Rob, thank you so so so much for that post -- honestly, it's actually really inspiring. I think you're right in saying that I am in a pursuit of perfection, and I think the hardest thing to accept is the fact that I'm never going to have the skin I want. Never. I understand that no-one has perfect skin, but the majority of people have clear, one-coloured skin so I just find it so unfair that I don't. It's clear from my pictures that there has literally been no improvement after 3 months whatsoever, so I've given up on this 'miracle medication'.

It's hard because right now I'm even in the position of trying to change my career path -- purely because of acne and my face. I'm a dance teacher/dancer/performer/actor and before this broke out was doing very well. I was on television, in theatre, recently just moved back from france from an amazing incredible contract, my career was really taking off and I was so confident -- but the cruel reality is that the entire industry is based on your looks. There's so much competition, if there are two people up for one role, one kid with acne, the other without and they both had the same 'talent' -- the kid with the better looks is going to get it. That can't be denied.

Most of what's left on my face now is just scarring/red marks...all of which I can't even attempt to treat until 6 months AFTER my accutane course, so that's probably another entire year from now -- and I just can't wait for that. I have two options...watch my life and career fall apart whilst I wait for 'normal' skin, or wait for 'normal' skin while pursuing a career that doesn't involve my physicality/aesthetics. It sucks...I've spent 9 years of my life training and working for my passion -- but simply put, I can't follow it anymore. Television won't employ people with acne, and dancing requires confidence, which I already don't have -- let alone after an hour of dance class when the heat makes you even MORE red. I don't even go to the gym anymore because I'm scared I'll sweat and breakout. But hey, I have no other choice.

I'm trying to decide what to do. I've already lost most of my friends over my lack of contact, my career has been completely halted, and the thought of even going out with my best friend makes me feel sick, let alone a date (like the acting world, why choose me when there's better people out there). Completely changing career path will just be another kickback, but a neccesarry one.

'Acne is not an attractive feature, there is no doubt about that, but going bald or grey being obese having a crooked nose etc is not either.'

I loved that statement...it actually did really help my mindset. I guess 'living with it' is just the hardest thing to accept when it's changed everything for the worst, but it's the only step forward.

I'm sorry to hear that you're still dealing with some mild acne, but it seems like your head is in the right place and you know how to deal with it, which is incredibly inspiring. I'd love to hear more of your 'story' with how it affected your life and how exactly you took the steps in dealing with it so positively?

I see an improvement in your skin!! As for red marks, a lot of time they don't even require any treatment. Sometimes they can take a while, but they usually (in my experience) go away on their own with time. I'd rather have red marks than atrophic scars. You are lucky in that respect! I don't see any actual scars on your face, just red marks which really aren't scars. Also, you are in no way, shape, or form ugly. Though I can't say I don't get it, because I do, I feel ugly too when my skin isn't doing well. But you are not ugly just because your skin isn't flawless. And try to have at least some hope.....it is very possible that your skin will clear up on accutane and then time will fade your red marks. Maybe not next month, or the month after that, but maybe this time next year your skin will be a lot better off? I try to tell myself that. In a year maybe my skin won't be so shitty, lol. It helps me to feel better.

Hi Lore, I'm currently facing the same situation as you. I'm am feeling depressed. My acne was not this bad until two moths ago when i started to break out horrible and since i have dar skin is leaving me really bad hyperpigmentation. I went to the dermatologist a month ago and he prescribed me solodyn minocycline and some topical creams along with tri luma cream for the hyperpigmentation.It did not help actually it worsen my skin. Yesterday i went to a a new acne center here in new jersey and the specialist actually made me feel better. They treat acne naturally and i enrolled in their acne free program which last 3 months hopefully by the end of it i will be better. Unlike you, i can't quit my job because i need the money to cost my treatments, but i also feel like everybody looks at me with disgust. When i comeback from work i go to my room and stay hidden there until next day and i avoid my family. I completly understand what you are going trough. I actually posted my story today and i wish there was a club here in new jersey where people with acne could gather and talk to each other, without feeling ashamed. Hopefully we will bot get trough this phase of our lives. If u need to talk email me.

Lore--I hope that I misread one of your earlier posts about giving up on your medication. Accutane is definitely working for you. I can see HUGE improvements in your skin. I have body image issues that are similar to yours. You're not seeing reality, and you're not seeing your whole self. Just "imperfections." I gave up too much of my life to acne that wasn't so bad. My big problem was that I would have clear skin but then get one or two mega cysts so they were very noticeable. I used to actually wish I had full blown acne, because people would see me with clear skin and then next time see me with a big cyst and wonder what happened.

Anyhow, if you have a derm and therapist you're working with, please keep at it. This will pass. And then work on the underlying issues. For example, now I'm in my thirties and I have lots of grey hair and a bald spot There's not perfection, and our appearance will only change more and more as we get older. One day you'll wish you look like you did in your twenties, and that day will come sooner than you think.

I have two children. When I really start to feel bad about myself, I ask myself, "would I care if my kids had acne?" 'Would I think any less of them?" Would I not love them to death?" Of course the answer is no. So then, I shouldn't treat myself that way either.

I wish you the best of luck. Breathe. Take baby steps. Spend a little more time in the world each day. Acne is a tricky thing to "fix." Work on other areas of your appearance that you can have some control over. Don't give up!!!

HI Lore,

Sorry for the late reply...Had a really bad week myself with the acne actually and gone into my old ways of obessing in mirrros picking etc:(...starting a new job next week too and I cannot let it ruin me!. It takes at least 8 weeks for my mediciation to begin to work and im on week 7 so trying to be more postive. I have made a log in a diary so I can keep up with how long ive been on my treatment. My next step iof this fails is to try soemthing called theraclear treatment. And failing that accutane (ill have to wait to gert reffered again for it,long story).

But yes my freind your skin doesnt look bad at all and you seem a nice,intellgient and caring bloke. I guess in your chosen profession looks do matter more than they would do elsewhere. I can see that. I have you read about the actress Lucy Speed? From East Enders?. She has had acne all her adult life and she talks about the difficulty of living with it. I guess you would proberly be suprised about the amount of people who do suffer from acne in your career as well, theres a lot make up can hide I guess. Also type in "Humerous fitness" on you tube. The bloke who does those videos is amazing he had severe, really bad acne and has been on tane for well over a year now. His postivity is amazing. The key to it is accepting that you have it and treating. Its the only way. Ive had to tell myself this. Have you also looked at your diet?. For me it makes things worse if I eat badly lots of suger high fat alchol?. Im going try and eat really well from next week and plan exactly what I eat top cover that base. I think its true food doesnt so much cause acne, but it can make it worse.

Well for me I had perfect skin untill I was 18 years old. I began breaking out a bit and by 19/20 it was full blown acne. I got rid of most of it and when I was your age it was non existent. However it got a bit worse in 2011, then since then it has been in a simialr cycle it will be virtually clear then come back mainly on my cheeks but lately i broke out a bit on the sides of my forehead. I feel this is from not washing the sweat off my face proberly after running/gym. Im my own worst enemy and constantly pick my pimples which means of course they spread and come back. Ive been on antibotics, but this is the first time ive tried lymecycline. One theory why i developed acne late is that when i was 14 i didnt grow for a year due to an eating disorder, in affect I delayed puberty. People always think I look about 4-5 years younger than I am to prove this point. My brother who is 24 has pimples here and there so it genetic as well for me as i know my father broke out when he was older. In 2013 I went to a derm about getting on tane, she demanded that I have a pycholgical assesment before she would give it to me as she felt i was overexggarating its severity. I passed the assesment, but had to wait another few months before seeing a derm again. The next derm felt that my acne again didnt warrent tane but she gave me a choice to go on it or wait another few months. I was scared to go on it mainly due to my fears about a big intial breakout and left it again. So I waited a few months it got better again, and in august 2014 I went to the derm and she said that she thought I had been on accutane as my skin looked good. So I was discharged. Therefore, id have to be reffered if I was wanting to get back on it. I think in my case it wont be a case ot taking tane and it goes, theres something wrong with my body that I need to get to the bottom of but I guess it is always another option I can take.

Hope yopur having a better week than me.

Rob

Dark; I agree it definately helps to think to the future, but I think it just sucks how acne leaves red marks that look like you still have acne... it's like -- haven't we suffered enough?!

Gabo, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through a tough time as well, ;( But it does sound like you're thinking very positively about this treatment, andit definately sounds like it will be effective for you so I'm really hoping that things will look up for you! Likewise, if you ever need to talk let me know... I think it's really hard to talk about how much acne can effect your mental state to people who have never gone through it. It's awesome you're still going out though, so try to keep it up!

Thanks so so much for your post Acnedrum...I definately think I suffer from Body Dysmorphia, but at the same time I do have the imperfections...but like you said, maybe I am just seeing them more? I try to tell myself that to comfort myself, that I see it worse than anyone else, but when I take pictures of myself and see how others see me from the sides and stuff...it's upsetting. But I do really appreciate your post. I really am trying to take baby steps! I never wear makeup now and have actually met up with a few more friends...I'm actually planning on meeting one tomorrow and possibly a group on saturday and monday! Obviously it depends on how I feel, but I'm trying to be more positive...

It helps to think to myself, hey...if I left the house to see my friends two days ago, why can't I leave the house today as well?

Baby steps...I might even go back to my dance classes next week...but sweating/getting hot might be a bit much by now.

Hey Looking! Oh no I'm sorry to hear you've had a bad week...but like you said, if it doesn't start showingimprovements until 8 weeks, keep your head up! I also love Humerusfitness on youtube...I keep watching his videos, usually daily to just pick me up a tad! They definately help...

Hey Lore,

You want to know what I liked the most about your pictures, other than the improvement? I can see you smiling more! I think you look great. Hyperpigmentation is not permanent. I know you have to wait 6 months+ after accutane, but a TCA or other professional peel would eliminate any residual marks. I really don't think you should give up on your dreams. A lot of actors have/had skin issues. Even Brad Pitt has actual scars, which you don't have! Your skin is so smooth, once the tiny amount of marks heal you're going to be back to damn near perfection. I'm glad you're getting out more and doing better

Kay thank you so so much for your support! It's just so hard being in a career where everyone else seems flawless, and growing up in dance colleges I guess I was personally scrutanized for a lot of things (as are most in this industry...i.e, too fat, too small, etc)

I'm just hoping the redness will go...on the plus side, I haven't had a spot on my face for around 2 weeks now. My back still gets a few, but overall it just seems like the marks now! It's weird...In certain selfies I take my skin looks decent, but then when I took my weekly photo yesterday in better quality the marks really shone;( I'll update with some more pictures so you guys can see!

Selfies (I try to take some in different lightning, even one with a fishpout!):

And here is my weekly photo, which I took yesterday. It shows the redness as it truly is, so it's still quite feirce Really want it to just get off of my face, haha...

But compared to last months photo, there is definately an improvement:

And here's one I took with a filter...just to try and make me feel better! Atleast with a filter and from straight on my face looks ok, haha...Trying to get out more now, and planning to go back dancing within the week - although I am terrified that sweating and the natural redness you get after excercise will just make me look awful and develop a fear of dancing... :S

HUGE improvement!

Looking good..congrats!!

It's amazing how quick things can change. I spent the beginning of the week really forcing myself to be positive. I went out EVERY day with a different friend in an attempt to try and get my life back on track...started my dance course again and applied for lots of different jobs.

And here I am, today, just wishing for my life to be over.

My face is still a disaster when I look in photos, really red and raw, and my marks show no signs of going. My back and chest is still breaking out and covered in marks/spots. As I said on my first post, I also developed verrucae and warts on my hands/feet and have also been actively trying to fix them, to no avail. I read last week that apple cider vinegar and duct tape helps kill them so I'm trying that... but wow, does it hurt. It also has made them really really raw and black (sorry for disgusting info) and I just want them to go..

I look at all my friends on facebook who are out every night and living their lives, and where's Lore? Oh at home, face burnt red and covered in marks, with duct tape wrapped around 4 of his toes and three of his fingers to get rid of his hideous infection. If I had a picture of myself in a year and my face was great and I had no verrucae, it'd give me the spur to go on, but who knows what I'll look like? I could have these red marks for years, these warts for years, they could spread elsewhere, fresh acne could come back and leave even more marks. I just want a bit of hope, but I'm slowly realizing there is none. I've been cursed with a body I don't want, and I don't see any way out of it other than my life ending.

It's my brothers birthday on sunday, we're going to go climb to O2 arena in London...can I go? Nope. Can't walk on my feet. Going on holiday in July to Florida. Can't wear vest tops, tan, flipflops, anything that goes lower than my collar bone on my chest, makeup-covered face -- and to top it off, it's somewhere where I used to work and know a lot of people who are still out there, which is really going to just rub it in my face...

I'm just so exhausted. I hate what this horrible skin disease does to people. I was thinking the other day that Dermatologists are kinda pointless...every skin disorder I can think of, dermititis, seborrhic demititis, acne, rosacea, flushing, veruccae, warts, eczema...NOTHING has a cure, most, like rosacea and seb derm, don't really seem to have anything to even help. What do dermatologists actually do?

Sorry for the massive rant...maybe I've just burnt myself out from suddenly going out all day eveyr day for the past week with my friend, but I'm sick and tired of hating every single part of my body.

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Well... a lot has changed in my state of mind since my last post.

I'm really really trying my best to overcome my social anxiety and dysmorphia. I've started to get myself back into work and to increase my social activity...I've been out every day the past week and a half and overcome some pretty personal milestones...

Last week I was hired to sing at an event, which went really well...Friday I managed to go to the gym for the first time in 6 months. My dysmorphia did play up and I couldn't help but take a couple of pictures to judge how awful I looked, but I got through it...and yesterday I even went back to a highly professional dance center for my first professional dance class of the year (where I used to go roughly 3 times a week)...this was a huge huge trigger for me, but I got through it. I was exceptionally red after the class (obviously from the extreme strenuous physical activity), but I was definately a LOT redder than I was last year. Part of me, however, is thinking this may just be the accutane. Either way, although it took me an extra 40 minutes after class to 'cool down' and try to make myself look presentable, I still went and this was a major accomplishment for me.

I've also got two more singing jobs coming up and also a presenting contract. We'll see how they go...

So I'm really really trying my best to get out there, but it's hard, heh... I'm having a pretty down day today, maybe I've been doing too much all at once. Butt I am going out later for a meal with friends so that should distract me.

Skin wise, it's still the same...I'm not really getting any actives anymore, but the redness and red marks are still there. I seem to look like I'm sunburnt all the time. However, I only apply moisturizer around my mouth as my dermatologist said to avoid the 'active' areas which are my cheeks, and to just let them dry out. They don't really get too flaky, but I think that the dead skin sort of 'covers up' some of the redness, hehe...which is maybe why when I was sweating in class yesterday I looked so red because it kinda washed it off? I don't know...

Little steps, little steps, but I'm trying my best to get my life back on track. I'm still so so so incredibly self-conscious about how I look, and I hate my body with a passion, but maybe it's starting to look up.

Hey guys, hope everyone is well.

Again...been an up-and-down kinda time. Some days I feel like I can cope, but others I feel awful... I've started having odd little jobs again which have brought me out of my shell a bit more...but when I get home, all I want to do is just hide, heh. I was teaching dance yesterday for three hours, and I felt fine before -- but obviously when I sweat/get hot, my face gets extremely extremely red and it brings out all of my hyperpigmentation so much. Literally, for the rest of the day, and even today, my face is still 'cooling down', and it just upsets me. Dance, performance, physical activity and teaching is my passion...but I feel like it triggers my anxiety because it makes my face so ugly. The same with when I go to my dance lessons and the gym...I just hate it...I build up the courage to go, convincing myself I look ok, and then my face just goes beet red.

I think what's odd is that my face doesn't entirely go red...it's just my cheeks. Literally, along my stubble line and where the stubble grows on the side of my face/jaw, it's 100% normal colour and stays that way, but the cheeks(where the pigmentation is) are bright red on a normal day -- which then gets exaggerated when I undergo physical activity but the rest of my face stays normal. If I press against my skin it goes normal coloured for one second before reverting, as if I'm constantly burnt.

It just upsets me because I can't see improvement when my skin just stays so red, bringing out the hyperpigmentation. I don't want to get scared of dancing/performing...but I am.

ya man you look good, i had the same problem steppin out of the shower because the hot water and the irritation from rubbing it makes it all look worse, just don't look in the mirror after showers.... effection solution but kinda messed up. Know that the treatment will work eventually and until then you have to do all these weird things that suck to cope with it until your good to go. Your face is 10x better than mine, literally, but at the end of the course we will (hopefully) be the same, clear.

Hey Lore!

I know that skin conditions take the biggest toll because that's the part of you that people can actually see, but I really just want to encourage you- You are worth so much more than the flesh that covers your bones. I'm serious! You are such a strong person, you've made it this far and you're going to make it all the way to the end! And I'm not saying that the end means 100% perfect skin, but the end means that you love yourself fully! We're all here for you, don't listen to the voices in your head that want you to hate yourself, God made you to be filled with thoughts of joy, peace, and confidence! My acne has been with me for about 8 years, but I had to make sure that I didn't make it who I am. Your skin conditions are with you, but they are NOT you! The only reason that I haven't fell into depression is because I constantly am reminded that God made me with His hands, and everything that He makes is good! When I'm feeling down about my breakout one day, I just think about His beauty that He has given me! When we start beholding ourselves too often, we become hypercritical and we place such high standards! When I behold Jesus, then my eyes are taken off me and my situation and I see myself through His eyes- He says that you are perfect, so that is what you are! Sorry to go off on a Jesus rant, I just wanted to share what keeps me grounded in this life of acne and skin conditions!!

One quick story and then I'm done, haha!

I work as a counselor in a school, and today I was in session with a middle schooler. He came over to my desk where I have a picture of my boyfriend and I and he said "That's not a picture of you!" And I said "Yes it is, who else would it be?!" and he said "It's your evil sister, because you have acne and the person in the picture doesn't"

Of course, my internal reaction to this teen acknowledging my skin problems was "Wowwww, my skin must look horrible right now! This hormonal teen has perfect skin and I am a mess!!"

But, I just had to take a step back and look at where I am... I am in my own office where I get to counsel students that are dealing with the pain of life. I love my job and I love where God has brought me, I get to look at the faces of my students all day so why should I care about what my own face looks like?

I know it must be hard because you're in the entertainment business, but just try focusing on the people that you are entertaining opposed to focusing on the perceived opinions that you think they have about you and your appearance. Be encouraged and do what you love to do!!! If you keep looking at your own face, the world of faces is going to pass you by!

Praying for you!!!

Someone, thank you for your post.. Here's hoping the treatment will clear us up completely

Jaimie, thanks so much for your support, and wow... You seriously seem like such a brave person, I wish I had your strength. If someone pointed out my skin I'd be distraught... A kid I was teaching the other say called me ugly and that was bad enough, haha. I think what's hard is I know that other people look at my skin and think how horrible it is, even if they don't say it.

Yesterday and today haven't been good days. Today was actually the first time I've cried in ages. The suicidal thoughts and depression are definately kicking back in today and I'm stuggling. The two really red scars on the right side of my face, which I've had for months and haven't budged, are really really feirce today and have actually become quite inflamed. I'm so so upset.. They just won't go, and now it looks like they're just going back to square one. I just want to get a knife and scrape it off. If my right side looked like my left side I'd be ok...

I go on holiday next week for my birthday to Florida... And Im dreading it. My face is going to just get so red, I'm going to be FORCED out EVERY day, and I just want to hide in a ball.

I just want the old me back.. The happy me, the me that didn't hate everyone and everything. I'm such a bitter and jealous person now. I don't know what I've done to deserve this, but it's too late now. Everyone hates me, I hate myself.

Honestly dude !!

You have like at most 10 red marks and I doubt anyone sees them.

You look absolutely fine, your skin quality is good even.

I understand how you feel but with your current skin, you have no real place in an acne website, because you don't really have skin problems at all. Possibly a psychologist may help you if you judge this useful (it helped me a little bit at some point).

It's 100% a mental issue at this point, I swear I wish I had your skin so please be happy with it.

Possibly your travel will tan you a little bit from indirect sun exposure and you'll end up looking even better...

Also you dread the fact that you may look red but I found that when I'm red, my red marks are less visible because there is little contrast so it's in fact a good thing.

Helloooo... So it's been a while.

I went on holiday for my birthday and actually had a fantastic time... I was worried with the whole going-out-everyday, but I found a life-saver. Basically it's a small concealer stick by Witch, and I use it literally on the two red dots on the right side of my face... And literally it makes me so happy haha. It's weird how literally just covering up two marks can make me feel content with my skin. I used to hate wearing foundation over my whole face, as a guy, but two dots of concealer really don't worry me. Thankfully my skin behaved whilst I was away... I broke out in two tiny tiny closed comedones but that was it.

I was really ready to start my life again! As soon as I got home I went out everyday, worked a lot, applied for more jobs, etc..

However the last four days have been slightly difficult... I woke up one morning and the corner of my mouth was really red, so I assumed it was just dry. It hurt to open my mouth so I thought I was just dry so put on aquaphor, as I do every night. As the day went on however they turned into some red spots. Now, every day since I've woken up with more spots. I have four on the left side of my jaw, two just under my nose, and just tonight noticed two on the right side of my jaw.

What's weird is I have never broken out around my jaw! Ever! It was the one part of my body that was clear!

Yesterday I broke out in three small, yet very red, ones on my shoulder as well..

I'm very upset ;( I mean, I was just starting to get back into the flow of things and get happy... But now I'm waking up with new ones every day again. Even tonight I noticed a couple more bumps around my jaw. Next month should be my last so I really thought by now I shouldn't be breaking out

Is this normal? It really worries me because all the youtubers I watch are clear by this stage! it's disheartening... I'm meant to be meeting friends tomorrow and I'm terrified.. Around my lips is just red, almost as if I've been burnt. What's harder is I don't know whether to moisturize them or not... I havent moisturized once this whole time because it seemed to break me out a tad, but because it's so close to my lip i'm scared to even use chapstick now...

;( just when things were looking up... It makes me really concerned that I'm just going to stop and have it all come back.

Omg so... I just went to a photoshoot. I've literally been so nervous and I feel a bit sick still, but... I saw the photos and they don't actually look too bad! I have some light powder on which definately hid my redness, and obviously they were touched-up, but I was happy... When they come through I might even post a few!

I'm so up and down! I've been so much busier recently, getting my life back on track, but I always feel... Well I don't know, sad? I never feel truly happy.. Maybe it's because I'm still waking up with something new every day, even if it is small, and my redness is very very prominent now (after a danceclass or the gym I literally am SO embarrasingly red). Who knows..

But today I accomplished something... As did the photo company with all my money!

I just kinda skimmed and read through the last couple posts. You look like your improving a lot! Just keeping taking those pills and try not to get down on your self. I've got a funny picture I'll put up here when I get home of how I'm looking in the gym! Might make you feel a bit better! Glad the photo shoot went well, thats a tough thing to do when your so self consious.

Check this out, this is my flushing during some warmup squats and stretches. Trust me I know the feels on the embarrassing facial redness at the gym lol

Haha! Thanks for your posts Chris! i reallu really appreciate the support! I wonder how to tackle the redness.. My derm says it's just a natural response, but not THIS red xD ah well we'll see...

Also your skin is looking good dude!

But yeah things are looking up ans because I'm keeping myself busy it definately helps distract me! But it's still hard.. If I do get a particularly red spot or blotch it really really upsets me... Like I haven't found the right coping method just yet. Like I said.. I still always feel, I can't really describe it. I think after being SO emotionally dead and upset for so long, it'll take a while to get over it completely.

Happy you're doing better !

Did tanning improve your skin texture ? I'm myself going on vacation soon (and I'm off accutane) so I wonder

Awesome to hear that you're feeling better! Even though you may not feel 100%, you have to look at the small steps you're making towards a healthy, happy life! You deserve to enjoy your photoshoots and your time with your friends! I know that a cloud of depression is hard to escape- even when you're enjoying yourself, you still feel like you're in that funk... Like you're living life with a grey film over it. But you're sooo strong, and you WILL get through this!!

Another awkward acne story for your viewing pleasure:

I was playing checkers with a girl at the youth group I lead and she has autism. She proceeds to point at my face and ask me all about my acne. I'm one week into my Accutane treatment so I've got the beautifully reddened face, peeling skin, and deep cysts! I got to explain what Accutane is and why I'm taking it and how my face should be clear in 5 months. It was almost comforting how black and white everything in her world is- she just listened and moved on to the next topic of conversation once she got all the information she wanted. It really made me feel like acne was such a simple thing in her world. I hope that we can all tap into that simplicity

Much luck to you, always wishing the best!

Thanks Jaures! Hmm...it's weird, the sun really had no effect on me whatsoever. I'd put on a tiny tiny bit of SPF 50, but then some days I wouldn't even put any on and I wouldn't burn...even wearing a vest top! I didn't, however, purposefully lay out and sunbathe, so I don't know! Either way, I broke out in a couple of tiny tiny insignificant pimples (about 3 in total) but that was it!

Jaimie thanks so much! Like I said, it's definately hard...I think being liteally SO low before and the fear of my acne coming back full-throttle is what's hovering over me like a dingy raincloud right now. But I am being so much more positive, and I'm slowly starting to get my confidence back and enjoy my life. 🙂

Haha! Well, I think it comes down to the whole 'it's really not a big deal for anyone else' story. I mean...ever since I've had acne I've noticed other people who have it, and even people who don't have acne I notice if they have any discoloration or scars...but before I never did! But noticing this now definately helpsme as well because it just shows me that no-one's perfect!

you just have to do your best, get a job and see what you can do and pray.