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Hang in there! We have all had those days. I know you will get through it, it will be tough, it will suck, but you WILL get through it. I have had many, working from home today, but I know tomorrow I have a huge day and will have to pull it together. Sending you postive thoughts and a big HUG!
Feeling absolutely horrible about this grossness around my mouth as of right now. It's frustrating and I already look pretty bad without it. It's making me not want to go out or do anything, but I have so many responsibilities today. All I want to do is sleep and forget I exist.
Anxious. I have a haircut appointment today after work, and having anyone anywhere near my face gives me the worst stomach churning feeling. I can't stop worrying about her seeing my active bumps and scars I try to hide with makeup. My hairdresser is young and pretty with perfect skin. It's frustrating to see how great her skin looks, but then again I like looking at her. Gives me motivation! A depressed, anxious sort of motivation but I'll take what I can get.
Anxious. I have a haircut appointment today after work, and having anyone anywhere near my face gives me the worst stomach churning feeling. I can't stop worrying about her seeing my active bumps and scars I try to hide with makeup. My hairdresser is young and pretty with perfect skin. It's frustrating to see how great her skin looks, but then again I like looking at her. Gives me motivation! A depressed, anxious sort of motivation but I'll take what I can get.
Yeah haircut is the worst. It seems like they have the harshest lighting and you can see the destruction in full glory.
My face is the clearest it has been in many years. I haven't had a single inflamed pimple or a cyst in such a long time now, my moods are stable and my periods are regular. But I realize I won't be on bcp forever. In about a year or something, I plan to slowly wean off Yasmin at the same time increasing spiro. Spiro's side effects are annoying (frequent wc need and slightly upset stomach sometimes really get on my nerves), but it's better than the blood cloth risk.
Though not having acne makes life so much easier, even with few side-effects. My self-confidence is slowly coming back.
Felt like I was clearing up again today and yesterday, it was great. Then I took a nap on my side and woke up to find two fresh, new pimples right below my mouth. :/ I hope these don't get too big. It's so much worse when you know you did it to yourself. It was just so tempting; I sleep so much better on my side than on my back, I was sick of it.
Thanks for the kind words, this thread is great!
I 've neglected my b.p. treatment the past weeks, i also thought that it was a good idea to see how my skin would do without it. My cheeks and chin are fine but my forehead is filled with small red and skin-colored papules. I 'll start b.p. again, at least on my forehead.. i wanted to avoid (the cost of) microdermabration but i believe that my skin really needs something like that.
It`s been a while since I`ve posted on these forums, there has been lots of things happening in my life of late - hopefully changes for the better.
I`ve been been really ill mentally to the point that in mid January, I had made a plan to end things. It was only after speaking to a CPN after my GP put in an urgent referral for me to a Community Mental Health Team that I was persuaded to not go through with the plan.
It has been a really tough time but I`m starting to feel much better now. One of the really positive things to have come out of this episode is my change of attitude towards my diet and acne. For years I`ve been obsessed with eating healthily due to acne but recently, because I`ve stopped caring, I`ve been eating all kinds of junk. It`s resulted in me putting a stone and a half on in weight but more importantly, my skin isn`t any different really. It has helped me to see that diet doesn`t really have as much bearing on acne as I thought. I need to eat more healthily but in future I won`t completely deny myself and I will try to have some things in moderation.
I have been in a really bad place and I`ve been under the care of a Community Mental Health Team and seeing a CPN. Having had a number of sessions with the CPN and having discussed some of the erratic behaviours I`ve displayed when I`ve been ill, the CPN seems to think that I`ve got some Borderline Personality Disorder traits. I started psychotherapy on Saturday and even after one session, I feel less disgust, shame and self-loathing. It doesn`t condone or make right anything I`ve done wrong in the past but knowing I may have an illness that makes me act in a certain way does help me to accept and understand why I have at times acted irrationally. I don`t deserve to beat myself up for having an illness that makes me act irrationally at times. My illness is not me and it doesn`t define me and I`m sorry but if certain people cannot differentiate between my illness and me as a person, then they are shallow and not worth knowing.
I`ve also been using the time that I`ve got on my hands due to being signed off sick to attend two drop-in groups for people with mental health issues. One is an informal discussion group with an organisation called Depression Alliance and the other is a group called Together which I attend with my cousin and enables people with mental health issues to meet-up to chat, play games, do cookery, do art or any number of other activities. I`m hoping to go back to work after 24/3/2014 but in the meantime, these activities have helped me to interact and speak to people who are like-minded, understand and can empathise. It has been a great help.
I try to limit the amount of time I`m on the internet these days - I`ve made that mistake in the past and it`s really not good for you in the long-term and can really exacerbate any social anxiety that you already have. Ironically, I have however joined up with a website called Mental Earth Community (MEC) and it has been really helpful. I`ve spoken to a few people on there and I`ve managed to make one or two new online friends. In particular, I have been speaking to someone who lives quite close to me. Well to cut a long story short, we both met up for the day today in my home city and had a really nice time. I plan to meet up with her again sometime soon - not only have I made an online friend, I`ve also made a real life friend as well.
All in all things are looking up for me. I`ve been through some shit in the past few months but I think it`s been beneficial to me as I feel I`m growing as a person and it`s also helped me to see the people who really care, don`t use me for emotional support and most importantly don`t judge me for my illness. I don`t really have acne or many hang-ups associated with it these days so although this website has been a help to me in the past and I fully appreciate it, I no longer feel the need to post on here anymore. Significantly, I`ve noticed a number of new faces on here that I haven`t seen before so maybe that`s a sign that it`s time to move on.
I`ll continue to log on as I do chat to one or two people on here via PM but even though I know I`ve said it before, this will definitely be my last ever post. I wish everyone on here who is currently battling acne or any related psychological issues all the best. It can and will get better and in the meantime try to remember that like any other illness, you cannot help having acne. Acne does not define you or make you a lesser person - believe and embrace that for yourselves and anyone who does judge for having acne is not worth knowing.
Take care everyone.
I feel a little frustrated ,with my complexion, at this point. I have made many nutritional adjustments, and I have seen results, but I'm struggling with Hyperpigmentation, red marks and some zits here and there. I gotta keep on trucking, though. It's been quite the ride with acne, But I'm so ready to 'get off the Bus' ...So to speak.
I've been a bit lazy with the regimen in the past week and had decreased the amount of BP I was using - not a good idea. So I'm trying to build back up again but it's not without a bit of dryness. I could feel my skin was quite dry at uni today - and I was just hoping it wasn't looking that bad as I had to be on camera to record an assignment piece. I didn't have any moisturiser (and wouldn't have used it over makeup anyway if I did happen to have some). Luckily it didn't look flaky at that point of the day - but it was a bit by the end of the day when I got home. Not terrible but still not ideal...
Feeling pretty down again... seems like i never have a day where my skin doesn't break out lately, my back and chest included. Does anyone here have experience of going to see a doctor on the NHS (uk) where they have actually helped and given them a prescription or something? i don't know how bad my acne needs to get before someone will help me 
My acne isn't getting worse but isn't getting better. I'm already feeling pretty depressed about life overall so my acne is just the cherry on top. I want to be more positive and not so bitter but it's just how I'm feeling today. The only thing getting me through the day is knowing that I have a derm apptment tomorrow with my new dermatologist and hopefully that she is some kind of miracle worker . Wishing everyone the best.
Wishing you a good derm appt tomorrow. Hope is always a good thing to have! It has to get better, that's what I keep putting out there. It has to, you are doing everything you can to try and find a treatment that works and that is key 
Hope you feel better tomorrow.
My acne isn't getting worse but isn't getting better. I'm already feeling pretty depressed about life overall so my acne is just the cherry on top. I want to be more positive and not so bitter but it's just how I'm feeling today. The only thing getting me through the day is knowing that I have a derm apptment tomorrow with my new dermatologist and hopefully that she is some kind of miracle worker . Wishing everyone the best.
Feeling pretty down again... seems like i never have a day where my skin doesn't break out lately, my back and chest included. Does anyone here have experience of going to see a doctor on the NHS (uk) where they have actually helped and given them a prescription or something? i don't know how bad my acne needs to get before someone will help me
Go to your GP and insist you want to see a derm as it is making you so down. They will refer you if you keep asking. My derm in Salford is brilliant (finally found a good one!)
I have some minor break outs on my noseand forehead probably because i am so stressed, suffer from something like social anxiety (anxiety of making phone calls to be precise) and now i have to call 600 people and ask them a 30 minutes long questionaire.. i hate it...
Hey Maria, sorry that you're going through some hardships, I hope that after first 100 calls it will feel more relaxed I absolutely hate to have phone conversation with strangers too.
I'm breaking out a little bit, mostly because of huge stress and mental pain my relationship is putting me through. I think it's my body's way to show that I should get a better grasp on myself and stop crying, stressing and starving. Epidou helps me a little bit.