Very true. It's like you said, a lot of people don't appreciate their clear skin because they've never had an issue like ours their whole life. I know so many beautiful clear-skinned girls who are miserable about their weight. Someone may hate themselves even with clear skin. It's true that they don't know how lucky they are, but they would probably say I have been lucky to be skinny my whole life, which is true.

True dat in every way.

For about 2-3 weeks I wasn't getting any new pimples, I was glad.. but didn't feel right. For a second I thought is it really over?? - then a few days ago a new pimple formed by my temple and I thought there ya go

I don't know why, but I felt a bit relieved; I suppose because the thought of having clear skin just doesn't seem real, that it would ever happen. It's weird to describe. I guess it's just another way acne messes with your mind.

If it wasn't for my punching bag and weights I think I would be in jail or dead. I'm tired of all the two face peice of shit people this world is made up of. Im tired of people buying me products for my cystic shit face only because this facial scrub cured this small ass zit that their daughter had on their god damn face. Im tired of my own family saying that nobody noticed or cares about acne even tho they talk shit about a boxer who is ugly to them cause apparently having a large forehead is uglier than acne, I'm tired of seeing people act all friendly towards somebody's gf, then talk shit about them calling them fat and overweight not taking into consideration the person might have a eating disorder. Im sick tired of this peice of shit society, everybody Is the same a priest I used to know making racist jokes. what a sick fuckin world this is everybody tries to paint this bitch like everything is fine and dandy but in reality the world deserves to be fuckin nuked. "ewwwww he has acne."- bitch.

If it wasn't for my punching bag and weights I think I would be in jail or dead. I'm tired of all the two face peice of shit people this world is made up of. Im tired of people buying me products for my cystic shit face only because this facial scrub cured this small ass zit that their daughter had on their god damn face. Im tired of my own family saying that nobody noticed or cares about acne even tho they talk shit about a boxer who is ugly to them cause apparently having a large forehead is uglier than acne, I'm tired of seeing people act all friendly towards somebody's gf, then talk shit about them calling them fat and overweight not taking into consideration the person might have a eating disorder. Im sick tired of this peice of shit society, everybody Is the same a priest I used to know making racist jokes. what a sick fuckin world this is everybody tries to paint this bitch like everything is fine and dandy but in reality the world deserves to be fuckin nuked. "ewwwww he has acne."- bitch.

Have you ever thought about going on some volunteering program? I'm sure it would make you feel a lot better about the world being around people who put their hearts into helping the poor and unfortunate, or taking care of animals. Besides, it would take away your focus on acne, since nobody would care how you look.

Just suggesting! I'm planning myself to go and volunteer for 6 months, searching for meaning in life

For about 2-3 weeks I wasn't getting any new pimples, I was glad.. but didn't feel right. For a second I thought is it really over?? - then a few days ago a new pimple formed by my temple and I thought there ya go

I don't know why, but I felt a bit relieved; I suppose because the thought of having clear skin just doesn't seem real, that it would ever happen. It's weird to describe. I guess it's just another way acne messes with your mind.

I recognize that. I didn't have that with acne but with other things.

On 3/18/2013 at 11:41 AM, Sum1killme said:

If it wasn't for my punching bag and weights I think I would be in jail or dead. I'm tired of all the two face peice of shit people this world is made up of. Im tired of people buying me products for my cystic shit face only because this facial scrub cured this small ass zit that their daughter had on their god damn face. Im tired of my own family saying that nobody noticed or cares about acne even tho they talk shit about a boxer who is ugly to them cause apparently having a large forehead is uglier than acne, I'm tired of seeing people act all friendly towards somebody's gf, then talk shit about them calling them fat and overweight not taking into consideration the person might have a eating disorder. Im sick tired of this peice of shit society, everybody Is the same a priest I used to know making racist jokes. what a sick fuckin world this is everybody tries to paint this bitch like everything is fine and dandy but in reality the world deserves to be fuckin nuked. "ewwwww he has acne."- bitch.

lol You really speak like that; you say peice instead of piece. How do you pronounce that anyway? Pice? A pice of shit society?

Anyway, I can relate man. I wouldn't go so far as to call myself a misanthrope though. Why not go and move to a different place when you are able? I've heard the English country side is very peaceful. lol That reminds me of what fatalbert said namely that big cities usually attract mean people. lol Anyway, I already volunteer. In the hospital. Tons of nice people there. It really made me feel less the way you do actually as I was reminded of the fact that there really are lots of cool people around. lol That sounds silly but you get what I mean. Many people are terrible though... Not in the hospital but in general. I could name examples too of how some people act where I live. For instance I once said hi to someone and she told me to get lost. I could go on...but you get the idea.

May or may not have been crying on and off all morning. Sooo THAT's how I feel about my acne today lol.

I just don't know why it upsets me so much. I know in my head that there are so many other more important things, and I have a lot going for me otherwise. But when I break out like this, it's like I go from being a smart happy 22-year-old to being in middle school again, feeling small and ugly and miserable. I'm crippled by my low self-esteem, and I keep sabotaging myself in small ways just because I feel so worthless. UGHH. People with clear skin are so lucky that they can look in the mirror in the morning and not be disgusted by what they see.

I am officially done with the diet forum. Someone pisses me off almost every time I go in there. Like, it must be SOOO nice to have your severe acne cured by a few simple diet changes. How fucking lovely for you. But have some God damned compassion for the rest of us, because for most people, that is NOT the case. I am simply stating the reality that for MANY of us, we will need both medication AND a healthy diet. It is unrealistic and spreading FALSE HOPE to say that diet is going to be a cure. That was why I wrote that big post apologizing a while back. I feel bad for taking part in spreading that false hope also.

Sorry for the cussing, but really, fuck that place. It's a recipe for sickness and death in there and I'm done. I'm only coming in here and the regimen/topical forums from now on. I was already supposed to be doing that because of my eating disorder, but my food obsessed tendencies led me back in there after a while. Recommitting to staying away now. That shit isn't good for my mental health and just leaves me feeling angry and upset.

My acne is doing okay today. The regimen is definitely doing me a lot of good! when I have bad breakouts, they still hurt but the medicine takes the pain level down a lot faster. I'm clear aside for a few spots on my cheek, chin and forehead. Much less than before though and it's generally a lot less red. I'm almost at 2 weeks and expect to see dramatic clearing in another week or two. *hopeful*

I'm doing alright today. Ever since I started using this cleanser my cheeks and forehead are staying really nice and clear, but I keep getting these pimples on either side of my nose...like in the creases of my nose, and they annoy the shit outta me. I'm thankful about the fact that they're not that big right now though, definitely not cystic (I use to get tons of little mini-cysts on either side of my nose) these seem to be just smaller whiteheads that take a few days to fade away. I'm kicking myself for sticking with that stupid "water only" method for washing my face for so many years because introducing this basic cleanser into my regimen has improved things drastically for me.

My skin is kind of red because I did the derma roller yesterday. I looked in gym's mirror today and my skin looked bad! Lots of acne scars

Sorry for the cussing, but really, fuck that place. It's a recipe for sickness and death in there and I'm done. I'm only coming in here and the regimen/topical forums from now on. I was already supposed to be doing that because of my eating disorder, but my food obsessed tendencies led me back in there after a while. Recommitting to staying away now. That shit isn't good for my mental health and just leaves me feeling angry and upset.

LOL so true and annoying how people say oh just cut out fats and sugars and your skin will clear up! so ignorant and untrue, if it was true this site wouldn't exist

has anybody herd of " clear demodex serum" ?

I don't know why but today, I feel pretty good. Even though my acne had been better than now, I just feel good.

Maybe I have accepted acne as a part of me now but if it will go away then I would celebrate. Haha.

I've been keeping myself busy nowadays and I smile a lot more too.

But....I know one day, there will come a time where I would just frown. I just know it

I think smiling would always help to uplift the mood because even though you kinda have to fake it at first, it will somehow become a genuine smile

Wow, my skin got so much worse from Diane-35.... I feel like a monster today. Took some pictures and after looking at them I just don't want to go anywhere... Also there's a freaking snow storm outside which makes me depressed - it's supposed to be spring, but it's nowhere near it. The weather forecast says it's gonna be like that for at least 3 more weeks, which sucks! I'm going to Lithuania to see my family and again I'm all covered with huge breakouts and visible clogged pores. They see me 2-3 times a year and it's always the same, depressing view.
I'm adding 20 000 IU of vitamin A daily to my regimen. Hopefully it will help with the pores at least.

Wow, my skin got so much worse from Diane-35.... I feel like a monster today. Took some pictures and after looking at them I just don't want to go anywhere... Also there's a freaking snow storm outside which makes me depressed - it's supposed to be spring, but it's nowhere near it. The weather forecast says it's gonna be like that for at least 3 more weeks, which sucks! I'm going to Lithuania to see my family and again I'm all covered with huge breakouts and visible clogged pores. They see me 2-3 times a year and it's always the same, depressing view.

I'm adding 20 000 IU of vitamin A daily to my regimen. Hopefully it will help with the pores at least.

Birth control makes my acne SO bad. I don't understand how it clears some people because it's totally opposite for me.

I'm doing alright today. Ever since I started using this cleanser my cheeks and forehead are staying really nice and clear, but I keep getting these pimples on either side of my nose...like in the creases of my nose, and they annoy the shit outta me. I'm thankful about the fact that they're not that big right now though, definitely not cystic (I use to get tons of little mini-cysts on either side of my nose) these seem to be just smaller whiteheads that take a few days to fade away. I'm kicking myself for sticking with that stupid "water only" method for washing my face for so many years because introducing this basic cleanser into my regimen has improved things drastically for me.

So frustrating that it was something so simple! It's been kinda the same experience for me with the regimen, although I'm definitely nowhere near clear yet. The water-only methods were absolutely hell for me. I never even lasted more than a few days because the acne got so severe, and I don't really believe that my skin would have magically healed up after a month or so either. These methods will only cure the skin IF the acne is a direct result of harsh washing. Which almost no one's is. It's hormonal.

Progress Pic!

Forgot to upload this earlier:

I'm posting this because I wanted to show you guys that this is the absolute worst of my acne right now. As in, the rest of my entire face is basically clear, aside from one small healing spot on my forehead! I wouldn't say that I feel GOOD about how this looks exactly, but considering I'm clear aside from these breakouts (and one entire side of my face is clear right now! ) I would say that I am super happy with how the regimen is going. It'll be 2 weeks tomorrow since I began following the regimen exactly and I was using BP for another couple weeks before that, so I'm about a month in. I was just watching a video today of a girl's regimen logs and she ended up with completely clear, gorgeous skin after about 3-4 months and she looked a lot worse at 1 month than I do. So I'm incredibly hopeful!

The best news is that my skin seems to be adjusting to the BP and my redness and flakiness are going down a lot. I think adding good organic oils in with the lotion helped so much. Grapeseed and argan oil are simply more healing and moisturizing than the lotion alone. But I do love the soothing nature of the lotion and have found that combining the two is ideal.

I can't even explain how much the regimen is helping me, not only as far as clearing but also emotionally. It has basically stopped my obsession. I only look in the mirror a few times a day now, because I have the peace of mind that the medicine is constantly on my skin, always working to heal it. Where as before, it was a constant state of anxiety, checking how it looked, wondering if I should apply tea tree oil or whatever other natural treatment. With this, it's a set schedule. There isn't room for obsessive face washing, scrubbing or treatments. I get to focus intensely on my skin 2x per day, and the rest of the time I just get to go about my life.

If there is anyone who hasn't tried this yet, I highly recommend it!

I feel at least.

I had a sizable pimple show up on my cheek yesterday morning. It went away overnight. That seems to be what most of them are doing lately, and I'm starting to think they're allergic reactions, not typical pimples. Because taking an anti-histamine every day lately has helped a lot, with oiliness and everything. That's actually all I'm taking. And yesterday I took two, trying to see if the pimple would go away, and it did. So.

Still brekaing out but feeling chilled out about it. I go on vacation in 4 more days - woot woot! So ready to be off TANE and on to The Regimen

I feel happier that the two red bumps on my forehead are gettng smaller everyday. I also invested in some concealer to help hide them or any future bumps.

Going to the beach in a couple of days so I am excited to see some sun and get in the ocean.

I hate the weather here. It's still deep freaking winter. It's 20th of March, but there are no signs of spring whatsoever. The wind's ice cold and my face gets frozen and dry everytime I go out, I'm still wearing my thickest winter jacket and shoes, need gloves and big scarf to keep warm. Winter here usually takes 5-6 months and my skin is usually the worst at that time, when it's sunny and mild, it immediately gets better, especially in summer. I live in the wrong place...

I'm feeling depressed today. My hormones are so bad and it's just frustrating. I've been waiting for my period for a week now and every day has been hell. The PMDD (really bad PMS) I get are life-altering. It's difficult to get through work because I break down crying.

Complete desperation, each day Im starting to realize more and more that it's never going away, the thought of that is like taking a bullet in the head.

Complete desperation, each day Im starting to realize more and more that it's never going away, the thought of that is like taking a bullet in the head.

I know the feeling. *hugs* We're all here for you.

I've been feeling really good lately even though my skin hasn't improved much.

Last night my mum and I went for a night out - dinner then off to see a musical. It was a great night. I felt so good / really happy and confident - maybe it was because I got dressed up and wore new heels I found for $9 (bargain! ) I don't know what it was - but if I could somehow manage to feel like that all the time, I don't think I'd care about my skin anywhere near as much as I do now. I didn't think about my skin at all last night - I just had a really good night. My skin might not thank me for it though - I did break my gluten free thing at dinner - and I felt the difference later by feeling a little bloated - and I had one drink which is usually enough for my skin to react but I haven't seen any change today so that's good

We hung around for a bit after the show and were able to meet, get photos with a few of the cast members which was great too (Also - maybe I'll go back to the restaurant we had dinner at - the waiter was cute haha )

I had to give a presentation at uni today and I think it went well. I didn't think about my skin either - despite being in front of a lot of people and under bright lights. Again I wore a dress I like - I actually think this helps me feel more confident - when I dress up a little more than normal - It's still casual but I think wearing a skirt or dress somehow makes me feel better

So yeah... hope I can get this feeling / way of thinking to last a while It's a lot better than feeling upset or down like I'm sort of used to feeling about my skin...

I'm feeling great about my skin.. I really need to try something else for my acne scarring 'cause the Derma roller ain't doing it! I do apply chemical peels on affected area, but still nothing. I will continue to do this and hope for the best!

Progress Pic!

Forgot to upload this earlier:

I'm posting this because I wanted to show you guys that this is the absolute worst of my acne right now. As in, the rest of my entire face is basically clear, aside from one small healing spot on my forehead! I wouldn't say that I feel GOOD about how this looks exactly, but considering I'm clear aside from these breakouts (and one entire side of my face is clear right now! ) I would say that I am super happy with how the regimen is going. It'll be 2 weeks tomorrow since I began following the regimen exactly and I was using BP for another couple weeks before that, so I'm about a month in. I was just watching a video today of a girl's regimen logs and she ended up with completely clear, gorgeous skin after about 3-4 months and she looked a lot worse at 1 month than I do. So I'm incredibly hopeful!

The best news is that my skin seems to be adjusting to the BP and my redness and flakiness are going down a lot. I think adding good organic oils in with the lotion helped so much. Grapeseed and argan oil are simply more healing and moisturizing than the lotion alone. But I do love the soothing nature of the lotion and have found that combining the two is ideal.

I can't even explain how much the regimen is helping me, not only as far as clearing but also emotionally. It has basically stopped my obsession. I only look in the mirror a few times a day now, because I have the peace of mind that the medicine is constantly on my skin, always working to heal it. Where as before, it was a constant state of anxiety, checking how it looked, wondering if I should apply tea tree oil or whatever other natural treatment. With this, it's a set schedule. There isn't room for obsessive face washing, scrubbing or treatments. I get to focus intensely on my skin 2x per day, and the rest of the time I just get to go about my life.

If there is anyone who hasn't tried this yet, I highly recommend it!

Your skin doesn't look that bad! You don't even have acne scars at all.. You're lucky that you might not deal with bad acne scars... Once those acne are gone.. you'll have nice skin.