You should track down Stephen Fry's "Secret life of the manic depressive". It's a documentary about bipolar. I'm sure you'll find it interesting.

All the best.

You should track down Stephen Fry's "Secret life of the manic depressive". It's a documentary about bipolar. I'm sure you'll find it interesting.

All the best.

 

Thank you. I'll.check it out. A lot of people think that depression is just the sadness that you sometimes feel. But it get worse everyday and everytime I'm out side I have to act like I'm funny and cheerful but as soon as I get home I become destructive and cry for hours.

wel its a good thing u decided 2 live! evn i get depressed a lot bt the thing i figured is 2 make d best of it.. so i dont think a lot bout my acne n belive me its vry bad.. i play sports a lot coz it keeps me active n also takes my mind of acne i think evn u shud do sumtng u love which u wudnt do coz of ur acne.. d worst thing for me is i cant get a girl bt at d end of night i figure its not dat important.. f i find sum1 then good if i dont there is always hope but the main thing is 2 concentrate on what i can do for others.. when u be with ppl who have it worse than you its then that i realize at lst m lucky enough 2 have this much.. i read this sumwhere n it makes a lot of sense "when u hav decided u no longer want 2 live for yourself then its time 2 live for others" i like teaching poor pp n makes me vry happy.. may b u will find sumtng lyk dat 2.. take care!

There was someone on YouTube who is bipolar and he said that trying to live life like people who weren't bipolar was like trying to fit a block into a round opening. He said he had to make a square opening for himself, so to speak. He had to arrange his life so that he could live the way he needed to.

I have to say that I can relate to that. To say that some people are "normal" and then you have people who are "different" is too simple. Everyone's different. And how should normal be defined?

I shouldn't write a five page reply here so I'll conclude by saying that I think talking to people who are also bipolar or to good, professional people who know things about bipolar is good advice. There have been people who couldn't live with the effects that being bipolar had on their lives and who subsequently jumped off of a cliff, literally. Also, recently a famous Dutch actor killed himself due to depression. I think he was in his early fourties, married and had a kid. This thing shouldn't be underestimated.

I hope you will find peace with the fact that you are bipolar, if in fact the people who diagnosed you were correct, and that you find happiness.

Once again, all the best.

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@hopeforthebest my depression is so bad that i don't even wanna get out of bed and i don't want to eat in front of people so my sister have more things to say like "your parents always have to bring meal to you. are they the help to you?" . I know there are so many people have worse thing than me but it doesn't mean I don't have the right to feel sad and pain. I'm just so angry at her saying things like that.

@ Lapis lazuli I'm pretty sure I have bipolar because there are many times I was all happy and laughing then I just fell to hell and cry for hours and the feelings are just so extreme. I know i can't never be normal but the society( school, work...) does require you to control your emotions and socialize even if you don't want to.

whenever you think about suicide go to your room, listen to music and cry yourself to sleep. i always feel calmer when i wake up

you dont have any close friends to talk to?? if not, you always have us acne.org people

you probably need to apologize to your parents, it sounds like they do a lot for you. is there any reason you yell at them?

and maybe confront your sister. it almost sounds like shes jealous of you, but i dont think you should say that to her face.

yeah people don't know it's hard to deal with it emotionally because they dont have the acne. i see others worse with acne but it don't bother me unless we have it on our face then it can become an emotional problem. some people just don't care or seem to acknowlege that. keep fighting the acne and control the emotions it's a challenge for all of us. exercise and go outside for a run give some oxygen to that brain. take some b vitamins their known to help depression. hope it gets better for you.

Sometimes, family is the least supportive. My brother has said nasty things to me and hence why I hate him. Like actual hate. My mom has said nasty stuff as well and honestly they have made me feel like you can't trust anyone. I mean if you can't trust your own FAMILY who else? Well don't worry but the best thing I can say is rove them wrong. That acne is not going o ruin our life, I think I have depression but not fullu, I get it often but I am not fully depressed. IDO NEED a phsycologist though, well anyways don't feel bad, acne is a bitch. You can always talk to me though if you want?

whenever you think about suicide go to your room, listen to music and cry yourself to sleep. i always feel calmer when i wake up

you dont have any close friends to talk to?? if not, you always have us acne.org people

you probably need to apologize to your parents, it sounds like they do a lot for you. is there any reason you yell at them?

and maybe confront your sister. it almost sounds like shes jealous of you, but i dont think you should say that to her face.

 

yeah that's what i do, but when i cry she thinks im being childish and want atenttion. i think she just hates me and refuses to understand what's going on. like i said yesterday we had a big fight and she said she wanted me to die and now i want to die too but i will try my best and not do it. i had really bad depression for some years now and even the little things can irritate me, my psychologist said it was the depression that makes everything look bad but i dont know, maybe i really am the one to blame. i love my parents but dont know how to show it, and when i'm in the depressive episode of bipolar i just smash everything in front of me. they probably think i'm crazy and kind of ignore it because everything will be normal the next morning when i'm back to the manic episode (even though they love me)

yeah people don't know it's hard to deal with it emotionally because they dont have the acne. i see others worse with acne but it don't bother me unless we have it on our face then it can become an emotional problem. some people just don't care or seem to acknowlege that. keep fighting the acne and control the emotions it's a challenge for all of us. exercise and go outside for a run give some oxygen to that brain. take some b vitamins their known to help depression. hope it gets better for you.

 

yeah i took an antidepressant pill yesterday but still feel like shit because they need 4 weeks to kick in. people always say you're lucky that you have everything you want, you dont get starving or being abused... but i think emotional problems is one of the worst and they just dont know how hard i push myself to get up in the morning to go to school and do normal stuffs.

Sometimes, family is the least supportive. My brother has said nasty things to me and hence why I hate him. Like actual hate. My mom has said nasty stuff as well and honestly they have made me feel like you can't trust anyone. I mean if you can't trust your own FAMILY who else? Well don't worry but the best thing I can say is rove them wrong. That acne is not going o ruin our life, I think I have depression but not fullu, I get it often but I am not fully depressed. IDO NEED a phsycologist though, well anyways don't feel bad, acne is a bitch. You can always talk to me though if you want?

 

i know the feeling, i think my dad is the most supportive but still... i always think talking to you guys is the best because we know how it feel to have acne and all. people think it's not deadly so it's not important. i dont even think i can trust my psychologist so that just sucks

I kind of like this boy, and I think he has feeling for me too. acne is not a problem because he also has acne and scars. the main problem is that he's very active, funny and charming when I am always depressed and boring and dont even want to get out of my house. this worsened my condition gosh i wish i were one of those cheerful girl and have the guts to text him

well tell her youre not trying to cry, i mean who LIKES crying? and what does she have against you? she cant just hate you, theres got to be a reason. if she tells you she wants you to die again, just take it as a challege to keep living. idk much about you guys except whats on here but to be honest i think she might be jealous that youre parents take care of you so much

and as for your parents, just thank them. for being your parents.

I kind of like this boy, and I think he has feeling for me too. acne is not a problem because he also has acne and scars. the main problem is that he's very active, funny and charming when I am always depressed and boring and dont even want to get out of my house. this worsened my condition gosh i wish i were one of those cheerful girl and have the guts to text him

 

this ones on you, woman. youre letting yourself get in the way of yourself. if he likes you and you like him, what else matters?

just text him! "hey" its that simple! he'll take it as a compliment, like you want to talk to him

well tell her youre not trying to cry, i mean who LIKES crying? and what does she have against you? she cant just hate you, theres got to be a reason. if she tells you she wants you to die again, just take it as a challege to keep living. idk much about you guys except whats on here but to be honest i think she might be jealous that youre parents take care of you so much

and as for your parents, just thank them. for being your parents.

I kind of like this boy, and I think he has feeling for me too. acne is not a problem because he also has acne and scars. the main problem is that he's very active, funny and charming when I am always depressed and boring and dont even want to get out of my house. this worsened my condition gosh i wish i were one of those cheerful girl and have the guts to text him

 

this ones on you, woman. youre letting yourself get in the way of yourself. if he likes you and you like him, what else matters?

just text him! "hey" its that simple! he'll take it as a compliment, like you want to talk to him

 

because she thinks i'm a spoiled child and make my parents miserable. but honestly she hasn't even made any money on her own yet and has to ask for my parents' money. just because she has better manners than me doesnt mean she is a better daughter. she didnt even bother to find a job when she was in college and now she still doesnt have a job. she doesnt do anything better than me but having good manners, and I believe I will be more successful than her, i managed to go to a good university and will begin my junior year soon. I will try to get a part time job and study hard.

about the boy, im afraid if we were (ever) dating, he would get bored because he is obviously the go-out-and-have-fun type butmy depression is so bad i just want to stay home alone all day. he has many friends and cool things but honestly i don't even want to meet anyone. it's just hopeless

do you think she gets less attention from your parents than you do? then my whole jealousy theory (lol. sounding too professional right now. im not a therapist or anything) would make a lot of sense

maybe she needs a job, or something to occupy more of her time so she stays out of your hair haha.

and really really try to be nicer to your parents, to show them you love them

good luck in college! youll do great

and about the guy, thats not an excuse! you never know until you try, going out and having fun might help with your depression otherwise youll just stay depressed and nothing will change

Sorry you're going through all this - it must be really hard. I truly hope it gets better for you soon.

You mentioned that you stopped going and talking to your therapist. Do you think it would be easier to talk to a new therapist? I think it would be worth a try because they're qualified to help people and would help you so much more then the little things we can say to you here. We're all happy to give advice and such here but I think you would really benefit talking to a psychologist/therapist.

Anyway - good luck with everything and I do hope things get better for you

do you think she gets less attention from your parents than you do? then my whole jealousy theory (lol. sounding too professional right now. im not a therapist or anything) would make a lot of sense

maybe she needs a job, or something to occupy more of her time so she stays out of your hair haha.

and really really try to be nicer to your parents, to show them you love them

good luck in college! youll do great

and about the guy, thats not an excuse! you never know until you try, going out and having fun might help with your depression otherwise youll just stay depressed and nothing will change

 

yeah she always goes out hanging out with friends, she thinks she had experienced a lot more things than me so she's better than me. she thinks im a fucking maniac so everyone has to take special care of me even though they dont want to ( maybe it's true i dont know) i just dont want to think about her anymore and focus on my studying to prove she's wrong.

gosh sometimes i dreamed about him and it's always the same story: i tried to get to him or get his attention but he always refused and told me " we cant be together". those dreams were very scary and haunted me for days. and it's like my brain is trying to tell me this is not gonna work. we have so many differences. maybe when i'm more stable i will try to work this out

Sorry you're going through all this - it must be really hard. I truly hope it gets better for you soon.

You mentioned that you stopped going and talking to your therapist. Do you think it would be easier to talk to a new therapist? I think it would be worth a try because they're qualified to help people and would help you so much more then the little things we can say to you here. We're all happy to give advice and such here but I think you would really benefit talking to a psychologist/therapist.

Anyway - good luck with everything and I do hope things get better for you

 

thank you. i just feel very uncomfortable talking face to face. maybe i'll go to a new therapist soon, it's very difficult to find a good therapist in my country because i think our people still take this problem very lightly

thank you. i just feel very uncomfortable talking face to face. maybe i'll go to a new therapist soon, it's very difficult to find a good therapist in my country because i think our people still take this problem very lightly

 

I can understand that. I find it hard to talk face to face with people about things that are so personal and emotional too...

it might be hard but another idea would be to sit down with your parents and just talk to them. Tell them exactly how your feeling, thank them for all they've done for you etc - If nothing else maybe it'll just make it easier for everyone to understand how your feeling. You could always write it out like a letter and give it to them if it's too hard to speak to them directly.

I know this probably sounds weird but I'm just thinking that it might help to get your thoughts out, and when other people know them then it's easier for them to help you. It also just helps clear your head for a bit, get things off your chest and help you to think clearly for a while too. Talking on this forum may be having a similar effect too...

hope you find something that helps

I can understand that. I find it hard to talk face to face with people about things that are so personal and emotional too...

it might be hard but another idea would be to sit down with your parents and just talk to them. Tell them exactly how your feeling, thank them for all they've done for you etc - If nothing else maybe it'll just make it easier for everyone to understand how your feeling. You could always write it out like a letter and give it to them if it's too hard to speak to them directly.

I know this probably sounds weird but I'm just thinking that it might help to get your thoughts out, and when other people know them then it's easier for them to help you. It also just helps clear your head for a bit, get things off your chest and help you to think clearly for a while too. Talking on this forum may be having a similar effect too...

hope you find something that helps

 

i'm not good with the talking-to-parents thing, i hardly talk to them about those problems and i dont think they can understand because they have never got through things like this. that's why talking to you guys is so much more comfortable because we've all been there

i know exactly how you feel..... depression is really a hard thing to fight....add acne and bipolar???? just great....

i was diagnosed 5 months ago with MDD and Bipolar disorder.....

i still don't reveal my true thoughts and feelings with my family...i've stopped talking to my friends, don't want to go out of the house, can't find a job....

just a week ago when i went at my cousin's house coz both my brother and my cousin were chatting online with relatives from the US.

my little nephew who was there at that time said to me "they're talking about you"

and then my older brother said to my aunt and cousin online "i mean look at her"...

i immediately shut off and maybe that showed on my face coz next thing i hear my brother saying "are you being bipolar again?"

i had to get out....i walked out on them.... went back home..... inside the bathroom...turned the faucet on and started crying my eyes out........

like i really needed to be reminded of my Acne and Bipolar.... I hate myself enough already as it is....

am i crazy to think that sometimes i can't even trust my own family?.....

i know exactly how you feel..... depression is really a hard thing to fight....add acne and bipolar???? just great....

i was diagnosed 5 months ago with MDD and Bipolar disorder.....

i still don't reveal my true thoughts and feelings with my family...i've stopped talking to my friends, don't want to go out of the house, can't find a job....

just a week ago when i went at my cousin's house coz both my brother and my cousin were chatting online with relatives from the US.

my little nephew who was there at that time said to me "they're talking about you"

and then my older brother said to my aunt and cousin online "i mean look at her"...

i immediately shut off and maybe that showed on my face coz next thing i hear my brother saying "are you being bipolar again?"

i had to get out....i walked out on them.... went back home..... inside the bathroom...turned the faucet on and started crying my eyes out........

like i really needed to be reminded of my Acne and Bipolar.... I hate myself enough already as it is....

am i crazy to think that sometimes i can't even trust my own family?.....

 

I'm so sorry to hear that. I think my sister still doesn't believe I have a mental condition and still thinks I'm just a bitch. But I try my best to keep ignorant people like that out of my mind. I actually cry a lot these days and just scream out of the blue. I have to take new medication because the one I was taking didn't work out so well. It's really sad because now I'm starting to think that pills won't help me. My parents are really worried and my dad has been a big help, he actually hugged me and calmed me down when I was losing it. But still they can't really understand what we've been through. I just have the idea that I don't really live life, I just try to survive day by day because I have responsibilities for taking care of my parents. Maybe when they're gone I would commit suicide too.

i know exactly how you feel..... depression is really a hard thing to fight....add acne and bipolar???? just great....

i was diagnosed 5 months ago with MDD and Bipolar disorder.....

i still don't reveal my true thoughts and feelings with my family...i've stopped talking to my friends, don't want to go out of the house, can't find a job....

just a week ago when i went at my cousin's house coz both my brother and my cousin were chatting online with relatives from the US.

my little nephew who was there at that time said to me "they're talking about you"

and then my older brother said to my aunt and cousin online "i mean look at her"...

i immediately shut off and maybe that showed on my face coz next thing i hear my brother saying "are you being bipolar again?"

i had to get out....i walked out on them.... went back home..... inside the bathroom...turned the faucet on and started crying my eyes out........

like i really needed to be reminded of my Acne and Bipolar.... I hate myself enough already as it is....

am i crazy to think that sometimes i can't even trust my own family?.....

 

I'm so sorry to hear that. I think my sister still doesn't believe I have a mental condition and still thinks I'm just a bitch. But I try my best to keep ignorant people like that out of my mind. I actually cry a lot these days and just scream out of the blue. I have to take new medication because the one I was taking didn't work out so well. It's really sad because now I'm starting to think that pills won't help me. My parents are really worried and my dad has been a big help, he actually hugged me and calmed me down when I was losing it. But still they can't really understand what we've been through. I just have the idea that I don't really live life, I just try to survive day by day because I have responsibilities for taking care of my parents. Maybe when they're gone I would commit suicide too.

 

i feel the same...i also feel like i'm just barely surviving everyday but i'm not living my life....like my heart my mind and my soul are shattered into a million pieces and that every second i'm sinking deeper and deeper, drowning in my own blackhole and no one can help me .. i have had suicidal thoughts as well, somehow i always end up fantasizing about jumping off a bridge or a cliff or something......

but i've decided not to do it... i can't do that to my dad..... and i think if my mom saw me in heaven too early she would kill me even if i'm already dead...haha

sooo please...please....live by every single day....... we are all here for you........... never give up...... hold my hand and i'll hold yours so tightly..... never let go...besides all the hurt, pain......

we will see the light at then end of this journey.... keep Fighting!!!