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Whats up you guys! I never posted before but I'm always reading the threads so bare with me please. I'm 23 years old && my acne makes me so self conscious. I've been on accutane for about 5 months && it cleared my cheeks up just a little bit but my forehead still seems awful. Especially in the sunlight, they just seem to really poke out. For a while now I just don't have the fight in me anymore. I feel like when people look at me they are just looking straight at my forehead and saying negative things about me. I can't even enjoy myself at work. People try to talk to me but I feel that my acne is so bad that I just try to end the conversation as quickly as I can before they look at my forehead. Its gotten to the point where I don't even go out cause I'm scared of what people are going to think. I use to be so outgoing and happy but since the acne I've seen a huge different in my emotions. I'm in the bathroom most of the time washing my face or staring in the mirror to figure out how to get rid of it. It's really taking a toll on my life and I hate it. Do anybody have any suggestions as to how I can at least gain that confidence back and not be so paranoid as to what people are thinking about me? I try to tell myself all the time that nobody is worried about my acne cause its common but my mind won't let me think that at all. Somebody please help.
It's a process- that's for sure. For most of the time you may have to fake it till you make it. Force yourself to go out and look people in the eye (even if they stare). Tell yourself everyday that you have worth outside your skin and physical attributes. Step away from the mirror and ignore your appearance. You have to make these things into a habit and not put off life in the interim. Acne may or may not clear up so you have to be prepared to live with it and be happy.
It really does take time. I'm just finishing my 5th month of accutane and although I am relatively clear (besides some red marks and the occasional pimple), I still feel a bit... Bleh.
I mean, I didn't leave the house for around 5 months before and when I first started because I was so ugly, but now I'm leaving every day! I'm usually working every day and out every night, but ... I can't explain it. I'm never truly.. Happy? Like there's always this little voice telling me I'm ugly and I always will be..
I think spending so much time hating yourself makes it very hard to love yourself even when you do improve. I'm sure we'll get there, maybe not this week, maybe not this month, but every day is one day closer and that's something to be exited about.