Hi Jorgem1009, I am really sorry for how you're feeling and what you're going through. I'm a male too and I made the mistake of picking at my skin some years back. My number one recommendation to you: don't pick at your skin. I've never picked at my skin again after making that terrible mistake once since it created a small scar. All the acne really caused so much anxiety within me and it had taken over my mind completely... I felt sad and depressed too. Even though I still get acne which still causes anxiety and messes with my mind, I've learned to accept it a little more as time has progressed. It's hard, I know how hard it can be, and most of us here understand your pain. Patience, time, acceptance, sharing your pain/struggles as you have, physical exercise, etc. are just some general things which can help you, me, and many others....