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My faaaace huuuurts.
Aww, hope it's feeling better soon! Frustrating when that happens because it's like a constant reminder. The worst time are when it hurts to smile and laugh. We all deserve to smile and laugh though, especially at this time of year, so here's hoping we can all forget about our skin for a few days and enjoy the holidays. 
i think i write in these post to early always as soon as i wake up because my acne always looks better in the orning, less red more smooth looking. but then later in the day it comes back ): but as of right now i feel good about my acne, like its clearing up..
Your eyes are adjusting to the light.
My faaaace huuuurts.Aww, hope it's feeling better soon! Frustrating when that happens because it's like a constant reminder. The worst time are when it hurts to smile and laugh. We all deserve to smile and laugh though, especially at this time of year, so here's hoping we can all forget about our skin for a few days and enjoy the holidays.
it has slightly subsided so I'm glad about that
We do! pity acne won't take a holiday either haha
You know, my friends think I'm beautiful despite my acne. But, my mother and father don't think the same way. Today was a sucky xmas eve because of my mom. She tried to recommend stuff for me for my acne. That always makes me mad, because It's like she thinks it's my fault/ she draws attention to it. I hate when people do that. Like "you should try BPO." Or "you should try not doing anything to your face." Or. "Why are you controlling your diet? You're young you can eat whatever you like." You don't think I've tried that einstein? I probably do more good for my skin than the person asking me the question. I give it vitamins, antioxidants, low glycemic foods, fish-oil, green tea, fruits. No junk food. No milk. I put sunscreen on it. I give it moisture and exfoliation. So, it really should piss me off when someone thinks they are superior enough to me that they think they have the solution. That it's a mistake or an oversight on my part. Normally I just ignore it, and I'm not too put off. But, when my mother, who knows how much time and effort I put into my acne says this, it does piss me off. (At the same time, a little voice in my mind told me that maybe, perhaps she was just saying this to me because she cares about me, and she knew I'm pretty affected by it. Hopefully, next time that little voice will make me more tolerant of her comments. But those comments really do sting. It's like I'm not good enough for her.)
Normally, I don't think my acne is that huge of an issue, because I have a fulfilling life despite it. I'm intelligent and pretty. I have dreams. I have a cute little brother. In fact, being able to research acne has led to such an interest in skin, and as a future doctor (hopefully!), it's helped me become a more sympathetic and understanding person. Anyway, back to my mother: she told me a relative told her to just learn to live with it when she was a kid, and I think that's a horrible thing to say to someone. She's a doctor, so she should be sympathetic about the emotional effects of disorders. That part of the day kind of sucked, but still, it was okay. But, we got into a fight today. Our whole family, my dad and mom against me and against my brother. They start arguments over retarded things. 
So, more than my acne, I feel sucky about my family. I feel very unhappy; acne sucks, but it doesn't seem as big as a problem as this toxic family. I wish my mother and father could see that. If they truly respected us, they wouldn't act this way. I wonder how such un-sympathetic people became doctors. (psychiatrists, at that. HAH! Fat load of good they must do in their job.) I feel like that is a doctor's most important quality; being able to sympathize and realize the way an illness affects a person's outlook on their life, and thus, the quality of their life. That said, it has taken a long time for my acne to not wreak havoc on my emotions. I achieved this by realizing that beauty was perceived by all senses and that a beautiful mind, a beautiful and positive perception of people, and a beautiful personality were more important. These are tangible things that I can actually improve upon. But, my parents take that away from me. They make me a nasty monster. That's what dysfunctional and toxic families do to you. Once created, they have a life of their own. There's no one person to blame, but rather, the dynamic between the family members. There is a complete breakdown in the ability to communicate. Every sentence, every word has some alternate, offensive and venomous meaning. In this case, the individual members of our family don't have a sickness, but the family itself is sick. It's a disgusting zombie-like creature that needs to be buried. What really makes it disgusting is that we have a 1 year old brother. Bringing something new and innocent into this family, knowing that it will only be destroyed and ruined is the saddest thing ever. My other little brother used to be the sweetest little boy in the world; he actually gave his toys away to other babies younger than him. If you asked him, at two, whether he would give his toy to a younger 7 or 8 month old baby, he'd happily consent. This family destroyed the beauty in him, in me (to a lesser extent), and now, it will destroy the beauty in my baby brother too. I will never let this happen to my children. Ever. If you have a happy family, or great friends, please be grateful for the beauty in your life. It's far more important than the acne on your face. I promise.
i feel ok.. i want to change my face wash. has anybody every used raw african black soap and shea butter??
Yes. And. It doesn't work. It dries your skin out and breaks you out. 
I just wish I could care less about my explosive breakout. My skin hasn't been this bad in more than a year. I'm really actively trying to manipulate my brain into forgetting about it and just go on with my life. I have been successful at this in the past, but I seem to care more and more about my acne. It really feels like a barrier in front of my happiness. Then when I feel some acne is going down, my mood improves drastically, only to collapse entirely after discovering a new active upcoming spot. This has been going on for a few weeks now and I can't seem to slip out of the circle. I have an appointment with a derm in 3 weeks and I'm committed to ask for Accutane. I'm holding on to that appointment as a beacon of hope, but in the meanwhile I'm unsure how to get through these 3 weeks.
Look for all the other ways you are beautiful and your life is beautiful. Remember, beauty is perceived by all of the senses. A taste, a sound, a feeling can be beautiful. Focus on these things and you will feel much happier despite your acne. (Hint: Try not to look in the mirror as much! You'll notice everything else around you more. Unless you're a loner addicted to meth, I think you can definitely find beauty in your life. 
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Look for all the other ways you are beautiful and your life is beautiful. Remember, beauty is perceived by all of the senses. A taste, a sound, a feeling can be beautiful. Focus on these things and you will feel much happier despite your acne. (Hint: Try not to look in the mirror as much! You'll notice everything else around you more. Unless you're a loner addicted to meth, I think you can definitely find beauty in your life.
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I try this all the time and manage to get through some days reasonably well. Other days I just get lured into the trap of getting sucked into my acne and it's hard to get out. Ignoring mirrors is definitely a good strategy. But sometimes mirrors can bring good news too. Seeing a spot go down or a cyst turn out to be just a whitehead can brighten the moment. But I know this rollercoaster shouldn't dictate my mood so much..
after a looooong time, i think i've finally accepted acne as a part of my life.....(yep, i just wrote that)
i dont love it or hate anymore. don't take it personally. it comes, then it goes. sometimes it leaves scars, sometimes it doesn't...... i'm not sure how long this thing called acne will stick around for..... but, one thing i know for sure is that i'm tired of fighting it. i've been fighting it for a while. not worth it anymore to me.
ACCEPTANCE is powerful.
at least IMO..... 
Feeling pretty mehh.
My skin would probably be normal if I'd just leave it alone and stop obsessing. guess my new years resolution should be to leave it alone.
Have a rather large bump on my cheek atm, dunno what it is, maybe a cyst or nodule? (it's pretty big and feels hard when i'm washing my face)
Really hard not to try and pop it to make it go away.
Hmmm I'm feeling a bit irritated, I'm tired of Acne, walking around with a zit with that icky yellow stuff on the center . Gross. I hate you Acne . But it's improved a lot since the last few months but still I want to deal with none of this crap . Lol
Feel much better now !
* I don't want to deal with none of this crap
