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A lot of you guys seem to be doing better all the sudden. That's awesome! 
I'm trying to decide where I should go from here. It sucks that like Pianina, my boyfriend and I are in such an unstable situation. But it's also good in a way, because it reminds you that life can always change and that I won't necessarily be stuck in the same circumstances 5 years from now. Life here is comfortable (when me and him aren't fighting) but I'm not 100 percent sure if it's the life I want. I'm 30 years old. I don't know if I'm ready to retire and live out my days in the North Carolina woods, as nice as that sounds sometimes... part of me still craves excitement, big cities, etc. I know for a fact my boyfriend doesn't want anything like that.
I don't know if we're meant for long-term relationships. I used to believe that, and then I met him and everything changed. I'm back to believing it now, unfortunately. It just seems like humans change so much and are totally different within a 3 years span so how can anyone know something is "forever?" Obviously people don't or there wouldn't be so many divorces.
But it's scary the thought of being single... I know 30 isn't exactly OLD but it is old to the point where a lot of people my age are already married/have kids etc. I'd probably need to find some dude in his 40s or 50s so he would think I was young and pretty still, haha.
Sorry for rambling. Just contemplating stuff. My skin is still doing okay. I decided to hold off on using the AHA+ every other night because it burned pretty badly the last time I used it. Maybe being out in the sun all day had something to do with it.
A lot of you guys seem to be doing better all the sudden. That's awesome!
I'm trying to decide where I should go from here. It sucks that like Pianina, my boyfriend and I are in such an unstable situation. But it's also good in a way, because it reminds you that life can always change and that I won't necessarily be stuck in the same circumstances 5 years from now. Life here is comfortable (when me and him aren't fighting) but I'm not 100 percent sure if it's the life I want. I'm 30 years old. I don't know if I'm ready to retire and live out my days in the North Carolina woods, as nice as that sounds sometimes... part of me still craves excitement, big cities, etc. I know for a fact my boyfriend doesn't want anything like that.
I don't know if we're meant for long-term relationships. I used to believe that, and then I met him and everything changed. I'm back to believing it now, unfortunately. It just seems like humans change so much and are totally different within a 3 years span so how can anyone know something is "forever?" Obviously people don't or there wouldn't be so many divorces.
But it's scary the thought of being single... I know 30 isn't exactly OLD but it is old to the point where a lot of people my age are already married/have kids etc. I'd probably need to find some dude in his 40s or 50s so he would think I was young and pretty still, haha.
Sorry for rambling. Just contemplating stuff. My skin is still doing okay. I decided to hold off on using the AHA+ every other night because it burned pretty badly the last time I used it. Maybe being out in the sun all day had something to do with it.
Big changes are frightening; especially for those of us who tend to get attached to places, people and possessions. My boyfriend will go away for the whole year, no matter if we stay together or not and I'll have to search for a new place to live, learn to be without him around and I would give anything to keep everything as it is now. But we all fall victim to circumstances and can't rely on anything besides ourselves - drastic changes can happen any time and we have to be ready... At the end I think there is no escape from pain and sorrow that life brings, just acceptance... ;(
Dejaclairvoyant, just be honest to yourself and think which option will leave you with less regrets. Cause regretting is the cancer of the mind, nothing destroys a person more than regret and doubts... 30 is not much, here in Sweden most people marry and create families when they're way over 30 years old
Bent, definitely bent but not broken............Can't believe its going to be 2 years in July since my acne returned. Still struggling to find the missing pieces of the puzzle. Trying to not get down about my skin. Acne has already taken 2 summers away from me, not content to let it destroy a third without a fight
Here's what went through my mind when I saw her... Or at least some of it as I have to keep it "safe for work". So here's some inside information for those people going around wondering what's for instance in people's minds when they look at you. So...I thought she had a nice top on. It was black and looked really nice... And she had nice hair (it was a bit scruffy haha). And nice breasts. And I thought she was maybe 5 foot 5 or 5 foot 6 or so... In any case she had a nice height. She was perhaps a bit shorter than average which I liked. haha She was cute. Anyway, we had brief eye contact and during this I thought "I hope she isn't bothered by the fact that we have this unintentional eye contact as I don't want to make her uncomfortable.".
So there you go! People may just be thinking all sorts of nice (and lustful) things.
On 4/25/2013 at 8:27 PM, Lapis lazuli said:I saw a woman in the supermarket today who had very visible acne scarring and maybe even some active acne...and I thought she was hot.
I've mentioned stuff like this before but it happened again today so I thought I'd share.
If that girl today knew what was in my mind she'd be amused. I assume. lol But hardly any of it could be noticed from just looking at me. I also have serious crushes on about...six women where I work but none of them know. lol
Whenever I go to the store with my boyfriend he claims that people "check me out" when I'm not looking. I rarely, if ever, see any evidence of this. It makes me think that a lot of us get checked out and don't even realize it.
If that girl today knew what was in my mind she'd be amused. I assume. lol But hardly any of it could be noticed from just looking at me. I also have serious crushes on about...six women where I work but none of them know. lol
Make that seven. I just remembered someone else. 
This woman is a dietitian and she's really tall. Which is cool too. She's like... She must be 6 foot 3? She's taller than me anyway and I'm 6 foot tall. But she's really cool... She used to have a lighter color hair but now it's really dark... Almost black. And I love it. I noticed right away. I almost went to her to say I liked her hair but I never did as I didn't want to come across as a weirdo. lol I mean I never had much contact with her but she sure is attractive. And she seems really laid back and cool...and genuine. Last week we walked past each other, made eye contact, and cautiously smiled at each other. Like we were saying "Hey... Hey how are you?".
I should stop else I'll just write a book about all these women... I mean I just remembered two more. Seriously. lol So that's...nine. No less than nine crushes! 
Hey guys. I'm 28 and suffered (actually I should say ALLOWED myself to suffer) from acne for many many years in the past. I think the title of this thread is great. "Wake up" is a great way of putting it cause in a way, metaphorically and literally, we are still asleep. A little acceptance goes a long way. As a matter of fact, by learning to accept your "condition" and letting go - you've taken the first and most crucial step in recovery, aka awakening. I'm not talking about anything spiritual or mystical. The proof shows in your physical appearance as well as in your mental state. Make the choice! No one else can do it for you. The sooner you realize that there is no such product or piece of information out there that can make you deeply satisfied with yourself, the better.
Following your passion is by far the best way to "heal". Whatever damage you think you may have done already or whatever time you think you've wasted, leave it behind. DROP IT! Look at what you've gained through the suffering. I repeat: LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE GAINED THROUGH THE SUFFERING.
The lessons you've learned through dealing with your condition are priceless. You've gained wisdom, or whatever you want to call it. Emotional intelligence, the ability to look deeply within yourself and others. These characteristics, and many others which you've learned, will serve you well. We all know how shallow and ignorant and selfish and etc people can be, esp those who haven't had a taste of suffering like we have. But we mustn't wish suffering on them. That doesn't solve the problem. The "problem " is our own perception. simple. our own perception.
Here is the highlight of my post: Once we learn to shift our perception of ourselves, the result will be a shift in perception towards everyone and everything else. Nothing at all, esp some silly skin flaw, can take away at all from the joy of having control of yourself, your thoughts, and your emotions.
THIS IS YOUR LIFE PEOPLE. NO ONE ELSE'S!!!! good luck
If that girl today knew what was in my mind she'd be amused. I assume. lol But hardly any of it could be noticed from just looking at me. I also have serious crushes on about...six women where I work but none of them know. lol
Whenever I go to the store with my boyfriend he claims that people "check me out" when I'm not looking. I rarely, if ever, see any evidence of this. It makes me think that a lot of us get checked out and don't even realize it.
>>If that girl today knew what was in my mind she'd be amused. I assume. lol But hardly any of it could be noticed from just looking at me. I also have serious crushes on about...six women where I work but none of them know. lol
Make that seven. I just remembered someone else.
This woman is a dietitian and she's really tall. Which is cool too. She's like... She must be 6 foot 3? She's taller than me anyway and I'm 6 foot tall. But she's really cool... She used to have a lighter color hair but now it's really dark... Almost black. And I love it. I noticed right away. I almost went to her to say I liked her hair but I never did as I didn't want to come across as a weirdo. lol I mean I never had much contact with her but she sure is attractive. And she seems really laid back and cool...and genuine. Last week we walked past each other, made eye contact, and cautiously smiled at each other. Like we were saying "Hey... Hey how are you?".
I should stop else I'll just write a book about all these women... I mean I just remembered two more. Seriously. lol So that's...nine. No less than nine crushes!
I like tall women! I am 6'2 and I like women around my height. As far as I am concerned, I don't have any crush on any woman ;\. I work at a warehouse instead of stores. I can't seem to meet girls in college! I am a senior and I haven't met anyone.. 
. They are either taken or talking to someone else because they never look at me ^^
I used to work in a warehouse! So you never know who you might meet at work.
As far as women not looking at you, remember what we just discussed. People check people out/crush on them without them even knowing, and most women are better than men at being secretive about it. So ghostunit, there might be someone crushing on you without you even being aware.
On 4/26/2013 at 8:20 PM, nakedsmurf said:College is easy to pick up ladies
Of course you have to put in work.
If the mountain don't come to you, you go to the mountain.
Easy for you to say!! A confident guy thinks that. I am very shy so I think it is difficult to pick up ladies
On 4/26/2013 at 10:23 PM, dejaclairevoyant said:I used to work in a warehouse! So you never know who you might meet at work.
As far as women not looking at you, remember what we just discussed. People check people out/crush on them without them even knowing, and most women are better than men at being secretive about it. So ghostunit, there might be someone crushing on you without you even being aware.
Ha ha. There are some girls where I work in the warehouse. I agree with you, I don't make eye contact because then I will make an expression.. like a big smile or something. Thus, I just look straight ahead. ;\ I do make eye contact with anyone and smile, but not at young pretty girls ;\
Skin update: Pretty blah today. Forehead is clear, cheeks are clear, but I've been breaking out around my upper lip and my chin area. I have two big cysts around my chin that hurt like hell. Shaving is becoming a chore because it seems like I always get new breakouts in that area every damn time I have to shave.
And Ghost, don't feel bad. I can't seem to meet girls anywhere, including work or social outings. Girls never look at me or approach me either
I workout I break out worse so I stop working out and I get really skinny so I get depressed cause now I'm skinny and still breaking out but not as inflamed. Since I don't work out stress builds up giving me extreme anxiety causing me to freak the fuck out cause I dont know what the fuck to do anymore fuck, finals are getting here even more stress= more breakouts= more depression. I want to turn into a bird and fly away.
Skin update: Pretty blah today. Forehead is clear, cheeks are clear, but I've been breaking out around my upper lip and my chin area. I have two big cysts around my chin that hurt like hell. Shaving is becoming a chore because it seems like I always get new breakouts in that area every damn time I have to shave.
And Ghost, don't feel bad. I can't seem to meet girls anywhere, including work or social outings. Girls never look at me or approach me either
I also keep breaking out around mouth! it is frustrating. I do get zits on cheeks, but not one of those that leaves mark that take so long to heal 'till it becomes a scar. It could be because I am starting to dislike my job which makes me stressed out 
Seems like we don't make eye contact with women at all!! A single woman would certainly look at us. ^^;; It is hard for me to make eye contact with girls!;\
@Flagglives: Didn't you break contact with a woman or start seeing her less because you were having trouble dealing with your acne/fears? 
Anyway, I work in a hospital so therefore I run into women who actually care if anyone lives or dies. That may have something to do with it. 
Also I was approached by a woman where I work recently who said she had noticed me. So I said "Well we could always go for a drink?". And so we did. We went out (During which we ate some brownies and drank Fanta. Yeah!) and then later she came to me at work and said she had liked the evening so we exchanged phone numbers and now I plan on calling her to ask her to go to a cool Greek restaurant there is out here. But you know, it's a purely platonic thing. There's no mutual attraction in certain ways and it's clear also that she and I look at certain things way too differently so even if there was a mutual attraction we wouldn't be compatible anyway. Anyway, it just goes to show you that when you're forward like she was with me it doesn't always end up in an unpleasant situation.
@Flagglives: Didn't you break contact with a woman or start seeing her less because you were having trouble dealing with your acne/fears?
Anyway, I work in a hospital so therefore I run into women who actually care if anyone lives or dies. That may have something to do with it.
Also I was approached by a woman where I work recently who said she had noticed me. So I said "Well we could always go for a drink?". And so we did. We went out (During which we ate some brownies and drank Fanta. Yeah!) and then later she came to me at work and said she had liked the evening so we exchanged phone numbers and now I plan on calling her to ask her to go to a cool Greek restaurant there is out here. But you know, it's a purely platonic thing. There's no mutual attraction in certain ways and it's clear also that she and I look at certain things way too differently so even if there was a mutual attraction we wouldn't be compatible anyway. Anyway, it just goes to show you that when you're forward like she was with me it doesn't always end up in an unpleasant situation.
I hope to meet women once I get into the Nutritional science program. I like girls who are interested in Nutrition! I am glad you're dating someone!
I've been learning on YouTube on how to tell if a woman is interested in you. It is pretty helpful for when I start dating.
We're not dating. At least not in the sense that we're, you know, having amourous thoughts or anything... We're just people spending time together. 
Nutrition, eh? Every dietitian I ever met I thought was a really nice person... And I like I said that one dietitian at work is taller than you. 
I'm just joking.
Do you have any links to these YouTube videos that you're watching?
@Flagglives: Didn't you break contact with a woman or start seeing her less because you were having trouble dealing with your acne/fears?
Anyway, I work in a hospital so therefore I run into women who actually care if anyone lives or dies. That may have something to do with it.
I hope to meet women once I get into the Nutritional science program. I like girls who are interested in Nutrition! I am glad you're dating someone!
I've been learning on YouTube on how to tell if a woman is interested in you. It is pretty helpful for when I start dating.
So I've found if I wash my face once a week, drying it out completely, then spending two days with a red, oily face, and then going back to just rinsing in the shower or not showering at all for the rest of the week, it works well. Those two days suck, but if I don't dry it out once a week I start breaking out.