I guess this is a rant as well as a question. I have mild/moderate acne. When I start to feel new spots coming up/wake up in the morning with new ones, I get really depressed and stressed. Even if it's just a couple, I don't want to leave the house, and I start to get obsessive and check my skin every hour. I freak out because I don't like popping my pimples, but who on earth wants to have to look at whiteheads, even when they're covered with makeup? So I pop them and it becomes a viscous cycle of inflamed skin and breaking out more.

I cancel plans with people I'm close to. If I really have to go out, like to uni, I keep my head down and avoid interacting with other people. If someone catches my eye I freak out and all I can think about it how they've seen how bad my skin is and will be disgusted.

The worst thing is, I have a boyfriend now, and the thought of him seeing me with even one spot sends me into a massive depression and makes my anxiety spiral out of control. I freak out that he'll look at me and feel disgusted, and he won't want to come near me let alone kiss me etc.

How do people manage to go out/interact with people with spots on their face?