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Hahahahaha, well my face is clear, but I come here for the LOLs.

Too tired to care ATM

MgX - you should see a doctor if its not improving

My skin is breaking out quite a lot this week - they're really red and noticeable too :/ And a couple are a little painful

I'm annoyed because I'd signed up to do a fun run this weekend with some girls from uni and now the idea of going out in public without makeup, when my skin is looking worse than it has been, is really making me want to not do it... It's pointless to wear makeup when you know you'll be spending most of the day in the sun exercising.

So I'm hoping it at least calms down a little by the event day. And that I can somehow be confident enough for the day - forget what I look like and go out and enjoy it.

My skin is breaking out quite a lot this week - they're really red and noticeable too :/ And a couple are a little painful

I'm annoyed because I'd signed up to do a fun run this weekend with some girls from uni and now the idea of going out in public without makeup, when my skin is looking worse than it has been, is really making me want to not do it... It's pointless to wear makeup when you know you'll be spending most of the day in the sun exercising.

So I'm hoping it at least calms down a little by the event day. And that I can somehow be confident enough for the day - forget what I look like and go out and enjoy it.

Go and have fun. Once i'm out and away from the damn mirror, its like my acne is someone else's problem. Let yourself have this moment.

Broke out in 3-4 inflammed pimples on my right inner cheek. Inflammed acne on forehead and right mouth/jaw area. Wanted to start my topicals tonight but decided to hell with it. Gonna hold out a little longer (ideally i'd want to wait till June 30th but something tells me my will power is not that strong. Feel anxious as all hell

 

My skin is breaking out quite a lot this week - they're really red and noticeable too :/ And a couple are a little painful

I'm annoyed because I'd signed up to do a fun run this weekend with some girls from uni and now the idea of going out in public without makeup, when my skin is looking worse than it has been, is really making me want to not do it... It's pointless to wear makeup when you know you'll be spending most of the day in the sun exercising.

So I'm hoping it at least calms down a little by the event day. And that I can somehow be confident enough for the day - forget what I look like and go out and enjoy it.

Go and have fun. Once i'm out and away from the damn mirror, its like my acne is someone else's problem. Let yourself have this moment.

 

 

Broke out in 3-4 inflammed pimples on my right inner cheek. Inflammed acne on forehead and right mouth/jaw area. Wanted to start my topicals tonight but decided to hell with it. Gonna hold out a little longer (ideally i'd want to wait till June 30th but something tells me my will power is not that strong. Feel anxious as all hell

Thanks for the encouragement Sasch.

The run was today and I'm glad I went. It was a lot of fun. I knew how I looked wouldn't matter especially because after doing a 5k course you're going to look a mess but also because it was the colour run so you're completely covered in coloured powder by the end. Such a mess and it'll be interesting to see if my skin reacts to it in the next few days. But I'm going to keep in mind that it was worth it to get out and have fun with friends and get some good exercise done.

I was also happy with myself for leaving the house with no makeup and being fine with it. Maybe I'll be able to start doing that for uni most days too...

To my surprise most of the girls I did the event with actually did wear some sort of makeup - not that they needed it of course. (Maybe it goes to show the 'reliance' / 'security blanket' effect makeup has on a lot of women - even those who have gorgeous skin and looks without it).

Hope your skin calms down soon Sasch. Don't rush into the topicals if you don't feel ready for them or like your skin will 'cope' with them. Maybe use this time to really focus on the emotional / mental health aspect of acne and 'repairing' that. Might help with the anxious feeling too. I've been trying more meditation type things lately which could be something to keep in mind

 

My skin is breaking out quite a lot this week - they're really red and noticeable too :/ And a couple are a little painful

I'm annoyed because I'd signed up to do a fun run this weekend with some girls from uni and now the idea of going out in public without makeup, when my skin is looking worse than it has been, is really making me want to not do it... It's pointless to wear makeup when you know you'll be spending most of the day in the sun exercising.

So I'm hoping it at least calms down a little by the event day. And that I can somehow be confident enough for the day - forget what I look like and go out and enjoy it.

Go and have fun. Once i'm out and away from the damn mirror, its like my acne is someone else's problem. Let yourself have this moment.

 

 

Broke out in 3-4 inflammed pimples on my right inner cheek. Inflammed acne on forehead and right mouth/jaw area. Wanted to start my topicals tonight but decided to hell with it. Gonna hold out a little longer (ideally i'd want to wait till June 30th but something tells me my will power is not that strong. Feel anxious as all hell

Thanks for the encouragement Sasch.

The run was today and I'm glad I went. It was a lot of fun. I knew how I looked wouldn't matter especially because after doing a 5k course you're going to look a mess but also because it was the colour run so you're completely covered in coloured powder by the end. Such a mess and it'll be interesting to see if my skin reacts to it in the next few days. But I'm going to keep in mind that it was worth it to get out and have fun with friends and get some good exercise done.

I was also happy with myself for leaving the house with no makeup and being fine with it. Maybe I'll be able to start doing that for uni most days too...

To my surprise most of the girls I did the event with actually did wear some sort of makeup - not that they needed it of course. (Maybe it goes to show the 'reliance' / 'security blanket' effect makeup has on a lot of women - even those who have gorgeous skin and looks without it).

Hope your skin calms down soon Sasch. Don't rush into the topicals if you don't feel ready for them or like your skin will 'cope' with them. Maybe use this time to really focus on the emotional / mental health aspect of acne and 'repairing' that. Might help with the anxious feeling too. I've been trying more meditation type things lately which could be something to keep in mind

The important thing is that you went and had an awesome time. Every time we treat ourselves well, that's a loss for acne.

My eczema is totally gone but it is fear of bringing it back that is keeping me from using it. I also am interested in seeing what my true acne may look like without treatment (scary thought). After speaking to someone on the holistic boards, i also want to try the diet things again by way of an elimination diet starting with just fish, veggies and sweet potatoes. Restrictive, i know but i am running out of options. I can't have my skin go back to the way it was in summer 2011 and summer 2012 (how i wish the regimen was still an option as it helped my skin soooooo much). The good news is that I have the support of God on my side so i know i am never alone in this struggle. Also, i have you wonderful folks from the org. Lastly, my newest derm seems like a sweet woman who is willing to work with me. She has emailed me twice to check up on how i'm doing with my skin so i'm happy about that. Besides all that, my life is going well. I guess i just need to be more patient.

Acne worsening daily....feeling discouraged. Feeling like a big failure. Wish i had someone in my life to talk to

Today is an ok day. My skin is flared up a tad bit more than usual due to PMS, but it's not toooo bad. I'm enjoying my last day off work and hope this calms down a little by tomorrow.

Has not been the best skin week. Monday was bad. First time I can think of ever missing something like school / uni because of how I felt about my skin. I've avoided some social things over the years because of it, and felt like taking the day off school / uni but never actually did it until monday. I had all intentions of forcing myself to go thinking that once I was out of the house I'd be fine like usual but I wasn't - don't know exactly what it was about that day (hormones maybe?). I was feeling more negative than normal getting ready / putting on makeup and was getting more annoyed / upset that even with makeup it still doesn't look nice. Brushed that feeling off as best I could and got in the car to drive to my bus. Got to where I park and couldn't face the idea of going further, I'd already missed one bus and decided the next one would get me there too late (normally I would have still got that one anyway - doesn't make a huge difference to getting to class). Drove home and, for the first time in a long, long time, cried over my skin. Felt terrible. Felt like such and idiot and like a failure somehow. Really the lowest I've felt in a really long time.

Thankfully though I'm feeling much better / normal today (as I was on tuesday too). My skin is actually a bit worse in some ways and a bit better in others in comparison to monday - but it's not getting to me so much which is great.

Have to hang in there and keep on keeping on

Has not been the best skin week. Monday was bad. First time I can think of ever missing something like school / uni because of how I felt about my skin. I've avoided some social things over the years because of it, and felt like taking the day off school / uni but never actually did it until monday. I had all intentions of forcing myself to go thinking that once I was out of the house I'd be fine like usual but I wasn't - don't know exactly what it was about that day (hormones maybe?). I was feeling more negative than normal getting ready / putting on makeup and was getting more annoyed / upset that even with makeup it still doesn't look nice. Brushed that feeling off as best I could and got in the car to drive to my bus. Got to where I park and couldn't face the idea of going further, I'd already missed one bus and decided the next one would get me there too late (normally I would have still got that one anyway - doesn't make a huge difference to getting to class). Drove home and, for the first time in a long, long time, cried over my skin. Felt terrible. Felt like such and idiot and like a failure somehow. Really the lowest I've felt in a really long time.

Thankfully though I'm feeling much better / normal today (as I was on tuesday too). My skin is actually a bit worse in some ways and a bit better in others in comparison to monday - but it's not getting to me so much which is great.

Have to hang in there and keep on keeping on

Chin up hun. We all have those shitty days. I took the day off from work 2 weeks ago because of my skin and eczema flare. Felt like crap for doing it too but i brushed myself off and went to a function the next day, horrible skin and all. This is such a frustrating process but we all have to support each other. If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me You're beautiful with acne, both inside and out.

I woke up with several pea size bright red cysts on my right cheek. Sigh.

I feel utterly defeated. I saw a derm and was hopeful, I was even completely clear for an entire week...now however I have three big red spots, one on my left cheek, one my right and one on my chin. I feel miserable as I was so hopeful but even dianette and Duac can't stop the dreaded pmt breakout.

I know three spots don't sound much but it's just beating me down at the moment

I feel utterly defeated. I saw a derm and was hopeful, I was even completely clear for an entire week...now however I have three big red spots, one on my left cheek, one my right and one on my chin. I feel miserable as I was so hopeful but even dianette and Duac can't stop the dreaded pmt breakout.

I know three spots don't sound much but it's just beating me down at the moment

Don't worry, three spots can be A LOT. Last time I had a serious breakout it was only two cysts only, but it left very deep scars that will need fillers.

Have you tried changing your bp? Diane, which is similar to Dianette, didn't clear me up at all. Yasmin + Spiro did amazing job. Maybe try changing, if you haven't tried this combo yet?

I woke up & was irritated as my facial hair got to long (I can normally only suffer 4 days of growth before I need to trim my beard) but could see underneath my beard that my face was kinda red today because of acne. I had no choice, I had to shave it off and afterwards surprise surprise the facial acne got very irrritated. I hate having to shave! I went to the pharmacy today & bought 'Basiron Gel 5%' which contains benzoyl peroxid (supposed to be very good for acne), I have not tried any medical treatment before. I am currently using everyday the Clinique anti-blemish facial products, seems to work in patches.

 

I feel utterly defeated. I saw a derm and was hopeful, I was even completely clear for an entire week...now however I have three big red spots, one on my left cheek, one my right and one on my chin. I feel miserable as I was so hopeful but even dianette and Duac can't stop the dreaded pmt breakout.

I know three spots don't sound much but it's just beating me down at the moment

Don't worry, three spots can be A LOT. Last time I had a serious breakout it was only two cysts only, but it left very deep scars that will need fillers.

Have you tried changing your bp? Diane, which is similar to Dianette, didn't clear me up at all. Yasmin + Spiro did amazing job. Maybe try changing, if you haven't tried this combo yet?

Thanks for understanding, I am in my 3rd month of Dianette and have a 6 month course but if there is no improvement by then Yasmin is the next step. I'm just sick of spots...all my confidence disappears as soon as I breakout and no amount of make up or distracting myself helps...it doesn't help that none if my friends or family get spots so they don't understand and I feel a lesser person than all of them

Feeling ok about my face today. I couldn't tell you how bad it is cause i have been avoiding mirrors but it feels like crap. With that said, not having to see the bumps calms my anxiety. I mean i know i have acne, why the need to confirm it with my eyes. I start aspects of my diet change sometime this weekend with full implementation by June 30th when i begin my summer vacation. Not expecting much but at the very least, it will help me to be healthier on the inside. Trying to stay positive even when everything inside of me feels like doing the opposite.

Feeling okay today two of my friends at work complimented me on how my makeup looked nice.

Woke up to a few more small spots, feeling deflated and like giving up. I hate having to go to work and do the school run looking like crap, plus my cousin is coming to visit this weekend and I'm dreading her seeing my face how it is. I just feel so negative when my skin is bad

Feeling ok about my face today. I couldn't tell you how bad it is cause i have been avoiding mirrors but it feels like crap. With that said, not having to see the bumps calms my anxiety. I mean i know i have acne, why the need to confirm it with my eyes. I start aspects of my diet change sometime this weekend with full implementation by June 30th when i begin my summer vacation. Not expecting much but at the very least, it will help me to be healthier on the inside. Trying to stay positive even when everything inside of me feels like doing the opposite.

Thanks for the support re. my post the other day I appreciate it

Really like the point you made there about knowing we have acne, so why confirm it with our eyes. In majority of cases it probably just fuels our worry / anxiety over it all.

So the less time in front of a mirror, the better

Good luck with the diet changes too.

<p>I've been covering the side of my face with my hair for the past few days. I know it's not good for my face, but hiding behind my hair is the only thing giving me comfort at the time. It looks like someone jammed a bunch of peas under the skin of my right cheek and I feel hideous.</p>

<p>I would like to go just one day without makeup without getting rude comments. I hate having to always wear this mask.</p>

Feeling really good about my skin, as far as acne goes its finally all gone. I may get a very tiny bump every now and then but it goes away very fast and not noticeable at all So now I am starting to do my own microdermabrasions with a device I bought off Amazon and real dermabrasion crystals that the professionals use at the salons. I have done 2 so far and I have got to say its awesome !!!!!! My skin feels a lot more clean and smooth, over all complection is glowing, I hope over time they will fade out the acne scars I have too .

Am going to beat this scar problem, I am going to reconize myself again like I did 10 years ago.

I am going for RECELL, and be at my best in life.

I am going to work out every day and enjoy the sun.

I will read and I will listen, I will look and I will experience.

I will learn and I will teach. I will seek meaning and beauty

when there is none. I will see light in the darkness.

I will keep walking towards the light and

make the right choices.

I am going to see more of this life, death is not taking me yet.

I am going to stay alive besides depression, anxiety, failure.

I am going to live for my brother and mother.

I am going to watch the earth grow a few years older.

Even if I grow bitter, I'll eat the sweatest pie.

I will express myself and reconise myself again as far as it goes.

One day, dead or alive, these scars are gone. Insinerated by heath.

In the meantime I will make the most out of life and hang on in there.

If after Recell I am still like I am now, without the improvement. Then I'll take my busticket,

take my rest, I'll cremate the scars and say I have tried everything in my power and tried even with suicidal

thoughts for more then 7 years. Not this year, not in 2014.

I am going to eat 2014 like I did 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012, 2013. FFFFFFUUUUUUUUUU scarssssss

I am feeling ok-ish about my acne. I've been on my regimen for exactly one month and have seen some imporvement but not enough for me to be satisfied (but then again i just want acne free skin) My cheeks have so many little dots instaed of many big ones, my cheeks look like i have permanent sunburn from the redness. i was talking to my mom about making my follow appointment and she said I can't see her until August!?

This made me so mad, I was suppose to have a one month checkup but I can't go in because she wants enough time so "changes" can happen ... I don't know why I just got upset...

Today I also have a huge cyst on my chin and my mom told me to use benzoyl peroxide from my brothers perscription , I'm highly allergic to benzoyl peroxide to! Its like she hasn't been living with me for my whole life... Sorry about that rant I just am so done , not with acne but my emotions, hormonal acne is such a struggle going through puberty with hormones changing all the time