So i was just talking to my mom and she complained about how i never want to go out. I told her the reason is because i feel ugly. She went ballistic and started yelling, saying i have no reason to feel like that because so many people call me cute or pretty. Which isnt true, not many people say that about me. And i said the reason i feel ugly is because of my acne. She started saying about how she has spent hundreds of dollars on me trying to get it to go away. I just wish she would be more understanding. Its my face. Its hard to feel confident when you have acne because your face is what everyone judges you by. She never had that problem, and she expects me to be confident when my face looks like a breeding ground for some nasty disease. Its even more disheartening that my own mother doesn't try to be more caring and open about it. And as for her spending hundreds of dollars, i know i probably sound unappreciative of it, but thats not the case. I would have gladly paid for it all if i had the money. I would do anything to look in the mirror and feel proud to not wear any makeup. I really hate looking in mirrors and seeing my face. The only reason i look so often is because i want to make sure everything is covered up. I would literally do anything to make it go away. I'm all emotional right now. I just really needed to get this out. Its been built up over the 5 years that i've had acne.

I hope that you don't mind me asking, but what is your age?

So i was just talking to my mom and she complained about how i never want to go out. I told her the reason is because i feel ugly. She went ballistic and started yelling, saying i have no reason to feel like that because so many people call me cute or pretty. Which isnt true, not many people say that about me. And i said the reason i feel ugly is because of my acne. She started saying about how she has spent hundreds of dollars on me trying to get it to go away. I just wish she would be more understanding. Its my face. Its hard to feel confident when you have acne because your face is what everyone judges you by. She never had that problem, and she expects me to be confident when my face looks like a breeding ground for some nasty disease. Its even more disheartening that my own mother doesn't try to be more caring and open about it. And as for her spending hundreds of dollars, i know i probably sound unappreciative of it, but thats not the case. I would have gladly paid for it all if i had the money. I would do anything to look in the mirror and feel proud to not wear any makeup. I really hate looking in mirrors and seeing my face. The only reason i look so often is because i want to make sure everything is covered up. I would literally do anything to make it go away. I'm all emotional right now. I just really needed to get this out. Its been built up over the 5 years that i've had acne.

I hope that you don't mind me asking, but what is your age?

17

My dad's been trying to make me get out of the house more. The whole summer, I've been mostly cooped up in my room watching shows online. Whenever my friends want to hang out or organized an activity and whenever it gets cancelled, I'm like "Yesssss" ...I felt better in my comfort zone by myself, yet it felt like it was the worst summer ever. I'm glad I'm back to school now, at least I'm doing something productive.

Being that way is totally understandable. I used to hate (and when I say hate I really do mean HATE) going out of the house when it wasn't absolutely necessary. For me it was school, then back home. That was it. If my family wanted to go out for dinner or out for the day I would make a huge fuss about it. And that was because my acne made me self conscious and I felt like everybody would stare.

So, maybe your mom just doesn't understand. People who didn't go through acne never really understand. And I get that. I guess all we can really do is try to make people understand, but it's just a whole other thing when you experience it.

Being that way is totally understandable. I used to hate (and when I say hate I really do mean HATE) going out of the house when it wasn't absolutely necessary. For me it was school, then back home. That was it. If my family wanted to go out for dinner or out for the day I would make a huge fuss about it. And that was because my acne made me self conscious and I felt like everybody would stare.

So, maybe your mom just doesn't understand. People who didn't go through acne never really understand. And I get that. I guess all we can really do is try to make people understand, but it's just a whole other thing when you experience it.

i tried talking to her again a few minutes ago and asked her if she would mind me taking accutane. She said she doesn't want me on it because she thinks i have a "depressed" personality and accutane would make it worse. She says i am depressed because i am always in my room and never want to go out. The reason i never want to go out is because my face looks like it got grinded with a cheese grater! I try to make her understand this but she just says "i have insecurities too, it is what it is and its no reason to stay home all the time." Jeez people are so frustrating.

Being that way is totally understandable. I used to hate (and when I say hate I really do mean HATE) going out of the house when it wasn't absolutely necessary. For me it was school, then back home. That was it. If my family wanted to go out for dinner or out for the day I would make a huge fuss about it. And that was because my acne made me self conscious and I felt like everybody would stare.

So, maybe your mom just doesn't understand. People who didn't go through acne never really understand. And I get that. I guess all we can really do is try to make people understand, but it's just a whole other thing when you experience it.

i tried talking to her again a few minutes ago and asked her if she would mind me taking accutane. She said she doesn't want me on it because she thinks i have a "depressed" personality and accutane would make it worse. She says i am depressed because i am always in my room and never want to go out. The reason i never want to go out is because my face looks like it got grinded with a cheese grater! I try to make her understand this but she just says "i have insecurities too, it is what it is and its no reason to stay home all the time." Jeez people are so frustrating.

Accutane is serious business. It can have a lot of negative side effects. I wouldn't blame your mom for not wanting you on it. For me that should be the last thing you try.

I guess being a person who has been what you've been through I can really only say that even though you are very self conscious, try to muster up all the inner strength you can to live your life to the fullest. Not for your mom, not for your friends, but all for you. You wouldn't wanna miss out on things right? Really what I'm trying to say is, your mom will probably not understand, but try. Even if you are self conscious, try your best to do what you normally would do if you don't have acne. Regrets suck big time.

At the same time, have you tried any other things to control your acne? My regimen that I started last January is what saved my skin. Maybe give something like that a try first before venturing to accutane.

Being that way is totally understandable. I used to hate (and when I say hate I really do mean HATE) going out of the house when it wasn't absolutely necessary. For me it was school, then back home. That was it. If my family wanted to go out for dinner or out for the day I would make a huge fuss about it. And that was because my acne made me self conscious and I felt like everybody would stare.

So, maybe your mom just doesn't understand. People who didn't go through acne never really understand. And I get that. I guess all we can really do is try to make people understand, but it's just a whole other thing when you experience it.

i tried talking to her again a few minutes ago and asked her if she would mind me taking accutane. She said she doesn't want me on it because she thinks i have a "depressed" personality and accutane would make it worse. She says i am depressed because i am always in my room and never want to go out. The reason i never want to go out is because my face looks like it got grinded with a cheese grater! I try to make her understand this but she just says "i have insecurities too, it is what it is and its no reason to stay home all the time." Jeez people are so frustrating.

Accutane is serious business. It can have a lot of negative side effects. I wouldn't blame your mom for not wanting you on it. For me that should be the last thing you try.

I guess being a person who has been what you've been through I can really only say that even though you are very self conscious, try to muster up all the inner strength you can to live your life to the fullest. Not for your mom, not for your friends, but all for you. You wouldn't wanna miss out on things right? Really what I'm trying to say is, your mom will probably not understand, but try. Even if you are self conscious, try your best to do what you normally would do if you don't have acne. Regrets suck big time.

At the same time, have you tried any other things to control your acne? My regimen that I started last January is what saved my skin. Maybe give something like that a try first before venturing to accutane.

i know there is a lot of side effects, but honestly, i've dealt with acne for way too long. Ever since i was 12 years old, and now i'm 17. I just want something that i know will work for me 100%. I've tried most other things. Various topical treatments, pills, dieting, and just the standard "wash your face everyday." Nothing has been working. And my acne is the thing that is holding me back the most. I really want to go out and experience life, but its hard because i feel like when people look at me, the first thing they notice is my bad skin. My mom made me a doctor appointment for monday. I'm really going to stress to my doctor about how badly this is affecting my life, hopefully he'll understand better than my mom. I just hope i don't have to take birth control along with the accutane