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(@sum1killme)

Posted : 06/29/2013 7:30 pm

It's hell in my head that's the source of the problem.

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(@snsdgirl14)

Posted : 06/30/2013 1:02 am

Feeling better today. The zit from Hell has gotten a LOT less painful and inflamed, not sure from what though. But I'm glad. :) My skin looks pretty good overall, only one clogged pore today too. I'm feeling happy with everything, for now, and still looking forward to my derm appt in a few weeks. Can't wait to try out a new treatment.

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(@aanabill)

Posted : 06/30/2013 1:24 am

got this underskin hard bump - its either a new cyst coming up or whatever!

anxious ,worried but oh well!

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(@wombat666)

Posted : 06/30/2013 6:11 am

Skin is looking surprisingly good compared to yesterday. I swear, every time I attack my skin with chemicals or a new treatment that I think will work miracles, I just mess things up. Then, when I go back to caring less, just cleansing with water / applying BP sporadically, and drinking more veggie juice, my skin clears up. What he heck.

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(@quietjamie14)

Posted : 06/30/2013 8:20 am

 

So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

The way I`m going right now Mandarine, I will definitely be moving into a farm if this carries on - but not the sort with animals.

Still really depressed with my skin. I have broken out all over the right side of my neck, jawline and sideburn area and it appears to be spreading to the left side as well now. Even noticed a couple of spots behind my ears - how did that happen?

I really do not know what to do about CBT. The theory behind CBT is to do things to challenge the negative thoughts and perceptions about yourself. I have tried to follow to the letter exercises and tasks that I have agreed with my therapist. I have cut down looking in the mirror to 2-3 times max per day and I have also deliberately been putting myself into social situations where my blemishes and perceived imperfections are on display in order that I can gauge the reaction of others.

The experiments have been going really well. I do know that people are really not that concerned or do not notice your perceived acne/flaws. Also avoiding the mirror does help you not to obsess or focus as much on your appearance.

The problem is that unfortunately for me, I still have a tendency to breakout now and again and when this happens, no amount of positive thinking can break the downward cycle that I descend into where I just think that I am a vile, repulsive monster.

Last night I had a complete meltdown - it just feels that I am never ever just going to have what I consider relatively normal skin and if I`m honest, if this is how it is going to be forever more, I don`t think I can take it any longer. The alternative is to just hide away and become a recluse but I`ve been there and done that and it is no way to live.

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I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

That's really scary. sad.png Can you stop taking the BC pills? They always made me worse, both with acne and with depression.

 

It finally seems to show some results on my acne. Very slight, but noticeable for me. But the depression is getting the best of me... I have mindlessly stared at a tv screen today from 10 o'clock until now (almost 17) and cried until my eyes got dry. For no particular reason. And my mouth is still dry, head still hurting after the Atarax overdose, how stupid... We had some really nice atmosphere with my bf few days ago, now he's cold and shocked over how sudden my mood took a turn.

 

I guess bcp itself wasn't the cause this time, because i didn't have such side effects during the first 3 months, but this time I added Androcur which represses androgens and can easily cause severe depression. I guess that's what has happened...

I feel that I am also descending into a depression - I am not at work today and I have just sat at home all day today not able to read, watch TV or do anything, everything seems pointless right now. I do know that no matter how crap I feel, I`m going to have to do something tomorrow to break this cycle otherwise I am just going to descend deeper and deeper. Luckily (or not) for me my parents are visiting from the North of England (Lincolnshire) tomorrow so maybe it might just be the impetus I need to sort myself out - we`ll see.

I hope things sort out for you soon Pianina - if it means dropping Diane or Androcur for the time being then so be it.In the great scheme of things, depression is a more serious and debillitating condition than acne.

I recently managed to get a course of CBT booked on the NHS, which I'll be starting next week. I got to the point where I didn't think I could handle it on my own anymore. But the thing is, it sounds like I already do all the 'tasks' they set you. I only look in the mirror once or twice a day, I expose myself to social situations, I try and speak positively to myself - but none of it's working at all.

Even if I limit mirror-time, I can still feel how spotty, greasy, itchy and dry my skin is. Going into social situations doesn't help much, as people will tell me I'm fine or that they don't notice anything wrong and yet how many women have been interested in me in the last ten years? None. That tells me all I need to know; the rest is platitude. Positive self-talk feels futile, as it's constantly up against a tide of negative, nasty comments about people like me (ugly, single, introverted, shy, overeducated) from the media and society in general.

Then again, CBT might be the only, faint, hope I have left.

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(@perseverance92)

Posted : 06/30/2013 12:46 pm

I know what i did was harakiri.But couldn't resist it.It was huge and GROSS.I pricked this pus filled thing and it's all swollen and red now.I put some spirit (methyl alcohol 99%) on it.Will i screw my face?

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(@dejaclairevoyant)

Posted : 06/30/2013 12:52 pm

I ate sour cream twice yesterday with no bad results. Happy.

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(@bodie81)

Posted : 06/30/2013 1:17 pm

 

So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

The way I`m going right now Mandarine, I will definitely be moving into a farm if this carries on - but not the sort with animals.

Still really depressed with my skin. I have broken out all over the right side of my neck, jawline and sideburn area and it appears to be spreading to the left side as well now. Even noticed a couple of spots behind my ears - how did that happen?

I really do not know what to do about CBT. The theory behind CBT is to do things to challenge the negative thoughts and perceptions about yourself. I have tried to follow to the letter exercises and tasks that I have agreed with my therapist. I have cut down looking in the mirror to 2-3 times max per day and I have also deliberately been putting myself into social situations where my blemishes and perceived imperfections are on display in order that I can gauge the reaction of others.

The experiments have been going really well. I do know that people are really not that concerned or do not notice your perceived acne/flaws. Also avoiding the mirror does help you not to obsess or focus as much on your appearance.

The problem is that unfortunately for me, I still have a tendency to breakout now and again and when this happens, no amount of positive thinking can break the downward cycle that I descend into where I just think that I am a vile, repulsive monster.

Last night I had a complete meltdown - it just feels that I am never ever just going to have what I consider relatively normal skin and if I`m honest, if this is how it is going to be forever more, I don`t think I can take it any longer. The alternative is to just hide away and become a recluse but I`ve been there and done that and it is no way to live.

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I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

That's really scary. sad.png Can you stop taking the BC pills? They always made me worse, both with acne and with depression.

 

It finally seems to show some results on my acne. Very slight, but noticeable for me. But the depression is getting the best of me... I have mindlessly stared at a tv screen today from 10 o'clock until now (almost 17) and cried until my eyes got dry. For no particular reason. And my mouth is still dry, head still hurting after the Atarax overdose, how stupid... We had some really nice atmosphere with my bf few days ago, now he's cold and shocked over how sudden my mood took a turn.

 

I guess bcp itself wasn't the cause this time, because i didn't have such side effects during the first 3 months, but this time I added Androcur which represses androgens and can easily cause severe depression. I guess that's what has happened...

I feel that I am also descending into a depression - I am not at work today and I have just sat at home all day today not able to read, watch TV or do anything, everything seems pointless right now. I do know that no matter how crap I feel, I`m going to have to do something tomorrow to break this cycle otherwise I am just going to descend deeper and deeper. Luckily (or not) for me my parents are visiting from the North of England (Lincolnshire) tomorrow so maybe it might just be the impetus I need to sort myself out - we`ll see.

I hope things sort out for you soon Pianina - if it means dropping Diane or Androcur for the time being then so be it.In the great scheme of things, depression is a more serious and debillitating condition than acne.

I recently managed to get a course of CBT booked on the NHS, which I'll be starting next week. I got to the point where I didn't think I could handle it on my own anymore. But the thing is, it sounds like I already do all the 'tasks' they set you. I only look in the mirror once or twice a day, I expose myself to social situations, I try and speak positively to myself - but none of it's working at all.

Even if I limit mirror-time, I can still feel how spotty, greasy, itchy and dry my skin is. Going into social situations doesn't help much, as people will tell me I'm fine or that they don't notice anything wrong and yet how many women have been interested in me in the last ten years? None. That tells me all I need to know; the rest is platitude. Positive self-talk feels futile, as it's constantly up against a tide of negative, nasty comments about people like me (ugly, single, introverted, shy, overeducated) from the media and society in general.

Then again, CBT might be the only, faint, hope I have left.

I wouldn`t totally dismiss CBT - it is not working for me but that could be down to a variety of reasons. It may be just the thing for you so good luck!

I am just like you - people tell me I am fine and I know that they are lying or just being nice. For example, saw my parents and other members of my family today and they all said that I looked well. To prove that they are all lying, I have posted a photo of the state of the right side of my neck/face.

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I defy anyone to tell me that I haven`t got a fucking problem and it is all in my head after they have seen that photo!!!

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(@dejaclairevoyant)

Posted : 06/30/2013 2:46 pm

Of course it's not all in your head. When people say you look fine, they don't mean that they can't see your breakouts. They are just trying to tell you that they like you anyway and it doesn't matter to them. If they literally say they can't see ANY acne, they are probably lying to make you feel better. But keep in mind that if a person lies to make you feel better it's probably because they like you and want you to be happy. So at least people like you! <3

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(@frankl)

Posted : 06/30/2013 4:35 pm

 

So, GUNNKE, let's move with us into our farm!

We will make puppies vomit and cry. It will be funny, you'll see.

The way I`m going right now Mandarine, I will definitely be moving into a farm if this carries on - but not the sort with animals.

Still really depressed with my skin. I have broken out all over the right side of my neck, jawline and sideburn area and it appears to be spreading to the left side as well now. Even noticed a couple of spots behind my ears - how did that happen?

I really do not know what to do about CBT. The theory behind CBT is to do things to challenge the negative thoughts and perceptions about yourself. I have tried to follow to the letter exercises and tasks that I have agreed with my therapist. I have cut down looking in the mirror to 2-3 times max per day and I have also deliberately been putting myself into social situations where my blemishes and perceived imperfections are on display in order that I can gauge the reaction of others.

The experiments have been going really well. I do know that people are really not that concerned or do not notice your perceived acne/flaws. Also avoiding the mirror does help you not to obsess or focus as much on your appearance.

The problem is that unfortunately for me, I still have a tendency to breakout now and again and when this happens, no amount of positive thinking can break the downward cycle that I descend into where I just think that I am a vile, repulsive monster.

Last night I had a complete meltdown - it just feels that I am never ever just going to have what I consider relatively normal skin and if I`m honest, if this is how it is going to be forever more, I don`t think I can take it any longer. The alternative is to just hide away and become a recluse but I`ve been there and done that and it is no way to live.

>>>>>

I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

That's really scary. sad.png Can you stop taking the BC pills? They always made me worse, both with acne and with depression.

 

It finally seems to show some results on my acne. Very slight, but noticeable for me. But the depression is getting the best of me... I have mindlessly stared at a tv screen today from 10 o'clock until now (almost 17) and cried until my eyes got dry. For no particular reason. And my mouth is still dry, head still hurting after the Atarax overdose, how stupid... We had some really nice atmosphere with my bf few days ago, now he's cold and shocked over how sudden my mood took a turn.

 

I guess bcp itself wasn't the cause this time, because i didn't have such side effects during the first 3 months, but this time I added Androcur which represses androgens and can easily cause severe depression. I guess that's what has happened...

I feel that I am also descending into a depression - I am not at work today and I have just sat at home all day today not able to read, watch TV or do anything, everything seems pointless right now. I do know that no matter how crap I feel, I`m going to have to do something tomorrow to break this cycle otherwise I am just going to descend deeper and deeper. Luckily (or not) for me my parents are visiting from the North of England (Lincolnshire) tomorrow so maybe it might just be the impetus I need to sort myself out - we`ll see.

I hope things sort out for you soon Pianina - if it means dropping Diane or Androcur for the time being then so be it.In the great scheme of things, depression is a more serious and debillitating condition than acne.

I recently managed to get a course of CBT booked on the NHS, which I'll be starting next week. I got to the point where I didn't think I could handle it on my own anymore. But the thing is, it sounds like I already do all the 'tasks' they set you. I only look in the mirror once or twice a day, I expose myself to social situations, I try and speak positively to myself - but none of it's working at all.

Even if I limit mirror-time, I can still feel how spotty, greasy, itchy and dry my skin is. Going into social situations doesn't help much, as people will tell me I'm fine or that they don't notice anything wrong and yet how many women have been interested in me in the last ten years? None. That tells me all I need to know; the rest is platitude. Positive self-talk feels futile, as it's constantly up against a tide of negative, nasty comments about people like me (ugly, single, introverted, shy, overeducated) from the media and society in general.

Then again, CBT might be the only, faint, hope I have left.

I wouldn`t totally dismiss CBT - it is not working for me but that could be down to a variety of reasons. It may be just the thing for you so good luck!

I am just like you - people tell me I am fine and I know that they are lying or just being nice. For example, saw my parents and other members of my family today and they all said that I looked well. To prove that they are all lying, I have posted a photo of the state of the right side of my neck/face.

post-105571-0-92012500-1372616177_thumb.

I defy anyone to tell me that I haven`t got a fucking problem and it is all in my head after they have seen that photo!!!

Hey Gunnke are you on meds or ever been on meds and if so would you recommend it? If I do decide to take the plunge and take meds would I have to take them for the rest of my life just to feel normal?

CBT sounds like bullshit to be honest from what I've read. There isn't anything some doctor can say that will make us feel any better, but meds might work. I just don't want to become dependent on them I just want to get through this rough time that I'm having and give a fuck about working out and taking care of myself again.

By the way yea I see what you have on your neck and I'm probably saying this because I was 100 times worse than you but it doesn't look like a big deal to me. But I do understand how you can be self conscious about it, trust me I know all about being self conscious. Imagine what you have on your neck all over your jawline, temple and cheeks and thats what I had in my 20's. I have the scars to prove it and it messes with me everyday.

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(@wishclean)

Posted : 06/30/2013 5:58 pm

I haven't tried CBT but I tried biofeedback. I think every bit helps when it comes to fighting acne.

Update: I just moved to a new city, don't know many people here. Starting a new job next month and in the mean time I'm very broke. But surprisingly my skin is doing fine considering the stress of moving, lack of sleep, and being around lots of dust. I don't think it will ever go back to "normal" because the rolling scars are too noticeable to me. I'm too embarrassed to ask my friends about my face because I don't want them to think I'm superficial. And my family lives too far away so I have noone to tell me if I look normal or deformed. I don't know anymore. Some days I feel normal with makeup on, and other days I think I will never emotionally heal. I look at pictures of myself from some months ago and can't even recognize that person anymore. neutral.gif I guess we should be happy with what we got because there are no guarantees in life.

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(@snsdgirl14)

Posted : 06/30/2013 8:37 pm

Studies would show that CBT is not bullshit...and I've gone through CBT therapy myself and it really helped me.

Ughh my skin really annoyed me today. I got a small zit on my forehead, which I usually don't break out on. So annoying. The zit next to my nose has gone down significantly but is still slightly raised. I just want it to go flat >:( Ughhhhh. I also just hate how oily my skin gets within a few hours. I hate having to blot my face and look at the gross oily residue on it. And I hate how sweaty my face gets too! I'll be doing like, minimal physical labor, and I'll break out in a sweat on my forehead and upper lip! It's so freaking embarrassing. People with naturally good skin have no idea how lucky they are.

Whatever. I'm seeing a derm soon and hopefully my skin will improve.

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(@dejaclairevoyant)

Posted : 06/30/2013 9:28 pm

Skin is doing good. The breakout I got from eating a lot of potatoes multiple days in a row is slowly healing. I don't think it will scar too bad. It's worth a small red mark for me to have potatoes at least a few times a month. I hate that they are bad for me because they are so good. I just try to make up for it the rest of the time. I'm excited that I tolerated a little bit of sour cream, though! :) Baby steps.

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(@flowergirl1234)

Posted : 06/30/2013 11:27 pm

I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

Are you doing okay now? How are you feeling? I'm so sorry, that is so horrible and scary.

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(@perseverance92)

Posted : 07/01/2013 4:00 am

I haven't tried CBT but I tried biofeedback. I think every bit helps when it comes to fighting acne.

Update: I just moved to a new city, don't know many people here. Starting a new job next month and in the mean time I'm very broke. But surprisingly my skin is doing fine considering the stress of moving, lack of sleep, and being around lots of dust. I don't think it will ever go back to "normal" because the rolling scars are too noticeable to me. I'm too embarrassed to ask my friends about my face because I don't want them to think I'm superficial. And my family lives too far away so I have noone to tell me if I look normal or deformed. I don't know anymore. Some days I feel normal with makeup on, and other days I think I will never emotionally heal. I look at pictures of myself from some months ago and can't even recognize that person anymore. neutral.gif I guess we should be happy with what we got because there are no guarantees in life.

Ditto.I have rolling scars too And all on the right cheek.My right cheek bone always gets victimized sad.png.For now i'm close to my mother .So i'm feeling good.Don't know what will happen tomorrow.I'll be in college with my friends.There won't be anyone ... Who would i share my acne woes with...

By the way.You should cheer up. Because pretty women ain't got no worries smile.png

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(@mandarine)

Posted : 07/01/2013 4:47 am

I know what i did was harakiri.But couldn't resist it.It was huge and GROSS.I pricked this pus filled thing and it's all swollen and red now.I put some spirit (methyl alcohol 99%) on it.Will i screw my face?

Next time you'll pop a thing like that, listen to La chevauchee des Walkyries at the same time, you'll see: with this song, this moment become so epic.

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(@lizardanne)

Posted : 07/01/2013 1:43 pm

I'm trying to hang in here! My skin is in this weird limbo where it gets better and then acts up again...trying to find the connection, but looking forward to getting Dan's Regimen this week! :)

Only hard part is keeping up appearances. I'm a performer and I really can't stand the thought of people being able to see the bumps on my face under the stage lights...it bothers me so much. UGH.

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(@celestialelf)

Posted : 07/01/2013 2:48 pm

Well I'm finally back on accutane, low-dose 20mg. I'm so relieved to finally be GETTING somewhere and having some hope. Of course I've only been on it four days so there isn't any change besides dry lips, which I tend to to get pretty quickly. 'Tane in general tends to work really fast for me, usually within a couple weeks I start seeing good improvement. But I'm always afraid that stuff that's worked in the past won't work again. D:

I hate acne around my mouth. :< If I had to have acne, it's the LAST place I'd pick, because it's so freakin obvious and visible and it sucks. I got a cystic type spot a couple days ago and it quickly progressed to a whitehead which I picked, but it keeps reforming. JSHDKJFSD. I hope it's at least something I can cover with makeup by tomorrow since I work that day.

Mr. J and I were both off work yesterday and it was nice, I made us a big breakfast with flaky biscuits and everything. YUMMY! I haven't cared about my diet lately to be honest. I think it's a mix of depression and laziness. We didn't go anywhere because I feel self-conscious about myself, but I've promised we'll run about on the 4th and do some grilling or something. I'm really lucky he's so understanding.

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(@exister)

Posted : 07/01/2013 3:26 pm

So I've been taking about 2 grams of Vitamin C powder every day for a month or so. About two weeks in I started getting big cysts, which stopped, but now I'm getting 2-3 painful whiteheads on my chin and above my mouth every day. But my cheeks look really smooth and pimple-free, and the redness of my old marks is fading.

I never normally get pimples on my chin or jawline... like, never ever. Now I'm getting 2-3 a day so it's likely the vitamin C. But since my skin is improving in other areas, I don't feel like quitting it just yet.

Does anyone have any ideas why the vitamin C could be causing these chin/mouth pimples? Am I taking too much and straining my liver? Do I have an allergy to it, like alternativista and her citrus allergy that gives her jawline cysts? Could it be affecting my hormones, since hormonal acne is usually tied to the jawline? Or could it just be purging my skin, or an initial breakout or whatever, in which case I should keep going? I also tried applying the vitamin C topically a couple weeks ago, could it have taken this long to cause a breakout?

OH, I should also mention that I haven't been shaving, just trimming my short beard once a week or so. That... could be it. Right?

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(@alternativista)

Posted : 07/01/2013 5:07 pm

So I've been taking about 2 grams of Vitamin C powder every day for a month or so. About two weeks in I started getting big cysts, which stopped, but now I'm getting 2-3 painful whiteheads on my chin and above my mouth every day. But my cheeks look really smooth and pimple-free, and the redness of my old marks is fading.

I never normally get pimples on my chin or jawline... like, never ever. Now I'm getting 2-3 a day so it's likely the vitamin C. But since my skin is improving in other areas, I don't feel like quitting it just yet.

Does anyone have any ideas why the vitamin C could be causing these chin/mouth pimples? Am I taking too much and straining my liver? Do I have an allergy to it, like alternativista and her citrus allergy that gives her jawline cysts? Could it be affecting my hormones, since hormonal acne is usually tied to the jawline? Or could it just be purging my skin, or an initial breakout or whatever, in which case I should keep going? I also tried applying the vitamin C topically a couple weeks ago, could it have taken this long to cause a breakout?

OH, I should also mention that I haven't been shaving, just trimming my short beard once a week or so. That... could be it. Right?

I don't know that it's the vitamin C that causes my cysts. There are a few different compounds in citrus that people may have an intolerance to. Also, supplements are usually absorbic acid, which is not a natural form and I've recently read that is has some harmful effects. I didn't record the details into my brain, though. You'll have to look it up.

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(@pianina)

Posted : 07/01/2013 5:14 pm

 

I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

Are you doing okay now? How are you feeling? I'm so sorry, that is so horrible and scary.

 

I'm okay, thank you for asking :) Have terrible headaches ever since then though... Not only it's horrible and scary, but also very stupid of me... I hope no one will repeat such action! P.s. you have such pretty pictures!! :)

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(@flowergirl1234)

Posted : 07/01/2013 7:46 pm

 

I'm falling into a downwards spiral... My acne is not improving dramatically, but it's not terrible at the moment. The thing is that I'm gradually becoming more and more depressed.. Is it Diane or Androcur cause it, I don't know...

Two days ago something got into me and I overdosed some Atarax pills. I read it causes severe drowsiness and all I wanted to do was sleep for a long long time. So I took about 15 pills at once and went to bed. Woke up short of breath and needed an ambulance in the middle of the night. It was terrifying, I thought I'll suffocate and die.

Today I'm feeling as low as ever. I know i need to end taking the pills but I wanted to at least get some results from it...

Are you doing okay now? How are you feeling? I'm so sorry, that is so horrible and scary.

 

I'm okay, thank you for asking smile.png Have terrible headaches ever since then though... Not only it's horrible and scary, but also very stupid of me... I hope no one will repeat such action! P.s. you have such pretty pictures!! smile.png

Well, I'm glad you're okay! I'm sorry you're getting headaches though. I used to get terrible migraines, so I feel for you. I hope you'll be feeling better soon. Are you still taking the medications you mentioned?

Oh, and thank you!! :)

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(@snsdgirl14)

Posted : 07/01/2013 9:43 pm

Skin looked pretty good today, no new blemishes, and I went out without makeup today and felt comfortable showing my bare face. :)

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(@bodie81)

Posted : 07/01/2013 11:23 pm

Hey Gunnke are you on meds or ever been on meds and if so would you recommend it? If I do decide to take the plunge and take meds would I have to take them for the rest of my life just to feel normal?

CBT sounds like bullshit to be honest from what I've read. There isn't anything some doctor can say that will make us feel any better, but meds might work. I just don't want to become dependent on them I just want to get through this rough time that I'm having and give a fuck about working out and taking care of myself again.

By the way yea I see what you have on your neck and I'm probably saying this because I was 100 times worse than you but it doesn't look like a big deal to me. But I do understand how you can be self conscious about it, trust me I know all about being self conscious. Imagine what you have on your neck all over your jawline, temple and cheeks and thats what I had in my 20's. I have the scars to prove it and it messes with me everyday.

Frank L, I am not currently on meds - however, in the past, I have taken amitriptyline and citalopram. Right now I would personally not take meds as they just dull you thoughts rather than deal with what caused you to become depressed in the first place. However, if someone is in a really bad place, meds can help to lift their mood and give them the impetus to do something about their situation. I am by no means an expert but in my opinion it all depends on the individual, their circumstances and the severity of their depression etc as to whether or not they take meds. Meds do not have to be for life - they can be a short term or a long term thing. Again it depends on the individual.

I am feeling a lot more positive today. I am still a bit broken out but it appears to be less red and there is nothing new forming so hopefully it will clear up in a few days. Pretty certain it is down to the fact that I have eaten quite a lot of bread in the past couple of weeks. This again was something that I agreed to do in conjunction with my CBT therapist and at first it had no affect whatsoever. However, within the space of a few days I completely broke out. I never normally eat bread so will go back to not eating it and see what happens.

Still undecided what to do about CBT. I have another session today so will voice my concerns when I see the therapist and see how it goes.

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(@sum1killme)

Posted : 07/02/2013 12:11 am

it doesnt matter how i feel, i still have shit on my face regardless.

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