Acne has ruined my life. It all started when i was in 8th grade. I brokeout like any normal kid, so i wasn't too worried. Then came highschool and sophomore year. Acne was covering my entire face, I'm talking about big huge red painful zits. I could barely leave touch my face or play sprots without popping something. And all the kids teasing and talking shit about it didn't help me either. So I decided to see a dermatologist. All he did was give me useless creams and pills that would make everything worse, which made me go into a depression. I always put on a smile in school but i always feel like shit on the inside.

This went on until Junior year. Ive heard about accutane and how it's cured many people having the same problems as me. So after a while, my derm let me use it. It was going great, after 2 month my skin was so much clearer, not nearly as oily, and smooth. My self esteem was coming back, i started not to feel ugly. But, my derm took me off it because my liver enzymes were too high after the 2nd month (due to me unknowinglly taking protein shakes with a lot of vitamin A in it). So, after 5 months, i stil had clear skin.

Then my skin got so oily and i brokeout so much, i asked him for accutane again and he said no. He said he doesnt know what else to do for me. I dont know what else to do I just cant handle this fucking shit anymore, everyone talks about it, it makes me ugly as fuck, it's ruining my fucking life. I want to end my life sometimes but i know i wont becuz im too much of a pussy, and I dont tell anybody how i feel becuz they all judge. I just dont know what to do, i want to see a new derm and get back on accutane but if that doesnt work idk wht else i can do. I dont want to kill myself but i just had to vent, hopefully things look up but idk at this point. Thanks for reading.