Sorry I assumed he knew about your acne but it still bothered you and the subject never came up during your marriage. Realistically he probably has noticed and doesnt care. I live with extreme anxiety too so I know that feeling. Opening up to your hubby will take a giant weight off your shoulders and I'm sure he will still love you.

 

You have a husband he apparently must love you and you are still not happy?

Due to how my family and people around me have treated me because of my skin, it has left me with feelings of severe shame and anxiety plus depression. My family have all rejected me and used to beat me and tell me I was unlovable amongst other things due to my skin, so my fear is that my husband may react the same when he finds out. I truly think I am repulsive with skin like this. Yes I am grateful that I have a lovely man in my life but here's hoping he will stick by me when he finds out about my skin. The way I've had to live when I'm around him is extremely depressing. I cover my face with my hair, hide from him when I have just showered and also am forced to wear make up all the time for fear he will notice, be disgusted too and potentially reject me. Do you understand what I mean? Just cos I'm married doesn't mean my problems are answered.

Wow... you've never been around your husband without makeup? That's kind of amazing, actually. Seems very difficult to pull off. Do you sleep with it on? Or do you sleep in two different rooms?

me: Feeling depressed today.

Sorry I assumed he knew about your acne but it still bothered you and the subject never came up during your marriage. Realistically he probably has noticed and doesnt care. I live with extreme anxiety too so I know that feeling. Opening up to your hubby will take a giant weight off your shoulders and I'm sure he will still love you.

Yes I am hoping so, the anxiety is just too much at the moment and I know deep down that a couple of hours of emotional torture whilst I tell him will be worth it in the long run. Have been with him for nearly four years and have had times during our courtship where my skin has not had any active lesions therefore it has been fairly easy to hide. But since last Christmas I have had RELENTLESS breakouts, my skin is constantly red, looks in shit condition and new scars have appeared therefore it is getting increasingly harder to hide my problem from him hence why I really need to just come clean about it. Hoping with his support I can get some skin resurfacing done, maybe acne on top of smoother skin won't look so bad. But 20 years of this crappy condition has really taken its toll on my skin. Even Accutane didn't work for me, plus my diet is really clean so makes me wonder what's wrong with me. Also the constant bullying from others has been rough.

Sorry to hear you have anxiety too, I am here for you if ever you need to vent.

 

You have a husband he apparently must love you and you are still not happy?

Due to how my family and people around me have treated me because of my skin, it has left me with feelings of severe shame and anxiety plus depression. My family have all rejected me and used to beat me and tell me I was unlovable amongst other things due to my skin, so my fear is that my husband may react the same when he finds out. I truly think I am repulsive with skin like this. Yes I am grateful that I have a lovely man in my life but here's hoping he will stick by me when he finds out about my skin. The way I've had to live when I'm around him is extremely depressing. I cover my face with my hair, hide from him when I have just showered and also am forced to wear make up all the time for fear he will notice, be disgusted too and potentially reject me. Do you understand what I mean? Just cos I'm married doesn't mean my problems are answered.

Wow... you've never been around your husband without makeup? That's kind of amazing, actually. Seems very difficult to pull off. Do you sleep with it on? Or do you sleep in two different rooms?

me: Feeling depressed today.

Haha no, of course he's seen me without make up but during breakouts I hide behind my hair and keep my distance from him if it's daylight or the lights are on, am fed up of living like this. I am now 31 though and at times the acne has subsided a bit which makes going bare faced much easier but since Christmas my skin really has been aggressively bad. Another thing, I can't put make up on while he's watching, as I paint my masterpiece and cover my skin spot by spot. Sorry if all this sounds irrational but have been bullied all my life over my skin condition, even by my family. I could write a book of all the one liners said to me about me and my bloody acne.

It's not irrational at all. I completely relate--I have never let my boyfriend or any other guy see me putting makeup on. Even when I don't have any breakouts. I feel like it ruins the illusion.

 

Sorry I assumed he knew about your acne but it still bothered you and the subject never came up during your marriage. Realistically he probably has noticed and doesnt care. I live with extreme anxiety too so I know that feeling. Opening up to your hubby will take a giant weight off your shoulders and I'm sure he will still love you.

Yes I am hoping so, the anxiety is just too much at the moment and I know deep down that a couple of hours of emotional torture whilst I tell him will be worth it in the long run. Have been with him for nearly four years and have had times during our courtship where my skin has not had any active lesions therefore it has been fairly easy to hide. But since last Christmas I have had RELENTLESS breakouts, my skin is constantly red, looks in shit condition and new scars have appeared therefore it is getting increasingly harder to hide my problem from him hence why I really need to just come clean about it. Hoping with his support I can get some skin resurfacing done, maybe acne on top of smoother skin won't look so bad. But 20 years of this crappy condition has really taken its toll on my skin. Even Accutane didn't work for me, plus my diet is really clean so makes me wonder what's wrong with me. Also the constant bullying from others has been rough.

Sorry to hear you have anxiety too, I am here for you if ever you need to vent.

 

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You have a husband he apparently must love you and you are still not happy?

Due to how my family and people around me have treated me because of my skin, it has left me with feelings of severe shame and anxiety plus depression. My family have all rejected me and used to beat me and tell me I was unlovable amongst other things due to my skin, so my fear is that my husband may react the same when he finds out. I truly think I am repulsive with skin like this. Yes I am grateful that I have a lovely man in my life but here's hoping he will stick by me when he finds out about my skin. The way I've had to live when I'm around him is extremely depressing. I cover my face with my hair, hide from him when I have just showered and also am forced to wear make up all the time for fear he will notice, be disgusted too and potentially reject me. Do you understand what I mean? Just cos I'm married doesn't mean my problems are answered.

Wow... you've never been around your husband without makeup? That's kind of amazing, actually. Seems very difficult to pull off. Do you sleep with it on? Or do you sleep in two different rooms?

me: Feeling depressed today.

Haha no, of course he's seen me without make up but during breakouts I hide behind my hair and keep my distance from him if it's daylight or the lights are on, am fed up of living like this. I am now 31 though and at times the acne has subsided a bit which makes going bare faced much easier but since Christmas my skin really has been aggressively bad. Another thing, I can't put make up on while he's watching, as I paint my masterpiece and cover my skin spot by spot. Sorry if all this sounds irrational but have been bullied all my life over my skin condition, even by my family. I could write a book of all the one liners said to me about me and my bloody acne.

ibiza,

I have been with my boyfriend for 6 years and he has only seen me without makeup twice and I've put my makeup on in front of him once. Don't feel ashamed about this. I turn off all the lights before I go to bed so that when I walk out of the bathroom, he can't see me. When I finally opened up to my boyfriend, he said he knew about my acne but that it didn't bother him a bit. It just made him sad that I cried about it. Today, I'm breaking out a little and I was crying because we're going camping tomorrow and I don't want my acne to ruin my good time. I said "I feel and look so ugly! Please, don't look at me." and he chuckled...which made me sadder and I asked "Man, why are you laughing at me? That's so mean..." and he said "Because you're so beautiful and amazing to me, that I could never NOT look at you." Wow, I just realized what a sweet thing that was to say haha

I hope your husband reacts in such a way, which I'm sure he will. Don't worry...it took me 4-5 years to talk about my acne with my boyfriend. It will be okay. Try to be positive, but it's okay to cry. Good luck

It's not irrational at all. I completely relate--I have never let my boyfriend or any other guy see me putting makeup on. Even when I don't have any breakouts. I feel like it ruins the illusion.

Yes exactly! I hate being watched by anyone if I am applying make up, the thought of it seriously freaks me out. Again this is due to previous bullying. I remember when I was younger and living at the family home, my sisters and I would all put our make up on together before school/work and they would make remarks to me and also give me holier than thou body language because I had spots and they didn't. Therefore putting on make up for them was simple and just involved accentuating their features, for me I had to hide how bad my skin was which was often very complicated and foundation often looked caked on, they would of course pick on me about that too

 

Sorry I assumed he knew about your acne but it still bothered you and the subject never came up during your marriage. Realistically he probably has noticed and doesnt care. I live with extreme anxiety too so I know that feeling. Opening up to your hubby will take a giant weight off your shoulders and I'm sure he will still love you.

Yes I am hoping so, the anxiety is just too much at the moment and I know deep down that a couple of hours of emotional torture whilst I tell him will be worth it in the long run. Have been with him for nearly four years and have had times during our courtship where my skin has not had any active lesions therefore it has been fairly easy to hide. But since last Christmas I have had RELENTLESS breakouts, my skin is constantly red, looks in shit condition and new scars have appeared therefore it is getting increasingly harder to hide my problem from him hence why I really need to just come clean about it. Hoping with his support I can get some skin resurfacing done, maybe acne on top of smoother skin won't look so bad. But 20 years of this crappy condition has really taken its toll on my skin. Even Accutane didn't work for me, plus my diet is really clean so makes me wonder what's wrong with me. Also the constant bullying from others has been rough.

Sorry to hear you have anxiety too, I am here for you if ever you need to vent.

 

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You have a husband he apparently must love you and you are still not happy?

Due to how my family and people around me have treated me because of my skin, it has left me with feelings of severe shame and anxiety plus depression. My family have all rejected me and used to beat me and tell me I was unlovable amongst other things due to my skin, so my fear is that my husband may react the same when he finds out. I truly think I am repulsive with skin like this. Yes I am grateful that I have a lovely man in my life but here's hoping he will stick by me when he finds out about my skin. The way I've had to live when I'm around him is extremely depressing. I cover my face with my hair, hide from him when I have just showered and also am forced to wear make up all the time for fear he will notice, be disgusted too and potentially reject me. Do you understand what I mean? Just cos I'm married doesn't mean my problems are answered.

Wow... you've never been around your husband without makeup? That's kind of amazing, actually. Seems very difficult to pull off. Do you sleep with it on? Or do you sleep in two different rooms?

me: Feeling depressed today.

Haha no, of course he's seen me without make up but during breakouts I hide behind my hair and keep my distance from him if it's daylight or the lights are on, am fed up of living like this. I am now 31 though and at times the acne has subsided a bit which makes going bare faced much easier but since Christmas my skin really has been aggressively bad. Another thing, I can't put make up on while he's watching, as I paint my masterpiece and cover my skin spot by spot. Sorry if all this sounds irrational but have been bullied all my life over my skin condition, even by my family. I could write a book of all the one liners said to me about me and my bloody acne.

ibiza,

I have been with my boyfriend for 6 years and he has only seen me without makeup twice and I've put my makeup on in front of him once. Don't feel ashamed about this. I turn off all the lights before I go to bed so that when I walk out of the bathroom, he can't see me. When I finally opened up to my boyfriend, he said he knew about my acne but that it didn't bother him a bit. It just made him sad that I cried about it. Today, I'm breaking out a little and I was crying because we're going camping tomorrow and I don't want my acne to ruin my good time. I said "I feel and look so ugly! Please, don't look at me." and he chuckled...which made me sadder and I asked "Man, why are you laughing at me? That's so mean..." and he said "Because you're so beautiful and amazing to me, that I could never NOT look at you." Wow, I just realized what a sweet thing that was to say haha

 

I hope your husband reacts in such a way, which I'm sure he will. Don't worry...it took me 4-5 years to talk about my acne with my boyfriend. It will be okay. Try to be positive, but it's okay to cry. Good luck

Hi again!

I had just written out a detailed reply to you, was all set to post then my laptop crashed so I lost it all, dammit! Here's hoping I remember what I wrote...

I totally understand about switching the lights off when you're ready for bed, I do exactly the same and occasionally my husband will switch a light back on for something which makes me very anxious and I tell him to switch it off immediately! Or I hide under the covers, whatever is easiest. Hate living this way.

But what a lovely story, it is so nice that your boyfriend is so supportive and thinks you're beautiful with or without acne. It is the hardest thing in the world to truly believe that you are still attractive when in the midst of what seems like a massive outbreak. You were brave to open up to him and you must be glad you did. My man is lovely so I know deep down he will be supportive. Last night when I broke down I wouldn't tell him what was wrong but he said to me whatever the problem is to not let it define me, and that he thinks I am absolutely beautiful no matter what. Oh no, hoping he hasn't guessed

Camping would make me feel uncomfortable because it seems that people expect you to just go bare faced at all times due to being outdoors and dressed down. Also, escaping to take some time out to apply make up in private would be difficult. But you shouldn't worry dear, your boyfriend loves and accepts you for who you are! And I have said before that you really are a stunner! Your skin doesn't even look that bad in your pics without make up (I know it must annoy you to hear that as I think we all probably see our skin much worse than it really is) and with make up your skin honestly looks wonderful! I can't remember whether you said you have any scarring? I have some minor pock marks and also very large open pores so unfortunately my make up never looks good because it all just settles in the holes, urgh Hate that people must be thinking how uneven my skin is, and that I could be making more effort to apply make up 'neater' but I am doing the very best I can, and it does hurt when even your best is not enough.

Oh, forgot to say, enjoy your camping trip Heitea and try not to let your skin get you down when you're away. Remember, you're lovely and your boyfriend knows it! He loves you for who you are and is lucky to have you

I'm clearing up so I'm doing pretty good today. I have felt pretty miserable the last few days or even weeks from my breakouts. My mood is determined by my face.

 

Sorry I assumed he knew about your acne but it still bothered you and the subject never came up during your marriage. Realistically he probably has noticed and doesnt care. I live with extreme anxiety too so I know that feeling. Opening up to your hubby will take a giant weight off your shoulders and I'm sure he will still love you.

Yes I am hoping so, the anxiety is just too much at the moment and I know deep down that a couple of hours of emotional torture whilst I tell him will be worth it in the long run. Have been with him for nearly four years and have had times during our courtship where my skin has not had any active lesions therefore it has been fairly easy to hide. But since last Christmas I have had RELENTLESS breakouts, my skin is constantly red, looks in shit condition and new scars have appeared therefore it is getting increasingly harder to hide my problem from him hence why I really need to just come clean about it. Hoping with his support I can get some skin resurfacing done, maybe acne on top of smoother skin won't look so bad. But 20 years of this crappy condition has really taken its toll on my skin. Even Accutane didn't work for me, plus my diet is really clean so makes me wonder what's wrong with me. Also the constant bullying from others has been rough.

Sorry to hear you have anxiety too, I am here for you if ever you need to vent.

 

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You have a husband he apparently must love you and you are still not happy?

Due to how my family and people around me have treated me because of my skin, it has left me with feelings of severe shame and anxiety plus depression. My family have all rejected me and used to beat me and tell me I was unlovable amongst other things due to my skin, so my fear is that my husband may react the same when he finds out. I truly think I am repulsive with skin like this. Yes I am grateful that I have a lovely man in my life but here's hoping he will stick by me when he finds out about my skin. The way I've had to live when I'm around him is extremely depressing. I cover my face with my hair, hide from him when I have just showered and also am forced to wear make up all the time for fear he will notice, be disgusted too and potentially reject me. Do you understand what I mean? Just cos I'm married doesn't mean my problems are answered.

Wow... you've never been around your husband without makeup? That's kind of amazing, actually. Seems very difficult to pull off. Do you sleep with it on? Or do you sleep in two different rooms?

me: Feeling depressed today.

Haha no, of course he's seen me without make up but during breakouts I hide behind my hair and keep my distance from him if it's daylight or the lights are on, am fed up of living like this. I am now 31 though and at times the acne has subsided a bit which makes going bare faced much easier but since Christmas my skin really has been aggressively bad. Another thing, I can't put make up on while he's watching, as I paint my masterpiece and cover my skin spot by spot. Sorry if all this sounds irrational but have been bullied all my life over my skin condition, even by my family. I could write a book of all the one liners said to me about me and my bloody acne.

ibiza,

I have been with my boyfriend for 6 years and he has only seen me without makeup twice and I've put my makeup on in front of him once. Don't feel ashamed about this. I turn off all the lights before I go to bed so that when I walk out of the bathroom, he can't see me. When I finally opened up to my boyfriend, he said he knew about my acne but that it didn't bother him a bit. It just made him sad that I cried about it. Today, I'm breaking out a little and I was crying because we're going camping tomorrow and I don't want my acne to ruin my good time. I said "I feel and look so ugly! Please, don't look at me." and he chuckled...which made me sadder and I asked "Man, why are you laughing at me? That's so mean..." and he said "Because you're so beautiful and amazing to me, that I could never NOT look at you." Wow, I just realized what a sweet thing that was to say haha

 

I hope your husband reacts in such a way, which I'm sure he will. Don't worry...it took me 4-5 years to talk about my acne with my boyfriend. It will be okay. Try to be positive, but it's okay to cry. Good luck

Hi again!

I had just written out a detailed reply to you, was all set to post then my laptop crashed so I lost it all, dammit! Here's hoping I remember what I wrote...

I totally understand about switching the lights off when you're ready for bed, I do exactly the same and occasionally my husband will switch a light back on for something which makes me very anxious and I tell him to switch it off immediately! Or I hide under the covers, whatever is easiest. Hate living this way.

But what a lovely story, it is so nice that your boyfriend is so supportive and thinks you're beautiful with or without acne. It is the hardest thing in the world to truly believe that you are still attractive when in the midst of what seems like a massive outbreak. You were brave to open up to him and you must be glad you did. My man is lovely so I know deep down he will be supportive. Last night when I broke down I wouldn't tell him what was wrong but he said to me whatever the problem is to not let it define me, and that he thinks I am absolutely beautiful no matter what. Oh no, hoping he hasn't guessed

Camping would make me feel uncomfortable because it seems that people expect you to just go bare faced at all times due to being outdoors and dressed down. Also, escaping to take some time out to apply make up in private would be difficult. But you shouldn't worry dear, your boyfriend loves and accepts you for who you are! And I have said before that you really are a stunner! Your skin doesn't even look that bad in your pics without make up (I know it must annoy you to hear that as I think we all probably see our skin much worse than it really is) and with make up your skin honestly looks wonderful! I can't remember whether you said you have any scarring? I have some minor pock marks and also very large open pores so unfortunately my make up never looks good because it all just settles in the holes, urgh Hate that people must be thinking how uneven my skin is, and that I could be making more effort to apply make up 'neater' but I am doing the very best I can, and it does hurt when even your best is not enough.

 

 

Oh, forgot to say, enjoy your camping trip Heitea and try not to let your skin get you down when you're away. Remember, you're lovely and your boyfriend knows it! He loves you for who you are and is lucky to have you

You guys are all just so lucky to have a special someone. I've never had a boyfriend... It doesn't look like it's coming soon. I've never been on a date, and I'm nearly 21!

uh oh....I notice a lot of people feeling worse recently, let's hope things improve for all of us soon. I found out today that I did not get chosen for a job that would have improved my quality of life (financially, mentally, in so many ways). It was a very competitive and selective job, and they told me I came second...which doesn't make me feel any better because I still didn't get the job.

Acne-wise, my face is reflecting my mood: shitty

uh oh....I notice a lot of people feeling worse recently, let's hope things improve for all of us soon. I found out today that I did not get chosen for a job that would have improved my quality of life (financially, mentally, in so many ways). It was a very competitive and selective job, and they told me I came second...which doesn't make me feel any better because I still didn't get the job.

Acne-wise, my face is reflecting my mood: shitty

I'm sorry about the job. I know how much it sucks to get all hopeful and then lose the opportunity. But I've found that when something like this happens, something even better is usually right around the corner. Like a couple weeks ago when I was working on that incredibly confusing application for a writing job and I eventually gave up. A few days later I got another offer for an easier and more fun writing job related to travel ! (Something I was more interested in than the first thing anyway). The right things will come to you, don't worry.

Update on me: Having a great day. Slept in, completed a few assignments and made some money, washed my hair and did a deep cleansing treatment and took care of my skin. No active breakouts right now and my food-related breakouts are swiftly healing. Just a few pits and red marks left, but they aren't bad at all.

I am a bit depressed about the texture of my skin. A year + of horrible cystic acne will definitely leave it in less-than-idea shape. It's true what they say, you really do begin to notice the scars once you become clear. I feel great about how I look from afar, but up close or in certain lighting it's just like *CRINGE*. The fact that I'm getting older and I've smoked a lot probably doesn't help. I think I'm going to order some vitamin c powder and take a lot every day to try and improve my collagen. Hopefully the AHA will continue to help, too. It definitely fades red marks, but I'm not sure what it's doing to help my deeper scars.

blah.

My skin is terrible and I can't wait to add Androcur to my regimen. I feel like my indoors tanning addiction is slowly creeping back. I went tanning 4 times this week, which is actually a lot for a fair skinned northerner. It helps me masque those hideous imperfections, but of course doesn't improve the scarring in any way.
Fractured rib still cause much pain. It became like that of a very strong coughing I had in April ( I was generally very sick) and now it seems to be healing. I can't cough, sneeze or laugh, so irritating.

Skin isn't the best right now cause of that stupid time of the month. It really does seem like my acne has become more hormonal, because I pretty much only get breakouts at that time. I have one zit healing right now that I really shouldn't have picked at because it's super red and angry. But at least it's flattened. And I have another zit on my forehead that is hard and under the skin, and not really inflamed. Just a bit red. I put ice on it today and I think that helped make it smaller. It's just weird because that one zit has reoccured over the past year every few months, in the same exact place. Strange.

I'm still doing my normal regime and I'm going to continue using Epiduo at my derm's recommendations. I guess one day I may look into taking birth control or Spiro or something hormonal. I need to be on birth control at some point, I guess. I'm just somewhat afraid of it.

I'm going to visit a relative with my family tomorrow and I felt like I was dreading it because my skin's not in the best shape. But I can't think that way. I have much more important things to think about, like my family, friends, physical health, and school work. I just started my new job and am really enjoying it so far, and my manager told me she was impressed with me So that makes me happy. I had to get surgery on my shoulder so I couldn't work out at all this past week, but I'm getting the stitches out on Wednesday and then I can work out again. I'm excited to continue getting fit and eating healthy. I feel like all my clothes are fitting better and more comfortable on me - no more spilling out of my jeans.

My skin overall is not very bad at all - things could be much worse, I always need to tell myself that. At least this cystic zit is regressing and not inflamed, and at least this other bad one is on its way to healing. My pores have been less congested since I've been using my Clarisonic religiously, so that's a plus also!

OK , so I have waited and see if I would break out bad , but it hasn't happened. So I believe it is official that I have outgrown acne. I do get occasional zits, but not the ones with pus-filled. I am 26 years young just in case you're wondering. The last time my skin went crazy was in the early 25. I hope it happens to you all eventually! You'll outgrow acne some day. My life is still the same, but I am happier and I have confident enough to keep my head up. As of now, I am dealing with acne scars, but it has improved a lot.

What I apply to my skin: MSM lotion by Dave Wolfe, Jojoba oil in the shower (to wash my face) then rinse, Tea tree oil on zits, and Aztec healing green clay once a month. Also, I do Derma roller and Chemical peeling at least twice a month.

My skin is terrible and I can't wait to add Androcur to my regimen. I feel like my indoors tanning addiction is slowly creeping back. I went tanning 4 times this week, which is actually a lot for a fair skinned northerner. It helps me masque those hideous imperfections, but of course doesn't improve the scarring in any way.

Fractured rib still cause much pain. It became like that of a very strong coughing I had in April ( I was generally very sick) and now it seems to be healing. I can't cough, sneeze or laugh, so irritating.

Hi there,

Sorry you're going through this. Your post caught my eye because I used to be addicted to tanning beds a while ago, I can't say they stopped any acne forming however having a tan does disguise the redness caused by the lesions and makes your skin look far healthier so can completely relate to why you like to tan. Now I tan outdoors most of the time as I currently live in a warmer climate and also take winter holidays. People have commented that tanning looks fake and that I put my skin in danger by doing so, they don't know how it feels to have a shitty looking complexion and feel you have no other choice. Going to hopefully get some skin resurfacing soon as my scars are much more prominent these days, so will probably have to keep my face out of the sun for a while afterwards.

I remember reading another post from you saying you wanted scar removal too - have you any idea what gets the best result? I am not sure whether to go for chemical peels, lasers or dermabrasion. By the way, you probably hear this all the time but you are very pretty!

Feel awful. Think I have facial dysmorphia due to how my skin looks. Tried to open up to my husband last night and Friday night, prayed for the strength I'd need to discuss my acne with him for the first time but couldn't and the frustration made me cry a lot. Hate how my husband has to be dragged through this, and also feel guilty that he says I'm beautiful yet how can I be with skin like this. From an early age I learned the hard way that clear skin is mandatory to being attractive

Today there are loads of events going on here for memorial day, I couldn't face going anywhere due to how much I hate myself right now, and the thought that people will be judging me on my skin is just too much so told my husband I didn't feel up to going so he went out on his own. Even with make up on, you can still see the scars are large pores on my cheeks as foundation settles in the holes, it is very distressing and I can't stand people thinking how badly applied my make up must look. Going to attempt the talk with my husband again tonight when he gets back, hopefully third time lucky (as long as he doesn't come back tipsy from the memorial day parties!)

OK , so I have waited and see if I would break out bad , but it hasn't happened. So I believe it is official that I have outgrown acne. I do get occasional zits, but not the ones with pus-filled. I am 26 years young just in case you're wondering. The last time my skin went crazy was in the early 25. I hope it happens to you all eventually! You'll outgrow acne some day. My life is still the same, but I am happier and I have confident enough to keep my head up. As of now, I am dealing with acne scars, but it has improved a lot.

What I apply to my skin: MSM lotion by Dave Wolfe, Jojoba oil in the shower (to wash my face) then rinse, Tea tree oil on zits, and Aztec healing green clay once a month. Also, I do Derma roller and Chemical peeling at least twice a month.

dude thats awesome. i remember your one of the first members whos pics I looked at because you had dermarolling progress pics up. glad things are going well for you.

Been having a horribly rough time with my acne, scars, and redness lately. Yesterday was a rough day, and I cried a lot. I opened up to my boyfriend and told him how depressed I've been due to my skin. He was very supportive about it, but I definitely don't want to bring it up again anytime soon. I feel like it's rather unattractive to discuss these things. Right now my big issue is that my skin looks horrible with or without make-up on. I tried to do my make-up very well yesterday and by the time I was done, I actually felt like I looked almost worse than I did without it. I'm going to try another application technique today I guess. On a bright note, I'm beyond excited to see my dermatologist on Friday and hopefully find some relief.

Pimple on my temple is almost ready to pop.

One more day.

 

uh oh....I notice a lot of people feeling worse recently, let's hope things improve for all of us soon. I found out today that I did not get chosen for a job that would have improved my quality of life (financially, mentally, in so many ways). It was a very competitive and selective job, and they told me I came second...which doesn't make me feel any better because I still didn't get the job.

Acne-wise, my face is reflecting my mood: shitty

I'm sorry about the job. I know how much it sucks to get all hopeful and then lose the opportunity. But I've found that when something like this happens, something even better is usually right around the corner. Like a couple weeks ago when I was working on that incredibly confusing application for a writing job and I eventually gave up. A few days later I got another offer for an easier and more fun writing job related to travel ! (Something I was more interested in than the first thing anyway). The right things will come to you, don't worry.

Update on me: Having a great day. Slept in, completed a few assignments and made some money, washed my hair and did a deep cleansing treatment and took care of my skin. No active breakouts right now and my food-related breakouts are swiftly healing. Just a few pits and red marks left, but they aren't bad at all.

I am a bit depressed about the texture of my skin. A year + of horrible cystic acne will definitely leave it in less-than-idea shape. It's true what they say, you really do begin to notice the scars once you become clear. I feel great about how I look from afar, but up close or in certain lighting it's just like *CRINGE*. The fact that I'm getting older and I've smoked a lot probably doesn't help. I think I'm going to order some vitamin c powder and take a lot every day to try and improve my collagen. Hopefully the AHA will continue to help, too. It definitely fades red marks, but I'm not sure what it's doing to help my deeper scars.

Thanks for the support deja! if it wasn't for this site, I don't know what I would do. When I got the job rejection, I felt like I let my whole family down because the job was in Europe, which is where most of my family and friends live, and they were excited at the prospect of me moving closer. Then the same day my landlord told me I have 1 month to move out because I couldn't afford to renew my lease. Oh well, I have a backup plan if all else fails, and I will do my best to manage under the circumstances. I'm glad you found a job you enjoy doing, at least you will be happy doing that instead of the other job that was giving you a hard time before it even began.

I can relate about the texture of the skin...I recently turned 30 and I feel like I am losing a lot of elasticity on my face (continuous breakouts don't help either). Let me know if you find a good vitamin c powder. I'm currently taking vit c supplements but not sure if they are helping yet.

I use this one http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/store/en/browse/sku_detail.jsp?id=VS-1056&sourceType=sc&source=FG&adGroup=60-80&keyword=VS-1056&cm_mmc=Google???_-Product????_-60-80-_-VS-1056&gclid=CMeFi--otbcCFUdo7Aod2kEAZg#.UaLPsJySKUE

It's great because it's free of everything! Gluten, soy, corn, etc. It's really hard to find corn and soy free supps, so this stuff is pretty great. I went through a bottle of it a while back and was taking 4-5 grams a day and feeling pretty good. I ran out a few months ago and haven't been feeling as hot... I think C is really important and we don't get enough in our diets, even if you eat a lot of fruits and veggies like I do.

Just thought I'd say that I've been a long-time reader of this site and have very much appreciated having people to "listen" to when I'm down. I've felt a lot less alone, even if I've been reluctant to post anything. I guess I thought posting would make it more "real" or something foolish?

I've been having a terrible, terrible breakout in the past month, exacerbated now by stress and the dreaded Time of the Month! My skin has reached its worst point since I developed acne a couple years ago, which is very depressing indeed. No end in sight yet, but I am trying to hold on. I've managed not to break down yet today, so that is something!

I'm sorry to hear that lots of other people are struggling right now as well. At least we can vent and grit our teeth and push through together!

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Thanks for the support deja! if it wasn't for this site, I don't know what I would do. When I got the job rejection, I felt like I let my whole family down because the job was in Europe, which is where most of my family and friends live, and they were excited at the prospect of me moving closer. Then the same day my landlord told me I have 1 month to move out because I couldn't afford to renew my lease. Oh well, I have a backup plan if all else fails, and I will do my best to manage under the circumstances. I'm glad you found a job you enjoy doing, at least you will be happy doing that instead of the other job that was giving you a hard time before it even began.

I can relate about the texture of the skin...I recently turned 30 and I feel like I am losing a lot of elasticity on my face (continuous breakouts don't help either). Let me know if you find a good vitamin c powder. I'm currently taking vit c supplements but not sure if they are helping yet.

I am very sorry about the job...I know what it feels like to be worried about disappointing friends and family. (Mine are almost too accepting and makes me feel even more guilty because I just want to actually do something to deserve their love.) I went through a very rough time job searching a couple years ago wherein I was rejected from a few ideal jobs much to my chagrin and frustration. It took over a year before I was offered one that sounded okay--and then turned out to be amazing. The wait is awful, but I bet there's something out there!

Over the last few weeks my acne has finally been under control. I just struggle with the uneven skin tone and red marks a lot.

Last night I have a dream (nightmare, even) that On my forehead I had 4 huge cysts and I was contemplating suicide. I know it was only a dream, but it shows how fucked up my sub-conscious has become as a cause of acne.

Well I'm back from my camping trip...and of course, I'm in the middle of the worst breakout I've had in years. It's so...exhausting...and I've forgotten how to deal with a breakout this bad, physically and mentally. I have four scabs that have flattened out but are still tender skin and then four other whitehead/painful bumps that ruin the texture of my skin. I'm grateful that I don't have scarring (besides one, small scar on my cheekbone area), but red marks and active acne suck the life from me.

Anyway, camping was fun and we did lots of hiking-- and sleeping in a tent by a waterfall was so amazing. The hiking trails were near an old mine which looked liked the ones that you'd find in Skyrim or in the Snow White and the Seven Dwarves movie. My boyfriend and I went into one of the openings to the mine and it was so eerie and dark and cold and there were old cart tracks that led into nothingness. Really amazing. BUT. I still couldn't stop thinking about my breakout. I was with my aunts who I hardly get to see, one of my aunts friends and husband, my mom, and my boyfriend. I couldn't look at anyone in the face besides my boyfriend. I wanted to talk to my aunts more, but I was so self-conscious. One), that I had makeup on during a camping trip and Two), that I had acne to begin with! In the morning, I had to quickly remove my makeup (yes, I slept in it for fear of someone seeing me)...and then reapply it (badly, I might add). Because I slept in my makeup, I ended up with two more whitehead/painful bumps. I have a four day music festival in two weeks and I NEED to be clear for that. I really do. I don't want to be pulled down and held back by this anymore. I've been doing regular honey, cinnamon, lemon, and nutmeg masks and they seem to be helping and calming my acne. Plus coconut oil at night. Sigh...