Hi... I'm completely new to this. I have become very desperate lately. Battling adult acne has given me very low self esteem and a lovely case of good old depression. I avoid leaving my house, I'm ruining all relationships, I'm losing my mind.

To start off, I'm 25 years old with very fair skin (people used to tell me I had beautiful porcelain skin) and the very first compliment my current bf gave me upon meeting me was "you have such pretty skin" lol not anymore! Growing up I never had acne, I had your usual pimple around my TOM and it would go away with no scarring. About a year ago I tried OCM because I loved the idea that it was cheap and "natural"... Biggest mistake ever. It broke me out real good. I had clogged pores, cystic acne and after that my scars wouldn't go away like they used to. It took about six months for it to clear up and then January came around and I had an awful break out from the "glamglow" mask. I used it as a spot treatment on a couple spots and woke up to giant cystic pimples... Good times. One of the pimples finally went away in March and left a pretty dent in its place (tears coming down my face). So, fast forward to today where I had clear skin again but weird clogged pores that wouldn't go away with anything that I tried (sa, masks, bp, etc) - oh, I believe I got the clogged pores from a glycolic cleanser from Mario badescu or whatever. Anyways, I have these bumps on my face so I start reading about MUAC facial peels so I ordered the mandelic acid peel. Long story short, my face broke out in burns and cystic acne. The burns are gone but the acne remains and I'm devastated. I used to be so happy and was the life of the party... I hate to sound like a snob but I was also very attractive. I felt attractive. I had confidence and that's why my boyfriend fell in love with me. I'm not who he fell in love with, I'm a depressing shell of her who cries all the time and doesn't go out in public. This weekend I have a huge party I'm supposed to be going to and I wanted to have my face somewhat decent. I stupidly popped a cystic pimple that I thought was ready (I swear I saw a white head forming) and now I'm left with a giant boil/scab/cystic pimple with other scars on my face and a cystic pimple on my one scar from a cystic pimple that literally took three months to go away. I'm so distraught and I made this acct to seek help... Does anyone have advice for my weird mutant alien cystic pimple that looks like I do meth? I have sensitive skin and anything and everything makes me break out lately.

Before I tried the peel, my skin was finally clear besides the clogged pores on the right side of my face. I was cleansing with desert essence face wash, exfoliating with Mia 2 or desert essence face pads, toning with aloe Vera and moisturizing with cetaphil.

I'm sorry for the novel but I have four days to look normal, please help me.