I would have to see pictures but if youre still breaking out I think you should seriously consider taking accutane, it nots nearly as bad as the internet says it is. I was pretty much in the exact same position as you and then I decided to take accutane. I finished it about 6 months ago and I have yet to have any acne come back. Once you stop breaking out youre face will begin healing and you can start doing scar treatments. It takes a long time, Ill admit, but its better than doing nothing about it.

I was very bipolar i would be angry and then happy and then i would get severely depressed- it would go on forever. I felt like whenever i told my mom- she would say *everyone goes through it* or *i had acne when i was your age but worse!* - My skin was a mix of acne and rosacea. But the rosacea made it sooooo tough to treat my acne because it made it impossible to use treatments. I decided enough was enough- a year ago i asked my derm to go on accutane- i knew the side effects could mess with your head psychologically- but at that point i was so messed up that i knew it was worth it- and i believed all my issues were primarily from acne/rosacea to begin with. I started accutane about a year ago (this month of last year) - went all the way to end of october. I dont want to say it was a complete cure- but it helped me soooooooo much. It made it so now i can treat my rosacea. But i went from having a morning routine that consisted of putting on makeup to cover my shame- now i dont wear makeup (skin makeup that is). All i take now is Oracea (an inflammatory and apply finacea 2X per day. The finacea has lightened my HP sooooooo much. - my face is still pink but literally cant do anything about that since im irish- pale- and both parents have rosacea. Also a year and a half ago i went to an allergist and found i have many intolerances! Like soy, dairy, peanuts, oats, yeast, oranges, bananas, and all citrus fruits. I have to be very careful not to consume any of these. Anyways- i posted a topic it must be a couple days ago- with a picture i posted of my condition at this time. I was in your place- im not saying take these medications in anyway!- im just telling you my story and maybe it will help

Im also a guy who struggles with rosacea.

But Im also balding in the temple regions. I am the most hideous guy in my community. You cant get worse than me. I deserve to be weeded out of the gene pool.

My advice is to take low dose accutane.

It's just the medications messing with your head!

Just sit in front of a window and look at the sky,

take a deep breath.

There's so much to this life!

Just silence your mind, the buzz in your head and re-connect with your true self!

I know how you feel. Honestly I never had these kind of feelings of worthlessness before I had acne. I know they're not really valid, especially because before I had cystic acne it wasn't like this. I never did fit in, but I was able to make friends with strangers easily and a lot of people said that I got by on my looks. I never realized to what extent that was true until I had severe cystic acne. It's a lot better when I just stay home. I get a bit lonely but I just can't stand the looks strangers give me, like I'm some kind of freak. People don't usually dislike me after they know me, but I've always been shy and it's just not worth it for me to push myself on others. Sometimes I feel like people are being nice to me out of pity. I hate that. I'm an adult (I'm 24), though some people think I look younger, and I've just gone back to college after working for years. I know what I'm doing, I should own this place,, I mean not exactly but you know. I'm always looking at the ground, not because I'm ashamed but because I don't want to look up because there's always someone who is starring at my acne and then looks away, I know that any attention I get is negative attention. I can't even cover with makeup because my face is too raw. I keep dreaming of when I can at least cover it so people can't see it from 10 feet away. I've still made some friends, but the thought of going "out" is out of the question.

I'm just finishing up month 1 of accutane and I'm hopeful. I've tried all sorts of other things too. I've done loads of research, and I think I've found good products that WILL get rid of acne scars. You just have to wait it out. As far as the depression goes, I feel like some of that does come from accutane becacuse it sets a sort of haze over you. I felt tired and headachey, and my throughts felt hazey, hard to concentrate, plus this shit about being an outcast for having acne and feeling awkward and shit. I tried to focus on what's important to me, realize this isn't permanent. However, the headaches and constant cloud of depression seemed to go away when I started taking Alpha Lipoic Acid and CoenzymeQ10. I don't know officially how these interact with accutane as this information is hard to find, but I do know that coenzyme Q10 is used to help lesson the negative effects of chemo therapy and accutane is sometimes used as a chemo drug. I have tons of information about them. I'm studying anatomy at home to solve my acne dillema b/c my derm isn't particuarly useful, other than dispensing drugs for me.

Water is really important. I actually had some pretty bad side effects where I stopped taking the drug for a few days, including ringing in my eyes, and I started drinking about 1.5 gallons of water a day religiously. Helped much.

I am so tired of sitting in my room crying everyday. I don't go out ever. When I go out I have to wear a hoodie. I cry constantly. I don't go to normal high school anymore I do it online from home. I can't look in the mirror without crying.. I'm exhausted.. I've been doing this same routine for years.. Crying and being upset... I'm so hurt I have no confidence, no motivation and nothing to live for. All I've ever asked for is clear skin.. I will give up every item I have ever had just to clear my skin. I am desperate... I can't even go out without crying.. In tears...

When i do go out I can only go out for like 30 mins and I have to come home... The toll that this is having on me is so severe... I stopped wearing my contacts so I don't have to see it anymore... I have been using multiple medications over the past.. And things like tretinoin doesn't work at all.. Epiduo is crap.. I've never been on accutane but I'm scared of the side effects considering I'm already severely depressed..

I have no friends. No life no job. I'm 18.. I don't wanna live anymore.. I don't even wanna go back to the dermatologist... I don't wanna go through another trial and error process. I'm done after one more try.. But that's it... After this I'm just killing myself.. Idc what anyone thinks of me because I ll be dead. It's so embarrassing how I'm typing this and I'm still crying like I have for the past hour.... I do this everyday and I just can't do it anymore..

Btw I don't have a lot of acne I have a lot of acne scars and hyper-pigmentation... I'm so scarred emotionally I don't what to do anymore.. I feel like everyone is watching me even in my own room.. I feel like I'm being watched so I cover myself in my blankets with my curtains shut.. I have no friends no one to talk to. I'm embarrassed I lie all the time now too to get out of things and to make myself feel better. I'm so stressed out.. If someone touches me I flinch... I used to wear makeup all the time over it but I can't cover it anymore... I'm so dead now... Tretinoin ruined my skin worse that it already was...

I have been planning my death for awhile.. I have a great diet and I have done everything in different routines to see what works...

I'm done after one final attempt that's it... I need help.. For me and for my skin... Something that works without drying me out or making it oily... Something that actually fades scars and hyper pigmentation..

A big part of your issue is the isolation. Since the return of my acne in July 2011, i have isolated myself for periods of time, the worse being last summer where suicide was front and center in my mind. Emotionally, i am in a better state today but i know that my troubles are far from over. I have a support system in my friends and family and I have become a christian so i know that i am never truly alone.

The point it, you don't know if and when your skin will get better so you have to find a way to carve a quality life for yourself in the meantime. My friends have never brought up my acne, not once and i realize that most of the time, i am the one creating these feelings of hopelessness. Find a job that you're comfortable with, reach out to people who you feel won't judge you (you can start right here and see if there are others in your area who want to chat for fun) and do things that make you truly happy. It's been 3 years since my acne has returned and i still not have found a solution. The truth of the matter is i may never find one but i can't allow this curse to be the be all and end all of my life - neither can you. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me.

I totally understand this feeling. But it's not worth it! Even if your skin is as bad as you think it is, it's not worth ending your life. There's so much more to life than looking good. My best friend committed suicide a few years ago, and it completely destroyed me. You have NO idea what you'd be doing to the people around you, trust me. Don't give up! Go out, do things and have fun. Screw everyone else and what they think! If they're judging you, they're not worth being around anyway. Also, I'd personally suggest cutting out ALL grains(including corn) and dairy. Add in tons of vegetables especially carrots to your diet

I have the same feeling. Everyday, Im just depressed.I wonder how can life be fair to me if I must go through this for rest of my life. I just like a walking dead. I can't enjoy shopping, hanging out. My guys in college know me well that I'm suicidAl person. I look so disgusted with my acne scars. My skin just look so different. Holes are spread over and the rest is messed up; so red, inflamed and like destroyed by acid. I swear if God give me a choice I'd rather to just disappear.

Check my gallery for an enlarged version of my avatar... I don't hang out with friends.. see family members... turned down a job... am not getting schooling right now... all because I don't want people to see me.

Check my gallery for an enlarged version of my avatar... I don't hang out with friends.. see family members... turned down a job... am not getting schooling right now... all because I don't want people to see me.

Oh man.. your acne should not bother you that much! From the picture, I just wanna say it's not the end of your world if you just have those many acne and red marks. Seek the right medication as soon as possible, it doesn't mean treating acne is such a tiny problem, at least do not let the acne form the new one.

Uhm, am I the only one who is going to notice that this guy mentioned twice he was planning on ending his life. Yet, people respond with stories of their own, demanding pictures, or suggesting accutane. How is this helping?

Well it maybe too late now. Hope the guy is alright.

Check my gallery for an enlarged version of my avatar... I don't hang out with friends.. see family members... turned down a job... am not getting schooling right now... all because I don't want people to see me.

Umm... I can't even tell that you have acne.

Seek some emotional help? I'm really not sure. All I see is someone with no acne lesions or scars getting down on their life.

I noticed that too.. this person said he is planning his death for a while. I guess most people (and I'm guilty of that too) just skim the posts and don't read carefully. I seriously hope this person was not considering suicide and is still alive....