Hi! im a 19 year old female who's been dealing with severe acne since the age of 11 or 12. I've tried absolutely everything to get rid of it or at least lessen the severity of it- Dermatologist visits, diet change, exercise and lifestyle changes in general, topical and oral medications prescribed by dermatologist, OTC ointments and cleansers and masks and scrubs and exfoliants and on the spot treatments , I drink a ton of water every day, change my bed sheets and pillow cases almost daily, and am sure not to touch my face.  I have become extremely self conscious of my skin and my skin condition is on my mind literally all hours or the day and I know stressing about it doesn't help. I wake up every day with more bumps under my skin or another whitehead. Every. Single. Day. I have no confidence because of my acne .i cannot leave my house without putting makeup on, which is only about twice a week. (I wear makeup that's safe for acne prone skin and all products I use are  safe for acne prone ,sensitive skin, and I am extra careful to be sure to get all makeup off as soon as I get home). 

Even though makeup covers redness and discoloration and the reddish/purpleish scarring from the acne, it obviously doesn't cover texture. My skin is just very bumpy. It's like bumpy "blind pimples" under my skin that haven't come to a head yet so they arent whiteheads. I notice it especially when I'm examining my face in the mirror upclose and with my phone's flashlight on my face to really see everything.  If I pick and pick and try hard enough to pop them ,they'll pop but it'll also leave a nasty bloody, wet scab from picking it to a raw pulp which is even harder  ,sometimes impossible ,to cover with makeup since it leaks through makeup (luckily I've been able to control my urge to pick and pick and pick at my face lately) 

But my skin is just bumpy and with makeup you can still see the bumpy texture. The texture I think even looks worse with makeup on. What is this? They're mostly on my chin and jawline and cheek area. I do a microdermabrasion face mask once or twice a week, or basically  whenever I wear makeup after I take it off at the end of the day. The mask I use is from a company called "e-ra organics" I think. And it comes in a small white bottle labeled "revive microdermabrasion". It exfoliates with the beads in it and makes sure all makeup and dirt is out of my skin

On top of my generally bumpy skin texture I still get those red bumps up on my skin that aren't quite a head yet but aren't below the surface anymore. I usually end up popping them anyway as it's easier to pop and if done right don't leave  scab. but when I do pop anything I make sure I use a clean needle and tissue/toilet paper and clean hands and I wash my face after wards. The condition of my skin is very frustrating but I'm really concerned mainly now about the bumpy texture. what is it? What can I do about it? Any products to help my skin texture ?