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I've made a lot of posts on here about how acne is ruining my self esteem and life, but now I feel like I'm worse than ever before.
even though I'm on accutane, I'm horrified it won't work. I'm scared my acne is due to my hypothyroidism and after I'm done with the course, it will come back. I'm even scared it won't help at all. I'm 16 now and so so scared I'm gonna have to deal with this for my entire life . I believe that my acne is caused by genetics (my dad had severe acne) but I still can't stop thinking about this .
im developing symptoms of OCD which concert me . if I go a long time without checking my face, I have an anxiety attack and cry. I have to drink green tea and ice my pimples at least twice a day or I'm not able to sleep. I obsessively count all the lesions on my face. my internet history is 90% acne related.
im getting more aggressive as well. today, I spent the whole day thinking of acne and how unfortunate I am to have it, and it led me to be rude to two people. I still feel bad about it. sometimes , when I see my face in the mirror, I punch or slap myself . this hurts a LOT considering the amount of nodules I have, but I do it anyways.
i dont sleep well at night , and when I come home from school, I take hour long naps and wake up feeling horrible and with a headache . I have no motivation . I'm starting to not wanna do homework .
i feel like I've become so ugly that I don't deserve anything; love, friendship, to listen to music I like, to travel , to purse my dreams. I'm far too gross for that.
i think I'll just accept that acne won this battle, and it destroyed me. I know I'm probably overreacting since some people have much worse problems, but I'm not strong enough for this. I accept it; I'm disfigured, ugly, a freak, and will never be loved or have clear skin. and even IF my skin ever clears up, I'll deal with permanent scarring.
I'm never having children. I don't want to pass this on to anyone else. I never want to see a kid of mine hate themselves to this extent. it would be cruel of me to have kids.
I was about to write a post but then i came across yours. The only difference between your story and mine is that i'm 20 and don't have hypothyroidism. But just like you, i've never been so depressed in my entire life, never been so obssessed about my skin. I write a diary about how many lesions i have each day, i separate them by big ones, medium ones and small whiteheads. I've done EVERYTHING that i could to stop it, but i can't seem to have any power over this disease... everyday is a struggle and i think about it 24 hours a day. I come home from college and just sleep. i sleep as much as i can, because thats the only time i stop thinking about (that's when i don't dream about it, which has happened so many times). I'm not living, i'm just function... i go from home to college, from college to home. That's my life. It's just so hard... is tiring. When i was younger i could never have predicted something like this. I'm in real pain and no one can take me serious, because they think is a matter of vanity. Sorry, but if you never had real acne you have no idea how debilitanting it is. Of course, is not a deadly ou terminal disease, but is extremely painful and it appears on YOUR FACE. Maybe it will get better, i don't know, i hope so. But right now, at this point, i see no light at the end of the tunnel... wish i could sleep for 2 years so acne couldn't haunt me every hour of the day. (sorry for my english, i'm from brazil)
Hey ladies. As a16 plus year acne sufferer who has still not found reprieve, I can say that half the battle of dealingwith this dreaded disease is mindset. I am currently in therapy for my depression and my therapist has really begun to help me see the deeper issues of low self esteem and self worth. She has also given me strategies to cope and see patterns of thinking that feed into my depression. Does all this help my acne? Nope...still there....still struggling. But it makes each and every day doable.
please pm meif you want to talk.
Hi guys,, I have been dealing with severe acne and keliods since past 8 years, I'm 25 now.. From my experience, acne will get better.. Have confidence that it will go away one day... That will be ur biggest strength.. Acne has deeply affected my character since my childhood days.. But now, I have learned to overcome the shyness due to acne. I still have an oily face and some pimples.. But I don't keep it in my mind always.. Remember, life is not only about ur looks... There are a lot of things to experience in life.. People won't judge u based on ur looks.. There are a lot of people who looks so great.. But have a poor character! Just enjoy life.. And don't take a lot of anti biotic tablets( not more than 3 Months..) And other tablets like accutane for a long time... Its not gonna cure u, it will only damage ur organs.... And last, but not the Least, get ur mind purified.. Its the most powerful thing, do meditation, yoga.. Remove negative thoughts.. Try new things in life.. Ull be the most beautiful person...
You dont have to have a clear face to be beautiful. It seems like you are stressing about this way more than you need to. I know exactly how you feel though. There are things you can do to get rid of your acne, it isnt permanent. Try going to a dermatologist, it helps-well it helped me at least. Also. dont eat things that you notice break you out, for example, chocolate, dairy, junk food etc...I stopped eating those things that made me break out and started drinking nothing but water and it really helped. Stress also causes pimples so try not to stress out about it too much-or it will get worse. Good luck. hope I helped!
Hey ladies. As a16 plus year acne sufferer who has still not found reprieve, I can say that half the battle of dealingwith this dreaded disease is mindset. I am currently in therapy for my depression and my therapist has really begun to help me see the deeper issues of low self esteem and self worth. She has also given me strategies to cope and see patterns of thinking that feed into my depression. Does all this help my acne? Nope...still there....still struggling. But it makes each and every day doable.
please pm meif you want to talk.
It is of no use to say such things. She's not willing to listen. She is stuck inside her own head.
Hey ladies. As a16 plus year acne sufferer who has still not found reprieve, I can say that half the battle of dealingwith this dreaded disease is mindset. I am currently in therapy for my depression and my therapist has really begun to help me see the deeper issues of low self esteem and self worth. She has also given me strategies to cope and see patterns of thinking that feed into my depression. Does all this help my acne? Nope...still there....still struggling. But it makes each and every day doable.
please pm meif you want to talk.
It is of no use to say such things. She's not willing to listen. She is stuck inside her own head.
To offer no hope I believe is even worse. You cant just give up on someone because you think they wont listen. She obviously wrote in here to get some insight.
We are all here for you, and I think to understand that there are like minded people maybe helps a teeny bit with the depression. I think all we can do is provide hope, because everything else doesnt work for me. I read acne stuff ALL DAY too, sometimes it drives me nuts and Im just left crying. Other days I learn something new and feel a little bit better. I have hypothyroidism as well, it CAN provide acne. Maybe focus on diet and lifestyle tips to use to your advantage. Exercise really does keep your mind off for a little
I know how you feel.
I'm ashamed at how obsessed I am with my acne, when there are so many worse cases out there. Mine is mild to moderate, and will eventually clear up in one way or another (I hope) however, it's a matter of self-worth and self-esteem and identity to me.
I used to be the girl with the perfect, flawless skin. I was always, always complimented on my skin. My friend (who has had acne for ten years) even said once how much she used to envy my skin. USED TO. Because since coming of the BC two years ago, my skin is not that pretty anymore...
I hate myself. I'm nothing with acne. The two most recent guys I dated dumped me, and I'm convinced it's due to my skin (this is not the case obv, but I'm so obsessed I can't stop these thoughts...)
The entire day at work today I thought about my skin. I can't focus on anything else. When I came home and looked in the mirror I cried. I popped three pimples and cried some more.
I am helpless. I've tried everything under the sun except Accutane. Everything works for a while and then stops working... I can't go on the BC again because I had serious issues with vaginal dryness and honestly, it is not worth messing with that in order to have perfect skin! Even on the BC my skin wasn't exactly perfect, still got monthly pimples but during the summers I had nooo zits at all.
The only thing that works is antibiotics, tanning and BC. None of these three are good healthy alternatives.
I am just at my wits end with this. I am embarassed at how much I put my life on hold due to the acne. I don't want to go out, hang with friends or family, don't want to date, I'm scared of going to the gym cos I think working out in make-up gives me more pimples (but at the same time I would NEVER go without it).
On top of this I am in such a stressful place in my life, I have very low income at the moment, have to look for a new job and my dad has been seriously ill for the past two years. Also it's the autumn and whenever it gets colder I also get more depressed. Maybe due to my acne worsening during this time...
Sorry for the long post and long rant.
Accutane will work its magic. My face is not bad enough for me to ever get it and even if I did I wouldn't want it, probably would give me more dryness than the BC did....
I know how you feel.
I'm ashamed at how obsessed I am with my acne, when there are so many worse cases out there. Mine is mild to moderate, and will eventually clear up in one way or another (I hope) however, it's a matter of self-worth and self-esteem and identity to me.
I used to be the girl with the perfect, flawless skin. I was always, always complimented on my skin. My friend (who has had acne for ten years) even said once how much she used to envy my skin. USED TO. Because since coming of the BC two years ago, my skin is not that pretty anymore...
I hate myself. I'm nothing with acne. The two most recent guys I dated dumped me, and I'm convinced it's due to my skin (this is not the case obv, but I'm so obsessed I can't stop these thoughts...)
The entire day at work today I thought about my skin. I can't focus on anything else. When I came home and looked in the mirror I cried. I popped three pimples and cried some more.
I am helpless. I've tried everything under the sun except Accutane. Everything works for a while and then stops working... I can't go on the BC again because I had serious issues with vaginal dryness and honestly, it is not worth messing with that in order to have perfect skin! Even on the BC my skin wasn't exactly perfect, still got monthly pimples but during the summers I had nooo zits at all.
The only thing that works is antibiotics, tanning and BC. None of these three are good healthy alternatives.
I am just at my wits end with this. I am embarassed at how much I put my life on hold due to the acne. I don't want to go out, hang with friends or family, don't want to date, I'm scared of going to the gym cos I think working out in make-up gives me more pimples (but at the same time I would NEVER go without it).
On top of this I am in such a stressful place in my life, I have very low income at the moment, have to look for a new job and my dad has been seriously ill for the past two years. Also it's the autumn and whenever it gets colder I also get more depressed. Maybe due to my acne worsening during this time...
Sorry for the long post and long rant.
Accutane will work its magic. My face is not bad enough for me to ever get it and even if I did I wouldn't want it, probably would give me more dryness than the BC did....
Side note.if tanning improves your acne, have you thought of vitamin d supplements?Ive read a few times on here that was a miracle cure for some
Hey ladies. As a16 plus year acne sufferer who has still not found reprieve, I can say that half the battle of dealingwith this dreaded disease is mindset. I am currently in therapy for my depression and my therapist has really begun to help me see the deeper issues of low self esteem and self worth. She has also given me strategies to cope and see patterns of thinking that feed into my depression. Does all this help my acne? Nope...still there....still struggling. But it makes each and every day doable.
please pm meif you want to talk.
It is of no use to say such things. She's not willing to listen. She is stuck inside her own head.
To offer no hope I believe is even worse. You cant just give up on someone because you think they wont listen. She obviously wrote in here to get some insight.
We are all here for you, and I think to understand that there are like minded people maybe helps a teeny bit with the depression. I think all we can do is provide hope, because everything else doesnt work for me. I read acne stuff ALL DAY too, sometimes it drives me nuts and Im just left crying. Other days I learn something new and feel a little bit better. I have hypothyroidism as well, it CAN provide acne. Maybe focus on diet and lifestyle tips to use to your advantage. Exercise really does keep your mind off for a little
I offered a way to relieve stress, but she dismissed it.
I used to be terrified that my acne would come back post acutane as well and guess what? It did. Just like lee Lowe said, it's absout your mindset and I chose to change my mindset, go to therapy, and deal with it day by day. I understand your pain and suffering and I also know you can absolutely work through this
Keep in mind that the original poster is younger than many of us. If being a teenager is still the same experience as it was for me some 16 years ago, everything is probably magnified by 10. The social pressures to fit in never changes and at every turn, there is someone there to make you feel less than. With that said, keep on keeping on Hun. Accutane is not an easy drug by any means but for most people, it will provide a reprieve, even if only for a little while.
Hii!! I would like to give u some advice from my experience on acne.. Your life should never depend on how good or bad ur face looks like.. The most successful people in the world are not all beautiful people.. Your face maybe full of pimples, but that's not the only thing u got in life.. Don't spend too much time in front of the mirror looking at ur face.. Look at some other beautiful things god has created around u.. Appreciate what u got in life.. Looking only at ur face always, you will miss out on all the other gifts god has given u, physically, mentally, and socially.. life is full of surprises.. Start each day, telling yourself: Today, I don't care how bad my face looks, I'm gonna enjoy this day to the full.. I don't care what others think of my face! Try it.. Feel the difference.. I bet it will change ur life.. Remember: you are not blessed in life to only cure ur acne! And keep ur mind pure.. Remove all I'll thoughts..