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. I've been eating mostly raw food, but I've been eating a lot of cooked food! aargh. Now I don't want to go out.. I will just stay home and relax 
I was in class today asking a girl for a textbook. She asks another girl to get the textbook. That bitch says For who, the ugly guy with acne?" I just sat there quietly, how the fuck do i
respond? Had it been a guy i would of say
something or maybe even hit him, but it wasn't a
guy. I'm only used to this from guys so it
surprised me. The worst part was that it really
hurt me inside even though i always tell myself
not to care, but i guess i'm soft deep
down
Had similar experiences myself, that shit hits deep.
I was in class today asking a girl for a textbook. She asks another girl to get the textbook. That bitch says For who, the ugly guy with acne?" I just sat there quietly, how the fuck do i respond? Had it been a guy i would of say something or maybe even hit him, but it wasn't a guy. I'm only used to this from guys so it surprised me. The worst part was that it really hurt me inside even though i always tell myself not to care, but i guess i'm soft deep down
I want to hurt that bitch.
There's a fresh red bump scar-tissue like on my nose and it annoys the hell out of me. I still have a lot of indented scarring and it's frustrating putting on makeup because it still shows somewhat. I've been lurking a lot on this site and read about silicone sheets.....so I ordered some online on a whim because I want this to end. Seriously, is there such a thing as thinking/worrying about your skin 24/7? I hope I'm not the only one 
I'm a prisoner of my own mind.
I feel so upset about my skin.I dun wanna see anyone I just stay in my comfort zone.I m not pretty anymore
I was in class today asking a girl for a textbook. She asks another girl to get the textbook. That bitch says For who, the ugly guy with acne?" I just sat there quietly, how the fuck do i respond? Had it been a guy i would of say something or maybe even hit him, but it wasn't a guy. I'm only used to this from guys so it surprised me. The worst part was that it really hurt me inside even though i always tell myself not to care, but i guess i'm soft deep down
Omg .I bet she will have seious acne soon .
On 4/13/2013 at 2:24 AM, Pianina said:Tired of writing my monolog in this thread, so I think I won't be posting here anymore. Who cares, nobody reads it anyway.
I do read. It helps me a lot!!! knowing that I am not the only one feeling bad about my skin. I do care about all of you!! I know how it feels having acne problem. I haven't been posting here because my skin is doing fine.. but now I am breaking out a bit.. my skin is still smooth, so I am trying to be happy and ignore my breakouts!
God damn my skin looks fucking horrible, I kind of feel sorry for other people who accidentally glance at me or look at me.
I feel like I have been locked in a cage in a dark room and every now and then I can see the light through a small crack in the wall but it's impossible to reach I die slowly inside. Depression is not fun.
I'm, for some unknown reason, feeling pretty content today...
I also finished the 90 day skin purify supplement thing I was doing. At times I thought it was helping and at other points I thought it was making it worse. Overall I don't think it's helped much unfortunately. Still broke out and had my ups and downs all through the time I was taking the supplement. It'll be interesting to see how my skin reacts now that I'm done with them... I hope it doesn't get any worse - but, like I said, I don't think taking them made any difference so any breakouts I have are probably going to be like they always are for me and not that my body is 'reacting' to now not having the supplement. Well I'll see what happens...
About a month ago I borrowed the books 'The Clear Skin Diet' and 'The Acne Prescription' but have only browsed through them so far. Probably a bad idea to get two different skin/diet related books and at the time when I was trying gluten free - just confused me more 
but I was wondering if anyone here has read either of those books/recommends either of them? Or am I just wasting my time?
Hey everybody, who answered to my message 
Just wanted to thank you all and explain that I was just feeling really crappy that evening. Didn't go to an audition because of a bad breakout and scarring, so just felt so damn bitter....Got over it now, though! Life goes on...
Feeling better today as the breakout I had in the middle of last week is clearing. Feel a bit stupid about letting it get to me now though - I fortunately am fairly clear most of the time these days so I shouldn`t have reacted in the way I did.
Just on a general theme, most of the people who post on the emo and psyche forum seem to have at some point in their lives been bullied, discriminated against or had to contend with derogatory comments about their skin. It is so easy to feel inferior when you have acne but trust me, the people who make fun and belittle are sad, shallow people with a chip on their shoulder. Having acne is often a condition that you cannot control and having it does not make you any less a person. The two-bob arseholes who deride you for it are far uglier than you will ever be.
I will continue to browse acne.org no doubt as it is a brilliant place to come to when you having a rough time. However, I do try my best not to focus on my skin these days so sometimes it is better for me not to login.
Good luck to all of you battling against acne or the emotional crap that very often comes with it. Just remember that no matter what the severity of your acne, you are just as good as the next person and you are all worth it.
I made a "get ready with me" video! Here it is if anyone wants to see, but beware I am a strange dork and made weird kissy faces the entire time.
[Edited link out]
Of course, as soon as I was feeling confident enough to post a video, I started getting a breakout. I stopped taking zinc for two days and I don't know if there's a connection, but I was back on my regular dosage again as of today. The worst part is the zit is up in my nose. Now that I'm on the regimen I'm getting big cysts in my nose and ears and it HURTS! It really freaks me out how the acne knows how to move away from the medicine like that.
Still, my entire system feels better and better the longer I get away from caffeine. I just wish I could get away from stress too!
On 4/15/2013 at 2:18 AM, dejaclairevoyant said:I made a "get ready with me" video! Here it is if anyone wants to see, but beware I am a strange dork and made weird kissy faces the entire time
[Edited link out]
Of course, as soon as I was feeling confident enough to post a video, I started getting a breakout. I stopped taking zinc for two days and I don't know if there's a connection, but I was back on my regular dosage again as of today. The worst part is the zit is up in my nose. Now that I'm on the regimen I'm getting big cysts in my nose and ears and it HURTS! It really freaks me out how the acne knows how to move away from the medicine like that.
Still, my entire system feels better and better the longer I get away from caffeine. I just wish I could get away from stress too!
You are damn adorable!
As for the topic, my discolorations are starting to fade and hopefully I can finally outgrow acne. Though, another insecurity hits me as I find my body too thin and I never gain weight despite how much I eat.
On 4/15/2013 at 2:18 AM, dejaclairevoyant said:I made a "get ready with me" video! Here it is if anyone wants to see, but beware I am a strange dork and made weird kissy faces the entire time
Of course, as soon as I was feeling confident enough to post a video, I started getting a breakout. I stopped taking zinc for two days and I don't know if there's a connection, but I was back on my regular dosage again as of today. The worst part is the zit is up in my nose. Now that I'm on the regimen I'm getting big cysts in my nose and ears and it HURTS! It really freaks me out how the acne knows how to move away from the medicine like that.
Still, my entire system feels better and better the longer I get away from caffeine. I just wish I could get away from stress too!
that made me smile, thank you. I need to be more cheerful like you when I apply my makeup.
On 4/14/2013 at 1:50 PM, Pianina said:Hey everybody, who answered to my message
Just wanted to thank you all and explain that I was just feeling really crappy that evening. Didn't go to an audition because of a bad breakout and scarring, so just felt so damn bitter....Got over it now, though! Life goes on...
Pianina, glad you are back! I just read your messages.... hope you are feeling better!
My acne update: no update. just plateau
Hey everybody, who answered to my message
I'm glad you're feeling better, and I totally understand the feeling when you have to miss out on something because you don't feel up to it. That's happened to me so many times I can't even count.
Woke up with swollen eyes... not good. They're fine now but it felt so strange for a few hours. My skin is stinging a little though. I think it's all because I used the sulfur yesterday morning. It's weird that it would be so long before it reacted... But the last time I used it I had extremely dry skin everywhere on my face including my eyelids even though I don't put it anywhere near there. So I don't know if sulfur can cause a swelling reaction but it's the only thing I've really done different lately apart from start using a BP cleanser again - though I've used that and haven't had any problems like this before... I don't think I'll use the sulfur again at all and I'll stop the BP cleanser for a day or so to let my skin feel a little better before I start again. (And also was probably a bad idea to use sulfur while using a BP product too - could just be the combination that's making my skin sting and caused my eyes to swell...)
On 4/15/2013 at 2:18 AM, dejaclairevoyant said:I made a "get ready with me" video! Here it is if anyone wants to see, but beware I am a strange dork and made weird kissy faces the entire time
[Edited link out]
Of course, as soon as I was feeling confident enough to post a video, I started getting a breakout. I stopped taking zinc for two days and I don't know if there's a connection, but I was back on my regular dosage again as of today. The worst part is the zit is up in my nose. Now that I'm on the regimen I'm getting big cysts in my nose and ears and it HURTS! It really freaks me out how the acne knows how to move away from the medicine like that.
Still, my entire system feels better and better the longer I get away from caffeine. I just wish I could get away from stress too!
Cool video, and you're really cute! Hope that this breakout is only temporary...
Btw I also get painful pimples in my ears and right under them
Acne update:
No change whatsoever... As if I do nothing to prevent acne - Diane35, vitamin A, vitamin D and other things I take seems to ge ignored by my body. But this time I'm not gonna give up and give it all at least 6 months to start working, I'll just keep on being patient.
Have it hard to keep the moral up though... I don't have severe acne, it's fairly moderate, maybe could be considered mild by some. But it looks 10 times worse than it really is due to esthetical changes and discoloration, scars, etc. It's just getting worse by every year and it's so depressing to realize I will never get to enjoy a nice and decent skin..
Woke up with swollen eyes... not good. They're fine now but it felt so strange for a few hours. My skin is stinging a little though. I think it's all because I used the sulfur yesterday morning. It's weird that it would be so long before it reacted... But the last time I used it I had extremely dry skin everywhere on my face including my eyelids even though I don't put it anywhere near there. So I don't know if sulfur can cause a swelling reaction but it's the only thing I've really done different lately apart from start using a BP cleanser again - though I've used that and haven't had any problems like this before... I don't think I'll use the sulfur again at all and I'll stop the BP cleanser for a day or so to let my skin feel a little better before I start again. (And also was probably a bad idea to use sulfur while using a BP product too - could just be the combination that's making my skin sting and caused my eyes to swell...)
My eyes sting and burn every time I apply the BP... so it could be that. But I wouldn't say they swell or anything. Not like an allergy. It's more like the BP releases some sort of fumes when it's on my skin that rise into my eyes while it's drying. Because as soon as it's dry, the pain stops. It kinda sucks, but it's 100 percent worth it because BP is so damn amazing to my skin.
Skin is doing worse than it has in awhile though...which sucks, but I suppose should be expected any time after ovulation occurs. Interesting that I stopped zinc supplements for 2 days and then had this breakout (not to mention my boobs nearly doubled in size practically overnight). Because I've been reading how zinc is supposed to lower your estrogen over time. I sometimes think maybe my estrogen is too high, because I feel better from the zinc. My boyfriend is an ex-bodybuilder who used to do all sorts of steroids so he knows a lot about different things can affect the hormone balance and he was the one to tell me that sometimes bodybuilders use high-dose zinc supplements to drastically lower their estrogen.
Now, I don't fully understand how all this works, but I DO know that years ago when I took BC pills, I told the person at the clinic that the BC I was on was making me break out. She said, :you probably need a pill that gives you higher estrogen." This sounded fishy to me, because I'd always associated estrogen with that moody, weepy, irritable, broken out feeling I get before my period. But I listened to her and tried out the new pill, and guess what? My face exploded in even worse painful cystic acne than the first pill gave me. So this told me that "higher estrogen" (IF that's actually what the pill accomplished) was no good for me.
These breakouts just suck so bad. They aren't like the acne I get from coffee or fermented foods, which is also somewhat painful but usually clears pretty quickly with the BP. It's like the BP doesn't even affect these. They don't look big at all, but they are intensely painful. Like, one small red bump that looks like nothing on my cheek, but it seems to go so deep down into my face that my entire side of my skull aches. The one in my nose is so painful that I can't even move my mouth because it moves my nose and it's like AGONY... I don't even think these are zits... it's like they are some sort of messed up reaction to the hormones in my body. I don't understand it but I'm really depressed.