I don't know whats going on or maybe I do. Both sides of my lower face have broken out in red bumps, some as big as a pencil eraser. They are so red and inflamed and I don't know what else I need to do. I saw my derm Wed and she was happy with the progress (though my breakouts weren't that intense then). I do see some improvement but on weeks like what I have been having, it seems that for every couple of days of less breakouts is followed by WEEKS of inflamed acne ranging from 6-12 pimples at any given time. Right now I have well over 12 inflamed pimples and I am so discouraged.
i have been eating so much better, juicing full force and taking my meds like crazy. What else can I do? My stress and sleep has been pretty bad but the fact of the matter is that I can't control all the factors. At almost four months in, I want to give up. I'm giving Spiro to the 6 month mark then I will increase the dosage to 150 and if I don't see good enough improvement...well....I don't know what other options will be left for me.
for the first time in a long time I want to cry over my skin.
Bit annoyed about my skin at the minute. Every now and then I think that it's getting better, but then I'll find something new on my face. At the moment it feels like acne will be neverending.
Surprisingly better. My skin is still FAR from being okay (I have a lot of hyperpigmentation and horrendous atrophic scarring) but at least it doesn't hurt to sleep or make out anymore. I don't get reminded of my acne ever so often because my face doesn't sting when I so much as smile. I guess that's so much better.
What's the point? Every new breakout is worse than the one before......not depressed, just incredibly frustrated and wondering why even bother with treatments that don't work. Dealing with over a dozen papules. I'm 32! Never thought I'd still be in this position. 4 months of Spiro and almost as bad as when I started.
I'm bitter.
I've had acne since I was about 12/13, now I'll be 27 this year. I've had very brief, veeery brief times of decent skin [not clear mind you] through a combination of ways that didn't last. Here I am now, still struggling very much and y'know what? I am seeing wrinkles, in the places where I'd heavily break out, and apply creams. No, not just dry patches, wrinkles. So I went from acne out the wahzoo to aging along with. No nice skin times for me. It makes me angry, I can't deny it. Hell in 10 years, how will I look then??
I'm tired of wearing my mask!
I wear it to hide my acne and I'm tired of the comments I'm receiving! I've gotten comments like "You're Going to Die", "EBOLA", "She Has Ebola, Stay Away From Her", "You Have AIDS"...
I know better to ignore it but sometimes I just get so frustrated I want to say something!!!
i hate acne. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I know I have to be patient and that it'll hopefully get better in time...
Those comments make me think about the people around me..
Been feeling good for the last 10 days or so about my acne. It's really calmed down.
Just got a couple of very faded red marks and one dying spot which never really came up!
I'm happy, obviously, but still well aware that I had a 10 week run of good skin last year and it all went to crap after that.
Paranoia persists!
My skin is now definitely better than last week but it's still not good. My chin is where i'm breaking out the most. Right now i have 4 pimples extremely close to one another which makes my chin look super red. The guy i'm dating came back from a 2 weeks trip and i absolutely don't feel like seeing him this weekend. Last time i saw him my skin was doing pretty good. I can't wait for this to be over, i'm so tired of feeling like the only girl who has acne (i know it's not true, but thats how i feel) and postponing things.
Update: Why even bother???? Thought i was on the right path but i just looked in the mirror and saw 3 new spots. Awesome. Feel so stupid for actually thinking my skin would get better. Everytime i think my skin is looking good i start breaking out again, don't know i even have hope. There is NOTHING i can do to make it go away, i already did everything i could. Sometimes i wonder if the life that i'm living is really worth living... always hiding myself, not going out, thinking about my skin 24/7, avoiding mirrors (any reflective surface actually)... it's a shitty life in a shitty world where you have to look "polished" all the time. IMPOSSIBLE to look polished if you have acne. I'musing the world polished because i'm not even asking to look beautiful, just polished to be able to go out. Sometimes i think i'm being to harsh on myself but then i look in the mirror and change my mind right away. How can you live a normal life if you can't stand your own image?