I know what you mean. Every day feels like a battle. I wake up thinking things are getting better but sadly they're not. Sometimes I feel like it's not worth fighting anymore. I think about how much I have to offer the world but maybe it's just not my time. I sit around trying to productively occupy myself. It feels like I am just biding my time until I get better but sadly it doesn't feel like I am getting better. It's so difficult. I also don't want to be an imposition to anyone, including my friends and family, so nobody knows what's wrong with me. I'm thinking about self-harm nowadays, mostly to relieve the pain I'm feeling both inside and out. It's such a challenge and I can't quite put my finger on why I am suffering like this.

I don't feel like fighting anymore it's like your fighting a loosing battle for sure. It's very difficult isn't it. Don't self harm that won't make anything better. When did you start to get acne? No one should have to suffer like this. Every day is so hard

I first started getting acne around the ages of 15-16. It didn't get really bad until about a year ago. I was able to get it under control after doing the regimen. I ran out recently (about a week ago) and my face broke out. I was able to get back on the regimen but after not being on it for a week my face was at its worst since last year. It's definitely not as bad as it was a year ago but it's still not good. I can't go outside because I'm too embarrassed to face the world like this. It's mostly just around my mouth. It's also on both sides. So far its been about 4-5 days since I broke out. Some new zits seem to pop up too. I'm just trying to hang in there. I drink about 4-5 liters of water a day and eat nothing but fruit and veggies. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude about this but it's rough. I'm also 27 and have a lot of responsibilities. It sucks to have to hide away.

Maybe I should try the regimen? It's just shit I can't see any positives out of anything anymore

I try to kill time too. I'm not much of a sleeper because I like to get things done. I love being out and about, too. But lately I'm just trying to kill time by sleeping. It's terrible. Hopefully it'll all pass with time. I wouldn't wish acne on my worst enemies.

17 minutes ago, [email protected] said:

Maybe I should try the regimen? It's just shit I can't see any positives out of anything anymore

I got on the regimen last year when I was at my worst. It got even worse when I started the regimen. But after about 5-6 months things got clear. I mean I was completely clear. Sure I have some light scarring but that doesn't bother me as much as having inflamed red spots on my face. Last year I had really terrible cysts and I thank God I don't have those anymore. It's mostly just tiny zits now that magically turn into inflamed red spots. The worst part is they're in clumps of 4-5. I believe the regimen is working again but I couldn't believe how much I broke out after not being on it for a week. Terrible mistake I made, I suppose. NEVER GO OFF THE REGIMEN.

EDIT: I'm pretty much convinced this will be a life long battle for me. I now know not to go off of my regimen. Seriously, within a week I broke out. I also think it's because I shaved and didn't have my regimen to back me up after the shave. Worst part is I can't even grow an awesome beard to cover up my spots. I shouldn't have shaved lmao.

Me too , I was such an outgoing person and now all I want to do is hide. I would wish it upon then even for a day just to see what it's like for other people to have to deal with it. It's seriously not fair. The psychological pain is unbearable. Mines all over my face it's awful. I haven't got the energy to fight this even for 6 months and that's nothing compared to you. Yeah I wear makeup but that doesn't even cover properly and you know the worst part? Not knowing how many years I'm gonna have to deal for. Makes me feel like a hideous monster