It's the time waiting just to see if something works, it's so hard when you struggle to get through every day as it is
I have this one quote I really like. It goes, " For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life". Waiting is the losing game. You need to get the best out of everything. It does not have to be jumping and down, dancing on tables kind of happiness. It can be just realizing, this is what you have right not, do your best. What we wait for, might never happen. It might be something way better.