I've just lost my fiance because after 9 months together I realized just how disgusting I look to him BECAUSE OF MY ACNE! Apparently it is the reason he looks at and wants sex from other women. (And I'm sure is why he won't look at ME during sex) He has never acted on it but I wouldn't put it past him to eventually do it. He was "generous" enough to give me a 5/10 rating WITH makeup....I have done nothing but build his confidence telling him that his stretch marks all over his body, the Texas sized/black head filled pores and the massive craters on his face makes no difference to me and he admits to me he is so disgusted by MY face and MY acne that he doesn't even WANT to have sex with me! Thank God I've dropped him before we tied the knot...

Problem now is that my confidence is completely shot. I've been trying so hard to get rid of this shit and have completely cleared up my forehead and most of my cheeks but still have large, red and inflamed and spots on my chin and around my mouth. Only 3 are really bad that have turned to "wounds" but I have another 3ish that are small and not open wounds. I feel like I don't have it as horrible as some but it's obviously bad if it is the cause of my relationship (and therefore engagement) to end! I don't know how long this is going to take to clear up or what to do...I have NO money! He left me with not a damn thing because I had to drive him to and from work because he has no license so I couldn't get a job! I've got one starting tomorrow but I'll only make like $800 a month and that's not even going to be enough to pay bills much less go to a dermatologist or buy fancy meds.

Right now I'm using Oxy BP face wash 1x at night and wiping my face with Clean and Clear SA astringent in the mornings. I also apply Terminator BP cream twice per day. Twice a week I exfoliate with a spinning head brush. (Neutrogenia I think?) Like I said, this regime is taking care of probably 70-80% of my acne but around my mouth and chin will NOT go away! Will this just take longer to clear up than the rest of my face?? I'm never going to be able to meet someone and face them with how I look if this doesn't clear up.