A few still popped but it doesn't look too bad. At least my face doesn't hurt today

Wait till i get out in the sun.. Then i become a sad panda

Got a couple of angry and very ugly bumps, i think its my awful diet past few days, or should i say no diet, i been eating like one or maybe two meals a day lately, i need to improve that cos its not just skin which will get damaged.

I had this horrible nightmare about developing a huge indented pock mark scar thing on my nose. >_> I hate my face so much right now.

I feel and look like shit today.

Couldn't sleep at all last night, so I just stayed up moping and listening to music. The good news is, I have another stress/lack of sleep breakout to look forward to now.

I was outside a few minutes ago. Playing with my dog, getting some sun. Trying to lift the 'ol spirit I guess. Then this cute woman from the house behind mine came out and started playing with her dog too. Our dogs started kinda-sorta interacting through the fence, and I knew this was going to lead to some sort of conversation between me and her, which I definitely didn't want because of my face. So I just kind of awkwardly went inside and called my dog behind me.

Sigh.

I'm so lonely.

I'm annoyed at the bump under my eye, it's kinda making the skin around it and near my eye bruise...ugh I don't wear makeup so it sucks =\

I have so many tiny pimples all over my face. Havent broken out like this in a looong time

Saw myself again in the sun in a car mirror. That says it all.

On the bright side, my PIH is alot lighter cause of the Vitamin E.

Researched plastic surgeons in my area. Thats how serious I am about having scarless clear skin again.

Today I'm trying to let it go and accept it. I'll do the same tomorrow and the next day after that.

I'm not a happy camper. I give up trying to be positive. I tried, tried, tried, and tried again to stay positive, but I can only be positive for so long. I have no more positivity in me. I'm tired of fighting. I hate continuing to breaking out everyday, trying so hard, and my efforts turn out to be futile. Rant in 3,2,1 over my skin? Yes, I think, maybe, so. I feel terrible, and I can only pretend not to care for so long. But it's hard to avoid it when it's blatantly there on my face bright, inflamed, and itchy. Oh hello mirror. I see it. I'm supposed to ignore it? Oh yeah, and I'm tired of wearing makeup. Right now, Accutane seems pretty pleasant to me.

I feel like all I can think about is acne products...

Couple of ugly angry big ass pieces of acne coming up now, quite painful too.

Must. Stay. Positive. ggrrrrrr

Ridiculously large one on my temple. It's even bigger than my thumbnail.. and i don't think it's finished growing.

I'm 93.3% positive that these huge ones are a direct result of using a TTO mixture that was too strong.

Beware.

I don't really want to go out today but I have too. My acne is so bad and I"m 37. I never had acne when I was younger.

I just want to get rid of it- back on the regimen starting today.

hey im a newbie to the site needed to join up sick of feeling totally alone, today feeling crap skin is so bad right now i dont even want to go to work ive got a christening coming up and already thinkin of excuses as to why i cant go, all my friends have perfect skin and they dont get it im 23 and had bad skin since i was 14 arghhhh!! wish i could walk around with a paper bag on my head lol

accutane is sounding alot more appealing, regimen just didnt work for me stupid hormonal acne

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Yeah, gave up on the regimen a long time ago dude

On 'tane now

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Went to my future college, every fucking one is clear there. To get there i have to take a bus and 3 trains. Feeling shit even before i got in

On the bus it's kinda ok, no one sees ya if you sit at the back. But on the train.........................

Everyone sees you!

I got like more than 10 weird looks from various people, an old guy with a cane even changes seat after sitting besides me for 5 minutes..

That hurts so bad.. Fuck you old man!

Maybe he's a racist but he did sit move to a guy with his ethnicity. Hmm..

I stand while on the train and made eye contact with a few tourist. Italian and Aussie i think.. This is not the shit the tourism board need to boost our no of tourist.. Now i feel bad i let down my country.. FFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Well on the way back, i did sit across a dad with his little daughter. She was so cute and gave me a smile. She didn't judge me like everyone else. All those shitty feeling just went away and i continued my way home feeling happy although i know i still look shitty.

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anyone on eurythromicin? been taking that and so far its done jack all!

i actually skipped lunch today coz it means walking to the shop from work and just couldnt face ppl seeing me, sucks how everything you do revolves around stupid spots, i really need to stop giving a shit what ppl think but its so hard i drive my bf insane with my constant moaning, i feel soo bad when theres ppl far worse off like my mum whos got cancer n theres me complainin bout spots, just cant help feelin low though....

anyone on eurythromicin? been taking that and so far its done jack all!

Yes, i was on that about 3 years ago. it may have had a very very mild effect for me in the first couple of weeks, but i used it for 6 months and it did nothing.

If you go down the oral antibiotics route, go for lymecycline instead, as that is stuff which fights acne bacteria rather than just bacteria in general. Although it didn't ever get me clear, it's much more effective than crappy enthromycin (sp?).

I'm feeling slightly better. As a last resort, i tried some 2% zinc insect bite stuff (savlon) that i found at my mother's, and to my surprise it does seem to have reduced the size and redness of my really big ones. They're still gross, of course.. but relatively 'better'.

This was a very strange breakout. I was clear for nearly 3 months - and was just starting to think that i was getting it all under control for good, then almost overnight i got 6 HUGE ones. No little ones in the surrounding area, no whiteheads - just 6 giant eyeball style zits - and no more since that day.

Very strange.

It just goes to show; be very careful when trying new products.

Today I'm feeling the rage acne and people are causing and it feels phenomenal.

My skin looks like crap, im on a downer today

Well today i feel a little better that i used more BP than I usually do and those crazy cyst (nodules) look a little smaller Ahh when is it going to end.

Some days i feel great, and lately i've been better, but today i realized the zit under my eye is actually a cyst. This makes me feel angry. I'm pretty good about not picking and the cysts, but they are huge and embarassing. I never had acne in highschool so this is hard. Im leaving for boot camp in 2 months. I need a miracle.

Ever noticed how some zits are so incredibly disgusting that it's hard not to believe that it was designed specifically to cause you as much distress as humanly possible?

I've got one on my temple that is bright neon red, about the size of my thumbnail, and the whole surrounding area is also bright red, given me the impression that i've been punched, and on top it's got a huge white head like a snow-capped mountain, and the whole thing is so shiny that it catches the light endlessly like a 1970s disco mirror ball. I just went to the store, and the person serving me (cute girl, of course), could not stop staring at it. I don't blame her, really.

..and if that isn't enough; it hurts like an unmerciful bastard.

*sigh*

Hater

My skin went from being totally clear to completely oil slicked and broken out in the past 3 days. Plus anxiety attacks have come back with a vengeance, which I'm sure is not helping my skin, which I'm sure is not helping my anxiety either. And I just ran out of retin-a. All during finals week. I don't think I'm feeling good about anything today

well feel worse then i ever have i think, yesterday had what could only be described as a breakdown took one look in the mirror and jst sobbed i have 2 massive! scabs next to each other that look like big sores that are a result of me picking cysts that i know i should have left but i just cracked n attacked them. i have been off work and cancelled all wkend plans and refuse to leave the house, i cant go on like this my life is being controlled by my skin and im too weak to rise above it

i am miserable! trip to docs next week if this continues