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Meh, feel like shit. I have been feeling like shit for the past 3 months. Been on Minocycline 100mg/day and it kept me clear for 5 months. Started getting a few breakouts later but controlled it. Changed my diet to control it. Decided to wean off Mino 3 weeks ago. Got a bad chin breakout this week (around 8 pustules).
I feel ugly, my self confidence is back to square one and I have no idea what to do. I am doing an internship right now and can't imagine going like this to work on Monday. I don't get paid for days off so I can't take that week off for depression and stuff. I will be going back to school in September and will have to face my crush with these pustules on my face. Will probably try hiding from her. Don't know. Very close to going on another antibiotic like keflex or bactrim but don't want to go down that route again. Will they even work? I don't know I am just so confused and scared that no other antibiotic will work for me so I don't even have a "last resort" option. Well there is accutane but dammit i don't want to go on it.
I woke up on Friday and had 4 pustules that were gradually going away and I was like I can deal with this. Went to work..around 930 am decided to go to the washroom to check up on my face. Noticed like 4-5 more pustules forming. Had to present that day. Just took half day and went back home early.
I woke up this morning and thought about stuff. Like okay, antibiotics are bad for you and I have realized that..but if it keeps me happy, and reduced my life by like 5 years, its still worth it, right? Later on, when I am older, I can look back at life and be happy. Also, I realized that maybe I should take a new antibiotc for a few months and in a month and by the time I decided to go off them again, I will be back in uni and with my family. It will be easier to take days off and try alternative cures..So, I almost made up my mind that if I have to spend another week with these pustules on my face, I am going to get another antibiotic so that I can be happy again for sometime and make this transition from work back to uni and be with my family and not feel depressed alone here
I hate my skin right now, more than I ever have before but i'm not angry about it. It is what it is. I have been out everyday since it has worsened and that lack of isolation has helped my state of mind tremendously. I need to get on an acne regimen ASAP as it is worsening but i've done most if not all that is available.....between a rock and hard place
<p>I've been having a good week and feeling better. The Regimen + AHA + Zinc + D3 + low sugar plan is working (just not looking forward to aunt flo which always brings a few nodules and ruins the good luck streak).</p>
<p>I haven't had a zit in a few weeks which is rare. My hyperpigmentation is still super obvious though. I can see my bright cherry red marks contrasted against my super pale skin from many feet away from the mirror. I am looking forward to the day I can finally go without makeup....it'll save time and money.</p>
<p>I don't have the guts to do that now because everyone will notice the drastic change from the (made up) flawless skin to the heavily scarred skin.I honestly don't have the strength to put up with the enevitable rude comments like "whoa what happened to your face". I do start a new job in a few weeks though. I was thinking of starting with no makeup so I won't get the second glances and "what happened?" questions if they get used to seeing me in makeup.</p>
<p>Makeup doesn't seem to make things worse, but at this point I want to eliminate it because it can't be a good thing for my skin. Who knows, maybe the AHA will eventually fade the red scars.</p>
<p>I'm seriously terrified of going without makeup. The few times I bit the bullet and tried, I received soooo many rude comments from strangers and acquantances that made me cry myself to sleep. </p>
My Paula's Choice BHA samples arrived, I'm still unsure whether I'm going to use them or not. I'm so looking forward to the 12th of august so I can finally get these clogged pores removed. I took effaclar duo out of my routine since I don't have redness anymore and the pore unclogging aspect of it doesn't work for me anyways. Scrubbing helps to exfoliate my skin but it also makes the clogged pores more visible... It always gets worse before it gets better... *sigh*
My mood comes with ups and downs and today is a down. My life goal is to start a nice, happy family, but my skin constantly makes me ask myself 'why would you be good enough for anyone?'. It's difficult at the moment, I like someone but I don't know how she feels about my skin and even if she doesn't care then I'll still think that she deserves someone better.
I'm still very young (19 soon), but I'm worried about these things. Acne held me back from being social in my teens, it's up to me now to change things around, but I'm not sure if I'm capable of doing that.
My Paula's Choice BHA samples arrived, I'm still unsure whether I'm going to use them or not. I'm so looking forward to the 12th of august so I can finally get these clogged pores removed. I took effaclar duo out of my routine since I don't have redness anymore and the pore unclogging aspect of it doesn't work for me anyways. Scrubbing helps to exfoliate my skin but it also makes the clogged pores more visible... It always gets worse before it gets better... *sigh*
My mood comes with ups and downs and today is a down. My life goal is to start a nice, happy family, but my skin constantly makes me ask myself 'why would you be good enough for anyone?'. It's difficult at the moment, I like someone but I don't know how she feels about my skin and even if she doesn't care then I'll still think that she deserves someone better.
I'm still very young (19 soon), but I'm worried about these things. Acne held me back from being social in my teens, it's up to me now to change things around, but I'm not sure if I'm capable of doing that.
You remind me of me so much.
The reality of laser resurfacing down the road seems like a reality. Seeing all the old scars resurface with fat volume loss from age and stress on my chin makes me argh. Will I ever want my picture taken or feel worthy of admiration again? When can I accept that I'll never look like an airbrushed 19 yr old? Typing that looked so ridiculous, I feel a little better.
For you teens above, don't pick! See an aesthetician and get informed about mild peels and diet changes and do not let this interfere with your dreams and other interests!
The reality of laser resurfacing down the road seems like a reality. Seeing all the old scars resurface with fat volume loss from age and stress on my chin makes me argh. Will I ever want my picture taken or feel worthy of admiration again? When can I accept that I'll never look like an airbrushed 19 yr old? Typing that looked so ridiculous, I feel a little better.
For you teens above, don't pick! See an aesthetician and get informed about mild peels and diet changes and do not let this interfere with your dreams and other interests!
Believe me, I'll be 19 in 10 days, we aren't all airbrushed.
I'm already on a diet and I can't just get any decent peeling since I'm coming off accutane. I'm getting one anyways, but it's supervised by a dermatologist so I guess I'll just trust her. Doing one by myself seems like a stupid idea in my situation.
I woke up feeling kinda 'meh' about it. Better than the last days, but still feeling down and neglecting everything other than my skin.
However it changed when I decided to update my skin diary. I took some pictures and one of them really showed these clogged pores. I feel disgusting. My skin is deteriorating and there's nothing I can do about it. Accutane didn't cure me apparently. I'm closer to giving up than I've ever been.
I think I'm just going to avoid people until I can get help on the 12th. I've placed all my faith in that peeling/derm appointment. If it fails... Well, I don't know what I'm going to do then but it won't good...
These are the pictures [Edited link out] the last one really shows the problem. (and yes I know that I need to shave and get a haircut, but at the moment I don't have the energy for it.)
Blahhh. I was babysitting for a family member and the kid just turned four, so I was reading a bedtime story and at the end when i was saying good night she turned to me and said "Uncle why is your face so weird?"..Like ouch, I honestly think it looks better than it did.But now I just feel like shit again, I know she is just a kid but it still hurts ya know?
Hello everybody.
After taking antibiotics i've been somewhat clear for the last year or so, but now my acne has come back all over my chin and forehead.
During this year i havent had to care about acne at all, so i returned to my old life, partying everyday, smoking everything i had near me, eating all kind of unhealthy foods, the college life to the extreme, to the point i started not to give a damn about my appearance (i even got a couple tattoos, and im supossed to be a lawyer), and i guess my acne came back slowly.
But after failling most asignatures i have realised i need to change my life, and this morning, when i was trying to dress up like a good boy, combing my hair etc etc. i looked at the mirror and saw what a year of unhealthy living did to my skin. My chin is right now all red everything, and my forehead is full of red marks and little spots.
Im so depressed that i needed to vent, thats why im telling yall this.
Thank you for reading and excuse my english.
On 7/29/2014 at 9:16 PM, scco said:I woke up feeling kinda 'meh' about it. Better than the last days, but still feeling down and neglecting everything other than my skin.
However it changed when I decided to update my skin diary. I took some pictures and one of them really showed these clogged pores. I feel disgusting. My skin is deteriorating and there's nothing I can do about it. Accutane didn't cure me apparently. I'm closer to giving up than I've ever been.
I think I'm just going to avoid people until I can get help on the 12th. I've placed all my faith in that peeling/derm appointment. If it fails... Well, I don't know what I'm going to do then but it won't good...
These are the pictures [Edited link out] the last one really shows the problem. (and yes I know that I need to shave and get a haircut, but at the moment I don't have the energy for it.)
Your skin actually looks really good from your pics. I advise that you still get out and live even with acne. This past month and a half has been horrendous acne wise but i've been out everyday and its been great! You can't base your happiness level on your skin as it may never get to the level you want. Clogged pores are hard to treat but they ca be treated (and accutane for the most part does not do much for these )
Wait for your appt and see what happens, don't try too many things in the mean time and go out and live
Also, if your skin can deal, retin a is good for that sort of thing and you shouldn't purge as much due to the accutane.
Sorry scco but you can't complain. Your skin is great.
At the moment it's not that terrible, but this is exactly how my acne started before, little clogged pores pop out of nowhere and after a few weeks they all decide to inflame at the same time. I just get anxious that it's all going to start all over again.
I'm the kind of person who's more obsessed over the details than over the bigger picture. I could deal with the real acne, it certainly affected me (but a whole lot less) but these smaller blemishes drive me insane.
I'm feeling better today. I've thrown all my acne stuff in the back of my closet except for my face wash. It wasn't doing anything anyways and felt relieving.
I've been considering getting a buzz cut for a while now, symbolic to a fresh start, I could use one right now.
Seeing myself in the mirror today was like being punched in the vagina.
Thought it was getting better (
Thats how I feel whenever I look in a mirror in public. I can look in the mirror at home and say "Hey I don't look so bad today".Then I go out in public and I notice people looking at me and I look in a mirror either in the store or in my car and its like I'm looking at a map of mountains and valleys.
Don't you hate it when you're hanging out with a group of people and one person decides to make wise cracks about your acne out loud in front of everyone?....and even better when the rest of the people just give each other awkward side glances or sly smiles instead of sticking up for you?
Hi everyone... I agree, we all have to live with acne and the demons that come with it, and not let it hold us back. Today my skin turned bumpy on one side of my face, I got a few hard bumps I haven't had in months, and it was rough. I'm positive they will go down though, I just need to get back on track with healthy eating because my skin looks decent apart from that little patch of red bumps.
Today I did something very embarrassing. I sent a photo of my acne to my boyfriend, and of course he said it doesn't look bad or infected (even though I picked and made things worse). This showed me that I'm finally with a genuine person who appreciates me for me, and the best part is that he doesn't think less of me in any way. Too bad he is leaving in 4 days and I might never see him again 
I picked some things that were healing well, had a surge of flaking skin in the usual place. I feel like I'll never be back to normal, that this is the worst I've ever injured my face over the past several months. All I see is uneven texture. I brought everything going on that's bad in my life myself with my f----ng skin.
On 7/30/2014 at 8:56 PM, timetomoveon said:On 7/27/2014 at 4:24 AM, Olivia94 said:Seeing myself in the mirror today was like being punched in the vagina.
Thought it was getting better [Edited link out]
Thats how I feel whenever I look in a mirror in public. I can look in the mirror at home and say "Hey I don't look so bad today".Then I go out in public and I notice people looking at me and I look in a mirror either in the store or in my car and its like I'm looking at a map of mountains and valleys.
Exactly. A big low blow 
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i woke up with the worst skin ive had in a year or so, acne is now present in my chin, jawline and forehead.
Not wearing contact lenses just so i dont have to look at the mirror.
If i try to dress up properly, i look like a nerd all skinny and with acne, so i have to go around showing off tattoos and looking like pete doherty at his worst