Hi, my name is trevor and this is the story of how acne destroyed my life or well.. i destroyed my life because of acne...

Lets start off from the beginning; growing up i loved sports , football and basketball & i was great at them. I loved people , loved life in general. In middle school i was the popular one, i was friends with everyone, girls liked me, i'd wake up everyday with 5+ texts. I was funny, attractive & athletic af. Got good grades and my parents were proud of me. People Envied me. I use to love school!! i hated snow days, i didnt really care for the learning just socializing aspect. I remember in 7th grade i seen a kid at a track meet with mild acne and i told my friend if i ever looked like that i'd kill myself... I remember i loved myself so much. Id look into the mirror smile and always be happy. That summer going into 8th grade i was the shit. Thats when facebook became pretty popular, id post one of those tbh or ill admits & get 100+ likes. I knew everyone from every school, i was friends with kids from every school. I had a ton of nude photos from girls on my phone. In the beginning of 8th grade i started getting my first small breakouts... I was disgusted by it!! i tried all of the rubbing creams nothing worked! I ended up breaking up with a girl i really liked because the acne was ruining my confidence.. I slowly started isolating myself, i found cod as a alternative. And once the summer of 9th grade started i completely isolated myself from everyone. I gave up sports, The whole summer i locked myself in my house playing video games. I hated getting my picture taken because i was so ugly(use to love it) I was so disgusted by my acne i would hide from my friends when they came over. I stopped talking to everyone and focused on xbox. I absolutey hated myself. Acne destroyed everything i used to love. Once 9th grade started i came into school the first day and i was pale white, (i used to be very tan from always being outside) people made jokes, my friends thought that i died (joking) it was terrible. I was awkward as ever. I was always so nervous from my acne plus not seeing anybody for so long. As 9th grade progressed i slowly came out of my shell and became a little more confident not letting acne bother me as much & as soon as 9th grade ended i remember looking in the mirror and being so disgusted by myself once again. That whole summer i pulled the same shit. Alienating myself from everyone. I came back to school in 10th grade the same as 9th. But eventually people stopped caring. I was the definition of a loner, nobody cared. & i couldnt blame them i didnt care about myself either. After the first month i dropped out of public school and convinced my mom & dad to let me try online school. They said ok, Throughout the rest of my year as a 10th grader i did nothing but stay up all night playing video games & eating shitty junk food. I was so lazy i got NO exercise at all. The few times my friends came over to see how i was doing was complete awkwardness, like we never knew eachother before. 11th grade came and my parents were making me go back to a real school not that online bullshit. The summer going into 11th grade i hungout with a few friends and ended up smoking weed.. ALOT of weed & the next day i woke up and felt wierd that was in august , in november i found out i have something called depersonalization/ derealization . Where everything feels wierd, like im in a dream its terrible!

Now here we are, Its been 3 months of knowingly having dp/dr & ive someone changed my life around, i go to an alternative highschool were i have no friends, ive been alot more active & hardly anyone of my old friends care how im doing or talk to me. But im making small steps. Since this depersonalization thing ive been alot more focused on it rather then my acne which never went away and is still here. If you're still reading this my advice is FUCK ACNE, seriously stop caring. Don't let it determine if you'll go out today or go to the beach. If you're having trouble go see a therapist. I hate to see anyone end up like me i let acne ruin my present and probably future, i am suppose to graduate in a couple years and im WAY behind on credits. PLEASE READ THIS AND CHANGE HOW YOU ARE ACTING GO OUT AND ENJOY YOUR LIFE LIKE IM LEARNING TOO!! PLEASE

Thankyou for reading this, (ps: So many things and details i left out but i think i got my main points across..