Hi ,

Sorry to hear that it's taking such an emotional toll on you. I've also suffered from acne, ranging from cystic acne to constant breakouts/cysts. Years of that also has led me to permanent scarring which affects me heavily to this day. I can't really give any professional advice as to how to remedy the acne, I can only speak from personal experience. I recently went to the dermatologist and I got prescriped some Differin and that seemed to work relatively well for my breakouts. In addition , if you haven't already, try and clean up your diet and go on fasts. 

Hope that helps , and hang in there because I know how mentally tough acne can be!