my chin that no amount of makeup will conceal - it actually kind of highlights it. I feel disgusting and ashamed and embarassed. I am at work but can't wait to get home and see if I can pop that sucker. And I'm 100% sure that tomorrow won't be any better. My stomach is in a knot just thinking that I have to use public transit to get home with lots and lots of people very close to my face. I will avoid eye contact and keep my head down. It's my husband's birthday and I won't be able to be social or anything, I'll just run to the bedroom and turn off the lights and pretend I'm tired form my day at work so he doesn't have to look at me. Even he is avoiding looking at me... I wish he was working out of town like last fall...
I'm sorry not to quote anyone, it's just I don't succeed in doing that hoho...
Like you, I also skip school not to allow anyone to see my face when it is bad.
Concerning the scientists and cures, it's so incredible that sometimes nothing seems to work concerning acne! And it's like nobody cares, because acne is not considering as a serious illness. We agree, it does not kill, and there are so many worse diseases. But I think it can destroy you from the inside, psychologically.
And we are really all apart of this crap, because I thought I was the only person in the world feeling so ashamed and disgusting when my face is a mess and that I'm in public. I sincerely thought that public transit, its neon lighting, and all this people, so close to my skin, is a struggle. And even with people who are close to me, when I turn off the light, pretending I need to sleep, or when I say "Oh no, I cannot go out tonight, I'm tired". Such a good comedian, and so many liars!
I'm even unpleasant with people (yeah, I'm a total psycho haha!) and I cannot even be social when my skin is a disorder, whereas being like this, it's so not me!
Seriously, guys, you make me feel less alone, thanks.
I'm feeling pretty bad, the treatment I've been using stopped working like it use to, so I've been breaking out a little and have this big red pimple, which hurts, on my chin. Makeup does a really good job covering it up, but once it's off I'm still upset... Idk it's difficult. The hot and humid months are also starting to come, so that means even more trouble to come. I'm really hoping next week when school resumes my skin will looks passable up close.
I feel terrible. I skipped college today, AGAIN. i already skipped 2 weeks and it's just the beggining of the semester. Really think i'm gonna fail. One of the worst things about acne is that it's so unpredictable. One day you're feeling ok and the next day seems like you can't even function. WTF?! So pissed right now. I mean, Does any scientist worry about acne? I mean, we have achieved so much but we can't find a cure for this crap????
Cant believe that
My skin HATES me! I pray every night for this nightmare to end. I just want to be able to live my life.
As someone who suffered from acne all through college and who is still afflicted with it as a 31 year old woman, I can tell you acne is not worth your education. You'll regret not putting your all in if you end up quitting so please please please get up and go no matter what your acne says. There are days like today when my skin is so red, inflamed and breaking out and I just have to head out the door. It's depressing, sad and makes me feel ugly but I know deep down that once I get into the swing of the day, my acne takes a back seat, at least for a little while.
What are you studying? Keep on moving forward and prove to acne and yourself that you are a survivor.
I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
I know the feeling! What works for me when nothing seems to be going right is to still get up and go. You'll begin to see that life still goes on Inspite of our skin condition
>>I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
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Chin, mouth and left side of my face has become a landmine. I'm thinking of bringing back my no mirror rule. It's like a perpetual cycle. I break out, I feel depressed, I then eat crap, I break out more and the cycle starts again. This week has been especially trying too. I hate how I am breaking out in the exact same spots so that leaves room for those areas to have purple marks. Almost 3 months on my regimen and no consistent improvement to report. I haven't even had any good skin days in a while.
Nothing to do but keep on keeping on I suppose.
To all my fellow acne orgers, stay strong, stay focused, live your life and know that we are ALL apart of this struggle.
Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it. I find it so hard to keep on going when my face is a mess. I had 3 weeks when my face was OK and I managed to do sooo much. I was able to go out, enjoy myself and sort out 2 job interviews which I need to attend tomorrow and on Thursday. My mood changes and depends on the state of my skin. I think I'm going crazy and need to seek some professional help as I really don't know how to cope emotionally.
I also know what you mean by a perpetual cycle. I'm the same. I don't know how to start a no mirror rule as I put lots of make up before I leave the house and go to work. Not a good day today! I just hope that I don't mess up the interview tomorrow because of the state of my face.
How was the interview?
I feel terrible. I skipped college today, AGAIN. i already skipped 2 weeks and it's just the beggining of the semester. Really think i'm gonna fail. One of the worst things about acne is that it's so unpredictable. One day you're feeling ok and the next day seems like you can't even function. WTF?! So pissed right now. I mean, Does any scientist worry about acne? I mean, we have achieved so much but we can't find a cure for this crap????
My skin HATES me! I pray every night for this nightmare to end. I just want to be able to live my life.
As someone who suffered from acne all through college and who is still afflicted with it as a 31 year old woman, I can tell you acne is not worth your education. You'll regret not putting your all in if you end up quitting so please please please get up and go no matter what your acne says. There are days like today when my skin is so red, inflamed and breaking out and I just have to head out the door. It's depressing, sad and makes me feel ugly but I know deep down that once I get into the swing of the day, my acne takes a back seat, at least for a little while.
What are you studying? Keep on moving forward and prove to acne and yourself that you are a survivor.
I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!
I know the feeling! What works for me when nothing seems to be going right is to still get up and go. You'll begin to see that life still goes on Inspite of our skin condition
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>I've been crying the whole day today! 4 big cysts on my cheeks! Was supposed to go out and be at my friends birthday party today. Instead I'm at home on my own drinking wine and crying! I've got 2 job interviews next week and I really don't know how to cope emotionally when my face is a mess. Extremely depressed today!>
Chin, mouth and left side of my face has become a landmine. I'm thinking of bringing back my no mirror rule. It's like a perpetual cycle. I break out, I feel depressed, I then eat crap, I break out more and the cycle starts again. This week has been especially trying too. I hate how I am breaking out in the exact same spots so that leaves room for those areas to have purple marks. Almost 3 months on my regimen and no consistent improvement to report. I haven't even had any good skin days in a while.
Nothing to do but keep on keeping on I suppose.
To all my fellow acne orgers, stay strong, stay focused, live your life and know that we are ALL apart of this struggle.
Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it. I find it so hard to keep on going when my face is a mess. I had 3 weeks when my face was OK and I managed to do sooo much. I was able to go out, enjoy myself and sort out 2 job interviews which I need to attend tomorrow and on Thursday. My mood changes and depends on the state of my skin. I think I'm going crazy and need to seek some professional help as I really don't know how to cope emotionally.
I also know what you mean by a perpetual cycle. I'm the same. I don't know how to start a no mirror rule as I put lots of make up before I leave the house and go to work. Not a good day today! I just hope that I don't mess up the interview tomorrow because of the state of my face.
How was the interview?
Hi,
The interviews went very well, thanks for asking. I'm going back next week for a final discussion. I spent an hour on Monday, trying to cover up every single cyst and scar with make up. It's a good thing that I've got long hair as I was able to cover up my worse cheek. I'm tired of spending so much time in front of the mirror every single morning. I'll be stressed out once I start a new job. Meeting new people, facing new clients....horrible!!
Today I'm feeling very emotional. Is it the acne or the hormones (or both!). I feel like I have the worst friggin pimple in the history of dermatology. I know it's not the case and I don't mean any disrespect towards anyone (like the skinny girl that compains she's fat) but this is how I feel. You know the cold sore commercial where this girl walks around with a spot light shining right on her sore, that's how I feel today. The makeup is covering the redness all right but dang this thing it the size of the tip of my finger. I told my DH today that if I get even just one more pimple, I'm going straight to my GP for HRT (he diagnose me as pre-menopausal last time I was there, therefore my hormones are out of whack and I'm pretty sure that's what's causing the acne - that and being in week 7 of retin-a...). I just want to cry honnest to goodness I want to crawl under a rock. The sun is shining and I should be happy but it's like I'm a vampire (hiiiissss) the sun is not my friend as it makes my bumps the more visible.
Today I'm feeling very emotional. Is it the acne or the hormones (or both!). I feel like I have the worst friggin pimple in the history of dermatology. I know it's not the case and I don't mean any disrespect towards anyone (like the skinny girl that compains she's fat) but this is how I feel. You know the cold sore commercial where this girl walks around with a spot light shining right on her sore, that's how I feel today. The makeup is covering the redness all right but dang this thing it the size of the tip of my finger. I told my DH today that if I get even just one more pimple, I'm going straight to my GP for HRT (he diagnose me as pre-menopausal last time I was there, therefore my hormones are out of whack and I'm pretty sure that's what's causing the acne - that and being in week 7 of retin-a...). I just want to cry honnest to goodness I want to crawl under a rock. The sun is shining and I should be happy but it's like I'm a vampire (hiiiissss) the sun is not my friend as it makes my bumps the more visible.
What kind of imbalance do you have? I'm curious about the treatment options for hormonal issues. I only know about birth control and anti-androgen medicines. That's great that your husband is supportive though. Lol, I hate that we can't always enjoy the good weather like everyone else.
I feel okay about my skin. Some hyperpigmentation that's been bothering me has shown some improvement today. I tried apple cider vinegar for the first time and my skin feels good. Doesn't look good, as usual, but feels good.
Today will be the 4th month I've gone without going outside. I can barely remember the last time I hanged out with friends which was prior to my college's fall semester. I turned 20 soon and I'm glad do no one will know about it. My skin has gotten somewhat better on tazorac (3 month now) I hope it will be better during the 6th month mark. It kinda sucks watching other peers live out their lives on FB/Instagram.
Oh what could've been. My Occupation is "Shut-in".
Im at school right now and wont make eye contact with anyone. Im wearing makeup, but to me its just making my skin stand out more. It looks pretty bad today and i wish it would stop breaking out. I dont know whats wrong, im guessing new makeup, but its really upsetting. Im really afraid im just gonna leave, but school is important. I wish i could look people in the eye and not worry about their reaction when they see my skin. Ugh, being in college with acne sucks.
Today I'm feeling very emotional. Is it the acne or the hormones (or both!). I feel like I have the worst friggin pimple in the history of dermatology. I know it's not the case and I don't mean any disrespect towards anyone (like the skinny girl that compains she's fat) but this is how I feel. You know the cold sore commercial where this girl walks around with a spot light shining right on her sore, that's how I feel today. The makeup is covering the redness all right but dang this thing it the size of the tip of my finger. I told my DH today that if I get even just one more pimple, I'm going straight to my GP for HRT (he diagnose me as pre-menopausal last time I was there, therefore my hormones are out of whack and I'm pretty sure that's what's causing the acne - that and being in week 7 of retin-a...). I just want to cry honnest to goodness I want to crawl under a rock. The sun is shining and I should be happy but it's like I'm a vampire (hiiiissss) the sun is not my friend as it makes my bumps the more visible.
What kind of imbalance do you have? I'm curious about the treatment options for hormonal issues. I only know about birth control and anti-androgen medicines. That's great that your husband is supportive though. Lol, I hate that we can't always enjoy the good weather like everyone else.
I feel okay about my skin. Some hyperpigmentation that's been bothering me has shown some improvement today. I tried apple cider vinegar for the first time and my skin feels good. Doesn't look good, as usual, but feels good.
Kay24, it's the dreaded pre-menopause (I had blood work done to confirm). I'm only 43! But it can last up to 10 years. Apparently you are officially in your menopause once you have not had periods for 6 months. I'm at the 3 month mark now. Basically my body is not producing estrogen which means that there is an imbalance between than and androgen (and that's what would cause the acne). Not sure why my doc prescribed retin-a instead of... anything else really - making my acne worse (thanks to the IB). Anyways, there are some side effects related to estrogen replacement that makes me really wonder if I am desperate enough to go that route (breast cancer and uterine cancer among other). So I'm riding the wave, hoping that retin-a will start working on my acne at some point and trying to supplement with soy proein powder (which is supposed to boost your estrogen levels) and evening primerose oil for hot flashes. So far so good!
P.S. (I think my husband is supportive because he's scared - think PMS x 10!)
Feeling like a complete moron! Used apple cider vinegar as facial toner and then... went outside into the harsh spring sun with no sunscreen... Me, who got 4 fraxels lately. Who wants to get rid of scars... How can I be so careless, feeling so angry with myself. Probably I don't have to say that I've burned my face and treated area got inflamed red, broke out and even the rest of the face is not blotchy, with some mysterious painful spots. Harrrrrrr I should spank myself.
Today I'm feeling very emotional. Is it the acne or the hormones (or both!). I feel like I have the worst friggin pimple in the history of dermatology. I know it's not the case and I don't mean any disrespect towards anyone (like the skinny girl that compains she's fat) but this is how I feel. You know the cold sore commercial where this girl walks around with a spot light shining right on her sore, that's how I feel today. The makeup is covering the redness all right but dang this thing it the size of the tip of my finger. I told my DH today that if I get even just one more pimple, I'm going straight to my GP for HRT (he diagnose me as pre-menopausal last time I was there, therefore my hormones are out of whack and I'm pretty sure that's what's causing the acne - that and being in week 7 of retin-a...). I just want to cry honnest to goodness I want to crawl under a rock. The sun is shining and I should be happy but it's like I'm a vampire (hiiiissss) the sun is not my friend as it makes my bumps the more visible.
What kind of imbalance do you have? I'm curious about the treatment options for hormonal issues. I only know about birth control and anti-androgen medicines. That's great that your husband is supportive though. Lol, I hate that we can't always enjoy the good weather like everyone else.
I feel okay about my skin. Some hyperpigmentation that's been bothering me has shown some improvement today. I tried apple cider vinegar for the first time and my skin feels good. Doesn't look good, as usual, but feels good.
Kay24, it's the dreaded pre-menopause (I had blood work done to confirm). I'm only 43! But it can last up to 10 years. Apparently you are officially in your menopause once you have not had periods for 6 months. I'm at the 3 month mark now. Basically my body is not producing estrogen which means that there is an imbalance between than and androgen (and that's what would cause the acne). Not sure why my doc prescribed retin-a instead of... anything else really - making my acne worse (thanks to the IB). Anyways, there are some side effects related to estrogen replacement that makes me really wonder if I am desperate enough to go that route (breast cancer and uterine cancer among other). So I'm riding the wave, hoping that retin-a will start working on my acne at some point and trying to supplement with soy proein powder (which is supposed to boost your estrogen levels) and evening primerose oil for hot flashes. So far so good!
P.S. (I think my husband is supportive because he's scared - think PMS x 10!)
Haha, it'll be nice to say goodbye to periods though. I understand, to a degree. I have pcos and high androgen levels are the bane of my existence. Are anti androgen drugs like spiro an option when you're pre menopausal?
Pianina, sunscreen can be so easy to forget!! I did it once right after a peel. Cucumber is always my go to when I need to sooth burnt, irritated skin.
I don't know how I feel about ACV, I just started using it and it's making me a bit oily. I'm going to keep it up though. I feel icky overall about my acne today. I got two zits on my jawline, right where all my worst scars are, and I know it's from consuming dairy. Sometimes I get away with ice cream, but I didn't this time at all. Every little blemish gives me so much anxiety because I have so much damage I'm trying to repair. So much hyperpigmetation, so many rolling/boxcar scars. Even the slightest addition to this mess makes me anxiety ridden. I watch tv and kind of obsess over how perfect people's skin is, even on reality tv. It's a reminder that even on a good day I'm still in bad shape.
Feeling like I need to transfer my focus to accepting my acne than trying to fight it. I am three months into a topical and holistic regimen and I'm broken out right now- it's been worse but it's still pretty bad. It sucks to be that woman with acne but maybe by allowing myself to acknowledge what is, I can finally rid myself of the ridiculous hold acne has on me.
I took a picture of my scars in harsh lighting. Mod edit I've been so optimistic because my scars are looking better in flattering lighting. I'm just scared honestly. I'm scared my life is over because of this. I'm scared no one will ever love me again, I'll never have a career, people will always be disgusted by my devastatingly scarred face.
I just have to stay hopeful. I'm doing everything I can and need to start researching more expensive treatments to save for. I'm a little scared about visiting a doctor. I feel like they'd be harsh and mean and I'm so sensitive about this. Scared is all I feel today.