hi, I just wanted to vent a little bit. So, I have oily, acne prone skin. I was going to a dermatologist who prescribed my spirlatatone (not sure I spelled that right) and certain creams. This seemed to work and I was acne free for the entire summer. My acne sorta started coming back when school started so I decided to go back to see what he would say. However my dermatologist was going to be getting surgery, so I went to another dermatologist. He prescribed me trentinoin for my hyperpigmentation which was very minimal at the time. This caused my face to break out like never before, now both of my cheeks are COVERED me I mean COVERED in acne scars. (Just the red kind not indented). I don't remember the last time I have looked in the mirror without fully covering my cheeks with my hands. Ik that if I look at myself it will feed my depression. I do makeup everyday for school bc i would never dare let muons see me without makeup on. It covers my scars mostly, and people think I'm prettt when I have makeup on. This makes my life so difficult I can't even describe. I pray and pray everyday for help bc I'm afraid of what will happen if my scars don't go away. I don't want to die I really love my life I really do but I honestly can't handle this anymore. I really didn't even realize how bad my scars were till today when I got my ears pierced. The lady held up this mirror to show me and I wanted to cry. Like I said, I never look at myself full on in the mirror. I put my makeup on in dim lighting, so I don't have see my face. So now I'm home just thinking about how I don't wanna live anymore. I'm not suicidal but after today all I wanna do is just die. One time in every past I cut myself bc of how depressed I was over my face. But that's the only time. I'm thinking of doing this more now. Also, I like this guy and he's made it known he sorta likes me in a way. And I can't help but thinking about how he'd never have said that if he knew what I looked like w/o makeup. I can't express how bad my face Ian AT ONLY 15 YEARS OLD. PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME YOUR GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING