On 12/6/2017 at 2:47 AM, WannabeActor said:

I keep getting these stupid cysts/under skin pimples on my back and nothing seems to work on them. Tried just about everything short of accutane (internal AND external) but I seem to get one at LEAST once every 2 weeks or so, just when I think my skin is in the clear and the scars I do have can start healing, one of these cursed (sometimes painful) things flares up. Tried Milk Thistle about a month ago and have been doing it daily since. I'm trying to find a way to get cortisone shots but those only do so much really. I was thinking of saw palmetto or guggul gum but I don't know what else could possibly work. Accutane IS one of the most dangerous drugs on the planet so it's ABSOLUTE LAST RESORT for me (well I'm closet-suicidal anyways so I'm considering it still.) I even tried unconventional methods; I masturbate maybe once a week tops and while it KINDA helps (not too bad to do since I only do it cause I NEED to; it's rather overrated) it doesn't really... I have blue balls all the time and precum every single day even if I don't get aroused; even the simple act of urinating is an ordeal because of it. This has ruined my chances of ever making it as an actor of course and thus I don't have a single good day in my life knowing it's going to be empty and unfulfilling no matter what. I know, I should just "give up" and "accept it" "like everybody else does" but I'm NOT everyone else, I'm not like them, never was, and I've never had the luxury to have that mentality because I want to be an actor so goddamn bad I'd sell my soul (though I don't really believe in it.) Say what you will but it's the one thing that makes (well, made) my life worth living. I won't call anyone's dreams "stupid" so if you want to call me that for wanting to be an actor so be it but a crushed dream is a crushed dream.

My advice to humanity; if you have cystic acne PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD do not procreate. I'm sorry, I don't mean to note this as disrespect, but as something to meditate on and start to empathize with. I know this may hurt to hear, but really, do you want your offspring to have to spend all their hard-earned money on costly acne treatments (let alone the risks of accutane) and/or have to live an extremely restrictive life where they are forced into uber-restrictive diets and fasting in order to try and fight this horrid disease? I know for sure I don't. Is the emotional high of having a child really worth watching them suffer from something genetic like this once they reach 12 or so that they have little/no control over? Sorry, but I don't. I wish my parents felt the same and let me die in the womb like I was supposed to. I've spent hundreds (if not thousands) of dollars and every single second of my life in anxiety and unhappiness trying to cure this disease and curse. I don't have anything to pass onto a child, no skills, no smarts (not even street smarts) no natural talent (besides acting/entertaining,) no work ethic, no zest for life, no adaptability, no well-endowment, not even anything neat like being good at video games, nothing of the sort, so I've already decided it's EXTREMELY unlikely that I'll procreate. Oh well, this planet has an overpopulation crisis as is, so if I end up dying a hungry, lonely, poor virgin on some DTLA street corner (maybe from suicide) so be it. I'd rather die giving it all at something I love more than anything than live an empty 40+ more years in some mediocre existence of quiet desperation. People can go ahead and call me childish and immature, but I don't care. A crushed dream can do just as much (if not more) damage than a broken heart. I quoth Jim Carrey "It's better to starve to death than give up on your dreams. If you don't have your dreams, what else is left?"

Just some thoughts from a sufferer.

Read my thread in the body acne forum to see how I cured by 10 year body acne. took me 1.5 years of tryin different crap.