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Not feelin' so great. I'll be the first to admit that I used to be vain. I was never mean. I never pointed out if anyone had an acne problem, or a big nose, or maybe needed to lose a few pounds. I was considered ugly all throughout middle school and then I got pretty. It's wrong I know, but being pretty and being a model was my only sense of self-worth. Now, that's all been taken away. I used to be able to have any guy I wanted, now no guys even give me a second glance. I would never sweat worrying if a boyfriend left me because I knew I'd find someone else. If that were to happen now and my boyfriend left me, I'd never get a new boyfriend because I'm so ugly. Right now I have two small pimples on my forehead and one on my lower right cheek. The left side of my face is a mess with a big painful zit on my upper cheek and my lower jawline near my chin, not to mention that weird rash that will not go away. The nodule between my brows is a lot less red and it isn't as painful, but it's still there. I didn't wear any makeup today and I feel like complete garbage. Only 2 days left of fall break and I'm afraid to go back to school. I'd give anything to look like a normal human being again.
I feel the same as you do. I considered myself ugly untill 2 years ago, when spiro cleared me completely. Well it was the first time in my life i could feel some confidence. And six months ago these b@stards-sorry but this is really the way i feel- discontinued it. There is no generic here, just the original aldactone. However i didn't break out at first.. so when it became available again the stupid idea crossed my mind: that perhaps my skin just decided to be normal. Then it started breaking out with dairy and i was even more stupid to think that it's alright, i will just exclude milk. It worked at first.. then the same with nuts, then something else.. and here i am now, with all this pain again, all the red marks that took months or years to disappear are here again. I started again spiro, it's been a month now and guess what... i don't think it's working like the first time! I break out every other day even though i try to eat as healthy as i can when the first time i would eat ice cream or chocolate and the next day there was nothing or maybe one pimple but tiny. What was i thinking? It's me, i know me, i will never be normal at anything. I wonder how and why i was so lucky (or rather unlucky) not to have some serious lethal problem as a fetus or infant.
My Msc started today and i went without make up, i tried to hide as much as possible and thankfully noone asked what happend to my skin. I hope your schoolmates will be discreet as well. We will find the way..
By the way does somebody know if AHA 10% is suitable for active acne and unclogging pores?
They say BHA is better for actually unclogging pores, but I've found AHA somewhat helpful with active acne. It seems to dry it out or bring it to a head quicker.
Thanks for the reply, i have a cream with sal. acid (bha) but there is an ingredient that may be comedogenic (there are two with the same name, one comedogenic and one not and some indicator to differenciate them but they don't specify that indicator) so i am affraid to use it.. I found a non comedogenic avene cream with aha and bha but sal. acid is only 1% and i don't know if it is enough. Then there is freazydem 10% aha-bha but i don't know if it is comedogenic..
>Due to my acne and how I was treated at school I have developed social phobia and now I cannot approach people anymore. I have no friends right now (have only 12 friends on facebook and that's all family) and I am in psychiatric care. I'm just so scared that this situation is never gonna change again and I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life. Sorry of burdening you with my worries, but I could really use some support
We all have our worries and need support, that's why we are here.. there is no need to apologise about it! There are many people out there who feel the same as you do.. you are not alone!
Maybe check out Paula's Choice BHA and AHA products. I'm not sure if they do a combination of the two in one product, but they are all well formulated, no comedogenic ingredients.. etc. I have her BHA acne toner and it is good. It lasts a long time too.
Unfortunately they don't ship in my country or rather they do but they don't take responsibility for the time of delivery (knowing my country, this could take really long time).. so i am searching for alternatives and i think i will try avene.
Due to my acne and how I was treated at school I have developed social phobia and now I cannot approach people anymore. I have no friends right now (have only 12 friends on facebook and that's all family) and I am in psychiatric care. I'm just so scared that this situation is never gonna change again and I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life. Sorry of burdening you with my worries, but I could really use some support
You have all the support in the world from me! It is a tough road and people can be brutal, but remember, there are more than just people in this world. When I feel down about basically anything (people, life, acne, etc.), I go outside and try to enjoy nature.
You're faced with a challenge. A sports coach puts a player into a game when the coach feels the player can overcome the challenge. If you're faced with a huge challenge, that just means the coach thinks you can handle it. Best wishes.
On 10/17/2013 at 4:12 AM, maria199 said:On 10/17/2013 at 4:04 AM, syllacrostics said:Positive. I no longer hate the person I see in the mirror. And I'm finally seeing improvement that lasts.
Yeah, i think the same about me (especially if i don't break out tomorrow ). I am happy you are getting better as well
Hooray! Hugs for everyone! 
Acne has also taken away my confidence, if I ever had some. There were few short episodes in my life when I had developed some self-esteem and everything just seemed to go so well in all spheres of my life. I started singing lessons, went on auditions, modelled a bit for commercials (one of them was on tv! Everyone was so impressed by me and I used to get comments on my facebook, that I live such an interesting life). But all that has been taken away from me by cystic acne. Right now I feel ugly no matter what, even if I get clear moments, I have no social life, am extremely lonely and my lack of confidence always threatens my relationship with the person I love.
I'm going to Brasil tomorrow, to meet my boyfriend and all his friends, and there are two nodular cysts on my cheek. I feel so crushed and don't want to go... I don't want to be compared with those Brasilian beauties, I hate them all..
No offence, but that sounds really whiney.
^^ Well, some people will never be happy no matter what. 2 cysts? HOW ABOUT BEING HOMELESS AND STARVING? Please, people, get a REALITY CHECK. You are not the center of the universe. I understand that we're all here to vent, but really...we all need to get a grip and stop complaining about everything or having jealous feelings. I thought this was a support community, not a place to express jealousy and negative emotions.
Acne has also taken away my confidence, if I ever had some. There were few short episodes in my life when I had developed some self-esteem and everything just seemed to go so well in all spheres of my life. I started singing lessons, went on auditions, modelled a bit for commercials (one of them was on tv! Everyone was so impressed by me and I used to get comments on my facebook, that I live such an interesting life). But all that has been taken away from me by cystic acne. Right now I feel ugly no matter what, even if I get clear moments, I have no social life, am extremely lonely and my lack of confidence always threatens my relationship with the person I love.
I'm going to Brasil tomorrow, to meet my boyfriend and all his friends, and there are two nodular cysts on my cheek. I feel so crushed and don't want to go... I don't want to be compared with those Brasilian beauties, I hate them all..
No offence, but that sounds really whiney.
There are a LOT of whiny posts on this forum, but that's not one of them.
On 10/16/2013 at 9:16 AM, Zach Zach said:On 10/15/2013 at 2:10 PM, Vanessa2002 said:Due to my acne and how I was treated at school I have developed social phobia and now I cannot approach people anymore. I have no friends right now (have only 12 friends on facebook and that's all family) and I am in psychiatric care. I'm just so scared that this situation is never gonna change again and I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life. Sorry of burdening you with my worries, but I could really use some support
You have all the support in the world from me! It is a tough road and people can be brutal, but remember, there are more than just people in this world. When I feel down about basically anything (people, life, acne, etc.), I go outside and try to enjoy nature.
You're faced with a challenge. A sports coach puts a player into a game when the coach feels the player can overcome the challenge. If you're faced with a huge challenge, that just means the coach thinks you can handle it. Best wishes.
Thanks so much for your support, i really appreciate it. I'm on accutane right now and that will hopefully make my skin better and then my confidence will grow too
Acne has also taken away my confidence, if I ever had some. There were few short episodes in my life when I had developed some self-esteem and everything just seemed to go so well in all spheres of my life. I started singing lessons, went on auditions, modelled a bit for commercials (one of them was on tv! Everyone was so impressed by me and I used to get comments on my facebook, that I live such an interesting life). But all that has been taken away from me by cystic acne. Right now I feel ugly no matter what, even if I get clear moments, I have no social life, am extremely lonely and my lack of confidence always threatens my relationship with the person I love.
I'm going to Brasil tomorrow, to meet my boyfriend and all his friends, and there are two nodular cysts on my cheek. I feel so crushed and don't want to go... I don't want to be compared with those Brasilian beauties, I hate them all..
No offence, but that sounds really whiney.
^^ Well, some people will never be happy no matter what. 2 cysts? HOW ABOUT BEING HOMELESS AND STARVING? Please, people, get a REALITY CHECK. You are not the center of the universe. I understand that we're all here to vent, but really...we all need to get a grip and stop complaining about everything or having jealous feelings. I thought this was a support community, not a place to express jealousy and negative emotions.
Seriously guys?! This is a "How ya feelin' about your acne today?" thread. People are perfectly entitled to express negative emotions on here and receive support not criticism and insensitivity. Yes, there are people in the world with worse problems than acne, but that doesn't give us the right to devalue its importance in somebody's life and the very real emotions and feelings that it causes. Please show a little more understanding and compassion.
Feeling pretty good. After almost 8 weeks of using stievamycin I've went from painful, itchy and inflamed pustules and pimples to now having only 3 active pimples but still dealing with about 20 red marks but im learning to be okay with them and treating them the best I can with some AHA which has been helping out alot for me. I am so very thankful I am at this stage, a while ago I thought it might have been impossible. I wish luck to everyone dealing with this condition!
^^ Well, some people will never be happy no matter what. 2 cysts? HOW ABOUT BEING HOMELESS AND STARVING? Please, people, get a REALITY CHECK. You are not the center of the universe. I understand that we're all here to vent, but really...we all need to get a grip and stop complaining about everything or having jealous feelings. I thought this was a support community, not a place to express jealousy and negative emotions.
WOW WishClean. Just wow. Some other girls were talking about how acne made them less beautiful, so I wanted to add my two cents. There were many post expressing negative feelings, somehow I dont see you writing to each on of them.
Yes, I also thought it is a suppot community and what you write here is far from supportive and shallow as hell - how about NOT JUDGING and assuming that I think my 2 cysts (which, by the way, are huge and hurts me while smiling and using my mouth) is the worst thing in the world? How about qouting other girls who recently wrote about how acne ruined their sense of beauty?
Well by this time I got few more cysts, hope that will make you feel a bit better, cause its not only 2. I have a good enough grip and I dont even write here complaining, most often I write how my meds are working on me.
Acne has also taken away my confidence, if I ever had some. There were few short episodes in my life when I had developed some self-esteem and everything just seemed to go so well in all spheres of my life. I started singing lessons, went on auditions, modelled a bit for commercials (one of them was on tv! Everyone was so impressed by me and I used to get comments on my facebook, that I live such an interesting life). But all that has been taken away from me by cystic acne. Right now I feel ugly no matter what, even if I get clear moments, I have no social life, am extremely lonely and my lack of confidence always threatens my relationship with the person I love.
I'm going to Brasil tomorrow, to meet my boyfriend and all his friends, and there are two nodular cysts on my cheek. I feel so crushed and don't want to go... I don't want to be compared with those Brasilian beauties, I hate them all..
No offence, but that sounds really whiney.
No offence, but offence taken. Somehow THIS is whiney, and what others write is not? How is my post so special to call it whiney? That its ONLY two cysts? Well, I have many scars and now I got more cysts.
Thanks a lot for the 'support' you guys, I will make sure youll never have to read my whiney posts which this thread is full off.
I was not referring to you specifically, I never even quoted your posts. I usually just ignore your posts now because any time I tried to give you advice you never even said a simple THANK YOU. And also, last year I even took the time to respond to a private message you sent me and you never responded with a simple THANK YOU. That's just common decency. Based on all your posts, you never even try to support others here. It's always about you. And I don't appreciate people who express hatred towards others who have perfect skin, that's just unproductive jealousy.
And to clarify: I have no problem with people venting about their acne, but when it turns to jealousy and hatred towards others then that crosses the line.
^^ Well, some people will never be happy no matter what. 2 cysts? HOW ABOUT BEING HOMELESS AND STARVING? Please, people, get a REALITY CHECK. You are not the center of the universe. I understand that we're all here to vent, but really...we all need to get a grip and stop complaining about everything or having jealous feelings. I thought this was a support community, not a place to express jealousy and negative emotions.
WOW WishClean. Just wow. Some other girls were talking about how acne made them less beautiful, so I wanted to add my two cents. There were many post expressing negative feelings, somehow I dont see you writing to each on of them.
Yes, I also thought it is a suppot community and what you write here is far from supportive and shallow as hell - how about NOT JUDGING and assuming that I think my 2 cysts (which, by the way, are huge and hurts me while smiling and using my mouth) is the worst thing in the world? How about qouting other girls who recently wrote about how acne ruined their sense of beauty?
Well by this time I got few more cysts, hope that will make you feel a bit better, cause its not only 2. I have a good enough grip and I dont even write here complaining, most often I write how my meds are working on me.
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Acne has also taken away my confidence, if I ever had some. There were few short episodes in my life when I had developed some self-esteem and everything just seemed to go so well in all spheres of my life. I started singing lessons, went on auditions, modelled a bit for commercials (one of them was on tv! Everyone was so impressed by me and I used to get comments on my facebook, that I live such an interesting life). But all that has been taken away from me by cystic acne. Right now I feel ugly no matter what, even if I get clear moments, I have no social life, am extremely lonely and my lack of confidence always threatens my relationship with the person I love.
I'm going to Brasil tomorrow, to meet my boyfriend and all his friends, and there are two nodular cysts on my cheek. I feel so crushed and don't want to go... I don't want to be compared with those Brasilian beauties, I hate them all..
No offence, but that sounds really whiney.
No offence, but offence taken. Somehow THIS is whiney, and what others write is not? How is my post so special to call it whiney? That its ONLY two cysts? Well, I have many scars and now I got more cysts.
Thanks a lot for the 'support' you guys, I will make sure youll never have to read my whiney posts which this thread is full off.
I just wanted to say that i understand absolutely how you feel and that you are not alone in this-being offended by people in here who are supposed to support you. What i have learnt is that there is ALWAYS someone ready to criticize you whatever you do and that's why the best we can do is not let them ruin our already battered psychology..
I was not referring to you specifically, I never even quoted your posts. I usually just ignore your posts now because any time I tried to give you advice you never even said a simple THANK YOU. And also, last year I even took the time to respond to a private message you sent me and you never responded with a simple THANK YOU. That's just common decency. Based on all your posts, you never even try to support others here. It's always about you. And I don't appreciate people who express hatred towards others who have perfect skin, that's just unproductive jealousy.
And to clarify: I have no problem with people venting about their acne, but when it turns to jealousy and hatred towards others then that crosses the line.
Not refering to me, but somehow you mentioned the 2 cysts which I was talking about.
Have you read all my posts? Have you read my personal conversations to make any claims about what I talk to people about?
Never said a thank you? How about my own topic 'Moderately Severe Acne on combination skin (Pics)'? I qoute you there and thank you for your advices?
And finally - jealousy is quite self-destructive feeling and instead of scolding for it you should first consider why people feel it? Do you know what my reasons are, do you know how my life look like? Who are you judge and draw lines?
I just wanted to say that i understand absolutely how you feel and that you are not alone in this-being offended by people in here who are supposed to support you. What i have learnt is that there is ALWAYS someone ready to criticize you whatever you do and that's why the best we can do is not let them ruin our already battered psychology..
What they dont realize is there is someone giving us harshest critique everyday - ourselves...And its more than enough. 
Guys relax. I always see fights on the "emotional" forum. I guess people are just emotional in here lol so i think i can understand.
But anyways, i understand you. Though, jealousy is different from envy. Jealousy is bad, envy is not. Jealousy makes someone act or think bad about someone. Envy you just.. Envy something they have that you dont but you dont want anything bad to happen to them or do not think or judge them.
I feel envy. I think it's normal? Cause the person i envy, is perfect in my eyes. I doubt he's perfect though but nevertheless in my eyes he is perfect. Very very smart, good student, good sportsman and a varsity player, lots of friends, super duper clear milky smooth and poreless skin(ive seen him upclose WITH my eyes searching for imperfections), and very good actor-like facial features. I wont be suprised if he became an actor one day. Yes, it seems like he won the genetic lottery BIG TIME. I mean seriously, A+ student, Sport player, friendly, actor-like facial features, clear milky poreless skin. Doesnt that sound too good?
Soo yea, i envy some people BUT never would i wish something bad to happen to them. Instead, i strive to make myself better. To someday be able to be proud of myself.
Dont hate those brasilian beauties, i mean they did nothing wrong right? You can dislike them cause that's not bad at all. We all dislike somethings from other people but we dont "hate" them. Like i dislike an attitude from my friend but i love them. I dont hate them.
It's not like I actively hate someone. It's just a strong word. Haven't you ever found yourself thinking "Damn, how I hate this and that" in a moment of weakness? There is much more hateful posters, hating on everyone in the world and wanting to nuke them, somehow that isn't a big deal. How did my post imply that I want something bad to happen to someone? And why are you all picking up on my post, how did it wrong you? It was just venting post, like 1000 other's.
Acne has also taken away my confidence, if I ever had some. There were few short episodes in my life when I had developed some self-esteem and everything just seemed to go so well in all spheres of my life. I started singing lessons, went on auditions, modelled a bit for commercials (one of them was on tv! Everyone was so impressed by me and I used to get comments on my facebook, that I live such an interesting life). But all that has been taken away from me by cystic acne. Right now I feel ugly no matter what, even if I get clear moments, I have no social life, am extremely lonely and my lack of confidence always threatens my relationship with the person I love.
I'm going to Brasil tomorrow, to meet my boyfriend and all his friends, and there are two nodular cysts on my cheek. I feel so crushed and don't want to go... I don't want to be compared with those Brasilian beauties, I hate them all..
No offence, but that sounds really whiney.
Ok 'dad' - why don't you let her be. This is a place for people to feel free to vent and get stuff off their chests. You never know the struggles of thers so unhelpful observations like this serves no purpose. We've all been where she has so a little sensitivity wouldn't hurt.
It's not like I actively hate someone. It's just a strong word. Haven't you ever found yourself thinking "Damn, how I hate this and that" in a moment of weakness? There is much more hateful posters, hating on everyone in the world and wanting to nuke them, somehow that isn't a big deal. How did my post imply that I want something bad to happen to someone? And why are you all picking up on my post, how did it wrong you? It was just venting post, like 1000 other's.
Woah woah.
I did not say what i wrote in an aggresive form. It wasnt even to attack you but to let you know that i know what you feel and i also feel that way.
You are too easily angered.
I didnt say it wrong me either. I just said that maybe you didnt "hate" them, just disliked that trait of theirs ,which i clearly stated, is perfectly fine.
And i only explained the difference of jealousy and envy because i believed you werent jealous of those brazilian beauties. You just envied them. Which is fine. Envy is fine, jealousy is not.
Sigh.
Not that great to be honest. Over the past month or so my skin's improved loads and now all of a sudden it's breaking out again like nobody's business. Aside from the demoralising aspect of this, it also hurts a whole lot as well. I had dinner with my housemates and some of our friends last night and looking around the table every single other girl there had naturally beautiful clear skin and I just couldn't help feeling like the monster in the room. Every time I think my skin is getting better it reverts again, like taking one step forward, two steps back all the time. It's so frustrating!
The point is not to single you out, Pianina. I don't know what abstractfactory's point was and I can't speak for him, but the point of my original post was that everyone needs to be more positive because it's counterproductive to dwell on such destructive emotions. And I said "we", including myself. Your post just happened to be the last of those posts, but it certainly wasn't the only one. I didn't have time to go back and read all the other posts that were hating on someone. And by attacking another person on here who was trying to actually justify you shows that you are, as he/ she said, easily angered. Not everyone is out to get you. In fact, if you remember correctly, I gave you more medical information than your own doctor so you should at least respect the fact that I gave you LOTS of useful advice in the past and not say that you hope I'm happy you got more acne. Why the heck would anyone be happy that you are breaking out more??? It's not a competition. This just shows that you think everyone is out to get you, and you have a defensive attitude that can be misinterpreted online. If you think me or anyone else is pleased that you are getting more acne, that is twisted and I do not appreciate your accusations especially after giving you so much advice in the past.
