AH guys my derm told me I had to fast for my next blood test, which is today. I'M. SO. HUNGRRYYYY.

I sound like such a pig, but hey I'm a girl that likes her food, what can I say. Thank god for high metabolisms though

But seriously, how do some people do this for like super long periods of time? Like Mayans or something.. (sorry, never was really a big history buff... 0.o ) haha but it's only bad cuz my dad just made breakfast burritos and they smell delicious.. Jerks

 

Hah, that sucks. I HAVE to eat in the morning as well. But for blood tests, I just wake up in the morning and get to the blood test place ASAP so I can come back home and eat lol.

Okay guys so I'm back, and finally have food in my stomach. AHHHH. Haha just kidding, it wasn't that bad. I've had to fast a couple times before and I was totally, fine but i still don't like doing it. For some reason when you're not allowed to eat, food just becomes so much more tempting... Guess that's why they say everyone wants what they can't have After I was done though i went and got a big 'ole juicy BLT I hope my blood work comes out all good!

I gotta say though I am the biggest wimp when it comes to needles. My mom always says how surprised she is that I agreed to Accutane cuz of all the blood work you have to get done. But I have gone through so much now for clear skin, so this is just another thing, but this is the one I'm thinking will finally work. But anyways, i went in and it was a different girl this time and she had this big ole fatty needle ready for me (probably wasn't really that big, but to my eyes looked enormous) and i was like "whoaahh who do you think you are lady?! I DEMAND the baby needle!"

Okay, okay.. I didn't really say that. Haha i actually sounded more like a pitiful little girl scared for her life. I think she saw the same thing and laughed and said of course. Phewww, made things much easier. Didn't hurt a bit!

Anyone else like this with needles? Nope, just me? Yeah thought so.... haha

 

AH guys my derm told me I had to fast for my next blood test, which is today. I'M. SO. HUNGRRYYYY.

 

I sound like such a pig, but hey I'm a girl that likes her food, what can I say. Thank god for high metabolisms though

But seriously, how do some people do this for like super long periods of time? Like Mayans or something.. (sorry, never was really a big history buff... 0.o ) haha but it's only bad cuz my dad just made breakfast burritos and they smell delicious.. Jerks

 

Ahahah that made me laugh I seriously eat 200 pounds of food a day, I LOVE FOOOD. I have a high metabolism too, but I'm afraid it might just catch up with me when I get older.. if so, be prepared to see Taylor on the news as being the fattest woman in the world. I could never even go a day without eating, I seriously think I have a problem haha! My dad is making me some toast, eggs, and bacon mmmm, sorry just had to rub that in a little bit!

I don't have much time to update on everything at the moment, but all i have to say is I'm just really down about my face right now I was so positive about having no IB and I think I just got my hopes up way too much.. Cuz i started getting zits coming up everywhere like usual again, and these nasty blackheads that won't go away still. No matter how much makeup I put on it just makes it look worse too, it's annoying. I know its still soo early in my course, but I guess I just got pretty excited too soon for nothing. And just one of those days I guess.

My skin is so flaky, it looks horrible. I went swimming yesterday and when I got out and looked in the mirror I just wanted to cry. It looked all red and peely (is that a word?) and cracked everywhere. I can't wait till I can swim without thinking about how my face looks the whole entire time. Acne just always ruins everything. Ugh sorry, Im probably putting you all to sleep, but just needed to vent a little i guess. My family is sick of hearing me always complaining about my face so this is kinda the only place to talk about it ha

Anyways, here are some pictures I took this morning with lotss of makeup on and it still looks this bad. This was like right after i applied it but a pretty good amount of zits are still really noticeable. For some reason I can't even cover up some of them on my cheeks anymore cuz they're so red and gross. And you can see on my chin how dry it is.

It will get better Hun! Hang in there, I know how shitty the IB is. I'm still having mine and I'm 2 1/2 months into mine, I swear it's getting better and BAM it's like a bomb were off on my damn face the next morning. I think I am jinxing myself. I start to get hope and acne comes to slap me in the face again. We will win this stupid war though!

Your chin doesnt look bad to me, it will clear up soon! Think positive and things will turn around. Don't stress about it too much you might cause another breakout...

I have stopped bitching to my family about my face, I just complain on here. I am the only one is my family with acne so no one understand it anyways.

It will get better Hun! Hang in there, I know how shitty the IB is. I'm still having mine and I'm 2 1/2 months into mine, I swear it's getting better and BAM it's like a bomb were off on my damn face the next morning. I think I am jinxing myself. I start to get hope and acne comes to slap me in the face again. We will win this stupid war though!

Your chin doesnt look bad to me, it will clear up soon! Think positive and things will turn around. Don't stress about it too much you might cause another breakout...

I have stopped bitching to my family about my face, I just complain on here. I am the only one is my family with acne so no one understand it anyways.

 

Thanks girl<3 I don't really think I'll get an IB actually. Cuz im into week 4 now and I still haven't, but who knows. My fingers are crossed. It did get better for a week or two though, then just went back to how its always been though which really dissapointed me. Nothing horrible, just like how it usually is before I had that nice little no actives time. Ha and thanks, I hope my chin will clear soon. It's looking better today, but still SOO dry. But in a weird way I like it, cuz im so used to super nasty oily looking skin. But im sorry you're skin is still breaking out too But yes we will win this!!

Yeah Im just gonna try not to stress about it too much for now, cuz you're right, itll probably just make it worse. And same here! Im the ONLY one who has had acne like this. I just don't get it.. :l It's especially annoying having a sister thats two years younger than me and everyone asks us if we're twins everywhere we go, yet she has flawless skin, and I have.. this.

So I went to my derm today for the first time since being on my Accutane. It went great. Whoo!

I was kinda nervous they were gonna bump me up cuz they asked to weigh me, but they said I still weigh the same and they're keeping me on 40mg. My derm also said I was clearing up for sure. Hmm I didn't think so, but probably cuz I look at my face everyday at least like 50 times. Haha, but that's nice to hear! Also he said my blood work was "perfect", which is also nice. How's everyone else out there doing??

Oh and I doubt any of you care about this at all since you don't know me out there in the real world, haha but after dying my hair dark brown for the past 5 years of my life I'm back to my natural blonde! I'm sharing this cuz I just wanted to say it's nice to add something new to your look that you really like, because it makes you feel a lot better about yourself and I've been loving my hair and getting tons of compliments, so my focus hasn't been about my acne as much these past couple days. So any of you out there who are feeling down about your looks or anything should go do something nice for yourself. haha

As you can see from my default picture with the brown, it is much lighter now in the ones below! I decided to put 2 up just cuz these are the only ones I've taken with my new hair so far so I put both up. And the first ones from my cell with worse quality, then the other is from my actual camera.

Haha but you might be thinking my skin looks really nice, but that's the beauty of lots and lotss of makeup and good lighting In real life, like not in pictures, it unfortunately doesn't look this good even with all the makeup :/

Wtf your fricken gorgeous . *hates on you.

I'm sorry your breaking out still though ;( It'll be over before you know it.

I'm at that stage where errthang is being pushed out from my pores, especially a TON of blackheads! Me no likie ;( I haven't touched my face all day except to wash it cause I HATE the texture

Acne, acne, go away, don't come again any day!

I love the hair! Your are so pretty! Acne or no acne! It is good to do something for yourself!!

So I went to my derm today for the first time since being on my Accutane. It went great. Whoo!

I was kinda nervous they were gonna bump me up cuz they asked to weigh me, but they said I still weigh the same and they're keeping me on 40mg. My derm also said I was clearing up for sure. Hmm I didn't think so, but probably cuz I look at my face everyday at least like 50 times. Haha, but that's nice to hear! Also he said my blood work was "perfect", which is also nice. How's everyone else out there doing??

Oh and I doubt any of you care about this at all since you don't know me out there in the real world, haha but after dying my hair dark brown for the past 5 years of my life I'm back to my natural blonde! I'm sharing this cuz I just wanted to say it's nice to add something new to your look that you really like, because it makes you feel a lot better about yourself and I've been loving my hair and getting tons of compliments, so my focus hasn't been about my acne as much these past couple days. So any of you out there who are feeling down about your looks or anything should go do something nice for yourself. haha

As you can see from my default picture with the brown, it is much lighter now in the ones below! I decided to put 2 up just cuz these are the only ones I've taken with my new hair so far so I put both up. And the first ones from my cell with worse quality, then the other is from my actual camera.

Haha but you might be thinking my skin looks really nice, but that's the beauty of lots and lotss of makeup and good lighting In real life, like not in pictures, it unfortunately doesn't look this good even with all the makeup :/

 

That's good that you derm appointment went well.

And oh my goodness you are so pretty!! You can pull off light or dark hair.

Wtf your fricken gorgeous . *hates on you.

I'm sorry your breaking out still though ;( It'll be over before you know it.

I'm at that stage where errthang is being pushed out from my pores, especially a TON of blackheads! Me no likie ;( I haven't touched my face all day except to wash it cause I HATE the texture

Acne, acne, go away, don't come again any day!

 

Hahah awh thankyou! You're gorgeous as well! Yeah I really hope it's over soon.. things are just the same pretty much right now still. ME TOO, sooo many blackheads still! Just my nose only though at least, but gah it just looks icky to me. I hate mine too, the textures all bumpy and gross Haha yeah it definitely go away and never come back!!

Beautiful Disasters: Thanks so much Yeah I completely agree! I am just usually always too stubborn to do new nice stuff cuz I think my skin will still look so bad so why even bother on anything else? :/ Ha but I gotta stop thinking like that. Hopefully I won't even have to worry about acne anymore though sometime somewhat soon.

kaydon: Yeah I was kinda nervous, but I'm superr glad everything went good. Something less to stress about. Haha and awh thank you

All of my blackheads were being pushed to the surface too, & Taylor, I read on your log that it felt sandpaper-y, I had been trying to explain that forever & thats the prfect way! Get pore strips!!!!! I was scared b/c my skin is sensitive right now, but it was so worth it, I did it right after I showered so my pores were all open & literally 90% of them came out completely! It felt so good to look at the stip afterwards and be like, that was in my face, but now its not, mwuah ha so do it, you'll both me happy!

& NeedAMiracle, you are gorgeous

I go in for my second appt tomorrow, hoping month 3 is my miracle month!

I have been thinking about pore strips. I think I might pick some up, get these black heads off my nose. Yuck

I want to try those pore strips for my nosee. Would it rip off the skin though with it being so fragile right now? Taylor scared...

I thought it would make my nose peel and hurt but it totally didn't! & my face has been pink and sensitive for a couple weeks now.

Just make sure you dont leave it on too long, my friend i was doing it with left it on longer than me b/c she thought it would grab more

but she ended up just having to put hot water on it and she didnt get to pull it off. So follow the instructions & you'll be fine ))

let me know how it works & how happy you are when all those nasty pores are cleaned out!!

needamiracle, your skin is looking awesome! The pore strip idea sounds great.. will definitely go out and buy some of those as soon as I start seeing blackheads!

Sorry I've been pretty boring and slow on the updates lately guys. I've been soo busy, with school, friends, family coming in to town, shopping for mothers day stuff, and getting stuff for PROM this weekend So yeahh, and actually theres nothing new at all to even write about. Everything's just the same for now.. When anything crazy starts to happen I'll let ya know!

All of my blackheads were being pushed to the surface too, & Taylor, I read on your log that it felt sandpaper-y, I had been trying to explain that forever & thats the prfect way! Get pore strips!!!!! I was scared b/c my skin is sensitive right now, but it was so worth it, I did it right after I showered so my pores were all open & literally 90% of them came out completely! It felt so good to look at the stip afterwards and be like, that was in my face, but now its not, mwuah ha so do it, you'll both me happy!

 

& NeedAMiracle, you are gorgeous

I go in for my second appt tomorrow, hoping month 3 is my miracle month!

 

DAY 30! ONE MONTH DOWN!

Now that I'm finally home and have some free time I thought it was about time for a real update. And today has been a month now, so perfect time for one!

I can pretty much describe everything in one word... DRY.

My lips are so chapped, they burn when I go a little while without putting chap stick on. They're SO flaky and look gross too. My boyfriend is probably disgusted with me... haha just kidding, but they're not too attractive.. My face is so dry and I have flakes all over my chin and under my nose. It's like hard to move my face actually cuz it's so tight when I get out of the shower. It's a lot better when i moisturize though, but later in the day it starts to flake again. I have little patches on my elbows too of like dry skin which is icky.. You can't really see it, just feels like alligator skin or something.. yeah i know, ew.

Still have the back pain. It can be unbearable at times, but I'm like getting used to it now I guess.. I have been a little more tired lately, but eh nothing too bad. I still always stay up late, im such a night owl and always have been. Ha and as for my skin, nothing new. Still just having a consistent breakout like usual. I never got an IB though which is good. Or if I did, it was superrr mild. I honestly feel so much pain for those who had an awful initial breakout.. I really do <3

Prom is this Saturday and I'm like praying I don't get a big breakout in the next few days. I woke up this morning with a new little bugger between my eyes, like between my forehead and nose area and I want it gone NOW. Do any of you guys have a spot that you just HATE breaking out on specifically? Yeah well right there is mine

I just hope month two now will bring some changes and I'll finallyy start seeing some kind of clearness happening!

It's so crazy.. but I just updated my log and our side effects are the fricken sameee! Every bit of them! Are you sure we aren't long lost twins!? I also have one in between my eyes and forehead and its small, but I can see it from the side of my eyes and its soooo annoying. I got a big honker on my forehead in the middle and its the only one so it's very noticeable GRRR.

i hope you're doing okay! I'm also a night owl

It's so crazy.. but I just updated my log and our side effects are the fricken sameee! Every bit of them! Are you sure we aren't long lost twins!? I also have one in between my eyes and forehead and its small, but I can see it from the side of my eyes and its soooo annoying. I got a big honker on my forehead in the middle and its the only one so it's very noticeable GRRR.

i hope you're doing okay! I'm also a night owl

 

It's pretty scary how much we always have in common, like even all that stuff that has nothing to do with skin too! We just might be! haha And yeah it is really annoying right there. I'm just hoping it goes away soon so it won't just be there and like BAM right between my eyes in all my pictures I put some spot treatment on it right now and hopefully that helps. I know you shouldn't really use other stuff while on Accutane, but i don't care, I'm zappin this sucker! Yeah that sucks, but wow that's awesome, you only have one zit right now?!

I'm doin pretty good, hope the same for you! Hooray for night owls with bad sleeping habits!

Hahah yes hoorahhh! And I spoke too soon about that one pimple, I woke up this morning with 2 on my jaw and one on my cheek, and another on my forehead, they're all in really odd places I wouldn't break out in. Oh well, I know it's working right!? Hope you're having a great dayy!

Ahh don't you hate that? When you like almost jinx yourself and get all excited for it to just get bad again I've been breaking out in superr weird spots too, like my arm and back even.. but only like one or maybe two. It's just weird. My chin is getting more zits than usual too, like by my mouth. Blehh. And yeah we just gotta look at it in a positive way like that! Haha and i just went shopping with my sister for Mothers Day then to lunch, and then did my online school all day. Which I should still be doing right now.. haha its so easy to get distracted doing school on your own at home! Hope your day was great tooo<3

I know what you mean about schooling. There's 14 days left of my semester and I have so much to do, which is what I should do instead of being on here, but I have to be in the mood to do it, otherwise I'll rush through all of it and just fail. Tomorrow I will do some! I got a weird little pimple behind my eye and another on my butt.. wtf is up with that hahah! The one on my forehead looks a little smaller, it doesn't have a head so it's weird, I don't know what it's going to do. I'm hoping it's going to scab up and become nothing . I did pop the whitehead in between my eyes cause it got hugeeee right before work. It's a tiny red scab and that, I can deal with. Blackheads, and all that junk are still pushing through, IB here we come! Lol. It's not bad so I can deal with it, just a couple tiny whiteheads on each cheek, and one on my jaw now, I'm ready to take on these pimples with a god damn sledgehammer . I wish.. Patience, patience, patience (which is my WORST quality!)

Taylor- Yeah it sucks! Mine will be done in two weeks so I have been so focused on getting it done. That's why I havent been on here as much. I'll come on here just to check some logs then I'll see I've been on for over an hour or two! Haha and yeah I definitely have to be in the mood to do it too, like right now I'm not Haha yeah that's weird! I haven't gotten any new weird ones lately so that's good though. Blahh that sucks about the other zits though, but I read on your log they're gone so yay! Yeah I'm not sure if I really got an IB.. but my face is still breaking a lot. Not more than normal, just a constant breakout :/ Yes patiece, my worst too! Haha but when you want clear skin so bad when everything has failed so far you start running out of that patience!

DAY 39!!

Hey guys! It's been a while since I've done an update cuz I have been soo busy with school coming to an end and focusing on that, and prom was last weekend too! It was AMAZING Jus sayinn.. it was great and my boyfriend was the perfect prom date<3 Haha he's a senior and today was his last day of school cuz seniors get out a week early and not gonna lie, the whole thing was pretty sad. I hate seeing everyone say goodbye like that! I'm suchh a baby with stuff like that though and moving on and growing up. Haha, and I was thinking of maybe putting a picture up from prom so possibly I will..

OKAY NOW TO ACNE RELATED SCHTUFFF.

My face= Ugh. Just constant breakouts all over. Nothing horrible, but c'mon I just wanna see some sort of small improvement at least.. It's SO dry too. I slather that Cetaphil on like no other and still got those flakes showing up throughout the day. But I guess I just gotta accept it being Accutane doing its job and deal with it. Vaseline has become my new best friend<3 Oh my gahhh, guys I have the two nastiest, biggest, most painful zits ever. Ugh like I am actually losing sleep from them because they hurt that bad and just throb on my face. It's weird and depressing and waaahh.. I'll post a pic to show you what I mean. I've never experienced this much pain from zits though so this is pretty dang sucky.

As for side effects, like I said, DRRYYY as the Sahara Desert all up in here. Back pain still, but its slowly becoming not as unbearable which is good. Joint pain.. at Prom my knees were killing me and were hurting soo bad for days after.. My eyes also burn really bad, but mostly when I'm driving, from the car windows rolled down, or the air conditioner. Lemme tell ya, eye drops have become my bitch. My head gets itchy too at times which is annoying..

Sorry to like majorly gross you out here.. but here is what I'm talking about with these HONKERS. They don't look as bad here cuz you can't even see all the redness and how swollen they are but yeahh. I have never had zits like this that just hurt soo bad I can't even touch them with even the lightest of touch

You're beautiful! Wishing you the best of luck, at least the drug is doing *something* haha. I don't know HOW you guys can't pop those things. I mean, I would advise against it, but when I have zits like those I just can't help but pop pop pop pop.