Just saw my reflection when I wad outside. Daylight makes it look a lot worse. The sad part is, I guess, that's the real and true lighting since you'll be able to see your face clearly. I wake up with a rapid heart beat thinking if my scars had gotten worse or if i have a new zit which will leave a scar as well.

Background - I'm taking my 2nd course of accutane and I'm almost done with my 5th month. My 1st course was way back in 2013, I only had dry lips and it didn't cause any scarring. This year I started my 2nd course and I had the worst IB during my 1st-3rd month. Eyes got dry, lips are dry and I had joint pains. I can deal with the other side effect but not scarring! I now have a few indented scars and my dermatologist kept telling me that accutane doesn't cause scarring, she didn't even tell me that it can impair healing. I regret goin on accutane for the 2nd time.

I'm so scared of waking up everyday and see my reflection. I can do so much more if i don't have this skin condition. I just cried today. I'd rather have acne that goes away completely on its own that to have acne that heals fast but leaves a scar. I am so depressed. I know others have it way worse and others deal with more serious illnesses but I can't help feeling this way. I sometimes even feel guilty of feeling this way. Why can't everyone have a clear skin. It has affected so many individuals emotionally and mentally.