Peeeerty good. 3 weeks until I get on Accutane.

<p>I finally received my Regimen kit in the mail and am sooooo happy! I was making due with temporary so so drugstore alternatives while I waited.</p>

<p>My friend randomly gave me some Dead Sea face wash as a gift. I've never discussed my acne with him, so I'm not sure if that was his roundabout way of saying that he notices my bad skin and wanted to help without directly saying that I had bad skin? Or am I overanalyzing this? Well it's the thought that counts (though face wash won't make a difference considering I've been washing my face my whole life and had Accutane fail me).</p>

<p>Omg I was in the elevator and two guys came in, looked at me, and started laughing, trying to mask it behind their hands. I can't help but think if people are laughing at my acne when they do this. It hurts. I'm hiding inside for the rest of the day.</p>

Was feeling kind of (extremely) low till yesterday....but my mom gave me a big lecture on how i should not let acne rule my life...so feeling better...going to make some diet changes from today onwards..... hope that helps...

Also, got a new pimple on my lips this morning...looks kind of cute..!!

Breaking out with small, red pimples with white top hats (had 6 pop up over night) so feeling very meh about my skin. Otherwise, i feel great! 3 more days till the start of my summer vacation....woot! woot!

Cluster of huge spots on right cheek, looks awful. Red marks everywhere.. But I've come to giving up on caring about lotions and potions. Stick to el natural acv and epsom salt and let's see where it takes me...

Mind you it's just Acne, it's not too bad. Could've been a life threatening illness instead.

Head high and walk on

Feeling pretty depressed just when I thought I was clearing. No foundation sits right on my face anymore maybe because of the summer? Idk. I'm so tired of worrying about my face and acne. Honestly it is so exhausting waking up to this everyday. I never knew the immense impact acne has on ones self esteem/ self worth until going through this myself. It's to the point that acne seriously is running my life. I've spent so much money on this and time I'm just really sad and drained today. Idk I wish it could go away already eff you acne!

Feeling way too tired to care. Tomorrow is going to be a full day followed by an extremely full weekend so I have literally no time to be bummed out.

not good

Feeling pretty depressed just when I thought I was clearing. No foundation sits right on my face anymore maybe because of the summer? Idk. I'm so tired of worrying about my face and acne. Honestly it is so exhausting waking up to this everyday. I never knew the immense impact acne has on ones self esteem/ self worth until going through this myself. It's to the point that acne seriously is running my life. I've spent so much money on this and time I'm just really sad and drained today. Idk I wish it could go away already eff you acne!

Yeah...the exhausting part...anything thing i do from eating to sleeping to dressing up to socializing revolves around these acne...its like we don't even get a single second to rest and breath.

Acne is the biggest, the toughest challenge anyone has to go through...since acne, everything else seems like a child's play(that's a good thing though).

BTW, was 4 hour in the car today, the bright sunlight and rear view mirror.....every time looked into it accidentally..i am like, "God, i am so ugly".

i got my first neck pimple yesterday and i am horrified

 

 

Feeling pretty depressed just when I thought I was clearing. No foundation sits right on my face anymore maybe because of the summer? Idk. I'm so tired of worrying about my face and acne. Honestly it is so exhausting waking up to this everyday. I never knew the immense impact acne has on ones self esteem/ self worth until going through this myself. It's to the point that acne seriously is running my life. I've spent so much money on this and time I'm just really sad and drained today. Idk I wish it could go away already eff you acne!

Yeah...the exhausting part...anything thing i do from eating to sleeping to dressing up to socializing revolves around these acne...its like we don't even get a single second to rest and breath.

Acne is the biggest, the toughest challenge anyone has to go through...since acne, everything else seems like a child's play(that's a good thing though).

BTW, was 4 hour in the car today, the bright sunlight and rear view mirror.....every time looked into it accidentally..i am like, "God, i am so ugly".

 

 

Feeling pretty depressed just when I thought I was clearing. No foundation sits right on my face anymore maybe because of the summer? Idk. I'm so tired of worrying about my face and acne. Honestly it is so exhausting waking up to this everyday. I never knew the immense impact acne has on ones self esteem/ self worth until going through this myself. It's to the point that acne seriously is running my life. I've spent so much money on this and time I'm just really sad and drained today. Idk I wish it could go away already eff you acne!

Yeah...the exhausting part...anything thing i do from eating to sleeping to dressing up to socializing revolves around these acne...its like we don't even get a single second to rest and breath.

Acne is the biggest, the toughest challenge anyone has to go through...since acne, everything else seems like a child's play(that's a good thing though).

BTW, was 4 hour in the car today, the bright sunlight and rear view mirror.....every time looked into it accidentally..i am like, "God, i am so ugly".

I feel the exact same way. Im always way more anxious in the daytime now..bc the sun shows no mercy to my skin. It highlights everything: bumps, oily skin, foundation cracking off of my face ect. Its to the point that I only feel better at night when i know Im gonna be asleep and not worry anymore. But even then im concerned with acne how i sleep on the pillow ect.

Wtf people with clear skin dont even get how depressing any form of percistant acne is. Sorry your feeling such pain aswell one day well all be clear!

great, fuck acne

<p>I no longer need concealer! Just a tinted moisturizer will do. This marks an important milestone for me! I've never been this clear since I was 12. I'm 30 now. Sooooooo happy!&nbsp;</p>

My skin is great.

Never use any kind of cleanser. Very gently and briefly rub the dirt off your face with room temperature water in the shower once a day. Skip showering altogether once a week. Exercise. Think positive.

Feeling good despite some upheavals in my life. Got a few pockets of knarly inflammation but what else is new. Feeling as if i will never find my cure but not letting it stop me from living. Acne has been a part of my life for so long so maybe i need to just accept it and move on

<p>The Regimen seems to be a God send. I hope I'm not jinxing myself by saying that. I've only had one small zit that lasted one day within the past 2 weeks. This is coming from someone who usually gets several zits a day despite all the meds from the dermatologist. I've never felt this level of hope before. My skin looks a million times clearer, smoother, and younger now. It just glows . There's just the hyperpigmentation left. I feel as though I just got my life back.</p>

Utterly depressed, I'd say 50% of my body is covered in either active spots, red marks or scars.

Terrible,if they could just put me in a coma for a year or 2 until this is all over, I would do it immediately.

Feeling like I am in the movie groundhog day, reliving this same nightmare over and over and over again. The only difference is that I am not letting it stop me from living.

Got my face on lockdown with daily Retin-A and weekly chemical peels, still too self conscious to take shirt off at a pool/beach due to PIH on shoulders/upper back

Got a girl coming over to swim tomorrow, I'm in shape but am going crazy over the dark marks from past acne... AGHHHHHHHH

Edit : On upper back

i hate hate hate my acne, i avoid mirrors and find that looking in a mirror actually works as a punishment for myself?? i cant bear the way i look and my skin is so disgusting and repulsive that i wish j could peel it off and reveal clear skin underneath. i dont know what to do anymore

I feel frustrated. I have OCD that is mostly all centered on controlling my acne. It also is related to picking. I hate that I burned off a nodule with some apple cider vinegar on my chin this weekend. It is a scab now. It's gross.

Also hate that I popped a large pustule right between my nose and upper lip. It's oozing now and yet still inflamed. I know not to. Please, no one tell me not to. I have OCD. That is like telling an addict to just not drink. It's not that easy.

I am grateful though that I work from home. I am not leaving the house for a few days until these two really bad lesions heal a little.

I am going on a work trip and vacation in mid-July. So there's also fear today that things will not be "presentable" by then. By presentable I mean coverable spots, not any oozing, picked at, pussing, whiteheads begging to pop on their own spots.

I am also feeling silly and amused because I keep thinking that I might try the opposite of an elimination diet. I'm already vegan (no meat, no eggs, no dairy) for personal, ethical reasons, so the thought of not eating gluten or tomatoes or citrus or onions or peanuts or any of the other things I eat ALL the time but that could cause acne really, honestly makes me want to give up! I already have a restricted diet. I don't want to give up these vegan foods that I love!

So instead of doing an elimination diet, I'm humorously considering an immersion diet. Wondering if I'm sensitive to gluten? Maybe I will eat 4 baguettes tomorrow! If I break out in a few days, I'll know that was not a good idea! HA! Tomatoes? Hey, I'll eat 5 a day for a few days and see if I break out!

Feeling like i am on a roller coaster - just when i think 'this is it - it's going to start healing' more acne pops out to greet me. I feel like giving up.....again. What's the point anyway.