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For the past week or two my skin has been shittier again. Well, I obviously know why: I've become lenient towards my diet and skincare routine. Hell, I wanted a bit of break from of it all but now it's kind of become an addiction. I don't want to stop. I find great pleasure and comfort in hiding my face from the world, while I continue to binge on junk food and sweets, sleep 12 hours a day without washing my face in the morning and just half-assingly spraying some water on my face at night. It feels so nice... but the side effects are so terrible. I wish I could be normal like most people. I wish my skin would go back to acting like when I was a kid. You could just eat sweets all day and rinse your face with water once every 2 days and your skin would always remain perfect and clear and even. Goddamn genetics and hormones...
f*ing sad.
the acne has returned, except now with rosacea (diagnosed yesterday)... yet it's so ironic, because i don't see ppl in public that have any of these symptoms?!?!?! beautiful skin is everywhere.... walking around me, passing me by everyday. even in old photos of myself.......this life should have come with a rewind or fast forward button....... because it's really hard to be in the present moment sometimes.
i miss.... 
I'm feeling better about my face! A lot more confident actually! After my past two years in school with my acne things are finally slowly starting to clear. In fact I'm not thinking about my acne anymore, I'm thinking how can I get rid of these scars? Which I would pick any day over actual zits. 
My blackheads are also GONE which for me was a big confidence destroyer and I never wanted to get close to people (not even powder could cover them).
So yeah, today I'm feeling good! I'm getting rid of my scars. I hardly get a pimple anymore. I havn't had a full blown breakout in weeks. And I have been able to eat what I want without worry (I spluged and had a Cherry limeaid at Sonic after my run! ;P) I'm loving life!
Bad. Very bad! Well, my skin wasn't especially broken out - pimple on the right of my face and on my chin - but I've made a right mess of it. Don't know what's been wrong with me over the last 24 hours but I've picked the hell out of it. Now it's red, sore and it hurts.
I was supposed to be going out tonight but now I've totally wimped out, sat at home alone.
I can't go out, no way, I'm supposed to be presenting a music event and pretty much be seen by everyone under bright lights. Not only have I let myself down here, I've actually let other people down. Made my excuses and things are being taken care of at the event so it's not major as far as they're concerned, but all the same, I'm feeling quite pathetic right now. 
48 hours ago, my skin looked as good as it's looked for a few years, then all of a sudden... bang!
Even after all this time I can't for the life of me figure out why it changes so suddenly, and equally, I must be pretty slow not to have figured out that I'm my own worst enemy and I should just leave it alone!
So, as far as how I deal with my acne is concerned, I'm not feeling good at all. In fact, today, I think I've reached a new low. 
Some 13 hours after I pretty much popped anything and everything in sight, it's all scabbed and sore, looks far worse than it every would have, no doubt I've caused damage when I just didn't need to, and of course I have some more pimples to go with it.
Same old Tuesday morning for me, pretty much part of my weekly cycle. The fact that there is a cycle, and that I can see it, yet just carry on is stupid.
If I don't have anything to do over the weekend, which is usually the case, I spend the whole time at home, where of course, there are mirrors. On Friday night I had one pimple. By Saturday morning I had two. By Saturday night I had those two pimples and about about five others that I'd manage to find, pop and make a mess off. By Sunday night it was about seven, and now there are about ten than I've found and turned into big red lumps or scabs.
So, true to form, this is the part of the week where my face looks absolutely gross, with all manner of red marks, angry lumps, and sore scabs. In comparison, I don‚„t think I‚„d mind if they looked like pimples and you could tell that I had acne, because it looks far worse when it‚„s all inflamed, cut and scabbed. So true to form, this is the part of the week where I now have to suffer through pretty much every minute of four working days until I can hide away for the weekend.
That's another week wasted, to go with perhaps all but two of the weeks we have had so far this year. I can actually see that every day is passing me by and I don't want to be part of it. Or rather, I don't want to be that way, but I can't seem to be able to fix it.
I did think I was making progress, and I was helped by the good mood I was in at the end of last week when my skin was OK. I went out with friends and, even though it's essentially like getting to know them all over again because it's so rare that I go out with them, it was fun and I was happy. Then I'm right back to where I was before, if not worse, only a few days later.
Eh not the best day but not the worst. These random break outs are starting to subside just enough to where my makeup doesn't look all bumpy, but I still know that they're there. I put Mario Badescu healing cream on it last night and it seems to be taking thwm down a bit. I start a new job next week I'm praying to be clear by then 
I'm feeling ok...content. Mixed emotions Acne has improved, but I'm getting very tiny pimples here and there. I'm just feeling a little bit worried that I have not seen a reduction in oil, supposedly while on spiro my face should be drying....... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm 
. I am a little excited to see the dermatologist tomorrow and see what he say's or changes w/ my regimen. I've been following his instrucitons faithfully.
Seem to have broken my weekly cycle. My skin usually goes crazy at the weekend but this week it's only resulted in one new pimple so that's cool. Usually by today/Tuesday, it's a mess.
Got some other emotional stuff going on today though so think I just need to relax and hope the stress doesn't cause any problems, or more importantly that I don't decide to take the stress out on my skin, which is what usually happens.
Those "favourite spots" are the worst for the biggest most painful pimples aren't they.
Every now and then I'll get one on my cheek bone and I know it's going to be massive. Hurt like hell because they're right on the bone.
Bang in the centre of my chin is another annoying place. Sure to get a huge pimple there from time to time, makes it hurt whenever I laugh or smile which is no fun at all.
Personally, I'm pleased to say my skin's looking alright. Been taking extra vitamins and things the last two weeks, reduced the amount of products I use, and I'm trying my best not to pick or to pop pimples. It's working very slowly, but it's definitely working. I‚„m reasonably happy right now.
I was out last night watching a couple of bands. I'm a photographer and they invited me along to take pictures. Hate planning ahead for stuff like that because I know that when the times comes, if my skin's bad, I have to decide between going along as planned and suffering, or making an excuse and letting them down so I can hide away at home. Either way it's a horrible position to be in.
But I only have three pimples and although I can't help but pay attention to them, I just thought, "Fuck you, pimples, I'm going out!" 
Had a great night and I know that if I can keep my skin like this or better, there's no real reason why I can't carry on improving my confidence and keep going out on a regular basis.
Even got chatting to a few girls at the bar which was nice. Sure, they were interested in the photography rather than me specifically, but they were happy to stay and chat and I was happy to do the same. Was cool. To anyone who has never had to deal with this sort of this thing, they'd probably tell us to get a grip and wouldn't be able to see what the big deal is.
But we all know what it's like, feeling as though we can't go out if it's bad, or that whenever we do, people will only see our skin. It's tough to get over that.
Recently (like the past week) my chin has become a mess. Two cysts, and a pustule, not to mention all the non-inflamed crap.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?
I guess I was just getting too used to having clear-ish skin. BLECH.
Now I don't want to go to the gym, because I don't wear makeup while I work out, and the lights there are so bright, and there are mirrors everywhere. Blah.
Normally I'm so confident, and I'm the one telling other people to be confident.
Right now I feel like such a hypocrite. 
It's only natural that you'd be annoyed with the breakout. If you've been getting used to having clear skin and you thought you were past it, a new breakout hits you twice as hard emotionally; first because you have to deal with the breakout, and second because it might feel like a backwards step and kind of throws you off a bit. But try not to worry too much or do anything drastic to get rid of it. It will pass.
And as far as being "hypocritical" is concerned, you're not. Don't worry about that. And anyway, it's always far easier to offer support from outside a situation than it is to take your own advice. We never do. I know that most of the time, I hardly ever take my own advice! 
Recently (like the past week) my chin has become a mess. Two cysts, and a pustule, not to mention all the non-inflamed crap.
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?
I guess I was just getting too used to having clear-ish skin. BLECH.
Now I don't want to go to the gym, because I don't wear makeup while I work out, and the lights there are so bright, and there are mirrors everywhere. Blah.
Normally I'm so confident, and I'm the one telling other people to be confident.
Right now I feel like such a hypocrite.
It's only natural that you'd be annoyed with the breakout. If you've been getting used to having clear skin and you thought you were past it, a new breakout hits you twice as hard emotionally; first because you have to deal with the breakout, and second because it might feel like a backwards step and kind of throws you off a bit. But try not to worry too much or do anything drastic to get rid of it. It will pass.
And as far as being "hypocritical" is concerned, you're not. Don't worry about that. And anyway, it's always far easier to offer support from outside a situation than it is to take your own advice. We never do. I know that most of the time, I hardly ever take my own advice!
Awww. Thanks. Yeah, it's definitely easier to tell someone else to do something than to actually do it yourself. Haha.
It's only natural that you'd be annoyed with the breakout. If you've been getting used to having clear skin and you thought you were past it, a new breakout hits you twice as hard emotionally; first because you have to deal with the breakout, and second because it might feel like a backwards step and kind of throws you off a bit. But try not to worry too much or do anything drastic to get rid of it. It will pass.
And as far as being "hypocritical" is concerned, you're not. Don't worry about that. And anyway, it's always far easier to offer support from outside a situation than it is to take your own advice. We never do. I know that most of the time, I hardly ever take my own advice!
Awww. Thanks. Yeah, it's definitely easier to tell someone else to do something than to actually do it yourself. Haha.
I know the feeling! My skin was lookin' fairly decent a few weeks ago and now it's a mess [like always, up down, up down] and I'm mad and annoyed, I then feel hypocritical about not wanting to leave the house, but I've gotta do what I've gotta do. Oh acne, it surely messes us up mentally! xD
I'm feeling terrible. Only a week ago my skin was passably 'Ok'. Now I've broken out all over my face. Even the areas where there's no spots are patchy and bright red. I've no idea what's caused this. I don't think my skins been so bad since before I took accutance.
I'm sorry! .. so are you off Accutane now?
Im Sooooooo damn HOT!!!!
Not really...i'm so bumbed out and depressed (sighing)![=]](https://static.acne.org/ipb_uploads/emoticons/default_sideways.gif)