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Someone please talk to me before I do something stupid. I am afraid i will go insane. It all started with a single scar on my cheek over 2 years ago. With the help of this forum (just observing and reading posts) I learned about excision and had it done by the second surgeon I consulted with. Afterwards seemed like everything was going to be great..but I hadn't seen the posts yet about needing two layers of sutures, etc and meticulous closure or rather maybe I had but this doctor convinced me during consult that only one layer would suffice. I had the excision and soon as he removed sutures, a few days after...85-90% of the incision tore open without my even moving. I think I scratched an eyebrow and this was on my cheek and it opened. I wrote all about this experience on here but it was so long...i don't know if anybody even read it because no one responded. The doctor was terrible afterward and basically dismissed me. So began a long, deep depression that has lasted until today...nearly 1.5 years later. I've been on almost 8 or 9 consults with facial plastic surgeons about fixing it. It has been so hard to get a straight answer. I'm both emotionally depressed and there's a depression left on my cheek ...everybody had a different idea of how and where to make new incision for scar revision. Why are plastic surgeons...well some of them..so arrogant and abusive if they think they can't help. Only a few were decent but even then differed greatly on what makes excision a success. Some say that you should only cut down to dermis/epidermis. Others say that's a horrible idea that will still leave indentation...and you should cut down to fat and bring all layers together including fat.
you would not believe the things I've done myself to this scar to try and improve it because I took on a new job a few months ago...it was supposed to be a temporary job.. only a few months..but they keep extending it, and my anxiety is sky high because I spend nearly 2 hours trying to fill the indent with makeup but it just can't be hidden. I've microneedled it myself and even....shaved it....i know..i know...it doesn't look as bad as I fear it would..it's shrunk a bit in size but the indentation is at its worst.
I'M READY TO GIVE UP MY JOB. this is stressing me out so much...on top of everything one supervisor is always staring at the area...she has no shame that I can tell she's doing that...my makeup makes it more visible even with the best techniques. And there is this guy I'd like to get to know better at work but I just go home and cry because I avoid him as much as possible because the makeup is always coming off at work and I really wish I could be hanging out with him. I am just so exhausted. Why am I going to work? I should have quit and had another excision done asap In stead of suffering and torturing myself any more. Is there anyone who knows what it is like when an excision goes wrong? I've read all the related posts but if you ended up having a good result please share too..i just want somebody to talk to who gets it:(
I have had 3 cysts removed from my face by my dermatologist,( not the best looking scars).
Not 3 at the same time,the stitches were left on them for about 5 days and were removed by the dermatologist.
I don't know what kind of stitches they used on your cyst .On my case,I think the ones he used
inside dissolved on their own and the ones on top ,were removed by the dermatologist 5 days later .
Only one of my scars developed more of an indentation, kind of formed less scar tissue,but more of a hole ,but I think it happened because I used more exfoliation on that scar than the others.
What I think is, if the scar is getting more like a hole and if the scar opened really easy ,maybe there might be still a residue of the cyst .
So ,I would recommend to visit the dermatologist first to find out what went wrong in the first place.
Maybe that might be the reason why the surgeons are giving you the run around.
I don't mean to scare you . I just want you to seek medical advice first,then cosmetic after.
One of my scars after the stitches were removed kept making me itchy and the scar kept getting swollen,and it was due to a little piece of the stitches that stayed embedded in my skin, it was expelled by itself later but this little thing was giving me some pain.
Take care,best wishes.
You should post a pic but if you only have 1 indentation and you are freaking out from that then maybe you need to go see a therapist. I am not being rude but you need to find a way to deal with this now incase you never get the indent fixed. Cant subcision and a good filler help fix that?
I used to be crazy about my skin and freak out about red marks and then I got a few indents and hated them and it made me so upset and then I had bad cystic acne and got more indented scarring and raised scarring that came out of nowhere. Let me tell you that I would give anything to go back to the day when I only had a few indents and red marks and thought my skin was so bad. So I think you need to talk to somebody and find a way to get past this. You cant get one indent ruin your life! I'm sure nobody even notices so go to work and talk to that guy and see where it goes.
I agree with Tracy, on the side of getting another subcision, you should go check your mental health - might be you're devoloping body dysmorphic disorder, it's a serious thing 
Thanks for sharing your opinions pianina and tracy. I've been to many consults and know I'm not suffering from anything mental because the doctor's were well known for turning patients away for excessive procedures but they examined my scar and told me it's reasonable to want to improve it given how it looks and that it's my face. And you know, just because the quantity is only 1 scar doesn't mean you should minimize or dismiss it as being not worth stressing over. The scar happens to be smack dab in the middle of my cheek...it's not an indent like a rolling scar or something...i have those and don't mind much. It's clearly a surgical scar and that looks bizarre to have one that looks like the incision opened when it heals.on your skin .ive also been told it doesn't rest on the natural facial tension lines...the original surgeon didn't place the scar in a good place...he cut it out almost completely horizontally. So a horizontal line middle of my cheek looks like my cheek has been split in two with a staple or something. Thanks for your concern and I understand what you mean about wanting to have your skin back from before...but yeah i it actually looks bizarre to have otherwise ok skin except for one random horizontal line that's split open..plus microneedling it actually made the surrounding area worse...i can't explain it. If you haven't experienced it you won't understand.
I wish I had only one scar... Been feeling very low about myself and my scarred cheeks, not much changed after 4 fraxels... But keep on trying different things, it's worth doing everything you can, be it one scar, or many
Thanks for sharing your opinions pianina and tracy. I've been to many consults and know I'm not suffering from anything mental because the doctor's were well known for turning patients away for excessive procedures but they examined my scar and told me it's reasonable to want to improve it given how it looks and that it's my face. And you know, just because the quantity is only 1 scar doesn't mean you should minimize or dismiss it as being not worth stressing over. The scar happens to be smack dab in the middle of my cheek...it's not an indent like a rolling scar or something...i have those and don't mind much. It's clearly a surgical scar and that looks bizarre to have one that looks like the incision opened when it heals.on your skin .ive also been told it doesn't rest on the natural facial tension lines...the original surgeon didn't place the scar in a good place...he cut it out almost completely horizontally. So a horizontal line middle of my cheek looks like my cheek has been split in two with a staple or something. Thanks for your concern and I understand what you mean about wanting to have your skin back from before...but yeah i it actually looks bizarre to have otherwise ok skin except for one random horizontal line that's split open..plus microneedling it actually made the surrounding area worse...i can't explain it. If you haven't experienced it you won't understand.
I understand, one of the scars on my cheek ,I have 2 , one ended up being next to the laugh line so it's barely noticeable, the second one the dermatologist placed it next to it but almost horizontal and it looked terrible besides it was putting so much pressure on my facial nerves that I kept touching and obviously ended up opening again, the dermatologist placed it in a vertical line, it caused a little bump to the side to form , but I didn't care,I don't remember how long after the surgery, the dermatologist used laser to fix the bump and that scar looks and feels so much better.
I have 2 uneven cheeks, I don't mind, and to fade and soften the scars I used glycolic acid toners.
I hope that you can find someone who can help you.
Please take care, be patient,I know that you will able to find a compassionate doctor, don't loose faith,snowflake01 .