Hello everyone,

I really want some opinions, because dermatologists don't seem to know what my skin problem is. They say it is my skin texture. Or they prescribe some stuff that should burn the upper layer of my skin which doesn't help either.

My skin is so ugly, i have never seen ugly skin as mine. Especially when the light catches my face from left and right and under fluorescent lighting. The tiny bumps become very visible and my t-zone looks dead and red. I have no clue what those bumps are. What my skincondition is. It doesn't look like acne. I got them from an allergic reaction of a cleanser 12 years ago, they never went away. After that a dove soap made my face (T-zone) turn red, it never recovered from that. My skin looks from close up like that of a burned skin. The right and left side of my skin are clear and smooth. Also around my mouth. But my T-zone is horrible. What can i do about this? Cut some food? Maybe some trigger redness.

So on the first picture you see me as i would look like from the distance. The second and the third picture is me from the side, where I look like a normal human with normal skin. The other pictures are all from the front (close-up), where the light catches my skin. You can see how bad it is. It looks raw, red, weird, oily, dry and bumpy. Even burned skin look way smoother. The zillions tiny bumps never go away. I would like smoother skin. It makes me incredible insecure. It looks like i am not hygienic. Several years ago I've tried many things (clarins, dior cleansers, drugstore cleansers, microdermabrasion, exfoliate). Didn't work, seem to make it worse. Now i only use cbd oil to clean and moisturize. I don't use make-up on my face either. It doesn't heal my skin either. Who has the golden tip?