Acne.org Products
lips... how is my texture better than yours again?:confused:
Time, comparing with other people wont help your skin or your mind. It's not a competition for the worst skin. I know that you are really emotionally raw about your skin but so are other people.
Lips your skin looks GREAT! You are really beautiful.
I was really interested that you said that the turmeric pills have been clearing up your red marks. I started adding turmeric to my diet - I even mixed a teaspoon into my lemon + hot water drink - FML it was so foul; so the pills having a good review has inspired me to buy some.
yo, was only comparing because lips said my skin looks better than hers haha.
Which it evidently does not (And shouldn't shes a chick, i am a guy)
Day 22
Hello everyone! I've decided to only update this long every week. Not much is happening other than some of the clogged pores on my forehead are finally surfacing. Other than that I really have nothing to report. No dead skin no nothing. I haven't exfoilated in I don't even know how long. It's really nice not to have large amounts of skin hanging on your face. I'm still moisturizng twice a day with my trixea. I wash with la roche posay.
I've started working 5 days a week and I will be working out 5 - 6 days a week as well. I ran tonight after a 5 hour work day on the floor. It feels good to stay busy.
Day 23
Still gonna update until 1 month is up.
Emotionally I have never ever felt better about myself. I just got my job back after 2 years, I was laid off in this family restaurant I use to work at. My family has been going there since I was 8. And I worked there with my sister. She still has been working there. The way they laid me off was horrible. I wasn't even technically "laid off." One of the waitresses there when I came into work one day was like "what are you doing here? didn't anybody call you?" I was like, "No?" And she explained that the manager and owner were in the back fighting over if I was going to stay or not. I really, still, to this day have no idea why I was laid off. My parents said it was cause of the economy was slowing (I know this wasn't it, because they didn't even ask me to fill in for anybody). I was so upset and hurt. They begged me to come back a few months after but I refused. Nobody should ever treat their employees like that. Ever. I'm a hard worker and I work to work. I don't go in to play. Anyways, they begged me again to come back and I said hey what the heck? Why not? I'll make a game out of it.
So now, I started a week ago, was only going to work 2 days a week. And now, a week later I have 5 shifts a week. I'm winning. They will realize what an awesome employee they lost. I put forth 10x what I use to do. I use to be friendly with every co-worker I worked with, I considered them my family. I mean I've known all of them since I was 8 years old. And now, well let's just say I only see them as my competitors. Nothing more. Nothing less. I'm friendly of course. I just don't go sharing my whole life story to any of them. And instead of making small talk when there is SERIOUSLY nothing to do, I FIND THINGS TO DO. That was my little rant....
Skin wise: It's good. I work in a greasy kitchen for 3-5 hours. So I'm interested to see how my skin will hold up for that. And after work I've been running for 40 mins. I haven't broken out *knock on wood* The inflammation and redness in my face is going away daily. Now the only time I really turn pink is when I'm embarrassed or running. The pinkness is located only on my cheeks now, like it use to be when I was a kid (I like this look but for awhike my entire face was just pink, that sucks!). I'm feeling pretty good. Keeping positive. I have a derm apt Aug 2 and I want to tell her I do not want my dosage upped until next month. I'm not breaking out. But I'm in no rush to up my dose. I want to give it time.
Side effects: I've been running and man my body is hurts so bad, not to mention being on my feet for 4 hours. I've started stretching again. This is going to help considerably.
Stay hopeful, always 😉
Day 24
Emotionally I'm okay today. I'm a little freaked that I still damaged my skin with over exfoliation, peels and all that stupid retnoid crap. I'm gonna ask my derm on tue if any part of my skin looks loose and or "cracked."
I got a few new whitheads on my chin they happened over night, very tiny but maybe this is the beginning of the ib. ;-/ Trying to stay positive and I'm debating whether to up my dose. I was semi not dry today, it was weird
Day 24Emotionally I'm okay today. I'm a little freaked that I still damaged my skin with over exfoliation, peels and all that stupid retnoid crap. I'm gonna ask my derm on tue if any part of my skin looks loose and or "cracked."
I got a few new whitheads on my chin they happened over night, very tiny but maybe this is the beginning of the ib. ;-/ Trying to stay positive and I'm debating whether to up my dose. I was semi not dry today, it was weird
you are going to ask doctor sofen this?
I am surprised he will answer such a superficial question... he didn't answer jack for me haha
gl
Here is my unsolicited advice: assume it is an IB and try your very best not to obsess over it. I know this sounds impossible and it is really hard to do but I learned that you just HAVE to try and ignore it. I had to stop looking at my face every 15 minutes and touching it to see if there were any new bumps and it calmed me down a lot. Going on accutane pretty much guarantees that your skin is going to get worse before it gets better. It sucks but that's what it does. And yes, some people "escape" it or have worse IBs than others but most people have a few weeks of BAD. But then it goes away. It really, really does. You need to keep reminding yourself that because it's true. It is guaranteed to go away. You are doing all you can right now and you are almost done with your first month, which is awesome. Just be confident in your decision and know you are going to come out of this with much, much better skin. Everyone is pulling for you!
Day 25
Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I skipped today but this is for day 25. My skin is getting drier. And I have this itchy redness on my eyes that I'm kinda worried about its been there for a week. SO I have a derm apt tomorrow and I'm going to request to do a low dose course for the entire time 20 mg. I do not want my eyelids to be permantely dry like this. I read somewhere on the internet that it could be permanent if you're on too high of a dose. I really want to be smart about this. I don't care if I break out for an entire two months before it starts clearing. I just dont want life long side effects ;-(
My eyelid looks like this http://library.med.utah.edu/kw/derm/pages/desy_15.htm&docid=7DBuYW1qhEtqcM&w=462&h=350&ei=F4U6TrSOCITliALdu6G2Dg&zoom=1&iact=hc&vpx=589&vpy=165&dur=142&hovh=195&hovw=258&tx=142&ty=115&page=1&tbnh=146&tbnw=193&start=0&ndsp=24&ved=1t:429,r:14,s: 0" rel="external nofollow"> http://www.google.com/imgres?q=eyelid+derm...1t:429,r:14,s:0
And if this is the initial break out it isnt so terrible, sure i have whiteheads but whatever Im over it
Man I would be loving accutane today if it wasn't just for my dry eyelids. ;-( Accutane is so up and down every day, yesterday my skin looked okay but today it looks awesome even with a few tiny whiteheads, I can't complain. I hope this is the IB. It would be amazing. The clogged pores on my forehead are finally seeming to surface which is awesome. I have two tiny whiteheads on my jawline and an actual "pimple" on my left cheek.
I just want my eyelids to go back to normal ;-(
Day 26
Since I skipped my pills for a few days I was a tad oiler than usual (it was incredibly nice). I went to an eye doctor this morning, he gave me a steroid cream for my eyes. Why do all doctors look at me weird? I swear either I'm seriously paranoid or my face is so messed up that they just don't know what happened. I'm nervous about using it. I'll see how my skin reacts to it in a few days. My skin is doing well. I have 2 actives on my entire face and blackheads keep surfacing. The overall tone of my skin changes daily. Sometimes I'm less red and sometimes I'm more red. I have a derm apt at 2 and I'm going to request to be on only 20 mg.
Taken a second ago. No make up. Just moisturizer. My camera on my phone brings out everything. Here ya go. 😉 my forehead and chin aren't problem areas. It's always mainly on my cheeks. This is me pmsing as well. I'd say I'm doing pretty well. A lot of thr red marks on my left cheek are from a very bad break out that occurred over 3 months. It was awful.
This is why you went on accutane? I'm sorry, I don't want to be rude but it's just jealousy speaking...thats not even close to needing accutane. It's mild acne! Ok im done. But you are very beautiful, and your eyes are amazing 🙂
Taken a second ago. No make up. Just moisturizer. My camera on my phone brings out everything. Here ya go. 😉 my forehead and chin aren't problem areas. It's always mainly on my cheeks. This is me pmsing as well. I'd say I'm doing pretty well. A lot of thr red marks on my left cheek are from a very bad break out that occurred over 3 months. It was awful.This is why you went on accutane? I'm sorry, I don't want to be rude but it's just jealousy speaking...thats not even close to needing accutane. It's mild acne! Ok im done. But you are very beautiful, and your eyes are amazing 🙂
;-/ I know but its been 10 years of not that bad so its been a frustrating decade and having sisters with flawless skin does not help. I swear I'm being tested every day to appreciate what I have. You ladies are too kind. 😉 Seriously
Just got back from the derm, seemed pleased with my skin. I told her my concern of my eyes so she suggested doing 30 mg every other day. And then eventually I will be bumped up again. 😉 I had some coffee before my blood test I prob shouldn;t of done that. The assistant got freaked out because I'm so fair and I get so white when I'm anxious. She looked at my mom and was like "has she always been like this?" My mom laughed and was like "yeah."
Today I noticed how much my skin looks like my moms. I think I obsessive way too much about everything. I never noticed she had little dry patches too by her eyes where I get it. It was just the lighting. In all the years I've seen her with make up I've never noticed it until now. My obsession stops here.
Taken a second ago. No make up. Just moisturizer. My camera on my phone brings out everything. Here ya go. 😉 my forehead and chin aren't problem areas. It's always mainly on my cheeks. This is me pmsing as well. I'd say I'm doing pretty well. A lot of thr red marks on my left cheek are from a very bad break out that occurred over 3 months. It was awful.This is why you went on accutane? I'm sorry, I don't want to be rude but it's just jealousy speaking...thats not even close to needing accutane. It's mild acne! Ok im done. But you are very beautiful, and your eyes are amazing 🙂
i agree haha