Timeline of pics is below, I know some of these pictures are rough, I was crying in a lot of them.
anyways I had a pimple on my cheek that I first used hydrocolloid bandages on. It started out as a red area of skin, kinda painful I guess and progressed into a small red bump. At the time I had no skincare routine whatsoever so all I did was slap hydrocolloid bandages on it - it went down in size and turned skin colored within a couple of days. I left it like that for 3 weeks, and I couldn't take it anymore so I tried to spot treat with salicylic acid. I lost my patience unfortunately and popped it. Its been about a week since I popped it (I've been using hydrocolloid bandages sometimes over it to promote healing.) I'm not a skin picker, but, I do have body dysmorphia and I have a horrible fear of scars. I have popped pimples before obviously, but they usually only turn red and if they have scarred, I dont notice it at all.
Now, whenever I take a picture of myself in certain lighting it looks like a hole, but in real life it looks flat... so I've been crying on and off trying to figure out what the hell is up because I cant decipher it at all. Do scars take time to form, thats another question I have I guess.
Pics below from every possible angle I could think of, I have makeup on in some of these but not on my cheeks first picture is what I looked like when I first popped it.
As you can see, it literally does and doesnt exist at the same time (I dont know how else to put it, but in certain lighting it looks like a boxcar or icepick) but other times in natural lighting or flash it just looks flat. Is my camera just fucking with me?
This is called BDD (Body dysmorphic disorder).
38 minutes ago, pagophagia said:Asyou can see, it literally does and doesnt exist at the sametime (I dont know how else to put it, but in certain lighting it looks like a boxcar or icepick) but other times in natural lighting or flash it just looks flat. Is my camera just fucking with me?
It's a very shallow boxcar. Whenever the light bounces off the edge, the shadow is created and as a result you see the scar. You can resurface the skin with either erbium laser or light chemical peels like Jassner peel. But if I were you, I would just ignore it. It's hardly noticeable, if at all.