I've never felt so defeated in my life before. For god's sake, I'm only fourteen, and I feel like a monster. I know I shouldn't, and that I have no right to complain when there are so many other things that could potentially wrong in my life. But over the past couple of years I've started picking up on the fact that our society is so so beauty driven, it's not even real. What makes me feel worse is that I feel the way I do when I was only diagnosed with mild-moderate acne. But looking at my confident friends who have clear and glowing skin really gets to me. I'm trying not to bathe in self pity and actually do something with my life, actually accomplish something. Essentially, what I'm trying to say is that I feel like absolute crapbecause I think I look like absolute crapand there arepeople going through worse. I need help. I want to look people in eyes and speak to them sincerely without worrying about acne i've had since I was ten. That's myNew Years resolution. Below is everything about my skin.

I am an Indian female with a plethora of blackheads on the nose, individual pimples that are usually big, inflamed, and filled with pus. I do not break out in my chin and jaw. I used to not break out on my cheeks, but lo and behold I have hyperpigmentation dotted there and my forehead. I also break out on my temples a LOT with cystic pimples. It's not exactly clumpled together but it happens in the same general area. I have combination/ oily dehydrated skin. I'm not a picker. The only things that I've been on prescribed by a doctor are Epiduo, Epidou forte, Differin, and Clindamycin. I don't use that stuff anymore. I use a mix of Korean skincare and ayurvedic face masks that my mom makes for me because I'm Indian all the way lol, even if I'm stuck in the states. My daily skincare consists of a gentle non stripping cleanser, and AHA toned once in a while, a skin barrier repairing moisturizer, and a spot treatment with a mask a couple times a week. I've tried everything on the market, drugstore and highend. I've also tried and failed with many homemade recipes though some really do help. My diet is a typical Indian diet and I try really hard to stay away from milk. Can someone please help and give me something, anything that might fix me? Diet, lifestyle anything, I will take it. Thank you.