Seems kind of weird, but every year I usually have a down period where acne almost completely disappears from my face for 2-3 weeks or so (I have a pretty moderate amount of ance throughout the year and an odd cyst at any given time somewhere on my damn face). Even red marks and scars seem so faded it's hard to tell that I suffer from acne at all. I have no idea what causes this, but during this time period my regular anxiety goes away and I feel desperate as hell to make use of what little time I have while I look "good" haha. I try to hang out with friends every day, and I want to meet girls so badly. This desperation nearly makes me depressed, and I feel so trapped by the situation I volunatrily put myself in for the rest of the year during which I hide from everyone and everything.

Thing is... during the rest of the year when I suffer from acne, it's very easy for me to hide and supress my feelings. I feel no depression because there was no hope in the first place. I just accept my situation and live like a hermit, which honestly isn't as bad as it sounds. I'm relatively happy and I find quite a few things to take up my time and fufill me in other ways. But, when acne leaves me... I feel absolutely desperate to leave my surroundings and liberate myself.

It's almost surreal how much I change when acne leaves me for just a short time. I realize how naturally social I am... and how much it's destroyed my personality over the years. I've lost out on a good 85-90% of my social life experiences due to my innability to deal with acne, so when I get chances like this I freak out, trying to make up for lost time ;(